YomiWorld

[yoyomika]

Because "There is nothing new in the world except the history you don't know" is said by someone who already knows where all the Jokers at.

[yoyomika]

Yesterday, a 6 yr old asked me, "Teacher, why are you kind?"

I pondered for a moment, wondering how honest I should be while taking into consideration the other 18 eyes anticipatedly waiting for my response.

"It makes me feel good," I replied to which she nodded her head. "I choose to be kind because I want to be kind," I continued. "I don't meet many kind people, so I think if I'm kind, then there's one more kind person in the world someone can meet. And maybe, if they like it, they'll also choose to be kind."

By this time, I noticed that most of them had gone back to their coloring while others would rather invade my personal space, uncomfortably getting physically closer to me than anyone had the entire year of 2025.

Today, I'm still thinking of that question while bringing in another year alone.

Will 2026 also be a year of solitude in my search for contentment? Will I continue to be a nomad detachedly moving through groups of people who consider me "friend" because I am kind to them? Will I have to loosen some boundaries of protection for when I am easily discarded or forgotten when other established friends emerge to be seen?

If I were to be vulnerably honest in front of those 10 fledgings, I wonder if could muster the courage to say the quiet voice out loud.

"I believe that what one puts out into the universe, is what they'll receive. I'm kind because I'm searching for a community, a village, companions, a person who would consider me like they consider themselves. Continuously self reflecting, ready to call bullshit even though it'll hurt me physically, mentally, emotionally, and or spiritually. With growth and understanding as their driving force powered by love and compassion."

Those babies would probably still go back to coloring and using my body as a padded jungle gym, teddy bear, and rocking chair.

[yoyomika]

One thing I wish people would understand about me is...

The best way to get me to come back and visit again is to let me go when I want to leave.

If you try to hold me, block me, or trap me to stay,

I will think twice about giving you the chance to do that again.

9 out of 10, you'll probably never see me again.

[yoyomika]

Honestly, when I watch shows from different countries and I see the portion size of food on those plates.... I understand why they don't have an overweight problem.

Because...

Whachu mean we sharing this!

You gon bring out the rest of the food right?

[yoyomika]

I don't know if it's because I'm older now, thus my relationship with time has changed...

All I know is

A year

Is not as long as it used to be.

Back then, a year used to take a year

But now,

A year

Is just a couple months.

[yoyomika]

Look

When they start to see patterns similar to those of which they've done to dismantle, usurp, and bury the existence of "other,". ..

they unconsciously drop the mask of repentance, needing only one to step out to rally against sharing. With greed in their energy capsules; driving them to reclaim what they've stolen, insisting that they only know the learned remembering they've "saved" from the pyre during their libricide, a domineering monolgue effortlessly flows as if the forgotten clung to the D-NA of a despot.

... they chastise other to obediently go back into the spineless vessels at the far corners of their borders.

As if no one's observing.

Please

[yoyomika]

If there's one thing I've learned from all the moving pictures I've seen in my life

Is

Never try to find my reflection

Because

I know now that my essence is far too complex for any other human like being traversing this low vibrating corporeal living with me

Will ever be able to comprehend sufficiently to label it.

I know they mad... and that's cool. They'll let it go eventually, cuz that's just the way of all things.

They ameliorate and elevate.

There are most that can't be controlled.

Soon

It'll all look like regurgitated baby food. By then, I'll be too grown vibrating higher than 999 Hz to consume this. Good thing too

Because

I'm tired of noticing their unsolicited envy of melanin and wombs.

🟡👁️

[yoyomika]

& another thing, I see what you're doing.

Using people to play characters in these motion pictures whose "day job" is to do the same thing.

I'm sure there is a plethora of up in coming pretenders ready to play the roles of these NPC's.

I mean.... can it even be called "acting" if you play the same role at Prime Time?

If I have to accept that you're playing a role Here, then you also playing a role There.

You not even trying no more..

Wearing the costume of a nonpartisan that everyone likes to trust... 🙂‍↕️ Classic.

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[yoyomika]

😒 I don't wanna say it out loud, but...

the more I experience life, here on Gaia as of August 6th, 2025, the less blamy I get toward the bystanders throughout those Wild points in history.

Because....

What The Fuck Is Going On

while I'm out here tryna earn a buck, rashioning my slices of poisonous bread until next pay day, two Mondays from now, so I can buy some more cuz I gatta eat, it's gotten foggy outside my window!

