II side blog of skzoologist II for reblogging all kinds of stuff II
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II '01 liner II fine with any pronoun II big weeb/otaku and avid gamer II shy giant II suffering in Europe II
II main writing blog: @skzoologist II side writing blog: @ihatedtoadmit II
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II current hyperfixation: SKZ II
II cursed with pulling Lee Know in every album, next time he does this, I'll put his ass up for trade, I'm not even kidding (only because I have not a single Felix or Hyunjin pc) II
II last hyperfixations: Undertale, Solo Leveling, BNHA and Ao no Exorcist II have written for these full out series, I'll finish them one day and post them somewhere (because I'm still not normal about them) II
II hobbies: daydreaming, drawing, writing and crocheting II cursed to perpetually create more OCs to deal with my adoration/deluluness II
II struggling with a shitty body and about to mcfucking lose it II
II my blogs are a safe place for those who don't like smut II
II fic rec. tag: #fics to remember II
II anxious being, but open to make friends slowly II
II currently matching pfps with @writingforstraykids dear (no Niki dear, I am not cheating, please-) II
it's a shame you can't Cool, Silent, and Mysterious your way to being very close to people. we are unfortunately going to have to embarrass ourselves for this
i’ve really been into vampire chan recently. hehe. and i’ve also really been loving your writing. 🩷 do you think you could try out some vampire stuff? if you don’t want to write it for chan, i’d be fine with any member. (but yk he’s my fave)
or if you don’t want to write this at all, that’s fine too. i’ll read anything you post :)
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VAMP! BANGCHAN X FEM! READER
a/n: thank you so much for your request!! I hope you like it 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
warnings: fluff and a bit angsty
One night, you and your boyfriend Chan are sitting on the couch. The air is thick and you ask him what’s wrong…
The soft hum of the night hung in the air as you sat on Chan’s couch, a blanket draped over your legs. His apartment was quiet, save for the occasional rustle of wind brushing against the windows. The dim light from a single lamp cast a golden hue across the room, flickering gently as though it, too, sensed the tension in the air.
You glanced at Chan, who sat at the far end of the couch, his posture stiff and eyes avoiding yours. His hand rested close to his knee, fingers tapping absently against the fabric. He looked distant, like he was a thousand miles away even though he was right there, just an arm’s reach from you.
“Chan…” you began softly, your voice cutting through the silence. “Is everything okay?”
He flinched, just barely, but enough for you to notice. His hand stilled, and he looked down at the floor, shadows hiding his expression. For a long moment, he didn’t respond, the weight of unspoken words thick in the air between you.
You shifted closer, reaching out to him, but he subtly pulled back, just out of your reach. The sudden distance stung more than you expected. He was always careful, always keeping you just far enough away when the night deepened, but this… this felt like something else. Something worse.
“I’m fine,” he finally murmured, but his voice was hollow. The words felt forced, like they weren’t for your comfort, but for his own.
The soft glow of twilight faded outside, the last remnants of the sun sinking below the horizon. You noticed how, as the darkness took hold, Chan seemed to grow more withdrawn, his shoulders hunching slightly, his jaw tight.
You frowned, your heart aching with the need to understand what was happening. “You’re not,” you whispered, more to yourself than him. “You’re not fine, and I wish you’d just tell me what’s going on.”
He tensed at your words, his breath catching for a moment before he let it out in a slow, measured exhale. His eyes flickered up to meet yours, and for the briefest moment, you thought you saw something strange—something dark, like a storm building behind his gaze.
You’d always known there was something Chan wasn’t telling you. Something important, something that lingered in the way he carefully constructed his life around you. The late nights, the way he disappeared when the moon rose high, the way his touch always felt cool, even when the summer heat blazed.
But you loved him. You loved him so deeply that the mystery of him felt like a secret you were willing to wait for, no matter how long it took for him to trust you enough to share it.
Tonight, though… tonight it felt different. The air was thick with unspoken tension, the kind that made your skin prickle with anticipation, or maybe it was fear. You didn’t know anymore. All you knew was that the man sitting in front of you was pulling away, and you couldn’t bear it.
