𝐖𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐔𝐏!

[zanvat]

#ZANVAT!!ㅤㅤfriends only multifandom multimuseㅤ(& pseudo-hub blog)ㅤwritten by KIVA!!ㅤdo not follow first, unless you are directed here!ㅤㅤ\\ㅤㅤCARRD.

[chui--3]

Quick sketch of Black Silence.

I finished this game a couple of days ago and its just beautiful. My second favorite game.

[zanvat]

straight up having a bad time after reading leviathan.

[rugwurm]

ayin the overall asshole

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anyway if anyone was wondering how i'm doing in terms of being doomed.

[lattescribble]

if you could only see yourself like me

[sarajinae]

Visit Original Link

[ratbuchet]

5/15

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project moon sucks as a company but unfortunately lobotomy corp, library of ruina, & limbus company are games you're obligated to know about if you're a fan of fucked up horror.

[pcholkachai]

delusions of grandeur

[zanvat]

ok well if anyone wants a not-dad who follows Divine Decree ordered to him through a pager that he carries in his pocket & who has no sense of self or identity outside of what he's told to do ...

[grotesks]

hi, everyone. unfortunately, this is a post asking for help. my family and i are in the process of moving, and one of our sole methods of transportation has broken down. time is of the essence with this, unfortunately, as it is how we are moving. in order to compensate for this, we will need to order a u-haul. it is going to cost roughly $100 in order to get it rented for the day to move the last of what we need. i really hate to ask for help, and i hate resorting to the internet to do such. unfortunately, again, we need to get moved to this new house as soon as possible. my paypal can be found here and my ko-fi can be found here. thank you in advance.

[grotesks]

hi, again. while we managed to get the u-haul sorted, we have another vehicle to tow and it will be costing $150. this would not be an issue, but two of my roommates very suddenly lost their sources of income, and my hours were just recently cut at work. rent is coming up as well, and while i have some help with it, it seems we’re going to be roughly $300 short on that. while i don’t expect anyone to pay the full amount, anything helps. in return, though, i can offer a carrd or icon border, or anything really because i don’t like asking for money without offering something in return. thanks again.

[faustfaust9]

my darling daughter

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what if you lived by the word of an omniscient "god" who delivered its commands to only its chosen ones. and that "god" told you to start a family, so you did. and then that "god" told you to let your family die, and you did. but you regretted it. you wanted to disobey them, but you knew that you couldn't. no one ever disobeys the prescripts. and then you're made to be one of the five nursefathers who raise a girl as a living weapon. you are an empty slate. your name isn't yours. you're a mimicry of a man who hadn't even lived the life that you were made to mimic, yet. you're a false father in every meaning of the word. but somehow, you care about this girl. even if you were responsible for grooming her into a living weapon. you come to care for her. you see your dead, actual daughter in her. deep down, there's a part of you that wants to keep her safe. there's a part of you that doesn't want to see her be used. but you can't defy the prescripts. you read picture books to her growing up. you never finished them, you never read the endings to her. because there is no ending, not for you. not in the life you live. you played games with her. she told you about freeze tag. you told her you'd patiently wait for her to unfreeze you. she never did. in the end, you failed the prescripts. who are you without them? you're no one. you're so lonely. you missed your daughter, your sweetheart.

the waves sound so lonely.

your last act is a final defiance against the prescripts. you go out on your own terms. who knew you could do that.

[jiuxsy]

i hear the waves

they sound lonely…

[mcflymemes]

PROMPTS FROM TRAINSPOTTING *  assorted dialogue from the 1996 film, adjust as necessary

the truth is that i'm a bad person. but that's gonna change. i'm going to change.

now i'm cleaning up and i'm moving on, going straight and choosing life.

the streets are awash with drugs you can have for unhappiness and pain, and we took them all.

choose life. choose a job. choose a career. choose a family.

why would i want to do a thing like that?

i chose not to choose life. i chose something else.

the reasons? there are no reasons.

doesn't it make you proud to be scottish?

i've justified this to myself in all sorts of ways.

it wasn't a big deal, just a minor betrayal.

why did i do it? i could offer a million answers, all false.

i'm looking forward to it already.

i'm gonna be just like you.

excuse me. i don't mean to harass you, but i was very impressed with the capable and stylish manner in which you dealt with that situation.

i was thinking to myself, now this girl's special.

what's your name?

i'm going home.

i'll come back with you if you like, but like, i'm not promising anything, you know.

do you find that this approach usually works?

let me guess, you've never tried it before.

you don't normally approach girls, am i right?

personality, i mean that's what counts, right?

sounds great to me.

our only response was to keep on going and "fuck everything."

no matter how often you go out and rob and fuck people over, you always need to get up and do it all over again.

what are you two talking about?

no more. i'm finished with that shite.

gonna get it right this time. gonna get it sorted out.

i sure have heard that one before.

people think it's all about misery and desperation and death and all that shit which is not to be ignored, but what they forget is the pleasure of it. otherwise we wouldn't do it.

we're not fucking stupid. at least, we're not that fucking stupid.

now i'm ready.

what's on the menu this evening?

who the fuck are you?

did you bring the cards?

you're not getting any younger. the world's changing. music's changing

the guy's dead anyway.

the point is, you've got to find something new.

what do you mean?

at one time, you've got it, and then you lose it, and it's gone forever.

what's the point you're trying to make?

that means fuck all.

so we all get old and then we can't hack it anymore. is that it?

what attracts you to the leisure industry?

do you mean that you lied on your application?

i paid for the tickets!

it's all about aesthetics and it's fuck all to do with morality.

it seems, however, i really am the luckiest guy in the world.

what the fuck are these?

that's all i've got. take it or leave it.

i want a fucking hit.

i quite enjoyed the sound of it all.

for all the good they've done me, i might as well have stuck them up my arse.

for the first time in my adult life i was almost content.

useless motherfucker, that's what she called me.

i'm sorry, but these things happen. let's put it behind us.

you were quite happy to do a lot more last night.

calm down. you're not going to jail.

if you don't see me again, i'll tell the police.

i can't believe you did that.

[sbdtmh]

sorry for no art i just got a new drawing device and stylus 🕺