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indie jane 'el' hopper of stranger things, sideblog, highly selective, low activity. est. 05/23. written by lottie. i am literally only here for friends, so be warned. also found at : @scoopstrooptm
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i know i'm like Never here lmao but i did finish writing up el's bio !!
@011tm sent 🗣️for an incorrect quote Ft. Max Mayfield & El Hopper
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i know the implication at the start of s3 is that el has been spending virtually all her time with mike, particularly since the start of summer vacation, but this is actually factually incorrect because i said so. there is a bias towards mike, but after the end of s2 when the party & the rest of the central characters find out that el is alive, all of them visit her at hop's cabin between then and the start of the s3 timeline. she has to be careful when visiting the party's houses and being spotted by their parents, but el craves the social interaction and stimulation after spending a year only seeing hop and the four walls of their cabin. the only one of the party that el struggles to get close to is max if only because that friendship comes later during the s3 timeline
𝟐𝟎𝟎 𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐌 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐔𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒
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❛ close your eyes and hold out your hands. ❜ ❛ what are you smiling at? ❜ ❛ i can’t leave you alone for one minute, can i? ❜ ❛ was it you? did you do all this? ❜ ❛ i don’t know how you do this every day… ❜ ❛ that is not an appropriate question to ask a lady you’ve just met. ❜ ❛ i’m not sorry. ❜ ❛ i did warn you not to trust me. ❜ ❛ do you remember anything? at all? ❜ ❛ you’re lucky you’re cute. ❜ ❛ why don’t you just kill me? ❜ ❛ did you hurt yourself? ❜ ❛ i could show you the way. ❜ ❛ i don’t feel so good. ❜ ❛ you owe me a dinner. a very nice dinner. ❜ ❛ don’t go. please. ❜ ❛ you wanna know what your problem is? ❜ ❛ i’m here to drink alone. ❜ ❛ don’t run away from this. ❜ ❛ i’m just saying, murder is an option. ❜ ❛ i didn’t realize you were in so much pain. ❜ ❛ i guess it runs in the family, huh? ❜ ❛ you wouldn’t understand. ❜ ❛ we’ve been through a lot. i think we should just lay low and take it easy. ❜ ❛ dangerous to be out so late. ❜ ❛ i hope you haven’t been standing out in the cold this whole time. ❜ ❛ i made a mistake. ❜ ❛ am i not good enough? ❜ ❛ i’m going to get you out of here. ❜ ❛ why did you bring me here? ❜ ❛ aren’t we in a good mood today? ❜ ❛ don’t shut me out. please. ❜ ❛ the storm’s getting worse. ❜ ❛ i never meant to hurt you. ❜ ❛ you’re about as intimidating as a butterfly. ❜ ❛ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? ❜ ❛ here, take this. you’ll catch a cold. ❜ ❛ this is the part where you leave. ❜ ❛ why are you talking like we’ll never see each other again? ❜ ❛ you stepped on my foot! ❜ ❛ you’re not a very convincing liar. ❜ ❛ we’re in completely different leagues. ❜ ❛ how did you find me? ❜ ❛ i don’t need you anymore. ❜ ❛ rough day today? ❜ ❛ snap out of it! ❜ ❛ you look better in my clothes than i do. ❜ ❛ why are you still here? ❜ ❛ can i ask… what happened? ❜ ❛ are you saying you care about me? ❜ ❛ i won’t let anyone hurt you. ❜ ❛ it’s not stealing if it was mine to begin with. ❜ ❛ well, this is where i live. ❜ ❛ we’re not so different after all. ❜ ❛ how long have i been asleep? ❜ ❛ no more lies, no more secrets. ❜ ❛ can you forgive me? ❜ ❛ i thought you… i saw you get shot. ❜ ❛ why are you really here? ❜ ❛ i wish we never met. ❜ ❛ you look like you need a hug. ❜ ❛ would you run away with me? ❜ ❛ see? i’m not just a pretty face. ❜ ❛ we can stop them. i can help you. ❜ ❛ what now? i’m