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[zackleos]

#  SOLDIER    —-  a  canon  divergent  zack  fair    from  final  fantasy  vii  ,  the  compilation  ;  main  based  during  the  events  in  ffvii  &  post, yet  all  other  media  will  be  found  /  available  via  verses  .  origin  story  remains  in  tact  but  headcanon  heavy  .    independent  &  highly  private  .  est  .  2013    (  lovingly  written  by  winter ( formerly kary )  ,  she  /  her  ,  30  &  from  the  uk  .  minors  dni  !!  19+  )

࿐    —-  DOSSIER  .   RULES   .   HEADCANONS   .   BACKSTORY

｡｡｡  a  test  of  endurance  ,  a  soldier  to  some  ,   hero  to  others  .  like  ink  bleeding  upon  scattered  sheets  ;  echoes  of  the  past  h  a  n  d  w  r  i  t  t  e  n  through  letters  .    heroic  spirit  ,  notions  to  never  give  up  .  of  brawn  on  the  battlefield  yet  heart  on  the  streets  .  happiness  pierced  with  the  revelation  of  brutality  ;    remaining  strong  .  smile  &  enthusiasm  never  once  fading  through  g  e  n  t  l  e   nature  &  blood-stricken  hands  .  war-torn  yet  sunshine  personified  .  one  of  a  kind  . 

travelling companions ; lockedfighter

[teganberry]

Final Fantasy VII | The Lovers

Zerith feels are getting me real good today!

[luthienne]

Jack Gilbert, from Collected Poems; “Between Aging and Old”

[deathberi]

FINAL FANTASY VII REBIRTH (2024)

[zackleos]

oof  i'm  so  angry  at  my  accountant

[zackleos]

. ˊˎ ☀ hurt  /  comfort  prompts . ┊  @sacredflorist:

❛ i’m  not  afraid  of  you. ❜

even  standing  here  as  he  does,   glowing  mako  eyes  and  blood-flecked  forearms,   monsters  littering  the  ground  at  his  feet   —   she  proclaims  a  lack  of  fear,   and  any  tension  he’d  have  felt  in  concern  of  her  reaction   ( though  he’d  been  defending  them  both )   dissipates.   zack  can  smile  easily.   “ good  —  it  wouldn’t  make  sense  for  a  princess  to  be  scared  of  her  knight  in  shining  armour. ”   the  only  shine  his  own  clothes  possess  is  a  few  gleaming  droplets  of  violence;   luckily,   very  little  of  it  is  his.   more  importantly,   none  of  it  is  hers.

          the  large  sword  is  swiftly  attached  to  his  back,   and  with  gloved  hands  on  his  hips  he  surveys  the  scene.   “ there  are  even  more  nowadays,   aren’t  there?   wonder  where  they’re  all  coming  from.   i’d  be  worried  about  you  walking  near  the  church  alone  nowadays,   in  case  you  get  caught  up  in  something. ”

[zackleos]

. ˊˎ ☀ hurt  /  comfort  prompts . ┊  @sentmail:

❛ i’m  trying  to  fix  your hair,   so  hold  still. ❜

          laughter  passes  easily  through  zack’s  lips,   the  sound  sunshine-bright  and  warm.   “ fix  it? ”   in  opposition  to  kunsel’s  clear  instruction,   he  twists  his  head  around,   glancing  up  at  his  friend  in  amusement.   “ you  think  you  can  do  something  with  it  that  i  never  could?   you’re  wasting  your  time;   even  my  mom  had  given  up  on  it  by  the  time  i  started  school. ”   still,   he  waves  a  hand  and  centres  his  position  once  again.   “ you  can  give  it  a  try,   if  you  really  want  to   —   but  don’t  say  i  didn’t  warn  you.   it's  got  a  mind  of  its  own. ”

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

But my sleep is just full of nightmares and flashbacks.

[zackleos]

. ˊˎ ☀ continued from here . ┊ @sentmail

A wound ripping open, stitch by stitch, Kunsel can feel the old familiar ache in his chest beginning to seep at the seams — there's a tear here, a clear divide between what he'd hoped ( dreamed ) this reunion to be like… and the much more mundane, heavy and morose reality of it all. No fanfare - couldn't be, it'd call attention. No high, emotional peak - only anxiety, uncertainty. All they had was the initial recognition, split second hesitation between running and staying that grew longer and longer… but was it really trust? What reasons had Zack to trust Kunsel, adorned in SOLDIER threads, having dug himself a hole so deep he couldn't see a way out? Why did Kunsel think he could trust Zack, that he hadn't just turned his back on them like Luxiere tried to get him to see believe time and time again? It's a loaded sentence that Zack speaks, and Kunsel has to lick his lips to try and steel his nerves, mind racing to try and find anything to say that would have Zack consider letting him know what happened - where was he all this time? "I've seen the reports, Zack." It isn't an easy thing to think back on, the log of a battalion lost — lambs to slaughter, numbers thrown at what was once the peak of SOLDIER in hopes it would work. It didn't. And although pity lingered there, a disgust at the company ( at himself ) that ran so deep he felt he'd lose it one day… Kunsel clung to the implication of it all, the admittedly delusional hope that it meant Zack pulled through. And he did… but now what? Where did they stand? "… All I care about is that you're alive. You did what you had to do."

