KaPow::ShaZaam

shelby. 34. vocalist and crafter. rheumatoid arthritis (RA), ADD. short. really good at untying knots. welcome to random.

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Julia de Burgos, from a poem titled "That You Love Me," featured in Song of the Simple Truth: Poems

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artist: mafalda vasconcelos

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Longevity Peach Buns

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I am utterly exhausted by being perceived lately. I want to wriggle around in the dirt. I want to make and take my meals alone and slowly. I want to walk without seeing a soul. I want to squish myself into oil paint and flop around a canvas. I want to stick my head inside a piano.

I am so profoundly lonely in a way I’ve never felt before, and still not alone enough.

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An unexpected and anachronistic treat:

going to my very adult doctor appointment to find a favorite childhood movie (Hercules) playing in the lobby. Proceeding with very adult appointment. Leaving with a treat of gold fish crackers and teddy grams from said lobby.

it was a good day. I feel good. I am slowly learning how to move about in this world and in my new position more confidently, and finding the more I lean in to just… getting things done instead of being very serious about them, the easier they are to do and the more whimsy floods my life.

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hi tumblr world

idk where else to put this random thought:

i have been seeing so much of hilary duff lately and i just get the impression that she is so over being a celebrity. And yet ramping up her visibility? Every clip I see of her makes me feel bad for her 🤦‍♀️

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Fellow period-havers:

do you ever get hyper-specific emotions/thoughts right before your period? Like, my primary pms symptom if I am stressed out is, specifically, feelings of deep inadequacy/paranoia that a specific person or persons hate me.

luckily i’ve caught the pattern and can usually regulate myself before i crash out but theres usually more of a spiral than i’d like 😩

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It is the most GORGEOUS October morning, leaves are at their peak, pink sunrise, crisp air. Mmmmmmmm

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End of autumn

Sault Ste. Marie, Ontario - Canada 10.2025

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A few seconds from the 5th of October 2024

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Victorian decorated chancel ceiling, Church of St. Helen, Brant Broughton, Lincolnshire

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