*struggle noise*

She/they This is where I come to talk about my day. Audrey go away 🔫🔫

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February 9, 2023

The semester started literally three weeks ago and I’ve already missed a math test and forgot to comment on people’s discussion boards.

I’m so upset

On top of that Johnny Ringo has been sick so I’ve spent all my money on vet bills.

Also I’m not getting hours at work and my one work friend is looking for another job!

Johnny Ringo keeps pissing on everything!!

No lips and Kenny broke up. Finally.

I did however may have made a mistake by telling Marion about all the shit he talks at the gym so now she doesn’t want me going to the gym with him which is unfortunate because he pays for the membership.

Everytime I tell him what I’m going to do with my life I just feel stupid and like I can’t do it.

And me missing assignments and test just furthers his point!

Okay good night.

-zazzy

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January 22, 2023

I have had to work by myself for TWO nights in a row.

Gay guy walks in everyday and is like “you’re my favorite.”

I think he says that no I don’t quit. It works

My fucking dad said I’m not allowed to go over to Marions everyday. Fuck him. Don’t wanna talk to us or try to have a relationship but will tell me what I can and can’t do.

I decided I’m going to be a vet and get an associates in biology before transferring to a different college.

I’m kinda sad though because I still want to be an actress but this is the only way to get my dad off my dick about it.

My fucking legs hurt.

All the managers here think this short blond guy has a crush on me. He keeps making comments to me about shit. First it was “you don’t look like you go to the gym.” Then it was “how many doughnuts is that? 8?” Sir if you don’t shut the fuck up you’re gonna trigger an eating disorder.

Fun.

Marion said she’s kill him so.

Okay back to work.

-zazzy

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January 16, 2023

I worked overnight last night. I was so fucking tired. I took a nap at home then went to Marions to sleep. Then Harper got mad bc I didn’t take her to rehearsal bc Marion started having a meltdown over me leaving and saying I wasn’t going to marry her until she got her GED. She was also upset because she had planned for her and her coworkers and sister to go bowling and bring me but that no lipped bitch told her I couldn’t go but then tried to invite the dishwasher dude she fucking flirts with.

I’m not gonna lie I’m kinda upset about it. Like Mondays are the only days I don’t have school or work and Marion doesn’t have work and then she goes and takes over Marion’s plan and excludes me.

Fucking hate her.

AND I didn’t find a Rock Band guitar for my ps3 so going to the flea market was pointless!

I went shopping with Harper to try and cheer myself up but it didn’t work!

So Yeha that was the day.

Fucking cunt ass bitch.

-zazzy

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January 9, 2023

I got sick yesterday and called out of work. That son of a bitch bout made me quit my job with his attitude.

Anyway today was alright. Didn’t do much. Tried to drink plenty of fluids and I can eat again.

Father made me go get food for the family. I would have said no but I was already out. However I did not get enough so.

SnackTimes bitch ass tried to eat my fries.

It’s okay tho I hung out with Marion when she got home from the mall with her bitch ass sister.

School is tomorrow. Gross.

-zazzy

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January 5, 2023

Harper and I went to the mall.

I spent probably close to 400$. But we had a good time.

I bought two shirts, pants, a hoodie, shoes, and earrings with naked women on them.

Your probably thinking “that does sound like it should be that much.”

Well I spent most of it on Harper. Also I got mom a chunky pot from Spencer’s.

Then I went to the gym. It was a good workout. I think this girl thought I was checking her out bc I was standing in front of the mirror like kinda in front of her so I was looking at her to see if she was about to do her set so I wouldn’t be in front of her and she gave me this look. I mean she had some nice thighs but I don’t feel like being murdered by my girlfriend.

Also I saw a guy that graduated a few years ago so that was nice.

After the gym I went to Marions and I ate my weight in pizza rolls.

Good day. Good day.

-zazzy

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January 4, 2023

I got called into work and then Marion got mad (we made up it’s fine).

I saw a dead raccoon on my way home!!

It’s Lucy’s birthday. We went to the pet store and got her some stuff.

I don’t think she liked the hat.

-zazzy

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January 2, 2023

Today sucked.

Kenny was supposed to fix my car but waited till Marion had thrown a damn fit bc she was hungry to say something.

Then, what would have been maybe a 20-30 minute eat turned into an hour bc this slow ass server.

So my car didn’t get fixed.

I drove her tho she seemed fine.