at  the  beginning  of  the  fight,   every  swing  of  his  sword  connecting  with  another  stranger  in  infantry  garb,   zack  counted  every  kill.   one,   two,   three,   four,   twenty,   twenty-one,   forty,   sixty,   more  misled  innocents  falling  to  his  far  greater  power.   had  shinra  got  no  first-class  soldiers  left  to  match  him  in  a  fight  more  fairly,   mako  to  mako,   training  to  training?   and  in  the  absence  of  that,   aircraft  kitted  out  with  big  enough  guns  to  take  him  on  from  above?   they  must  really  not  care  for  human  lives  lost.   

          with  each  hit,   he  numbers  the  casualties,   pictures  grief-stricked  faces  of  the  families  he’ll  leave  broken.   but  then  faces  of  his  parents,   his  friends  flash  up  behind  his  eyes,   and  he  knows  he  can’t  stop   —   selfish  though  it  is,   he’d  kill  hundreds  of  undeserving  mercs  if  it  meant  his  mother’s  only  child  stayed  breathing.

          ( and,   though  he  can’t  see  this  far  amid  the  cacophony  of  gunshots,   perhaps  him  remaining  alive  will  prove  a  boon  in  the  long  run  to  take  down  that  evil ).   the  infantry  may  be  dying  here  for  the  greater  good;   they  just  can’t  see  that  through  their  brainwashing.   no  blame  is  assigned  to  them  by  zack.   he’d  been  there  once,   too.   he  understands.

          but  if  you’re  trying  to  kill  me,   i’ll  have  to  wipe  you  out  first.

          his  aim  is  specific  in  the  beginning,   aimed  at  the  most  merciful  dispatches  he  can  muster,   quick  deaths  as  painless  as  possible  while  his  own  body  faces  a  barrage  of  stinging  bullets.   eventually  his  mind  and  muscles  grow  weary,   and  his  sword-swings  become  sloppy   —   not  what  he’d  like,   too  messy,   but  it  gets  a  desperate  job  done  against  all  odds.   surely  shinra  considered  it  an  option,   that  this  entire  group  would  be  swept  from  the  planet?   or  maybe  they  didn’t  care  even  enough  to  think  that  far.   

          zack  locks  eyes  with  countless  opponents  facing  their  deaths.   i  see  you.   another.   i  see  you.   another.   i  see  you,   and  i’m  sorry.   i  wish  things  could  be  different.   but  i’m  not  giving  up  just  yet.

          “ i  did  what  i  had  to  do, ”   he  repeats  kunsel’s  words,   softly,   eyes  glazed  with  memory  and  focused  into  the  distance.   “ they  were  doing  what  they  had  to  do,   too.   i  just  did  it  a  little  better. ”

[zackleos]

what.........   do  ppl  think  about  ross  butler  as  a  rl  fc  for  zack

[zackleos]

. ˊˎ ☀ hurt  /  comfort  prompts . ┊  @sephaeroth:

❛ hold  still.   this  might  sting  a  little. ❜  

          despite  his  best  attempts  at  composure,   the  younger  can’t  hold  back  the  rounding  of  eyes  and  doubtful  twist  of  the  lips.   “ what,   are  you  a  field  medic  now,   too?   i’m  good,   it’s  barely  a  scra   —   AGH! ”   an  unwise  move;   shifting  his  arm  at  the  shoulder  to  shrug  off  his  injury  only  led  to  a  stabbing  pain  ricocheting  down  across  zack’s  shoulder  and  chest.   the  bullet  wedged  deep  into  his  deltoid  doesn’t  like  to  be  jostled.   “ okay,   okay   —   fine,   d’you  think  you  can  get  it  out?   i’ll  be  still.   i  swear. ”

[zackleos]

. ˊˎ ☀ hurt  /  comfort  prompts . ┊  @strifiisms:

