Happiness is Cursed: a synopsis
Happiness comes with a fear. A fear of going back to a state where you are unhappy. You start fearing going back to your roots. But if you don't go back to your roots you will forget who you were. Happiness must come with a curse. The curse is sacrificing a part of past you.
Humans are composed of two parts, the observer and the actor. They both usually work independent. Consciousness is achieved when these two parts start communicating and make decisions together. As clear it may seem, yes it implies that most of the time we are not conscious. Most times we are the actor. Every human has a different form. For example, I see myself in some other form while my each of my friend sees me differently. From the eyes of a mosquito I am nothing more than a flesh filled with rich tasty blood. We act in the way we perceive/see ourselves. The observer just observes the actor and its environment. The observer does not hold the potential to observe itself.
Love brings joy and happiness. That is why it can be painful. It is a curse after all. It all feels good until you come out of the state, maybe when the wall of love starts falling off, you try to turn to a state which you have already lost. It's gone. Just like the past. Now you are lost and have no idea where and who you are. The two parts in you -- the observer and the actor -- stop coordinating since the actor has no idea who to act like, with an observer left behind. The observer has two paths to choose from now. It may either form a new actor from things it has learnt from its environment all this time or it may just keep the position of an actor void just to die in solitude.
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