Then my mom told me that I needed to come out to nana because it would be better if I did it then her hearing it from someone else who saw Marions Facebook post with us in it.

Fuck this Fr.

-Zazzy

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December 31, 2022

It’s been a while huh.

There too much between August and today so I will start today and pretend I’ve been here the whole time.

My goal is to try and get back to writing. Maybe not everyday but frequently.

I turned 19 today.

One year closer to 21!!

I think this was my best birthday. Mom and dad took us to one of those trampoline parks and dad did all the extra stuff with us and even jumped around with us. Mom gave me alcohol with my breakfast and ordered me legos. Got some cash.

Director friend had a little party and it was fun. She surprised me with a slice of cake and they all sang happy birthday to me. Marion came with me too!

I’ve never felt so loved on my birthday like I have today.

That’s all for today.

-Zazzy

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July 29- August 12, 2022

What have I become.

Bruh

I don’t even know anymore

Well bullet points are our thing now

I’ve applied to like 5 different places. Walmart, Vet, Target, Starbucks, RaceTrac.

The only one that’s gotten back is target and they said no

I accidentally applied to be a shift manager at RaceTrac. So that’s unlikely but I do hope.

Boob ear and I have been hitting the gym regularly.

Mario got mad at me for listening and watching twice music videos instead of paying attention to her.

She might move. Like 30 minutes away

Bruh we kept trying to have sexy time and Harper kept interrupting.

Almost committed murder.

I’m getting hours now YAll.

Kind of.

I was never actually registered for class and my FAFSA is fucked up so now I owe 3,000 dollars.

Laptop came in. It’s mid.

It runs the sims very well.

I feel sad. My friends have all moved away. And by friends I mean two of the girlies (who do not talk to me) and kpop. But also everyone is moving for college and I’m still here.

I feel alone.

I can now bench 50 pounds.

Ummmm yeah.

Nana noticed my tattoo.

Okay goodnight.

-zazzy

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July 22-29, 2022

Bullet Points.

Spent the night with Marion the night before the beach but forgot to tell my parents and they weren’t home so I left without saying anything.

Then I got a call from dad all mad and he was like “well I at least would have liked a hug before you left.” Well Patrick you weren’t home. Nor had you spoken to me all week.

Then he gave me a little speech and was like “don’t call me if you get locked up.” Type thing and I was like ??? Why would I have called YOU

Anyway I almost cried and this interrupted sexy time so fuck him for that.

Beach 🤙🤙

I was drunk/tipsy for most of it ngl

Spent a good bit of the time with Boob ear swimming. No Lip and Marion had a bit of a problem with this.

Deep conversations in the sea 🌊

We played mini golf. No lip beat me which is truly tragic.

We also went out to eat a bunch.

We played Mario party and Mario kart.

Again I was drunk most of the time.

We found ourselves at a hot dog place that did karaoke. It was amazing.

Marions brother rented a golf car so we rode around in that.

We went to the Ripleys odditorium.

Also went to a candy store at one point.

I got sand in a blister on the bottom of my toe.

Got another blister on the top of my other foot.

Ummmm yeah.

Yeah I think that’s it.

Okay goodnight.

-zazzy

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July 18-21, 2022

Why am I like this.

Anyway bullet points ig.

- Boob ear and I have not gone to the gym this week and that makes me quite sad.

-much sex.

-the other day Marion fell asleep on me for like 30 minutes after I took her home after work.

-same day at work I wanted to punch one of the Togo girls.

So this lady had came through the drive through and sat before the speaker right right and then drove past it. I had assumed she’d drove off. But no. She (I guess) had called in an order while in the line. So she gets to the window and I repeat the order that was behind her and she was like “no I had the potato.” I looked at her confused and went to look for her order thinking someone had drove off and then I remembered we were out of potatoes. I told her that (still confused as fuck) then she was like “why didn’t she tell me that?” Then I got more confused. Then she’d told me she had called in an order. So I tell her that she’ll have to come inside and she got all bitchy about it and was like “I’ve waited in this line I’m not going anywhere!” And put her car in park. So I walk over to where the manager is and I’m like “the lady at the window wants to speak with you” AND THE FUCKING TOGO GIRL was like “oh is that the potato lady 😃 she is a bitch 😀” like yeah no shit. Did you not think to tell her we don’t do call ins through the drive through. Like I almost punched a bitch. Then my ticket time was FUCKED.

- went to the sex store. Didn’t like it.