tired. ❜ ❛ i didn’t want you to see me like this. ❜ ❛ i can’t do this without you. ❜ ❛ if you tell me yours, i’ll tell you mine. ❜ ❛ are you threatening me? ❜ ❛ did you ever care about me? ❜ ❛ treat me like the princess that i am! ❜ ❛ i’m not leaving you. ❜ ❛ why did you come? ❜ ❛ i need your help… and you need mine. ❜ ❛ i wish i could hate you. ❜ ❛ i see you don’t recognize me. well, it was a long time ago. ❜ ❛ you’ve lost a lot of blood. ❜ ❛ i had my suspicions, but until now i wasn’t sure. ❜ ❛ there’s nothing left for me here. ❜ ❛ that is… literally illegal. you’re describing something illegal. ❜ ❛ wait. i’ve heard that sound before. ❜ ❛ just try to hang on. ❜ ❛ so why’s it so important anyway? ❜ ❛ i’ll stay in tonight, thanks. ❜ ❛ we can’t keep going on like this. ❜ ❛ in about a minute, you’ll be sorry you didn’t listen to me. ❜ ❛ is this seat taken? sorry, it’s a bit crowded here. ❜ ❛ you can’t leave me here alone! ❜ ❛ i’ll believe it when i see it. ❜ ❛ why are you laughing? this is a very serious situation. ❜ ❛ i bought two. here. ❜ ❛ i’ve seen you before, walking by. ❜ ❛ why can’t i come with you? ❜ ❛ c'mon. aren’t you worried what might happen if we go? ❜ ❛ walk with me? ❜ ❛ it’s very rude to stare. ❜ ❛ how many times have i told you? you can’t visit me here. ❜ ❛ we can’t fix this. can we? ❜ ❛ are you going to kill me? ❜ ❛ it’s not like you can stop me. ❜ ❛ it’s not safe for people to see us together. ❜ ❛ take me with you. ❜ ❛ some risks are worth taking. ❜ ❛ let them go. take me instead. ❜ ❛ what do you want in exchange for it? ❜ ❛ is being drunk an excuse? ❜ ❛ promise me you won’t overreact. ❜ ❛ how can i possibly trust you? after all you’ve done. ❜ ❛ how long have you been standing there? ❜ ❛ why did you wake me? ❜ ❛ i’m not here to talk about my feelings. ❜ ❛ you were going to leave without saying goodbye? ❜ ❛ for some reason, i’m attracted to you. ❜ ❛ promise me? ❜ ❛ it’s nothing, i’m just tired. ❜ ❛ i feel safe with you. ❜ ❛ i don’t need your help. ❜ ❛ i think i have a bit more experience with this thing than you do. ❜ ❛ no way, i’m not doing that. ❜ ❛ i do care. ❜ ❛ you snore in your sleep. it’s adorable. ❜ ❛ i have a spare bed. ❜ ❛ you’re very kind. some day it’ll get you killed. ❜ ❛ you’ll always have a home with me. ❜ ❛ of course i care. you’re my family. ❜ ❛ you shouldn’t insult people that are bigger than you. ❜ ❛ i never wanted to hurt you. ❜ ❛ i swear it wasn’t me. ❜ ❛ we can just sit here, you don’t have to talk. ❜ ❛ did you miss me? ❜ ❛ this isn’t just about you. it’s about what’s best for all of us. ❜ ❛ you can never admit when you’re wrong! ❜ ❛ is this what you wanted? ❜ ❛ what are you doing out here by yourself? ❜ ❛ sorry to put you through that. i guess i owe you one now. ❜ ❛ the only time you talk to me is when you need something. ❜ ❛ i’m still learning. ❜ ❛ if you have something to say, spit it out. ❜ ❛ you… don’t like me very much, do you? ❜ ❛ i’m on your side. ❜ ❛ i risked my life for you! ❜ ❛ whatever you’re going to ask, the answer is no. ❜ ❛ you can stay with me. ❜ ❛ i just need time. ❜ ❛ please don’t do this, don’t act like you care. ❜ ❛ who the hell invited you? ❜ ❛ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? ❜ ❛ i just wanted to say i’m sorry. ❜ ❛ think of it as a compliment. ❜ ❛ do you ever stop being so serious and dull? ❜ ❛ it’s rare to see your kind around here. ❜ ❛ you remember me. that’s good. ❜ ❛ you’re a terrible flirt you know. ❜ ❛ are you kidding me? we’re not ‘fine’! ❜ ❛ right now i wish i was dead. ❜ ❛ i guess i should’ve told you. ❜ ❛ you’re not alone. i’m here. ❜ ❛ you’ve been so quiet. what’s on your mind? ❜ ❛ knowledge is power. ❜ ❛ you scared me. ❜ ❛ well, what’s so strange about that? ❜ ❛ don’t look at me like that. ❜ ❛ i want to be there when you get what’s coming to you. ❜ ❛ just who do you think you are? ❜ ❛ you