Leyren

Just finished all of New Amsterdam that's free on Peacock and I love Leyla and Lauren's dynamic and their story so much. I write fic for them on AO3. @reinbowalexandrite Main is @screwyourdefaults, all my other ships are on my pinned post.

[youthinkthisisreal]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 3/? Fandom: New Amsterdam (TV 2018) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Lauren Bloom/Leyla Shinwari Characters: Leyla Shinwari, Lauren Bloom Additional Tags: Canon Compliant, Character Study, Homelessness, and they were ROOMMATES, Enemies to friends to roommates to lovers, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Giant trees that mean more than housewarming gifts, Punjabi character, Pakistani Character, Student Leyla Shinwari, Doctor Leyla Shinwari is a doctor even if murica wouldn't let her keep the title Series: Part 3 of You Think... This Is Real? Summary:

Leyla is once again displaced from her home. An experience which is starting to become so frequent for Leyla as to be inevitable. This time it was a closet. But when Leyla returns to her car, Lauren can't let her go and offers Leyla an opportunity she had never believed possible. Living with Lauren will be comfortable in so many ways, but Leyla knows her feelings may be starting to get too strong for such proximity.

OR

The canon saga of the stubborn ornery, gentle Dr. Leyla Shinwari as she falls softly, deeply, madly in love with secretly precious hardass Dr. Lauren Bloom. Given kindness she has never known and a connection with a person Leyla didn't dare to think possible, Leyla's heart she has had to keep so guarded from years of struggle and disappointment opens up and lets this wonderful stranger who offers her showers, a place to stay and eventually a place to call home, in, breaking down decades of walls and pain and loving Leyla so completely and wonderfully in every single moment.

Finally wrote the next Leyren chapter from Leyla's POV. I'm really excited about this one! Love the kudos and comments. They make me excited to keep writing!

[fangirlintheattic]

LAUREN & LEYLA  |  New Amsterdam

giving each other s- as their love language

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i will never recover

[ginjointsintheworld]

I see Leyla getting a lot of flack after this episode and I don't think it's fair. Leyla basically went to Lauren with her tail between her legs and you could see the anguish on her face, because that was the very very Last thing she wanted to do - ask Lauren for Money. Of all things. But even the most prideful person knows that when it comes to literally fighting for you life, that pride must give way, no matter how painful.

I find it so sad and unfortunate that Lauren thinks their relationship will be transactional, but can you blame her? She still has "you tried to own me. You bought me. That's not love." hovering around her head, a lullaby every night since then, if you will...that hasn't been addressed (we can only hope it will), she has no assurance of any sort that this r/ship will thrive again, so she is right to feel that way. At the same time, she knows Leyla isn't using her. Saying that was also major key!

I know that Leyla saying nothing so far about how she feels (even though her facial expressions have said alot.. HELLO, Shiva, Welldone, Shiva) and Lauren being more expressive continues to give the impression to some that this love is mostly one-sided. And you have people thinking that.

I hope they address the Elephant still in the room (I mean, they have to at this point if not, just throw the writers in the bin) and we hear Leyla final say all what her heart feels and what her facial expressions alone have said for so long.

And maybe, just maybe Leyla will finally learn that we all need a helping hand, especially an immigrant in a new country, alone and very far from home. And that helping hand can be lunch, a good word, connections, a room for the night or $200k. And genuine help is not about being owned, or bought or expecting you to repay in some way. A lot of times, it means just that, Help with no strings attached.

Finally, Shalla to Lauren still using that hard conversation to tell Leyla how much she admires her strength, fight and courage. That's Love!

That's the woman she fell in love with!

i have no desires to mince words, the flack leyla is getting from this episode is bullshit. the 5th spot situation and this visa situation are in no way comparable. i bristle at the implication that leyla is hypocritical or helpless for coming to lauren about this because leyla has done everything in her power to handle it herself. helpless, would have been giving up and accepting that because she didn't have the money to retain a lawyer, she should accept deportation. hypocritical would've been.... honestly i don't even have an example for hypocritical in this situation because it's such VASTLY difference circumstances and stakes.

i've maintained since day 1 that i didn't want to see leyla as someone who would follow her pride off a cliff. like you said, this is most likely a literal fight for your life situation for leyla and that's something her pride should not supercede.

we've seen lauren internalize the words of people she loves and respect have said to her (helen's "you've gone soft and it's putting your patients' lives in danger") so it doesn't come as a surprise to me that she still holds onto what leyla said. but part of what I really loved about their conversation in the OR is that they're both worried about the other person resenting them for their part in this situation and they make all the efforts to try and communicate their side of it. I know leyla hasn't been vocal in how she's been feeling after everything but the very pointed shots that capture her reaction to lauren's words convey all the things that she's not ready to say yet. all the love that she still carries for lauren, all the love she knows lauren still carries for her but she can't accept quite yet.

you know me, I'm still foolishly holding out hope that we'll get leyla acknowledging there's a distinction between help and charity and possession. she's human and complex and imo, it does more of a disservice to her as a character for us to always accept her words and mindset as infallible.

listen!!!! lauren will always take any and every opportunity to remind leyla what a strong, talented, brave, admirable person she is whether it's shouting it from a rooftop or whispered quietly between them and the cover of four walls. come what may, that will never change.