“I can’t do this anymore,” you said, your voice wavering slightly as you looked at him. “I can’t sit here and pretend that everything’s okay when I feel like I’m losing you.”
Chan’s head snapped up, his eyes wide with something close to panic. For a second, his entire body went rigid, like he was caught between the instinct to flee and the need to stay and explain everything.
“Y/N…” His voice was soft, like he was pleading with you, but for what, you didn’t know.
You swallowed hard, feeling your chest tighten as you searched his face for answers he wasn’t giving. “Just tell me the truth,” you whispered, stepping closer, your hands trembling slightly. “What are you so scared of?”
He looked at you, and this time, he didn’t look away. His eyes… they shimmered with something foreign, something otherworldly. The low light flickered in his irises, and you gasped softly when you saw it—his eyes, once so warm and brown, now glowing a deep, almost crimson red. It was subtle at first, like the flicker of dying embers, but the longer you stared, the more intense it became. The red pulsed through his gaze, sharp and luminous, like fire burning through his soul.
Your breath caught in your throat, heart racing as your mind scrambled to understand what you were seeing. His eyes. They weren’t human. They weren’t… normal.
And then it all clicked. The nights he disappeared. The strange distance he kept. His cold skin, even on the warmest of days.
“Chan…” Your voice was barely a whisper as the realization crashed over you, a wave of disbelief and fear washing through your veins. “What… what are you?”
He flinched, guilt flashing in his eyes, the red hue dimming but never fully fading. His hands clenched into fists at his sides, his entire frame trembling with the weight of the secret he had held for so long.
“I didn’t want you to find out like this,” he said, his voice ragged and broken. “I never wanted you to see me like this.”
You stumbled back a step, the air in the room growing colder, heavier. The words wouldn’t come, your throat dry, your chest tightening with the weight of the truth unraveling before you.
“I’m a vampire,” he confessed, the words falling from his lips with a sharp finality. His eyes, still glowing faintly red, bore into yours with a depth of sorrow that broke your heart.
Your mind reeled, trying to process what you were hearing, but all you could do was stare at him, at this person you thought you knew. The man you loved… wasn’t human.
“I’ve been hiding it,” he continued, his voice barely above a whisper. “I didn’t want to scare you. I didn’t want you to look at me like I’m a monster.”
You felt dizzy, the room spinning around you, but when you met his gaze again, something in you steadied. Despite the shock, despite the impossible truth he had just told you, there was one thing you couldn’t ignore—the look in his eyes. The fear. The pain. He was terrified of losing you.
“Are you scared?” he asked softly, his voice cracking as if he was holding his breath, waiting for you to run. “Please… tell me if you’re scared.”
The air felt thick in your lungs, but you took a deep breath, willing your heartbeat to calm. You looked at him—really looked at him—and saw the man you had come to love. The one who had stayed by your side through everything. The one who had always put your safety before his own desires.
“No,” you whispered, your voice stronger than you expected. “I’m not scared.”
Chan blinked, clearly not expecting your response. “Y/N…”
You stepped forward, closing the distance between you, your hand reaching for his. His skin was cold, even colder now, but you didn’t flinch. You held onto him like you were anchoring him to the earth.
“You’re not a monster,” you whispered, your gaze softening as you looked into his eyes, into those red, burning irises that once would have terrified you. “You’re still you, Chan. And nothing about this changes how I feel.”
He stared at you, disbelief and relief battling in his expression. His lips parted, but no words came. He was trembling, like he couldn’t comprehend your acceptance, like he was afraid this moment would shatter into a nightmare.
“I love you,” you said, the words spilling from your heart, raw and honest. “And I’m not going anywhere.”
A tear slipped down his cheek, and he pulled you into his arms, holding you with a desperation that made your heart ache. You could feel him shaking, his cold body pressed against yours, but in that moment, you knew one thing for certain.
You weren’t afraid.
“I thought I’d lose you,” he whispered into your hair, his voice breaking. “I thought… I’d lose everything.”
You held him tighter, your hand gently stroking his back. “You’ll never lose me.”