look… amazing. ❜ ❛ we’re safe, aren’t we? ❜ ❛ you know, i really hoped i’d never see this place again. ❜ ❛ don’t touch me. get away from me. ❜ ❛ i thought you’d like this. ❜ ❛ it’s too dark, i can’t see anything. ❜ ❛ what’s that smug look for? you think you can do any better? ❜ ❛ who did you piss off this time? ❜ ❛ you should’ve thought about that before you got into a fight. ❜ ❛ i only wanted to help. ❜ ❛ you knew and you didn’t tell me? ❜ ❛ you don’t scare me. ❜ ❛ wow, look who remembered my existence. ❜ ❛ change isn’t easy. ❜ ❛ why did you help me? ❜ ❛ why do you hate me? ❜ ❛ i can’t even trust myself anymore. ❜ ❛ i was making sure you weren’t dead, since you never called. ❜ ❛ you look awful. what happened? ❜ ❛ are you here to kill me? ❜ ❛ you know you aren’t allowed in here, right? ❜ ❛ was that a friend of yours? ❜ ❛ two years later and you haven’t changed. ❜ ❛ you look like you just saw a ghost. ❜ ❛ nobody tells me what to do. ❜ ❛ you’re too scared to do it, aren’t you? ❜ ❛ come on. it can’t be that bad. ❜ ❛ i hope to repay your kindness someday. ❜ ❛ just let me do this for you. ❜ ❛ why were they coming after you? ❜ ❛ how many people have you killed? how many? ❜ ❛ how much do you value your life? ❜ ❛ you don’t know when to give up, do you? ❜ ❛ don’t lie to me. ❜ ❛ i’m not sober enough to talk about this. ❜ ❛ have a drink with me. ❜
@harringtontm sent a meme: ❛ it’s very rude to stare. ❜
El started at the sound of Steve's voice, reluctantly emerging from where she had been half-hidden behind the open door to the Harrington house kitchen, watching him open and close cupboard doors in search of food and snacks for the others, playing outside. Hopper had ( begrudgingly ) let her come over with Mike to hang out with the rest of the party, knowing that no adults would be here, making this the first house in Hawkins she had stepped into and had the full freedom to explore — and it was big. But she wasn't just curious about her surroundings, but Steve too. He wasn't like the rest of the party — he was older, and whenever Mike had turned around and called him words such as lame or uncool or gross because he used to date my sister, Dustin would call him a badass and cool once you got to know him.
She didn't know what to make of him, with his big house and his big hair and the way that he let them all hang out here and eat his food, even though he wasn't family. But she wanted to know more.
Looking suitably scolded for her act of staring, El cautiously stepped further into the kitchen. There was a bag of popcorn in Steve's hand that he'd retrieved from the microwave, and before he reached for the bowl on the other end of the counter, El jerked her head and it slid across the table top towards him. “ Where are your... parents? ” She paused on the word, furrowing her brow at him. “ Are you alone? ” Maybe it was an impertinent question, but El knew, better than most, what being alone was like.
EL HOPPER + KALI PRASAD STRANGER THINGS | S02E07 “The Lost Sister”
@008tm sent a meme: ❛ was it you? did you do all this? ❜
The heat from the helicopter's explosion was still burning hot on her face, even at this distance — though the fate of the pilot and the sniper with the gun pointed at her were the least of El's concerns. She'd done it. The empty, hopeless feeling in her chest that had plagued her for months, ever since Starcourt, had gone, her power finally returned to her, its familiar static crackling beneath her skin as it had always been. Or at least for as long as she could remember, if not her entire life. Even with the collar that papa had placed around her neck in those angered moments before the government's arrival, when she'd tried to leave this facility of her own accord, she could feel it. She could return to Hawkins and save her friends now. She could protect them from Henry. She could protect Max.
