I've been writing this post in my head for over a week.
9 years ago I was waking up excited to log in on Facebook as one does when you're 16. How I wish I would've done anything but.
My timeline was being bombarded with your photos, there were so many that got me thinking it was your birthday even though I knew in my soul when that day was, so I went ahead and checked in your profile.
And I quite simple lost my heart.
I saw hundreds of posts with your face saying how much they loved you without understanding, then I saw it. The post confirming you were gone, I have the post content embroidered on my head. Then I got the confirmation from who I know you loved the most in the world.
It's been nine years and I still can't wrap my head and heart around the fact I'll never see your face again, that I haven't in nine years. You've been gone longer that what we had on this earth of friendship.
You were my first in so many things, I got to do shit with you I wouldn't have dare with someone else. You were always pushing my limits, I got in the middle of fights to make sure you were okay. I got friends telling me they thought I was going to fight them for defending you. And I would've done it. And they knew it.
I always remember your smile and your dimples when I think of you. I remember whispered kisses while you told me how difficult you were as a child. I remember how at the end our friendship was more valuable than any other hormones driven thing we could almost have.
I miss your friendship, you were my favorite friend and I'm glad you left this earth knowing it.
You were so incredibly amazing and had a thing for drama and problems, so much so that even after you were gone you almost got me on trouble on the cemetery. I miss your wicked sense of self. I miss the nicknames you gave my dog and sometimes when I see her I see you.
I hope we see each other again. I hope you are at peace. This world will always be full without you as it is my life because you are a piece of my life missing. But Im thankful that of the 16 years you were given in this earth I got to know you, call you my friend and hug you. How lucky was I?
I'll miss you forever Angel.