Yea~ I could make my own healthy bread, but the fucking eggs, milk, flour, time ssshhh~iiiiiT~ I'm already over budget! And nothing happening without the gawd damn yeast!

(sucking my teeth)

I can understand stand the struggle.

Witnessing some detrimental shyt as I'm juggling in my own heavily surveilled forsaken circus.

I need to learn some skills cuz excel spreadsheets ain't gon feed me.

[yoyomika]

And in an unsurprisingly turn of events, Sky Full of Elephants has to be packaged and manufactured as a science fiction. But good luck keeping that earthquake in a box because if you know, then you knew. Wholeness

[yoyomika]

Here We Go Again

I can't even escape it in a TV show. Can't I just enjoy the oppressors being oppressive, manipulative, unfair, and downright cruel to other oppressors ?!? I mean geez~ sure it's a sci-fi psych workplace thriller, but I'm enjoying the surrealism and dare I say comedic relief. This shyt is funny! But WHY must I be pied in the face with workplace reality with the first performance review?

What is the purpose of this?

Do you think we're gonna forget our status in this social stratification?

Can't you Take A Day during my leasure?

Look... I'm all for inclusivity, but if this is what that means, your boot on my neck with your boot straps in my hands, naw... I'm good. You can go ahead and keep it an all non-melaninated cast. To be honest, it would "feel" more like a sci-fi psych workplace thriller with type 1 hair in that chair. Stay true! Because...

... putting a POC in that chair is just turning it into a reality show.

Cuz nobody was comfortable talking shyt and sharing their grievances in Harmony's face when she was sitting in that chair.

(sucking my teeth)

Now sweet equitable Seth...

... who's been severed since before his conception, doesn't even need an artificial assistant to sever himself to assimilate while being blighted with the traumatic experiences of the toxic work environment even when/if he leaves the basement.

... is trying to turn this show into a fantasy by being a wounded healer Leader endeavoring to reform the work environment for these privileged (ungrateful) ppl is getting pied in the face from all sided.

To say it monosyllabically, 🤪

I hope Seth burns that - ism, or at least crop dusts those halls.

😒 💰 = 🫩 ✂️ 🤡 S2

[yoyomika]

The Time I Wish I Knew I Had

The more I tried to remember my mom, the ways she did her mom thangs, her mom logic for her mom sayings, the more I notice how much I didn't pay attention. How did I not realize, my orbit didn't encompass her.

And when I recall an image I can't forget...it's Her back, leaving to go to "the job."

And now that I'm finally here, when I knew her best... she's gone.

The more I tried to remember her, the ways she did her thangs, her logic for her sayings, the more I notice how much I didn't pay attention. How did I not realize, my orbit didn't encompass my mom.

How lonely she must have felt and that felt must be how I feel

[yoyomika]

I just want to be honest with Myself and Errybody else.

I spend most of my days considering other people's interests 🏋🏾‍♀️ that nearing the 35th completed year of my life 🧗🏾‍♀️, all I really want is to celebrate it with some consideration geared to interests of mine.

Can we watch something 🧠bending and have a conversation about our perspectives?

Can we listen to audio📚 and discuss our misunderstandings?

Can we trade our conspiracies and share our opinions about them when we get bingo?

I just want to be 👁️ and get to a sublayer of being social.

absored, digested, and peer reviewed.

I'd just rather not embark on this 36th journey the way I spent the last 35 🎂🍻🥂💃🏾🤸🏾‍♀️🤹🏾‍♀️

physically surrounded, yet mentally solus

[yoyomika]

I've reached the point in my life where I have more fun dancing in a confined space with people I know rather than in an open space with strangers

[yoyomika]

The more I watch Supernatural, the more I realize Dean & Sam are the two halves of one person's ego.

Fighting tooth and nail to maintain the longevity of its corporeal life.

[yoyomika]

Tis difficult to enjoy curated entertainment once you've ascertained the programming.

To discover how deftly the implications stained the backdrop on one's subconsciousness,

tis tormenting.

[yoyomika]

Many like to look back at their pictures and watch how they've changed

Others like to look back at their thoughts and watch how they've changed

Most like to look at both

Other just know it's changed and keep it moving

For some, it depends on the day and the weather for their past to make the headline