Unaware of what else might have been going on around her, El did eventually turn — and met the gaze of the most surprising of allies out here in the middle of nowhere. “ Kali... ” Even at a distance, her sister seemed virtually unchanged from the last time El had seen her, though she didn't immediately start forward to meet her embrace. Kali's words halted her step, created a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach as she looked back at the burning inferno she'd created all by herself. Papa had said that the Nina Project should bring back her powers stronger than she could ever remember them being, and he was right. A superhero, or a monster? She did not yet know their limits.
El nodded, tentatively, though the destruction and death around them did not seem to deter the way that Kali continued to close the gap between them. She stepped forward to greet her, reaching forward to take both of Kali's hands in her own, checking that she was definitely real. “ Did the government people bring you here? ” she asked softly, sparing another glance at the desert surrounding them. “ Or did you follow them? ” It was difficult to believe that Kali had tracked her here, particularly after the two years they had spent apart and the way that the two of them had parted in the first place. But perhaps she had come to find papa...
She thought again of what she'd seen in those tapes, the memories that had been hidden for so long, blocked out by her own mind. The urge to share what she'd seen with a friendly face bubbled up in her, and her voice faltered. “ I know about Henry. I know about all of it. ”
MILLIE BOBBY BROWN as ELEVEN STRANGER THINGS: SEASON ONE (2016)
i know a lot has been made of el & billy but i think what really makes me feral about the dynamic is the fact that el, as any traumatised child would, absolutely latches onto those characters who offer her basic human kindness ( i'm talking s1 in particular, so the party and joyce. hop too but that dynamic comes a little later ) and you can see just how much all of that means to her by how readily she protects and throws her life on the line for those individuals in return, repaying that kindness in the only real language she knows: by using her powers to hurt their enemies and keep them safe. of course she develops a lot between then and s3, but there's really no character better placed to understand what an impact basic human kindness and compassion can have on the trajectory of a person's life ( who might she have become if mike, dustin & lucas hadn't found her in the woods? ), and for billy that was always what she was going to offer him. she fights him in the sauna because she has to protect her friends from the physical threat in front of them, but she makes so many repeated attempts to reach him and heather through her "shadow walking" before the breakthrough during the plot's climax at starcourt that it was always her preferred means of resolution.
turns out i can't deal with dash only blogs, so el has a theme now :')
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PORTRAYAL NOTES.
#1: my portrayal of jane/el is canon divergent as of s4 in that she and mike are no longer together romantically, and decided to take a break from their relationship after she moved with the byers to california. mike can still visit el during spring break of 1986 as per the canon s4 timeline, but without the pressure of them being in a long distance relationship.
#2: to follow on from the first point, i am not particularly interested in exploring romantic pairings for jane/el. i am much more interested in her platonic & familial dynamics, and these will be the main focus of my portrayal.
#3: due to the nature of her character and the fact that i write her on a selective basis, i hugely prefer plotting when it comes to interaction.
#4: headcanon tag / meta tag
BASICS.
NAME: jane hopper
NICKNAMES / ALIASES: el ( by close friends ), eleven, jane ives ( birth name ) AGE: 12-15 BIRTHDATE: june 14th, 1971 NATIONALITY: american GENDER & SEX: female SEXUAL ORIENTATION: heterosexual SPOKEN LANGUAGES: english OCCUPATION: high school student / part time superhero HOMETOWN: hawkins, indiana CURRENT LOCATION: lenora, california
PHYSICAL TRAITS.
EYE COLOR: brown HAIR COLOR: brown HEIGHT: 5'4" FACE CLAIM: millie bobby brown
RELATIONSHIPS.
PARENTS: terry ives ( birth mother ), jim hopper ( adopted father ), joyce byers ( adopted mother ) SIBLINGS: jonathan byers ( adopted brother ), will byers ( adopted brother ) SIGNIFICANT OTHER(S): n/a CHILDREN: n/a EXTENDED FAMILY: becky ives ( maternal aunt ), kali prasad ( adopted sister ) FRIENDS: mike wheeler, max mayfield, lucas sinclair, dustin henderson, argyle, nancy wheeler, steve harrington, robin buckley, erica sinclair, sam owens ENEMIES / ANIMOSITIES: dr martin brenner, henry creel, the mindflayer, billy hargrove ( sort of )
PERSONALITY TRAITS.
