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ig: @yuanzgarcia

[yuanzgarcia]

i wanna fucking throw my phone

[yuanzgarcia]

for some reason its always my fault

[yuanzgarcia]

i wanna fucking bang my head on the wall hanggang mamatay na ko

[yuanzgarcia]

i dont remember saying that im sleepy, that i dont wanna talk that late. so pano yon? is me being sleepy = not caring about you? im misinterpreting things bc i cant remember or i remember it differently. im gaslighting myself or idk

[yuanzgarcia]

rules for thee but not for me

[yuanzgarcia]

if i said what i remember, it might come out as gaslighting. id rather not say anything

[yuanzgarcia]

im not allowed to make mistakes. i have to be the perfect person ure imagining me as i am

[yuanzgarcia]

i cant act as myself around u, i cant be my authentic self around u. clearly u dont like me the way i am

[yuanzgarcia]

how should i be around u ba

[yuanzgarcia]

its out of my control, why am i feeling guilty

[yuanzgarcia]

i keep feeling that im making grave mistakes from natural, human things that i do ahhahahahahaha

[yuanzgarcia]

CRYING

[yuanzgarcia]

im so close cutting everyone off. im tired of not feeling safe

[yuanzgarcia]

i get annoyed whenever i see u opening my account on instagram. but whenever i miss you, i always check if youve been to my account, just to see if ure still checking on me

[yuanzgarcia]

i dont mean to cut people off. i hate cutting people off. i hate the thought that ill be forgotten.

[yuanzgarcia]

its the fact that these tiktoks about selflove and shit are the only things that assure that im valid to be human

[yuanzgarcia]

im jealous of what my friends have