okay so genuinely what is wrong with my family at points, what do you mean you force me into being Christian after I’ve specially told you it does ruin my mental health more than it already is, it only makes it worse because they DON’T LIKE. When I argue back or try to defend myself, at all, for some reason?? It’s not disrespectful?? I’m trying to explain, and they ask “do you feel loved?” NO? NOT ALL THE TIME. Like when I’m trying to relax and they randomly start trying to rage bait me but it’s generally just them being rude and not taking a hint, at some points I’ve been on the brink of tears just because of MY boundaries not being respected, at all, like why? And I feel like I’m the target, “oh but your the youngest you’ve had it easy!” No I’m going through depression, have bad mental health, lost my sister and grandparents, still feel a lot of stress, have trauma, miss people, barely get out and when ask to it’s met with “no” or “I don’t want to”, when I try to speak and Start crying? “Don’t cry”, like I’m sorry you’re the same person who told me to express my emotions, and anger. DONT GET ME STARTED?? I’m not well at expressing myself well, at all. So when the anger comes out like attitude they get angry, I’m not supposed to be the one making you UNDERSTAND?? Take the damn signs because I’ve shown you. I’ve told you, and also? When they ask why I’m so shy or want me to sing?? You made me insecure about that, Constantly laughing when I’m singing, dancing even, yeah that’s why I stopped, and when I’m thrifting? “Oh that’s a small!” “Oh stay go your size!” NO. I think I know what fits my body more, and it’s my money too, but NO. I purely don’t look at any bad clothes or anything bad in general, so why does it matter? I’m not supposed to show anger through attitude because apparently it’s rude, and I shouldn’t cry when In a bad mood and you decide to lecture me, tell me to express myself then get angry. Tell me to tell you and be honest? Next second your arguing and not even listening, at fucking all. It HURTS?? And me sometimes asking for new things like.. clothes or underwear, pads even and they are like “no I don’t want to” knowing damn well if o had my own car I’d do that for you, they wonder what this bad mental health came from but it’s THEM. I’m sorry, I love you, beside all of this you are good parents considering other people’s situations, but I’ve stayed up late with anger, sadness, overthinking things because I’m told to not pent them up but have to because you get angry when I’m honest, you say “oh no it’s not okay of me to do that”, like your right. You just made me like this, to back up in a corner because you don’t like when I’m defending myself properly, blame it on social media, it’s not social media, it’s myself trying to finally for ONCE. State what I’m needing and then they go like “no” or “your fine”, no I’m not. STOP IGNORING IT. IM YOUR DAUGHTER AND YOU SHOULD BE TRYING BETTER? NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND.
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