STRENGTHS: brave, determined, curious, kind, confident in her own abilities, protective of her friends, empathetic WEAKNESSES: moody, socially inhibited due to her upbringing LIKES: eggos, watching tv, hanging out with her friends, living an ordinary life DISLIKES: mouth-breathers, liars, not being in control FEARS: losing the people she loves, rejection SKILLS: psychokinetic abilities that allow her to move objects with her mind and "dream walk" into others subconscious and memories by entering the void, psychically projecting her consciousness to another location, opening and closing portals to other dimensions, morse code, survival skills ALIGNMENT: neutral good
TROPES: badass adorable, death glare, girliness upgrade, mystical waif, no social skills, the power of love, psychic nosebleed, the quiet one
D&D CLASS: sorcerer
BIOGRAPHY.
For the first twelve years of her life, she knew herself only as Eleven, called as such due to the tattoo on her wrist given by her papa, Martin Brenner, Director of Operations at Hawkins National Laboratory. She did not know that she had a mother, Terry Ives, who she was taken from shortly after birth — and who suffered greatly for trying to uncover the truth about her lost daughter. She did not even know that she had not been alone at Hawkins Lab, not for the entire twelve years. She had grown up around Brenner's other test subjects, and his pride and joy, test subject 001. All she could recall when she escaped the lab on the 6th November 1983 was that she had been raised to become a weapon, and that she had to escape.
It was when she bumped into Mike Wheeler, Dustin Henderson and Lucas Sinclair, kids looking for their missing friend Will, in the woods a couple of nights later that her entire life changed. She found belonging for the first time and, with their help, managed to apply her telekinetic powers to something good. Knowing that, under Brenner's instruction, she had opened a gateway to another, dark and twisted dimension, she used that knowhow to help Will's friends and mom reunite with him, as well as inadvertently exposing the sinister cover up by the US Department of Energy.
After a showdown with the monster she'd unleashed into Hawkins, El managed to escape into the woods, where she remained until she was found by Jim Hopper. He took her in, sheltering her in a cabin in order to keep her hidden from the outside world while trying to give her as normal a life as possible. It was a struggle: El was forbidden from seeing any of the friends she'd helped and grown to care about a year before, and what began as a few small acts of rebellion soon led to her running away. First to find her birth mother, Terry Ives, before she followed leads to one of the other test subjects involved in Brenner's experimentation. Upon reaching Chicago, she met her adopted sister, Kali Prasad — known in the lab as 008. El found a new sense of belonging with her group, but their quickness to right the wrongs of their past with violence, as well as signs from Hawkins that the Upside Down was once again resurfacing, led El to leave them and return to her friends. There, she reunited with Mike, Dustin, Lucas and Will, and helped close the gate in Hawkins Lab once and for all.
Or so they all thought. Arrangements were made by Dr Sam Owens, who had taken over the position of Brenner and was committed to understanding and fighting the evil posed by the Upside Down, for El to become Hopper's adopted daughter officially. She was given a birth certificate, an identity, and so long as she did not attend the local school or draw too much attention to herself, she could finally live like an ordinary teenager.
She did for the next year, until the Upside Down once again returned, resurfacing due to Russian interference in the newly built Starcourt Mall. Fighting that evil came at a greater cost this time: Hopper died at Starcourt Mall fighting the Russians, and her powers vanished after her own fight with the Mind Flayer. After suffering one tragedy too many, Joyce Byers and her family decided to move away from Hawkins entirely. El was adopted by the family and went with them to Lenora, California, where she assumed the identity of Jane Hopper truly, properly, for the first time. Here, she was a normal teenager, powerless, ordinary, and was enrolled at the local high school.
It was a struggle to adjust; without her powers, something was missing, and trying to fit in at school after such a different upbringing was almost too much of a challenge. Following an altercation with her school bully at the local roller rink, El was arrested — with charges only dropped after Sam Owens intervened. He had ominous news to impart: that the Upside Down was back again, and this time stronger than any of them had anticipated. Owens told El of a way to regain her powers, but it involved a top secret project in Nevada and coming face to face with her papa again — something she did not find out until she arrived.
El persisted, and in engaging with the Nina Project she uncovered memories long repressed: she realised that she had not been alone at Hawkins Lab, that something awful had happened to all of the other test subjects back in 1979, and that it was not she to blame for murdering them, but the fault of Brenner's first test subject, One, also known as Henry Creel. She had trusted him, and in helping him overcome his own restraints on his powers, Henry had unleashed his vengeance on the rest of the lab. El's only option was to defeat him — and in doing so, she had opened a gateway to the Upside Down and banished him there. He had become Vecna, the harbinger who now led the attack on her friends.
