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[09000a]

Everyone, I’m gonna have to say goodbye. I’ve had this tumblr for so long I couldn’t even guess. This is totally the age that I thought this would happen. I’m so old. I wish I had boobs like I had imagined I would by now but that’s ok. I’m perky.

I’m also extremely...disappointed. I don’t trust any fucking body anymore. I know I’ve been saying that for years, but I mean it in so much more of a strict way this time. You see, my best friend of 13 years--almost as long as I’ve had this blog--has fucking dropped me for no reason. Well, the only reason is because her fiancee asked her to block me on everything because I disagreed with him on one single comment on a status about white male privilege. He literally didn’t even say anything back to me. He just told her to delete me out of her life and she did. 

I met her in 5th grade. I’m 24 years old. We were inseparable. We had our biggest stoner phase together, me her and her sister, we were all inseparable. We lived less than one block away from each other. We hung out every day. I went through some shit and went from house to house in terms of family living situations, but I could always always go to their house. And we’d go to the drive in together--we even passed so many notes to each other that our backpacks were filled (this was in middle school) so we decided to pass back a whole 5-star 4 subject notebook. It was also less suspicious. We did this until high school ended. I even went and visited her less than 2 years ago, I spent my own broke ass’s money to fly out to Salt Lake City and then take a 5 hour van into Wyoming which for all I could’ve known is a fucking made up state because who even moves there it’s a red state but then again your fiancee is racist I guess. Did I mention that she asked me to ordain them at their wedding before I discovered he was cheating, told her, and then she told him and he blocked me? That was last year. But him telling her to delete me was manipulative and uncalled for and totally proved a point about shitty white men like that. And she’s shitty for being with his ass and for GOING ALONG WITH IT, sending photos of her flipping me off straight up BULLYING ME FOR NO REASON while her fiancee makes fun of my art. Her fiancee who wears a vest and fedoras and smokes cigarettes in the house and says #malemodel on his ig and #frenchguys but he’s literally neither he’s just a fucking hoe and I warned her but whatever *she is monogamous and he also is supposed to be.

And the other sister you ask? She knows about this. She is neutral she says. That’s frankly impossible.

So, you know, I just like, after my mom and my dad and my sister and my brother and my step dad and I guess my step mom and melissa and roberto and inakie and benjamin and LITERALLY EVERY PERSON I HAVE EVER TRUSTED ABANDONED/BETRAYED ME, yeah I think I’m gonna get rid of the whole blog now. It’s been...awful. I mean, I came in here super depressed and that’s gotten better, but now I have other issues. I’m definitely stronger. And definitely like FUck all these fucking assholes who proved themselves to be shitty people and that’s on them living their shitty people lives but like, yeah. Fuck yall. Thanks to everyone who’s been nice, find me on ig email me whatever @thejulianna is my ig andd yeah on there you’ll find my website it’s my first and last name if you know me find me river city extension guy and other people I haven’t talked to in a while feel free to reach out eyah bye

[incognegroo]

[09000a]

Y’all really hanging up stock photos of Indonesia and the Milky Way I’m done trying to please the world I can’t change tackiness Enjoy your Harry Potter merch and your keep calm and fuck me in the tardis shirts or whatever

[chic-boy]

[sadday324-blog]

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[09000a]

Then find an actual artist yikes

[frequencebariole]

Jean-Michel Basquiat - drawing - “ Hands up, don’t shoot ! “ - 1981

[inkxlenses]

Georges Hobeika Spring/Summer 2018 Haute Couture

[juliannachavezart-blog]

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[09000a]

I can’t believe I made shoes this cool. If anyone needs any financial help and you really want my cool shoes please dm me let me get these on ya kickrz

[juliannachavezart-blog]

Just some poems and a backpack you can find @ juliannachavez.com where everything was drawn by me and is 20% off and I like giving some proceeds to charity as well!

[09000a]

☺️

[chelsamander]

[juliannachavezart-blog]

Hello everyone, I know I’ve been MIA, but guess what? I finally have a shop where you can buy my framed prints (and soon, more cool stuff like clothes, stationary, and home goods).

If you’re not already following me on Instagram, you should because that’s where updates will be (sales?!). It’s @thejulianna

I would like to mention that you can email or ig dm me the charity of your choice, and I’ll donate some of the profits to it with proof of purchase. There is also a 40% off discount for students, close friends, and family.

Please check out my new site, juliannachavez.com and please share if you’d be so kind.

Be well and good luck,

Julianna Chavez

[09000a]

Please visit my new site! 40% off framed prints for my friends, family, and for students!

[artist-vangogh]

The Garden of Saint-Paul Hospital, 1889, Vincent van Gogh

Size: 95x75.5 cm Medium: oil on canvas

[coffeefreak3]

I need to go on a honeymoon by myself.

[90s90s90s]

[artist-matisse]

The Circus, 1943, Henri Matisse

[09000a]

Or the pornography

[brownsuga-bae-deactivated201911]

What is the last thing you accomplished?

(No matter if it is grand or small)

Celebrate yourself! I’ll start!

I finished my 2nd novel!!!

[marqweabyss]

Congratulations to you. @queen-adriel

Completed my training and got my truck.

