HistorophileZey @zenobiaofbyzantium - Tumblr Blog

as soon as the internet decided depression and anxiety were the everyman mental illnesses and therefore not to be taken seriously we were all fucked tbh bc the fact that i have to feel embarrassed to admit i have debilitating anxiety because people will think im just an uwu dont call me out coward is ridiculous. its insane that i have to clarify that my depressive episodes are like life threatening and not whatever dipshit dumbed down idea of depression people seem to have like oh yeah i just wanna watch netflix and eat ice cream and not text people back. like bro i think im the devil

leastniceperson

like maybe depression and anxiety are household names now but they do still kill people. like. theres a reason they fucking kill people.

the-last-teabender

I actually kinda miss when “I have anxiety” was misinterpreted as “I’m a little nervous,” it was still a shitty misunderstanding but at least it was one I could work with.

A Decade of Tumblr

I do not recall the day I opened the account but this year it turned 10!

It’s been some decade... I was a high school senior, about to get into to my bachelor’s. Hoping for a better life, dreaming a life of pure joy in which I’d spend my days doing my dream job, living in a place I’ve chosen for myself... I had a whole vision. Some parts of it, I’ve achieved. Even today, after a few years I’ve reached them, it doesn’t feel real. I’d been hoping to do them for so long, on occasion, it gives me chills. Good ones.

Some parts, I’m still wishing to accomplish. Hopefully, I’m on my way of securing them soon. Cliché but true, life has its ups and downs and mine has certainly had me feeling like I’m on a roller-coaster. Regardless, this year seems different from others. I’ve gained something delicate and which I hold dear. I’ve met new people who are absolute gems. Hoping that this flow continues further into the rest of the year, and my life.

“Long story short, I survived.” Not only survived but slowly thrived. And I am immensely grateful to myself for that. There were times I feared I wouldn’t rise above any of those unpleasant experiences, but I did. It wasn’t a done deal, a foregone conclusion; I could have very well spent my life in relative misery, depression. Pain was easier to deal with. Happiness takes effort, some luck, some love. And I’ve been choosing it every day.

Here's to a decade of survival and here’s to a few more of them, of ascent… “Here’s to my future, here’s to my yesterday. Here’s to change, oh, here’s to my yesterday. No tomorrow without a yesterday. Here’s to my future. Goodbye to yesterday.”

#academics #studyblr #life update #blog update #translator #historyblr

trainthief

*becomes everything I dreamed of when I was little and almost doesn’t notice*

zenobiaofbyzantium

not everything yet but many of them. it is so easy to forget what you've wanted to do for a long time once you achieve. it is crucial to look back every once in a while.

makaylajade-author

Being a writer is just 97% googling words to make sure they mean exactly what you always assumed they meant.

zenobiaofbyzantium

same goes for being a translator...

#translator #writers on tumblr #studyblr #academics

wedarkacademia

#me af

motivatemycollegelife

A bar with a library??? Heaven ❤️

zenobiaofbyzantium

"heaven... I'm in heaven..."

ancientsstudies

Some moments are nice, some are nicer, some are even worth writing about.

ig credit: henrifilm.

maviyenot

zenobiaofbyzantium

wish I were there right now...

memehumor

emotionalwords

i’m such a “i want your attention” but “won’t bother you” kinda person

crocketthoughton

The truth is out there

zenobiaofbyzantium

Same goes for being a translator.

#daily caffeine #grad studyblr #writerscommunity #translator in action #translator

study-diaries

I will succeed. Not immediately. But definitely.

zenobiaofbyzantium

I absolutely will.

#grad studyblr #historyblr

Quick Update!!!

Still very much alive. Keeping on translating, PhDing, caffeine consuming. And also in a relationship that makes me feel like I'm on cloud nine. Life's going solid so far, Tumblr. It has its ups and downs, for sure, but in overall I am alright; safe, well, loved, all of which I am grateful for. I do hope to spend some more time here, updating the studyblr community regularly. Fingers crossed... Zee out, for now.