DangerouslyMellow

MEGAN, 33, She/her

[bryanjamess]

[ruesdeluxe]

[achillesinhighheels]

grateful for everything that forced me to love myself more.

[00007258]

I’m internalizer that is why I have anxiety issues now

The anxiety of holding everything in is suffocating

[mlleclaudine]

from Wunmi Mosaku's Instagram

[achillesinhighheels]

Destiny’s Child

[00007258]

Not me being reminded I am actually romantically interested in people…

Yuck

*I mean I haven’t felt this way in years (having a crush) and I thought I was broken permanently due to trauma, but apparently I like people in a romantic way, it is news to me, haven’t had my basic needs met in so long I didn’t know how to want anything else that wasn’t a survival need, I was at more peace never having a crush this feels like torture that I like*

I don’t really have a physical type this is purely off how that person makes me feel, ugh feelings

This is messing up my black cat personality because I feel unraveled and my mask is dropping

[strawberrykinkygirl]

[00007258]

Complexities

“Now that I know what I know

There’s nothing new under the moon”

All these years later

I still remember the best of you

I still hold the love I had for you in such high regard

Complexity

I felt big shame in the past for loving this way

I feel somber acceptance of this is simply the nature of my heart

Because of the lessons of trauma

The complicated history of my past leading my present

I can look at the scars of you and still yet

Want you near

Abandoning my logic

My hearts nature is to be self sacrificing

That hurts me

but she is only doing what she knows

I will teach her the healthy way

let me learn it first

I miss when someone knew me

But it is more important to know myself above all else

I am every where I go

[scorpionlafemme]

[omgzitstiffy]

You dont got to want me, cause I want you!

[00007258]

I put a spell on you because your mine

You better stop the things you do

—

You know I can’t stand it

Running around

You know better

—

I put a spell on you because

Your mine

And I love you

I love you

Something about Alice Smith’s version of this song rang this bell today for me. I don’t think I will be able to hear it another way.

"EeeeeeMagine" this is your higher self talking to you calling you out of all the negative habits and beliefs you hold so dear. Yelling reaching out pleading for you to get up when you feel as no one loves you, sees you, hears you, understands you. Trying to coax you to them and their higher wisdom when you insist on following the leadership of others that were never meant to guide you —parents, friends, lovers.

They are appalled seeing the choices you make following behind an imposters for “love” often misplaced and unrequited but also completely understanding because they are you healed — you whole. Yelling out it’s me that will give you the love you seek, I will be that, I am that, and by definition you are that. Follow my spell, I have the answers you seek, I can show you the way out.

Alice Smith sings I put a spell on you so powerful, commanding, sobering and pleading I feel transformed through her emotions. She sings of a boundless unconditional love with no need for reciprocation, because it is love in its truest form.

Hmmmph

At least that’s what I heard.

[mournfulroses]

Franz Kafka, from a letter to Felice Bauer written in 1913, featured in Letters To Felice

[velvetcloak]

andrew kwon | spring 2026

[00007258]

99% of the new R&B songs are coming from across the pond and it’s good. There has to be immense support for artists developing over there

I don’t even like their accents

[niggasandcomputers]

how you gon get what you want acting like you don’t want it?

[peteharry]

[vollzeitherz-deactivated2026012]

sometimes love is just sitting with someone in their quiet. not trying to fix the silence, just lending your atmosphere.