Stuck in California, hundreds of miles away from her friends preparing to fight Vecna in Hawkins, El did what she could to help them — entering Max's mind when Vecna did and trying to defeat him from inside of her consciousness. But it wasn't enough. Max became Vecna's fourth and final victim, allowing the Upside Down to finally break through into the real world. Only through willpower alone did El prevent Max from succumbing completely, but Vecna left her comatose, not just unresponsive but empty of her very essence.
Upon arriving back in Hawkins, any attempts El might have made to stall Vecna's progress was for naught. The Upside Down was descending into Hawkins, and it would be up to all of them to try to stop it once and for all...
VERSES.
season 1 timeline
After making contact with a strange creature through a gateway to another dimension, Jane takes advantage of the resulting chaos to escape the laboratory that had been her home for her entire life. She eventually encounters three boys, Mike, Dustin and Lucas, looking for their missing friend Will — and, while still on the run from government officials looking to recapture her, Jane becomes the key to his rescue.
season 2 timeline
Unbeknownst to the party, Jane survived her brush with a demogorgan, and is found in the woods by Hawkins police chief Jim Hopper. He takes her in, keeping her safe from the outside world in his cabin — but also isolated from it, too. Restless and anxious to learn more about the life she had been denied by Dr Martin Brenner and Hawkins Laboratory, Jane ends up on a path to her birth mother, and another escaped test subject, Kali.
season 3 timeline
After closing the gate to the Upside Down, and the closure of Hawkins lab, Jane continues to live with Hopper as his adopted daughter, now able to socialise with Mike and the rest of her friends. But in the shadow of the new Starcourt Mall, an army of servants to the Mindflayer are growing, with her new best friend Max's brother Billy at the centre of it.
season 4 timeline
After losing her powers in her fight against the Mindflayer, and losing Hopper, Jane is relocated to Lenora, California along with the Byers family to start a new life. She tries to be normal for the first time in her life, but bullies are the least of her worries; a familiar evil is returning to Hawkins, and she must confront her own past in order to become strong enough to fight it.
season 5 timeline
Follows the ( upcoming ) timeline of season 5.
𝟐𝟎𝟎 𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐌 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐔𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒
from this generator.
❛ close your eyes and hold out your hands. ❜ ❛ what are you smiling at? ❜ ❛ i can’t leave you alone for one minute, can i? ❜ ❛ was it you? did you do all this? ❜ ❛ i don’t know how you do this every day… ❜ ❛ that is not an appropriate question to ask a lady you’ve just met. ❜ ❛ i’m not sorry. ❜ ❛ i did warn you not to trust me. ❜ ❛ do you remember anything? at all? ❜ ❛ you’re lucky you’re cute. ❜ ❛ why don’t you just kill me? ❜ ❛ did you hurt yourself? ❜ ❛ i could show you the way. ❜ ❛ i don’t feel so good. ❜ ❛ you owe me a dinner. a very nice dinner. ❜ ❛ don’t go. please. ❜ ❛ you wanna know what your problem is? ❜ ❛ i’m here to drink alone. ❜ ❛ don’t run away from this. ❜ ❛ i’m just saying, murder is an option. ❜ ❛ i didn’t realize you were in so much pain. ❜ ❛ i guess it runs in the family, huh? ❜ ❛ you wouldn’t understand. ❜ ❛ we’ve been through a lot. i think we should just lay low and take it easy. ❜ ❛ dangerous to be out so late. ❜ ❛ i hope you haven’t been standing out in the cold this whole time. ❜ ❛ i made a mistake. ❜ ❛ am i not good enough? ❜ ❛ i’m going to get you out of here. ❜ ❛ why did you bring me here? ❜ ❛ aren’t we in a good mood today? ❜ ❛ don’t shut me out. please. ❜ ❛ the storm’s getting worse. ❜ ❛ i never meant to hurt you. ❜ ❛ you’re about as intimidating as a butterfly. ❜ ❛ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? ❜ ❛ here, take this. you’ll catch a cold. ❜ ❛ this is the part where you leave. ❜ ❛ why are you talking like we’ll never see each other again? ❜ ❛ you stepped on my foot! ❜ ❛ you’re not a very convincing liar. ❜ ❛ we’re in completely different leagues. ❜ ❛ how did you find me? ❜ ❛ i don’t need you anymore. ❜ ❛ rough day today? ❜ ❛ snap out of it! ❜ ❛ you look better in my clothes than i do. ❜ ❛ why are you still here? ❜ ❛ can i ask… what happened? ❜ ❛ are you saying you care about me? ❜ ❛ i won’t let anyone hurt you. ❜ ❛ it’s not stealing if it was mine to begin with. ❜ ❛ well, this is where i live. ❜ ❛ we’re not so different after all. ❜ ❛ how long have i been asleep? ❜ ❛ no more lies, no more secrets. ❜ ❛ can you forgive me? ❜ ❛ i thought you… i saw you get shot. ❜ ❛ why are you really here? ❜ ❛ i wish we never met. ❜ ❛ you look like you need a hug. ❜ ❛ would you run away with me? ❜ ❛ see? i’m not just a pretty face. ❜ ❛ we can stop them. i can help you. ❜ ❛ what now? i’m tired. ❜ ❛ i didn’t want you to see me like this. ❜ ❛ i can’t do this without you. ❜ ❛ if you tell me yours, i’ll tell you mine. ❜ ❛ are you threatening me? ❜ ❛ did you ever care about me? ❜ ❛ treat me like the princess that i am! ❜ ❛ i’m not leaving you. ❜ ❛ why did you come? ❜ ❛ i need your help… and you need mine. ❜ ❛ i wish i could hate you. ❜ ❛ i see you don’t recognize me. well, it was a long time ago. ❜ ❛ you’ve lost a lot of blood. ❜ ❛ i had my suspicions, but until now i wasn’t sure. ❜ ❛ there’s nothing left for me here. ❜ ❛ that is… literally illegal. you’re describing something illegal. ❜ ❛ wait. i’ve heard that sound before. ❜ ❛ just try to hang on. ❜ ❛ so why’s it so important anyway? ❜ ❛ i’ll stay in tonight, thanks. ❜ ❛ we can’t keep going on like this. ❜ ❛ in about a minute, you’ll be sorry you didn’t listen to me. ❜ ❛ is this seat taken? sorry, it’s a bit crowded here. ❜ ❛ you can’t leave me here alone! ❜ ❛ i’ll believe it when i see it. ❜ ❛ why are you laughing? this is a very serious situation. ❜ ❛ i bought two. here. ❜ ❛ i’ve seen you before, walking by. ❜ ❛ why can’t i come with you? ❜ ❛ c'mon. aren’t you worried what might happen if we go? ❜ ❛ walk with me? ❜ ❛ it’s very rude to stare. ❜ ❛ how many times have i told you? you can’t visit me here. ❜ ❛ we can’t fix this. can we? ❜ ❛ are you going to kill me? ❜ ❛ it’s not like you can stop me. ❜ ❛ it’s not safe for people to see us together. ❜ ❛ take me with you. ❜ ❛ some risks are worth taking. ❜ ❛ let them go. take me instead. ❜ ❛ what do you want in exchange for it? ❜ ❛ is being drunk an excuse? ❜ ❛ promise me you won’t overreact. ❜ ❛ how can i possibly trust you? after all you’ve done. ❜ ❛ how long have you been standing there? ❜ ❛ why did you wake me? ❜ ❛ i’m not here to talk about my feelings. ❜ ❛ you were going to leave without saying goodbye? ❜ ❛ for some reason, i’m attracted to you. ❜ ❛ promise me? ❜ ❛ it’s nothing, i’m just tired. ❜ ❛ i feel safe with you. ❜ ❛ i don’t need your help. ❜ ❛ i think i have a bit more experience with this thing than you do. ❜ ❛ no way, i’m not doing that. ❜ ❛ i do care. ❜ ❛ you snore in your sleep. it’s adorable. ❜ ❛ i have a spare bed. ❜ ❛ you’re very kind. some day it’ll get you killed. ❜ ❛ you’ll always have a home with me. ❜ ❛ of course i care. you’re my family. ❜ ❛ you shouldn’t insult people that are bigger than you. ❜ ❛ i never wanted to hurt