heer

I crave a love that drowns oceans

[yousmellofstorms]

He called me home and then abandoned me

[yousmellofstorms]

Nahi ho raha hai yarr

[yousmellofstorms]

Right now, we are in the same city just a few minutes apart and whenever I go to work I just pray to catch a glimpse of you. But in the next few days you'll leave this city and I'll never see you again

I don't know what I want. I love you but the way you left, makes me wonder if I'll ever let you in my life again. There are a lot of things incomplete between us. That will stay incomplete in this lifetime

but something that doesn't let me sleep at night is the question, 'why was it so easy for you to leave'?

[yousmellofstorms]

kitna asaan tha na tumhre liye

aise sab chodd kr jana

[yousmellofstorms]

He said, 'you lost me' and I replied,

'I lost someone who never loved me but you lost someone who only loved you'

(with no full stop because I never wanted our story to end)

[yousmellofstorms]

how much cigarette is too much cigarette?

[yousmellofstorms]

I don't like how fast my cigarette goes off

[melpomeniee-too]

[yousmellofstorms]

Mon 03 Nov, 1:05 PM

I just need some more time to fall out of love with you

[yousmellofstorms]

As long as you're in my life, in any way at all, I don't think I'll ever be able to fully give myself to someone else

You had me starving for your love for so long, not even crumbs, just the idea of something that might one day come. And somehow, in that starvation, I got used to the ache. I started finding comfort in it, like it was better than feeling nothing at all

Now even when someone else tries to show me affection, I can't accept it. I've forgotten how. But isn't that a bit unfair? You should've opened the door by now. let me go, or let me in

And the part that really messes with me is... maybe you never even locked me up. Maybe I stayed on my own, waiting outside something that was never going to open

[yousmellofstorms]

It was not him. It was me, all the time, the person I became in loving him. It was my fire that was giving me the warmth while I confused it to be coming from him. It was my love that I was feeling, my own love, echoing within me, mistaken for his

Maybe this is how healing feels like. when you realise you are the one who made it all so beautiful and not the other one. If you did it once, you can do it again. But this time do it for yourself. Don’t listen to echoes or reflections; let love find you, pure and in its truest form and not just its faint return

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[yousmellofstorms]

it surely would be the absence of it

[yousmellofstorms]

what makes you believe that what is meant for you will not find you? because what is meant for you will find you even across seven oceans

The universe is not rushing things up, you are. and that is why you are anxious about all the what ifs

(just trying to be a lil positive, guys)

[yousmellofstorms]

having you close beside me was never enough. I wanted to swallow you. I wanted to had the taste of you on my tongue but I know that still wouldn't be enough. And I don't know any other way to make you one with me

[yousmellofstorms]

I am astonished by my ability of attracting emotionally unavailable guys

[yousmellofstorms]

I told my father that my mom’s blood group is AB positive, one of the rarest in the world

He smiled and said, “Even she is the rarest and the most precious in the world”

what is love if not this?

[yousmellofstorms]

and I will find someone who will love me in the way you never did but my God knows, I always wanted it to be you