a pattern FORMS! @zwaartgat - Tumblr Blog

listen i don’t know how detailed i actually want the pages on the blog but …. sigma’s being moved to @reccalled along w a few other muses!

#ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )#queue.

zwaartgat

listen i don’t know how detailed i actually want the pages on the blog but …. sigma’s being moved to @reccalled along w a few other muses!

#ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )

zwaartgat

listen i don’t know how detailed i actually want the pages on the blog but …. sigma’s being moved to @reccalled along w a few other muses!

#ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )

zwaartgat

listen i don’t know how detailed i actually want the pages on the blog but …. sigma’s being moved to @reccalled along w a few other muses!

#ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )

listen i don’t know how detailed i actually want the pages on the blog but .... sigma’s being moved to @reccalled along w a few other muses!

#ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )#the url was a placeholder url but my fiancee said she liked it so #im keeping it i guess

the most fun thing abt if I made an ovw multi is that I could bring bob back

#i thought abt writing ashe and then I was like #wait. i used to write bob. i miss bob.#ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )#mobile post tag.

Sitting in the break room at work, waiting for my fiancee to get done w her shift, kinda wanna make a Hanzo blog,

#I WANT TO WRITE....HANZO...#and my muse for sieb is low :'(#tho i could multimuse ??#maybe throw nic and baptiste on there too hmmmmm #ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )#mobile post tag.

also sidenote im writing a mchnzo fic and ive got 15k and ive forgotten how much i enjoy writing both of those boys

#throwback to my mccree blog i used like once and got too scared to continue on #i'd write either of them these days tbh i love them both #this fic is literally just #hanzo learns to be a good brother and gets therapy and a cowboy bf #ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )

hey guess what guys my fiancee and i are all moved out and safe and settled ( tho we still have half a storage shed to move into the new place but we have another few days for that )

#the DRAMA our old roommate caused ... my god ...#but we dont have to deal with her any more #all our pets are moved and happy #we just need to buy a couch SDGFDH #ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )

so, to anyone curious abt my abscence and my situation / why i’ve been so sick:

our roommate met a guy.

guy smokes weed and cigarettes nearly constantly. i have asthma. my fiancee has schizophrenia, and weed puts her schizophrenia into hardcore mode, putting her into psychosis episodes for long periods where i have to dedicate my time to taking care of her and making sure she doesn’t hurt herself.

we’ve told our roommate about this. she’s watched it happen. she doesn’t care and pulls the victim card of ‘you guys never let me be happy’. we’ve told her the weed smoke can kill our bird. she doesn’t care. i have had bronchitis pretty much steadily since the guy started coming around. it sucks.

one of our other roommates moved out because of this situation. two of our roommate’s friends have decided to cut her out of their lives. my fiancee and i don’t have the money to put down to move out right now, or else we’d already be out.

we can’t get it through our roommate’s head that she’s quite literally affecting our physical and mental health with this, and has ultimately decided to let this homeless, refusing-to-get-a-job, telling my fiancee her medication is poison, weed smoking jerk live with us. rent free.

i’m honestly at a loss for what to do. :’) i haven’t been able to breathe well since all this started. i’ve had more close to asthma attack moments this past month than i have had all year.

so, yeah. that’s my situation.

i’ve been coping with it, but i haven’t properly written anything in a while even though writing is usually my go-to for stress relief. kinda tired of this whole thing.

#ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )

Sorry for the lazy mobile posting but I'm very tired. Have my discord. ♥️

#ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )#I'm exhausted!!#but i appreciate you guys #a lot #mobile post tag.

Y'know, I should just put this blog ( and all my blogs ) on an informal semi hiatus. My mental health ( and physical health, actually... ) is taking a severe nosedive and I just ... I need time to rest and I can't get it. I'm tired, guys. So tired.

#ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ғᴀʟʟᴇɴ ɴᴏsᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀ. ( ooc )#i guess ... dms are open but #idk. just ask for my discord if you want it.#im too stressed to really think these days.#mobile post tag.