-also went to the mall. It was short lived bc my parents wanted me home.

-they wanted me home to build a cabinet.

-almost had a Conniption.

-today father was like “what are you doing.” And ghe I had to explain to him that I was going to the beach so I was helping Marion pack and he was like “Well you should come home I'm pretty sure she could have packed up everything she owns by now you have been there since 2:45”

-he doesn’t want anything to do with me but LOVES telling me what to do.

Ummmm yeah.

Okay goodnight

-Zazzy

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July 15-17, 2022

Ummm yeah.

I’m just gonna list important things and the shit I remember.

-4 months with Marion. Swag.

-we found out it’s actually really easy to get married.

-I started planning our wedding.

-showed her what a tiny house was

-GYM

-work has pissed me off so much in the past few days.

- I will now insert below the text I sent to Mermaid about the oven boy that pissed me off

Also I grabbed a side of collared greens earlier bc some lady said she had some and I was getting it and explaining what happened and the oven dude was like "tell her to shut the fuck up." And I snapped back "you shut the fuck up." Bc oven dude is fucking useless and budded in the conversation. Then later he asked me if I meant it and I was like yeah I wasn't talking to you and he got an attitude and was like "oh okay just making sure you weren't mad for no reason."

Yeah fuck that guy anyway.

-Jazmina threatened to punch me over potato salad so I put in an application at the vet office down the street.

-blogs 3rd birthday.

Uhhhh yeah.

Okay goodnight.

-Zazzy

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July 14, 2022

Yall! I went to the gym today! It was wack! My legs and arms feel dead! It was great!

Anyway before that I woke up in a sweat and couldn’t go back to sleep for like two hours.

Then I waited for Marion to wake up. While I did that Boobear and I went and got me added to his gym membership!

So when he got off I went to the gym!

Then Marion and I finished watching Stranger Things.

Also apparently one of my coworkers got married. Wack.

Ummmmm yeah.

Okay goodnight.

-zazzy

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July 11-13, 2022

Okay I don’t remember what day the 11th was but I do remember waking up with a splitting headache that went from my neck to my head so all I did was sleep and go to the post office.

One the 11th SnackTime and I went looking for parts for my radio.

Today we went and helped nana move. We slept in and she called me mad as hell. That was fun. It went fairly smoothly. She Referred to the mover guys as her Prostitutes. Also she didn’t notice my hair or tattoo so um yeah.

Also I have developed a bad habit of falling asleep before writing.

Ummmmmmm yeah.

Marion came over today and I ordered 100 chicken nuggets from McDonald’s and I have never felt worse in my life.

Then we went to her house after a bit and my arm hurts.

Um yeah okay goodnight.

-zazzy

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July 9 and 10, 2022

I did not sleep very well due to the fold out.

Also kpop left like right after she woke up and it was very one night stand ish.

Really feelin the love homie.

I went to work.

Don’t remember it.

I know I went.

Ummm

Today was meh.

I worked a double. By myself. BUT I did get to leave early bc jasmine was like “lemme take over.” Or whatever.

Boob ear gave me a shit ton of ribs to take home.

Also I saw flinn at Walmart so that was fun. And I saw Hamlet on my way back to work from break.

Ummmm

I bought a laptop. I’m very excited. It was pretty expensive. Hehehehe

Also I got an email from someone and they were like “DONATION FROM POWER BOWL WINNER. EMAIL FOR INQUIRY.” So I email and I’m really hoping it’s true.

Ummmm yeah.

Okay goodnight.

-zazzy

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July 7 and 8, 2022

Ngl I don’t remember the 7th. Audrey came over. Probably went to Walmart.

Um

Leslie told me I had to keep the door open when she was over.

Cock blocker.

Ummm

Oh! I dyed my hair. I look like a swamp monster.

I slept really late and cleaned the house.

Then I updated my computer. It took for fucking ever.

And I might be getting a new one.

Work was a BITCH. The computers kept fucking up and then I asked a manager for help and she just handed me her keys and told me to do whatever i needed. Except I couldn’t figure it out and I’d been trying for 5 minutes. So I went back in there and she got all pissy and was like, “well you can’t do anything with the computer like this.” And it had fucked up. So then she did what she needed. I almost fucking cried. And then she gave me a bear hug.

Anyway stranger things night with Kpop and Marion and Harper went well. I did not pay much attention but ya know it was on.

“Slong.” - kpop

Ummmmn yeah.

Okay goodnight.

-zazzy