curious girl.

[izabellagifs]

Bensu Soral + instagram

[zahrayilmaz]

cameronharding​:

~

“okay, then.” why they couldn’t have just left it at that, beats him. apparently, zahra has a lot more to get off her chest and so cameron has no choice but to allow her the courtesy of him listening. by the end of her little tirade, it’s obvious she’s jealous. of whatever rotation chart he might have going on that doesn’t actually exist. what happened with him and the lady from hr was private business and had nothing to do with them sleeping together. but, was he surprised that some of the nurses took that little tidbit of information and ran with it? no. he was used to others speculating about his romantic status. and he never could quite understand why it was such a hot topic. especially when it was a lot more dull than they made it sound. “are you being serious right now?” he couldn’t believe the lengths she jumped to so quickly. “you know what?” it wasn’t in his nature to entertain petty drama while at work. if she wanted to discuss the matter like adults, off the clock, then so be it. “if that’s what you want, then fine.” he stood up with his lunch, that he’d barely eaten and looked down at her. “for the record. it’s our job to get all the facts before we make a decision. or in this case, a diagnosis. first thing they teach you in med school. it also helps to give people the benefit of the doubt. but, what do i know? i’m just the doctor you sneak around with. doesn’t matter that i’m an actual person worth a discussion.”

-

zahra didn’t want to appear like the scorn little girl who believed that he would be at the ready at her beck and call. she’d heard the whispers about him and she was certainly not stupid enough to believe that he hadn’t fallen between the legs of whichever nurse or staff that showed him any attention. but it wasn’t the same for her. she had worked hard to be where she was and she couldn’t afford people tearing down her accomplishments. while he was absolutely right about getting all the facts, she didn’t need them. “i’ve heard enough about what you’ve done to know that you’ve slept with her so i’ve got all the facts.” she didn’t care. she didn’t care. “i’m not jealous, for the record. the facts are that they aren’t talking about you sleeping your way to the top. how the only reason i’m allowed to work alongside you is because i’ve been on my knees during my breaks. you’re not the one who they think is whoring themselves out. so before you take any of this personal, maybe this speech should be directed towards the people who are tearing every single accomplishment i’ve worked hard for.” her voice had gotten louder, only hearing how quiet the room had gotten once she finished. “i wasn’t handed this. i worked hard and i’m not going to fuck up my career for a meaningless fling.” he was sleeping with the hr girl so she doubted she’d be missed.

[zahrayilmaz]

abahiense​:

given, she’d just spilled the beans to zahra - it would appear, arguably, she can’t keep a secret. alas, it was different when your best friend was confiding in you over a literal stranger. “how big? are we talkin’ life ruining big? because if so, yes. now spill it!” if adri had to grab her co worker by the arms and shake the secret out of her, she will.

-

zahra can feel the bile rise at the back of her throat. her entire body stiffening and urging her to run. she’d done her best to keep this a secret but it seemed like she couldn’t hold it any longer. adri was the only person she trusted here. “i’m sleeping with him...” she placed a hand over her mouth, eyes falling to the table in shame. “i’m sleeping with him, too.” 

[zahrayilmaz]

cameronharding​:

_

“heard what?” naturally, cam wasn’t one to take part in workplace gossip. being that he had no time and no patience for it. plus, he never expected anyone to care that much about his personal life. if they weren’t involved, it shouldn’t concern them in the least bit. yet….. the women here were built different. at first, cam didn’t respond to her initial bait, he only arched a brow as he encouraged her with a single look to keep going. once, she had, he finally looked up. only to watch a gaggle of nurses scramble to pretend they weren’t apart of some steamy, med drama. “so?” as harsh and as insensitive as it may’ve come across, he didn’t mean it like that. he just didn’t see what the big deal was. “who cares what they think. by acting guilty, you’re playing directly into their suspicions. and, i mean, you didn’t fuck your way through med school, right?”

~

“so?!” she echoed as if he’d just informed her that the sky was purple. cameron was a hot topic when it came to rumours but zahra had managed to avoid them altogether. her dutiful personality had helped with that, on top of only coming to the hospital to work and not bothering with many friendships. apart from a select few. “is that even a question? of course, i haven’t.” her pride hurt a little bit when he double checked the the rumours weren’t built on some level of truth outside of them sleeping together. “there’s other rumours about you and someone from hr.” those had been done and over with but she wanted to know if there was some truth to it. “do you have a rotation chart? first one you see on call gets to follow you into the on-call room?” venom laced her words as frustration grew. “i’m not sleeping with you again. though i’m sure you’ve got ample people to replace me. from here on, stay away.” despite not being deserving of her anger, she needed someone to blame.