[fangirlintheattic]

LAUREN & LEYLA  |  New Amsterdam 4x17

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[youthinkthisisreal]

Lauren and Leyla go on a baseball date where Lauren teaches the game and Leyla smirks in understanding as Lauren repeats her innuendo from earlier in the day.

[youthinkthisisreal]

More Leyren avatar adventures! Our girls looking at their tree during the Holidays.

[youthinkthisisreal]

Designed Leyren as avatars. Happy in love and working together as they should be. 😏 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

[ginjointsintheworld]

As much as I wanted slightly more development, honestly I’m pleased with this. It’s a shorter season and the show really isn’t all that romantic usually anyway. But onto the gays!! Lauren being so in love and it being so obvious is what makes this for me. Like in that scene even, her voice breaks and she’s so nervous but she needs to tell Leyla! And Leyla too, her reaction made me smile so wide—she’s so happy—I just love how it intimate all of it was. They make me believe that those feelings are there and deep and I want next season to come around and for Leyla to be a regular already!

Exactly!! Like the first season was 22 episodes, second got cut to 18 due to COVID and then this season even further reduced to 14 because of it. There wasn't much leeway but the writers chose to focus on Lauren and Leyla's relationship for Bloom's arc this season and I think that says a lot.

It really gets me cackling thinking about Lauren saying things like 'I only trust chaos and am incapable of having intimate relationships,' 'the jury is still out on me and relationships,' THIS SEASON meanwhile play the tape of all her interactions with leyla and even Casey 'you're risking a lot for some woman you don't know' and Helen 'wise words coming from someone letting a strange woman live in our closet' picking up on this shift in behavior. She's been letting those walls down since Day 1 of them crashing into each others' lives and I'm proud dude of how far she's come and been willing to not only pour her heart out communicate but TRY.

AND LEYLA!!! She was so resistant and almost suspicious of Lauren at first and trying to get her to open up was trying pulling teeth but it didn't deter Lauren at all?? And once Leyla realized, 'oh she's genuine and there's this pull that we both feel,' it Clicked. I love that they've both had this opportunity to take on the gentle and patience mantle while the other person fumbles through sorting out their emotions. AND THE WAY LEYLA B E A M S AT LAUREN MAN 😭😭😭😭 (but also shiva kalaiselvan who gave you the right to be so RADIANT) Like these nerds really be out here crying they love each other so much!!!

On my hands and knees NA writers please PLEASE add Leyla to the regular cast. From what I've seen the reception to her has been positive and I have a laundry list of things I would like to see, including but not limited to:

Lauren introducing Leyla to her mom

Leyla witnessing a Max Goodwin how can I help storm for the first time and looking over to Lauren silently like, 'is he for real?' and Lauren looking back, '100% babe'

Leyla coming down to the ED for a consult and leyren having a professional 'Dr. Bloom', 'Dr. Shinwari' hello moment and Casey looking between them like 'yeah, yeah you wanna kiss but gotta keep it professional do it after we sort out the patient'

Leyla leaving the ED to go back to her floor and giving Lauren an affectionate but subtle arm squeeze and trailing her hand away and Lauren just acknowledging it with a soft smile she's trying to hold back

Leyla being the best and empathetic peds doctor who has a knack of getting kids to open up to her and fiercely advocating for them

Lauren and Leyla having lunch that Helen, Floyd or Iggy interrupt for advice

Badass doctor girlfriends tag teaming on a major accident (THAT NONE OF THEM ARE INVOLVED IN THANK YOU)

[laurenbloomswhore]

More Leyren Headcanons cause they’re not coming back this week 😔

Leyla does not mind that she’s the one cooking most of the time while Lauren usually brings takeout. However, she did catch Lauren meekly searching up how to make popular Pakistani dishes. While she found the sentiment extremely heartwarming...

“Don’t use recipes from those blogs.”

“What? Why? They seem good!”

“They literally whitewashed the recipes! Hell, they’re using measurements? Real Pakistani cooking involves putting in spices until everything tastes right!”

Admittedly, Lauren was conflicted. On one hand, she depended on the measurements to make sure it tasted right. On the other, she did work well without intricate introductions. Cooking can be like jazz, right?

So the dish did not turn out to be the best. But Leyla was more than happy to be able to share a part of her history with Lauren.

Their first huge fight had occurred a month into their relationship. Still fragile, but could not risk shattering.

It wasn’t they were mad at each other. But Leyla had a a hard time driving assholes, Lauren had to deal with ignorant assholes in the ED, it was all but a messy day.

Usually, they would talk it out but the build up of bad things happening one after the other, their breaking point could’ve been just about anything.

