Greenlover

This is my Blog, so everything posted here is simply MINE... :) Well I'll tell you if it isn't. :D

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Enough with the contemplation, it's time for an action!

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There are 2 things that I am super proud of right now:

1. I am a doctor by profession

2. I am a mother by heart

2 difficult roles I'm crushing at once!

Alhamdulillah for the strength and resilience. 💚💚💚

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I wish there's a reset, a reboot or a rewind in life.

Everything is just so overwhelming lately.

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Losing is gaining. Remember that.

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We can't give if we have nothing.

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When I get comfortable with someone I get a little more chattier than usual only to regret over sharing afterwards when I'm alone reflecting over what's happened.

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Alhamdulillah

Everything that I have desperately prayed for last Ramadhan is now my reality.

Alhamdulillah. Allah is great!

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I guess this is the result of growing from a family of "tough love"... You don't know compassion or sympathy or empathy. "I love yous", hugs and kisses are awkward things to share. You have difficulty in showing your affection to everybody.

And you become a person who craves love that you can't give.

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Sometimes I wish I'd rather die, than choose between two things I value most.

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Why can't I be honest with myself? And with everyone around me?

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I can't help but laugh at everything that is happening to my life right now. The universe feels like mocking me face to face. And I'm whole-heartedly allowing it. I am not against any of the things that they asked me to do. In fact, I am glad to be part of everyone's wedding but isn't it ironic? How you badly want something you can't possibly have in your life, and you're made to witness all of it from everyone else's in the most bittersweet and funny ways... Yeah... Funny... And today is just one of them.

Well... Maybe this is just a sign from God that I'm here to enjoy other people's wedding but not mine.

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Nobody's proud of me.

Even my parents think I'm a failure.

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The plead to be saved...

And the fear to be discovered.

That's how we opt for the abstract.

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How can you be happy for others when you yourself are not?

How can you give something you don't really have?

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Sometimes I think dying is a better solution.

But no! I'm a strong person.

I'm not a coward.

Not anymore!

I just need time.

Time...

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I will never fall for this trap ever again.

I will never trade my happiness for broken promises.

I will choose my own poison.

I will not let anyone dictate my own path.

I'm done with following orders.

I should follow mine.

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Life is incomplete without sweets.

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