[zahrayilmaz]

abahiense​:

_

if she didn’t know any better, adri would’ve assumed zahra looked like she’d swallowed a lemon. her angelic features inevitably paled at the mention of dr. harding’s sex life. luckily for zah though, she wasn’t adri’s suspect number one. “molly in hr. someone said they heard her and dr. harding going at it in one of the on call rooms last friday. and they were seen together later that night going into the chief’s office. she’s not even that cute. and have you seen that camel toe?” if she’s being totally honest with herself, adri is only bitter because she wishes she was having a scandalous love affair in one of the on call rooms.

~

her jaw practically landed on the table when Adri named someone she had seen following Cameron around. a sickening feeling grew in her stomach; jealousy, though she was quick to smother it once she realized. it was meant to be casual, and fun. “i didn’t expect her to be his type.” the opposite of what zahra was but maybe she was the exception. a nurse who was around and a convenience for him. “i haven’t fixated on it but i’ve seen it. it’s kind of hard to avoid.” leaning back into her chair, she found interest in her food. “can you keep a secret? it’s a big one.”

[zahrayilmaz]

cameronharding​:

—  LOCATION: CHICAGO GRACE CAFETERIA

closed starter for: @zahrayilmaz

“this seat taken?” even if it was, cam wasted no time planting his big, hulking frame next to her. although, the hospital’s cafeteria food was just that - desperate times called for desperate measures. besides, he couldn’t afford to take the trip to the common room next door for takeout since any minute now his latest patient should be waking up from surgery. “you wanna tell me why your friends have been watching us like a hawk all day?”

~

zahra felt the blood rushing to her face instantly when she heard his voice, not being able to swallow her pudding quick enough to tell him that he could absolutely not sit with her. hadn’t he heard the rumors going around about the two of them? “you haven’t heard?” her words were low, gaze dropping towards her food as if it was the most interesting thing in the world. “they know.” she started, clearly her throat. “about you and i. you should hear the colourful rumours going around. apparently i’ve now fucked my way through med school. so you’ve got to go.” 

[zahrayilmaz]

abahiense​:

—  LOCATION: CHICAGO GRACE HOSPITAL

closed starter for: @zahrayilmaz

“guess who’s sleeping with dr. harding?” taking time off from the stack of bloodwork in front of her, adri turns to zahra with the biggest scoop of gossip this hospital has ever seen. what can she say? this is the most entertaining topic she’s come across all week and she was just dying to share it with anyone. but especially, her work wife and number one bestie.

~

Zahra could feel her heart in her throat, tightening her hold on the files in her hand while she looked over at Adri. For one, she wasn’t keen on finding out if he was sleeping with someone else, and secondly, she hated the idea of Adri finding out her dirty little secret. She was eventually going to tell her but she hadn’t gotten around to it because she had promised herself the last time would be.... the last. Despite how every time was meant to be the last, she meant it this time. “who?”

[zahrayilmaz]

ZAHRA YILMAZ

gender: cis female / she & her

sexuality: bisexual

age: 29 years old 

occupation: trauma nurse

Zahra was raised by her aunt and uncle who took her in at a very young age. Even though she didn’t understand why people had parents and she didn’t, she knew they loved her and that was okay until she was old enough to actually understand that. Though much of her understanding had come from torment from other kids. 

She’d searched for answers and begged her aunt and uncle for more information until the truth came out. Her mother had been severely addicted and had been unable to keep up with her sobriety after having her. After she’d passed away, they had taken her in as their own. 

With her aunt and uncle came many more opportunities but she was busy hating her mother and the abandonment to care. She’d went out of her way to cause trouble until she was sat down before the end of high school with the real threat of being kicked out due to her grades having gone to crap. 

It was the scare she needed to get herself together and finish strong. She managed to turn it around and take on extra credits. However, her world crumbled when the truth about her uncle’s dirty secret came to light. He’d taken all the savings and gambled them away. The full ride she’d once thought she had went south and she found herself devastated. Taking a pause from school, she worked for two years and saved up as much money as she could to pay for her first two years of med school. 

Though the student loans have pilled up, Zahra has fulfilled her dream of becoming a trauma nurse and has.

wanted connections

[waywardreveries]

©