So when Lauren came home, with no takeout, and saw no dinner on the table. She couldn’t help but recall the dread she felt coming home back before she met Leyla.

And that was their tipping point.

“Where’s dinner?”

“Oh I thought you were cooking dinner-“

“I can’t do everything, Lauren.”

“But I was too exhausted to drop by and get din-“

“And I’m too exhausted to cook dinner! I can’t do everything around here!”

“Hey-“

“No! I’ve had a terrible day where one bad thing happens after the other, I can’t deal with this right now!”

Lauren’s old instincts kicked in, telling her to run away.

And she did. She pretended to check her phone. “They need me back at the hospital, understaffed.”

“No, you’re not going to overwork yourself again. I know you’re lying.”

But Lauren had already left.

It wasn’t until the morning that Lauren had come back from the hospital with dark bags under her eyes.

Leyla was on their shared bed, having awoken when she’d heard Lauren’s footsteps.

“Hey I’m really sorry for running away...”

Leyla sighed, tugging at Lauren’s arm to coax her to lay next to her.

She was hesitant at first, unsure if she was allowed to hold her but when Leyla had buried her face into her neck, it was her cue to hold her close.

“Listen, we’re both too exhausted right now. We can leave this until we’re both rested.”

And Lauren listens, holding Leyla close and let’s her steady breath lull her to sleep.

They get better at handling their fights after that. They make sure both of them are at the right mindset, then they talk it out.

We know Lauren has no self-preservation skills but I like to think that Leyla sometimes lacks in that department. (Girl saved a patient’s life even though she had no medical license yet and could’ve risked going to jail-)

So when one of her passengers attempted to pull a knife on her other passenger...well, she got caught in the middle of the cross-fire.

So now she had a knife stuck in her abdomen. Yikes-

Fortunately, the ambulance had been called due to the multiple amounts of witnesses but when Leyla realized she was going to New Amsterdam’s emergency department...well, she’s gonna be in for a scolding once she’s better.

The ambulance crew had rushed her in and the moment her name was called, Lauren felt her whole world freeze.

“Lauren? Lauren?!” Casey was not about to let his boss get distracted by emotions. “Listen, I know you two are really close but right now she is your patient.”

It takes her a moment to ignore her broken heart at the sight of her girlfriend in such a fragile state.

Soon enough, Leyla was sent to surgery.

It lasts longer than she had expected, seeing as she had finished her shift and was seated on the chair right next to Leyla’s bed.

“Hey Dr. Bloom! Working overtime again?” She was greeted by one of the nurses making rounds, pausing for a moment till she realized she was still in her lab coat.

“Oh uhm- not exactly?”

It takes a few seconds before the nurse realizes. “Oh! Okay I’ll leave you to it!”

The nurse leaves and Lauren finds herself holding Leyla’s hand.

“Overtime again? Your reputation precedes you.”

Lauren looks up, seeing an exhausted Leyla looking at her with tired eyes.

“Oh thank god you’re okay...”

Despite her initial hesitance, the anticipation, the nerves and worry, she had taken Leyla’s face in her hands to kiss her appreciatively.

That causes a chuckle out of Leyla, not expecting the sudden rise in affection.

“PDA? In your own work place? Who are you?” She teases.

“Someone who was and still is extremely worried for you. What the hell happened?”

“Eh. Asshole passenger.”

Lauren merely sighs, ignoring the stares she gets from her other colleagues who are more than surprised to see her being affectionate with someone.

And of course, she stays with Leyla the whole night despite protests.

“You stayed with me after the chemical spill incident. I’m not leaving you alone.”

Feel free to add more!

[ginjointsintheworld]

Just thinking about how when Leyren gets back together they’re going to have two anniversaries and Lauren’s going to want to celebrate both for sure lol. Also, even if they don’t show us the slow burn back to each other, they have to give us one date. Even if it’s just the beginning or end of one, I’ll take it. It was actually evil of them to have them look so good in the last ep, just to break up like they need to throw us this bone!

lauren's the sap that has the first time they met, first unofficial date (pizza), when leyla moved in, first kiss, first official date, first I love you, all memorized. she probably can tell you the date of the first time leyla begrudgingly smiled at one of her lame jokes too.

honestly all these references to a romantic dinner only to deprive us of the actual content 😭 alternatively if we do get the slow burn then I'll take seeing one of them nervously ask the other on a date

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[youthinkthisisreal]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Lauren's POV from the moment Leyla steps into her home, their home together to when she accepts Leyla 's hand in hers and they look up together at their tree, both dreaming of possibilities for their lives together but terrified to take the next step.

[gaiamakesitshin]

““then, stay””

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Leyla to Lauren Bloom New Amsterdam 4x14 

It is breathtakingly SWEET  

So IMO Leyla does see Lauren is in pain, she is just too angry to admit. 

I still burn and hope for this amazing romance to be endgame. 

beaten puppy Lauren is so 🥺🥴 

you can see the sadness & the frowning on Leyla ’s face… She cares.  

[booasaur]

New Amsterdam - 3x11