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21 this is a personal blog dnf if i don't know u or follow u first etc. #chem personal #bio gore & erotica #death files fav characters

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i like having mutuals but now if i will go insane 80 people are going to see it instead of 5

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i miss the sea. i don't want to be here anymore

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🫩 gross reversal to a childlike state is probably not happening tonight

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im going to kill myself or someone else if i don't stop seeing posts increasingly more relevant to my life experiences

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it is genuinely so weird how my body reacts to extreme dietary restrictions. i still don't feel physical hunger (or maybe i do sometimes? im used to associating pain and discomfort with my other stomach issues) and my appetite is almost nonexistent. instead i cant fall asleep until 2-4am and/or wake up 2 hours before my first alarm

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strap 😢😢😢😢😓😓😢😢😢😓😢

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anyway i love how hopeless and doomed he looks in this panel specifically. the most empty person in the whole wide world

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genuinely feeling like a corpse. No hope

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having a weird situation with drugstore bugs (??? i think that what they are) in my old room, it keeps happening year after year but occasionally they start appearing on the windowsill there already dead. i see an alive one maybe once a year or two but i found one in my bed in the room i sleep in right now. im used to blaming them on the little hole in the wall next to the window like maybe that's where they're coming from since i never saw one in the kitchen (opposite side of the flat). idk. im feeling bugs all over me again

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FML FML FML

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managed to have an ok meal but still puked a little. well that's fine at least there is something in me for the next couple of days. might have a snack in a bit to make sure im not going to be completely miserable

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You cannot be serious that guy just dm'd me that the concert was cancelled and they're going to hold it at another date. Brother I literally don't want to go i cant both mask socially and handle loud sounds at the same time without getting an atrocious headache

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i am physically incapable of winning ive been putting off eating for 8 hours and the moment i finally decided im ready i saw the most vague info post ever and it triggered me so badly i zoned out for 10 minutes and now im nauseous and about to get a migraine 💆

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sinya is such an asshole she just sleeps all day then climbs on top of me and starts kneading my left boob specifically purring like a tractor. then i pet her for a couple of minutes and she randomly decides that it's enough and bites me (like for real to the point of drawing blood sometimes) and runs away. still love her but girl wtf

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AT LEAST NOW im spending all my time in bed and im losing weight instead of gaining it so it's not that bad. jesus Christ my head hurts i need to sleep so bad. i have stuff i should and can do but i don't want to do anything this is so annoying

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everything is so ridiculously fucking boring it's unbearable and i can't do anything about it that's just how things are !!!!!!!! this is my life forever until i kill myself. i should be drinking myself to death right now. i could do it on sunday as a treat but it's actually going to be a health hazard if i drink too soon