you. ❜ ❛ i swear it wasn’t me. ❜ ❛ we can just sit here, you don’t have to talk. ❜ ❛ did you miss me? ❜ ❛ this isn’t just about you. it’s about what’s best for all of us. ❜ ❛ you can never admit when you’re wrong! ❜ ❛ is this what you wanted? ❜ ❛ what are you doing out here by yourself? ❜ ❛ sorry to put you through that. i guess i owe you one now. ❜ ❛ the only time you talk to me is when you need something. ❜ ❛ i’m still learning. ❜ ❛ if you have something to say, spit it out. ❜ ❛ you… don’t like me very much, do you? ❜ ❛ i’m on your side. ❜ ❛ i risked my life for you! ❜ ❛ whatever you’re going to ask, the answer is no. ❜ ❛ you can stay with me. ❜ ❛ i just need time. ❜ ❛ please don’t do this, don’t act like you care. ❜ ❛ who the hell invited you? ❜ ❛ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? ❜ ❛ i just wanted to say i’m sorry. ❜ ❛ think of it as a compliment. ❜ ❛ do you ever stop being so serious and dull? ❜ ❛ it’s rare to see your kind around here. ❜ ❛ you remember me. that’s good. ❜ ❛ you’re a terrible flirt you know. ❜ ❛ are you kidding me? we’re not ‘fine’! ❜ ❛ right now i wish i was dead. ❜ ❛ i guess i should’ve told you. ❜ ❛ you’re not alone. i’m here. ❜ ❛ you’ve been so quiet. what’s on your mind? ❜ ❛ knowledge is power. ❜ ❛ you scared me. ❜ ❛ well, what’s so strange about that? ❜ ❛ don’t look at me like that. ❜ ❛ i want to be there when you get what’s coming to you. ❜ ❛ just who do you think you are? ❜ ❛ you look… amazing. ❜ ❛ we’re safe, aren’t we? ❜ ❛ you know, i really hoped i’d never see this place again. ❜ ❛ don’t touch me. get away from me. ❜ ❛ i thought you’d like this. ❜ ❛ it’s too dark, i can’t see anything. ❜ ❛ what’s that smug look for? you think you can do any better? ❜ ❛ who did you piss off this time? ❜ ❛ you should’ve thought about that before you got into a fight. ❜ ❛ i only wanted to help. ❜ ❛ you knew and you didn’t tell me? ❜ ❛ you don’t scare me. ❜ ❛ wow, look who remembered my existence. ❜ ❛ change isn’t easy. ❜ ❛ why did you help me? ❜ ❛ why do you hate me? ❜ ❛ i can’t even trust myself anymore. ❜ ❛ i was making sure you weren’t dead, since you never called. ❜ ❛ you look awful. what happened? ❜ ❛ are you here to kill me? ❜ ❛ you know you aren’t allowed in here, right? ❜ ❛ was that a friend of yours? ❜ ❛ two years later and you haven’t changed. ❜ ❛ you look like you just saw a ghost. ❜ ❛ nobody tells me what to do. ❜ ❛ you’re too scared to do it, aren’t you? ❜ ❛ come on. it can’t be that bad. ❜ ❛ i hope to repay your kindness someday. ❜ ❛ just let me do this for you. ❜ ❛ why were they coming after you? ❜ ❛ how many people have you killed? how many? ❜ ❛ how much do you value your life? ❜ ❛ you don’t know when to give up, do you? ❜ ❛ don’t lie to me. ❜ ❛ i’m not sober enough to talk about this. ❜ ❛ have a drink with me. ❜
Her heart stopped for over a minute. She died. I mean, clinically, but…then she came back. Doctors don’t know how. They say it’s a miracle.
@mayfieldtm sent: Wraps a rainbow bandana around her forehead. "There, now you look like a true outlaw."
El tilted her head at Max, another grin spilling out over her face. It felt odd to wear this around her forehead as opposed to covering her eyes ( as she did when entered her trance-state in order to walk in the echoes of another's consciousness ) but, eager to see how she looked, she still hurried over to the mirror in Max's room. “ Outlaw. ” She repeated the word, mulling over the feeling of it on her tongue. It sounded familiar, and she recalled those long, lonely months in Hopper's cabin watching TV. Hadn't he called them cowboys when she'd asked? She couldn't remember. Her brow still furrowed as she tried to access the memory. “ Like a... bad person? ”
