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Neo-Soul , The sweetest thing I know.

I feel like nothing.

I feel like this is the best place to type this cause i know no one will see this and wonder what’s wrong who I am.

I have been feeling worthless. Like my existence doesn’t count. I feel far from special but other people, I’m sure, feel the same way. Only problem is that doesn’t make me feel any better. Just reminds me my problem is nothing and I feel this way anyway. I want to live but i hate existing. I hate being on this earth feeling and living like a bum. I want to die but I don’t want to kill myself.

I believe in God as well. I pray. I worship. But it doesn’t change my emotion. Maybe my outlook on certain things but that’s about it. I want something to seem simple or easy just one time instead of feeling like everything is a fucking test. I’m indecisive as well so feeling like i’m always standing at a crossroads just fucks me up even more. I’m tired of it. I’m tired of myself. I’m tired of everything. I want to hate someone. Something. But it’s always love love love because that’s all I know. Love love love just to get hurt then see no letting up of that hurt. I want to hurt someone. I want someone to feel as stupid as I do when I give them multiple fucking chances. I want to inflict physical pain on those I let slide because I’m “too nice.”

I want to get out of this mindset at the same time too. I want happiness. But what is happiness in this world of mine..