IM ALWAYS LOST.

About me? uhm, i prefer about my blog because my blog defines me :) This space is too short for u to know me. so read through my posts and even the photos i reblog. Im Zhyndyliir The wanderer who loves the moon. 

[dailyladylyrics]

you know i’d be lying, sayin you were the one that could finally fix me, lookin at my history

bad at love // halsey

[kekotelli]

[nerdylittlesecrets]

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HOW THE FUCK 

That has got to be one of the most clever uses of transparency I’ve seen on this site yet.

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[skulandcrossbones]

[zhyndyliirthewanderer]

Kapag nag mahal ka ng dalawa piliin mo yung pangatlo sure naman ako may pang apat at pang lima ka pa. Nahiya ka pa wag kana pumili pagsabay sabayin mo na hayup ka naman e octopus ka diba tanginamo galamay lang madami sayo. wala kang PUSO.

[zhyndyliirthewanderer]

“HEAT OF YOU”

She find it comfortable falling asleep to the heat of your body.. she gave everything to you that night... thinking that she would wake up every morning with the same heat that she felt when she fell asleep. but when she woke up.. she had been awaken not by the heat of your body next to her.. but the heat coming from the sun kissing her skin.. and when she open her eyes.. She saw a big space on her bed.. her dress scattered everywhere.. and tears started to fall.. as the sun wakes her up.. not just his physical body.. but the heat of the sun wakes her heart and mind up.. that the warmth she once loved and felt.. the heat she admires the most.. the one that put her to sleep every night.. was not the same heat that wakes her up.. 

She then realize.. that the heat she loves the most that oozing heat she felt that night.. does not exist in the morning.. the warmth of the heat that take her for granted.. That heat that take away her light.. the heat that only exist in the middle of the night.. the warm hugs and kisses.. that will leave her when the sun is up. and now.. she started to love the coldness inside her heart.. because she’s afraid of the heat... that will leave her once the sun is up. She now have a cold HEART. the tears and the wind coming from her window every night, the stars and the moon in the night.. the dark sky.. that’s what put her to sleep.. but one thing never changed.. it was the sun that always woke her up.. the only heat that she don’t hate.

[zhyndyliirthewanderer]

She’s too lazy to comb her hair, Sometimes she prefer to leave things broken than trying to fix it.. she appreciate broken things.. she even fell in love with what’s already broken. 

She’s too simple. she get hurt easily.. she give up easily but after giving up for a minute you’ll see she’ll stand again and try her every best. Shes not pretty shes kind.. that’s why she always get taken for granted. but she dont mind it. she cared for you she loved you she make u smiled because that’s what she wants even though she already knew she was being taken for granted..

Shes fragile.. but people wont handle her with care.. instead they will let her slip away, and be broken.. and left hanging. but despite of all that has been mentioned.. yea, she’ll hate you she’ll get mad at you but after some time if u got a chance to meet her again you’ll see a smile on her face greeting you like there’s nothing wrong.. and trust me that smile she gave you its real shes really glad to see you.. even if you’tr with someone else. 

She will appreciate the both of you.. maybe at some point she’ll feel bitter over you.. but then she’ll always take the positive side.. that would hurt her a little bit.. but that pain wont take long. She’s been born to forgive not to forget.. 

She’s born to love even not to be loved.. not to hate.. She’s born to understand not to over see things and misunderstand it if you’re not glad to have her.. she would still be glad to have met you and be a part of her life even if u take some of her shine and happiness.

She’s a nagger she will always brag about how much she loves you. Shes a short tempered girl but she cant stay mad at you forever. she’ll forgive u anyway so u’ll end up taking her for granted. she’ll be in pain for every thing you do.. but she wont tell because for her.. its better to be hurt by the person she loves rather than having no one to hurt her. 

and in every “She’s” in the sentence.. that was me describing myself.. She’s worth it. Im worth it. but no one could last being with her. No one can stay by my side for long. she loved with everything she has. I loved with everything i have. But she’s always lost. IM ALWAYS AND FORVER LOST. She’s a magnet of all the mistake. I always do the wrong one. She’s a fool for love. IM STUPID FOR LOVING. 

Do u think someone can love her?. Do u think someone could fall in love with me? 

Everything she wants seems so impossible. Everything i want.. no one could give that.  

She stopped assuming things. I ALREADY STOPPED DREAMING ABOUT SOMEONE THAT COULD EVER APPRECIATE MY EXISTENCE. 

--- That’s the end. 

The end.

[marci1900]

[marci1900]

[zhyndyliirthewanderer]

A mekaniko story.

One day a girl with a broken heart saw a man repairing a broken car. 

Isang araw my isang dalaga na napadaan sa paayusan ng sasakyan at napatitig sa mekaniko habang nag aayos ng sasakyan.

napansin ito ng mekaniko kaya agad to lumabas sa ilalim ng sasakyan at tinanong ang dalaga..

“Ms. anong ipapaayos mo?” - tanong ni mekaniko.

napahawak sa dibdib ang babae. at napansin ito ng mekaniko at muling nagsalita na may kasamang pag iling pa. 

“Nako.. teka ms. di ko kaya mag-ayos ng dibdib. mekaniko ako hindi doctor.” 

natawa ang dalaga. at napabitaw sa pagkakahawak ng dibdib. 

“Hahaha, kuya mali po kayo. kuya nag-aayos ba kayo ng naghahang?” 

“Hah? naghahang na ano?” sobrang gulong gulo na ang mekaniko.

“Pusong nagha hang kase iniwan nya sa ere na hanggang ngayon naka hang parin sakanya.” Pag hugot ng dalaga sa binatang mekaniko.

“Ay. ms. may sira lang kaya kong ayusin eh.”

“Sige po kuya unahin nyo ng ayusin yung gago kong ex na sira ulo. saka nyo na po isunod yung puso ko.” 

“Ayy malala na yun ms. di na maayos yun.”

“Eh bakit pa kayo nag mekaniko?!” Nagalit ang dalaga at napasigaw. 

“Para sa mga sirang bagay. Hindi para sa mga taong tinuring na bagay pagkatapos ay sinira.” 

the end. XD

[marci1900]

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[herhmione]

there is a time for silence. there is a time waiting your turn. but if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say, you’ll know it. i don’t think you should wait. i think you should speak now

[marci1900]

[zhyndyliirthewanderer]

Dont hold my hand.. you have yours hold it.. then let it go, don’t hurt me by holding my hand then letting go of it when you found someone.

[zhyndyliirthewanderer]

Im just a lost girl not ready to be found.

Once again im lost.. in my own maze im always been like this wandering my own maze a crazy stupid girl who’s still not used to her maze. i don’t know if someone will ever find me. 

Its like im into the woods.. please don’t try to search for me.. there is a lot of beasts hiding in the bushes of my emotions.. it will swallow you and your light will turn into darkness. 

I am not worthy of loosing a light. i am just a completely darkness. don’t go near me.. my darkness will sip the light in you.. and you’ll be totally dark and empty. 

i decided not to be found. i am not lost.. my emotions brings me here where i am. im a girl who lives in my own.. darkness. the darkness that is not evil.. but the darkness of being sad rejected hurt and betrayed.. 

i don’t have any anger here in my heart.. its not someone else fault for having this kind of darkness im the one to blame but no dont blame me i am not complaining.. im at peace so dont bother me. 

“NEVER TRY TO WANDER IN MY MAZE YOU’LL NOT BE LOST BUT YOU’LL BE DARK AND DEAD.” 

[marci1900]

[marci1900]