[cadosanctus]

Passed all my classes this semester. Almost narrowing my four year degree to 2 and a half.

[teatoppy]

I’m proud of all y’all! I started cleaning my room lol

[theeeprotagonist]

I started a new bartending job!

[sweedishcoochiemeatballs]

I just got hired for an insurance company !!

[brownsuga-bae-deactivated201911]

Congrats dear

[sweedishcoochiemeatballs]

Thank you !!

[theoriginalpanamajack]

Lol i moved a bed outta my room today by myself. I’m 8 months pregnant. Big fucking accomplishment for me 😂

[sweedishcoochiemeatballs]

Your strength increases a lot when you’re pregnant I hear 🤔

[09000a]

I painted after months and months and months of not making art (for the first time in my life)

[astral-obscura]

how do you handle pain?

Physical pain: Moon Mars, Saturn, 6th house Emotional pain: Moon, Mars, 8th house, 12th house Psychological pain: Moon, Mercury, 6th/8th/12th house Spiritual pain: Moon, Jupiter, Saturn, 9th/12th house General pain: The placements you struggle with most

You can also interpret these as descriptions of how you handle pain in the area of life related to a planet or house in a certain sign (so pain related to identity for the Ascendant & sun sign, love for the Venus sign, and so on).

ARIES: Your survival instincts are hyper-activated, and it’s a decision between “fight or flight.” There’s a need to express or release the pain through physical activity. Tumultuous emotions erupt as a result of or in response to pain, which can be displayed as anger and hostility. You handle it like a child, with instant explosive reaction, so much noise and feeling, but you don’t dwell on it.

TAURUS: You have incredible endurance; your threshold for what is “too much to bear” is quite high. Self-indulgence and material comfort are used to relieve pain or cope with it; there may be an immature view of pain where everything that ‘feels good’ (or at least better) is confused for healing, even if it makes it worse. Rest and relaxation increase pain tolerance and bring healing.

GEMINI: You search for distractions from your pain; you’ll attach to anything that takes your mind off it. It can become all you think about, or it can slow/mute your mental activity in general, so you desperately need stimulation that separates you from it every now and then. Communicating what hurts & why can help you cope. When others understand what you’re going through, you feel better.

CANCER: You can fall into a downward spiral, thinking that you are all on your own or that the pain will last forever. You need others to validate and comfort you. Being alone can help you heal, or hurt you more. Nostalgia and reflecting on ‘better times’ is a coping mechanism. There may be a return to old (usually bad) habits or the formation of new habits to relieve & cope with the pain.

LEO: You may doubt or inflate the importance of your pain; you may put it on display in order to better understand it. When others pay attention to your pain, you feel validated and relieved, perhaps comforted. You express & cope with pain creatively, through art or other meaningful manifestations. You draw inspiration from your pain. You may identify with it & “wear it on your sleeve.”

VIRGO: You wish to understand your pain rationally, objectively; you want to know its source and purpose, the events that led up to it, and how to heal or get rid of it. You prefer to handle it on your own so as not to be a burden for anyone else, but it can help you to communicate your pain to others. There can be a fixation on healing/coping, possibly an obsessively perfectionistic approach to it.

LIBRA: Having someone to experience your pain with eases it immensely, or helps you cope with it. Even just the company of another person can make it easier to handle. You may inadvertently avoid healing by distracting yourself with social pleasures. You can be prone to “beautify” your pain or romanticize it somehow, so expression of it is often dishonest & dissatisfying.

SCORPIO: You feel pain so deeply that it can consume you. Pain tends to have power over you until you learn to take control of it; you become self-isolating and self-destructive, but also have the power to be incredibly self-healing if you learn to release/express the pain in healthy ways. Pain changes you, and influences other areas of your life. It shapes your will and your soul, and thus your behavior.

SAGITTARIUS: To you, pain feels like a cage; you can’t bear to be limited by the burden it creates, so you run from it and avoid the problem altogether. It scares you, and you have extreme difficulty facing it. You lack adequate coping mechanisms. There may be a false philosophy of “being mature and freeing yourself through positivity” but that is actually recklessly immature escapism.

CAPRICORN: Your endurance surpasses everyone else’s; you can suffer so much and show nothing, never letting your facade of stoicism falter. You handle almost every problem entirely on your own. You are strong, but you can confuse self-sabotage, self-destruction, immaturity, and masochism for strength. You see expression of pain as weakness & imperfection, which is untrue and unhealthy.

AQUARIUS: You are prone to self-erasure and self-neglect; you pour all your energy into issues that are ‘bigger’ than yourself, so you tend to downplay your pain to the point of believing it’s insignificant. You keep it to yourself. Pain can make you resent yourself. You repress your issues and refuse to open them up to anyone due to the idea that it makes you weak, selfish, or attention-seeking.

PISCES: You easily get lost in, drown in, and submit to your pain. It is difficult for you to understand; your own wounds can be a mystery to you. You also tend to romanticize your pain, and can be very masochistic & self-victimizing, often choosing to suffer (perhaps without knowing it). You try to use your difficult experiences to help/heal other people. Pain may enlighten or inspire you.

[lovis-corinth]

The Temptation of Saint Anthony, 1897, Lovis Corinth