In the quiet of the night, as the shadows enveloped you both, the truth lay bare between you. And even though everything had changed, the love you felt for him burned brighter than ever, unshakable and eternal.
shaking myself (very gently) . being in pain takes a lot of energy!!!!!! being in pain is exhausting!!!!!!! you are not lazy or weak because you need to spend so much time resting, this is your body coping with how much pain you’re in literally 24/7!!!!!!!!!
addition: feeling big emotions is exhausting & takes a lot of energy!!!!!!!! needing to rest after having big feelings isn’t a sign of being weak or lazy either!!!!!!!! your body needs time to rest & recover even when it isn’t for a ‘normal’ reason
If anyone wants to know what it's like to go insane, I can give an example.
Out of the 6 new posts I saw just now on my feed, two were of Chan whoring around with those handprints on him and that wasn't enough, naur, my brain also started blasting Railway.
tw // burns , death
this is self indulgent i think :p
till the end of forever
you need to be loved unconditionally. you need to be reminded that love is not temporary, that you deserve it. that those who love you will not leave. you need to be loved the way angels love humanity. or how devils love angels. you need to be loved in greatness, in fullness, you need to be loved hard and fierce. loud, shout it to the ends of the earth, your love won’t leave. you need to be loved when nothing else will be. you need to realize you are worthy even through the end.
tagging: @bangtanintotheroom @kiestrokes @minisugakoobies @chans-room and anyone else interested
Well. This was tragic fun. Because I can’t pick one Binnie 🌚
like you can love again
you need to be loved in a way that shows you love is sacred, it is divine. you need to be loved so purely, so lightly, so you can learn to love. you need to be loved in the way oceans rise, but also fall. you need to be loved in the way wind rushes through leaves. you need to be loved gently, and patiently, and understanding. you need to be loved in a way that even if you cannot love, you will still be loved.
non-obligatory tags: @still-with-koo @mochilatae @hwaslayer @andysorbit @amethystwrytes @btsgotjams27 @kittycat1dsn @yungigiggles + anyone else that wants to play
you need to be loved unconditionally. you need to be reminded that love is not temporary, that you deserve it. that those who love you will not leave. you need to be loved the way angels love humanity. or how devils love angels. you need to be loved in greatness, in fullness, you need to be loved hard and fierce. loud, shout it to the ends of the earth, your love won't leave. you need to be loved when nothing else will be. you need to realize you are worthy even through the end.
tagging: @eureka-its-zico @j-a-nuary @chimivx and the girl reading this 😘
you need to be loved patiently. you need to feel the love slowly creeping in, a warning, a way to back away if you’re too scared. you need to be loved cautiously, as if you’re fragile. you need to be loved gently, because love is messy and muddy and makes your socks wet and hurts if the sun gets too close. but you need to let yourself be loved, because when you do, it’ll feel like spring.
going to cry now, thanks @chans-room 🙃
tagging: @j-0ne25 , @minkieater , @bangtanhoneys , @lookitsjess , @b1ueboi-jjunie , & anyone else that wants to play 🫶
you need to be loved in happiness and foolishness. a puppy love, a love so purely good, so full of happiness it makes your stomach ache. you need to be loved in a way that reminds you of the childhood you didn’t get to have. you need to be loved as if you’re feeling the rain fall upon your cheeks for the first time. refreshing, and clean.
you need to be loved in a way that shows you love is sacred, it is divine. you need to be loved so purely, so lightly, so you can learn to love. you need to be loved in the way oceans rise, but also fall. you need to be loved in the way wind rushes through leaves. you need to be loved gently, and patiently, and understanding. you need to be loved in a way that even if you cannot love, you will still be loved.
wow, really felt this one 🥹 also it's so jinnie and me coded (?)
you need to be loved in happiness and foolishness. a puppy love, a love so purely good, so full of happiness it makes your stomach ache. you need to be loved in a way that reminds you of the childhood you didn't get to have. you need to be loved as if you're feeling the rain fall upon your cheeks for the first time. refreshing, and clean.
🏷️: @giddyfatherchris @bluejutdae @hyuuukais @hyunjins-orange-slice-too & anyone else who wants to play!
hehe oh yes, and you'll see mine is so fitting to me and what we've been working on, it's ridiculous 😂 (also I can't choose because I'm MinChan biased😇)
