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23. my diary

[zz-girl]

chewing my nail beds again

[zz-girl]

took sarah to the airport yday and am already missing her so much! might go to the pool today :3 we’ll see

[slfcare]

I used to hate it when people said the trick was to just do it until ‘do it scared’ started going around, because that’s truly it. Life didn’t start changing until I applied for jobs with one hand in front of my eyes and a trembling hand navigating my computer mouse. Or until I said everything on my mind (in moderation) with my fists clenched and my legs weak. Or until I refused to accept that I’d ‘just’ be shy forever while also kind of being nauseous at the idea of trying to be the opposite. Two things can coexist and that’s exactly the point of believing that you can do anything.

[sailermoon]

this is my favorite genre of post

[softwaring]

moon and rainbow at sunrise by mark ham

[tunisian]

im doing it alone…doing it scared…but im doing it

[horrorlesbians]

everytime I remember that lesbian couple that have a marble statue of the two of them embracing and sleeping on a bed together over where their graves will be because the artists didn’t believe they would be able to be married before they died, so what they couldn’t have in life they could have in death, I fucking breakdown

[horrorlesbians]

memorial to a marriage; patricia cronin

[horrorlesbians]

“on july 24th, 2011- the first day that same sex marriage was legal in new york state, particia cronin and deborah kass got married. that same year the marble ‘memorial to a marriage’ was replaced with a bronze version. rainwater pools in the space between their two sculpted bodies, and falling leaves catch on the metal in the autumn. the two women sleep peacefully through snow and ice, and the scorching days of summer. over time the hands of cemetery visitors will wear down the bronze, burnishing it into a smooth shine. one day this will mark the final resting place of the two women. and someday people will have to remember that there was a time, long ago, when this was a memorial to a marriage that two women never thought they’d have.” 

- Caitlin Doughty, on the Death in the Afternoon podcast

[damnedifyoudeeohh-deactivated20]

For those curious:

[friendraichu]

Here’s the real-life couple in 2019 💖

[guerrillatech]

[zz-girl]

hibachi!!! met up with a good friend and had so much fun. randomly drove in a huge thunderstorm afterwards? but i digress

sarah and i have been trying to be more active lately. we played soccer the other day (read: she played soccer and i tried to kick the ball around) and it was fun!!! maybe we will go kayaking today hehe :3

[zz-girl]

transit! got my car towed for the first time LOLS.. not too bad tbh. $200 is way less than i thought it would be! sarah came with me so it was pretty chill and we got some mediocre pupusas. anyway go celtics (begrudgingly)

[zz-girl]

feeling really loved recently

[sweatermuppet]

age 16: the world isn't worth living in

age 24: been getting into greek yogurt & birdwatching lately

[zz-girl]

got a new camera for funzies :)

[thunderstruck9]

Nicole Wittenberg (American, 1979), Sunset 13, 2022. Oil on canvas, 18 x 24 in.

[atheist-xmas]

I hate driving because you have to do everything perfectly as fast as possible or everyone around you will announce their displeasure with airhorns

[atheist-xmas]

oh and if you mess up you die and kill a bunch of people at the same time

[atheist-xmas]

LITERALLY like disarming a bomb except there’s a peanut gallery watching you and they’ve each got an airhorn and also another bomb

[ghostowlattic]

[zz-girl]

i think i will search for u forever