“ please  tell  me  i  don’t  look  as  bad  as  i  feel. ”  

          as  zack  takes  heavy-booted  steps  toward  the  infantry  transport  vehicle,   he  examines  the  pale  face  of  his  young  friend  swaying  from  residual  movement.   “ you…   don’t  look  as  bad  as  you  feel? ”   he  offers,   though  the  very  tone  of  his  voice  betrays  his  doubts.   “ that  is,   if  you  feel  like  you’re  about  to  straight  up  pass  out,   you  don’t  look  quite  as  bad  as  that.   those  vans  can  get  pretty  bumpy  all  the  way  out  here,   huh?   the  hills  don’t  help. ”

[zackleos]

what  tragedy  are  you?

wrong  place,   wrong  time

it  shouldn’t  have  been  you.   oh  my  love,   you  should  have  lived.   if  only.   if  only  you  had  made  a  right  instead  of  a  left.   if  only  your  friend  hadn’t  had  so  much  to  drink.   if  only  it  hadn’t  rained  last  night.   then  everything  would  be  fine.   a  butterfly  could  have  flapped  its  wings  at  another  time  and  you  would  have  have  been  fine.   safety  was  so  close,   and  yet  so  far.   but  alas,   the  stars  just  had  to  align.

tagged  by:   i  stole  it! ♡ tagging:   @lockedfighter,   @sentmail,   @strifiisms,   @sacredflorist,   @sephaeroth,   and  you!

[silverelite]

It’s ‘cause of the mako. All SOLDIER’s have 'em

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬.

( this is basically just a very self indulgent list of various fluff, angst, and suggestive themed dialogue sentence starters. )

❛ i could keep you safe. they’re all afraid of me. ❜

❛ i’m trying to fix your hair, so hold still. ❜

❛ your heart is beating so fast right now. ❜

❛ promise me you’ll still be here when i wake up. ❜

❛ you’re not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜

❛ i thought you’d like some company. ❜ 

❛ clean yourself up. you're getting blood all over the place. ❜

❛ here, give this a try and tell me what you think. ❜

❛ you can kiss me, you know. ❜

❛ come back to bed. ❜

❛ you look good like this. ❜

❛ working together again, it’s just like old times. ❜

❛ how is it you always know what i need, huh? ❜

❛ you’re lucky you got away with only a scratch. ❜ 

❛ i can’t imagine losing someone like that. i’m sorry. ❜

❛ you know you can always talk to me. ❜

❛ the only one who gets to kill you, is me. ❜

❛ so, what do i owe this pleasure? ❜

❛ ah, so you aren’t heartless after all. ❜

❛ may i have this dance? ❜ 

❛ it’s okay, you can touch me. i won't break. ❜

❛ enemies make the best lovers, you know. ❜

❛ hold still. this might sting a little. ❜

❛ we can't keep doing this. ❜ 

❛ you look like you've got something to say. ❜

❛ just relax and let me take care of you. ❜

❛ thought you’d be lighter without all that blood. ❜

❛ i had it under control. you didn’t need to do that. ❜

❛ everything looks so beautiful from up here. ❜

❛ you treat all your ladies like this? ❜

❛ well? how do i look? ❜

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

❛ do you mind if i smoke? ❜

❛ i’m scared of ending up alone. ❜

❛ i don’t think i’ve ever seen you smile. ❜

❛ how long has it been since you've slept? ❜

❛ you are losing my interest, and that’s very dangerous. ❜

❛ i’d suffer hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight. ❜

❛ you look really pretty right now. ❜

❛ i’ve never cared for anyone the way i care for you. ❜

❛ i’m not wearing any underwear. thought you’d like to know. ❜

❛ just a few more stitches and you’ll be as good as new. ❜

❛ i’d say we make a pretty good team. ❜

❛ i want you to forget this ever happened. ❜

❛ i'm here for business — not pleasure. ❜

❛ if i didn't know any better, i'd say you were jealous. ❜

❛ you'd look better down on your knees. ❜

❛ fine, keep acting like you hate me. ❜

❛ kiss me again. ❜

❛ are you asking me out on a date? ❜

❛ just sit there and look pretty and let me handle this. ❜

❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space again. ❜

❛ well, i do feel better now that you're here. ❜

❛ i'm not drunk enough for this. ❜ 

❛ why is it whenever we see each other, you’re covered in blood? ❜

❛ i was wrong about you. ❜ 

❛ the first time i met you, i had no idea you'd mean this much. ❜

❛ you gonna be a good girl / boy for me? ❜

❛ i’m not afraid of you. ❜

❛ books mean more to me than people anyway. ❜

❛ i just wanted to say thank you for protecting me. ❜

❛ how about a kiss goodnight? ❜

❛ i don’t have time for distractions right now. ❜

❛ you shouldn’t be out here by yourself. ❜ 

❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜

[nightmareevara-deactivated20260]

No regrets: my intention, feelings and heart were pure.

[onewinged-sephiroth]

THE BOYS