Trying To Adult

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Health kick coming at ya!!

But first... life update:

I’m married (Whaaaaatttt?!?)

Almost 7 months married

I have a dog now (whaaattt?!!?)

His name is Duke!

I’m in the process of getting my crown replaced (goodbye all $750 dollar and thanks for nothing mom’s insurance and my faulty crown)

I also got some weird cuticle infection on my left ring finger.... gotta stop chewing my nails. Another $53 went towards that for urgent care and antibiotics, sigh.

Theron is finally with his unit in San Antonio!!

He can’t start school yet... so he got a job part time as an Uber driver!

He’s away for his two week drill right now, but one more week til he’s home all the time again!

I haven’t gone to the gym in over three weeks.... (slacking and wasting money!!! Sad day) But I went today and life is good!! I finished week 1 day 1 of Hannah Bower’s guide for the THIRD time. I will finish it this time though.

Current weight is at 141.6 lbs. I will break the 140 mark and get under that. But gotta be more consistent and intentional with my eating.

Well... that’s all for now. Here’s to hoping there’s more weekly updates on this!!

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Missing Theron extra hard this week... I sent him my 4th letter on Monday, and then I found out from his momma that he sent me a letter on Monday too :’)

I’m moving this Saturday (... in less than three days) so that’s when I’ll be able to pick it up and finally read it. I’m more than likely gonna cry when that happens and I’m so excited!!! So much newness going on and to look forward to!!!!

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Really missing my man these last two days… so of course I’m looking at old photos to make myself feel better, which obviously doesn’t work. But this night was so special, and I knew that night how much Theron loved me when he surprised me at my apartment with flowers and sang You and I by One Direction before asking me to be his girlfriend. No one’s ever made me feel more special than he does. Only 39 more days til he comes home for Christmas.

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Missing you and all the sounds you’d make.

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Hearing about the shooting at First Baptist Church in Sutherland Springs makes me feel both scared and helpless. Knowing that this town is only 30 min down the road from First Baptist Seguin (where I go to church) terrifies me. That could’ve been me. That could’ve been at my church. This could’ve happened to people I know.

It scares me that this is becoming more and more common in the world. Any town/place could be next and I wouldn’t know it. We never know when our time will come and that scares me because I have so many great things that I still want to accomplish in the future. It makes me want to appreciate every little moment in between the big ones.

Praying for everyone affected by this tragedy.

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So this week, I spent my last few days with Theron until Christmas time. I know it’s not really that much of a wait, considering its already November, but this is honestly one of the most life-changing months I have coming before me. It’s going to be pretty tough without him to there to lean on, but it makes it a little easier on me knowing it’ll be just as challenging for him. I’m really excited to see how much stronger our relationship will be in three months when we’re finally back in the same city again. I can’t wait for February to come around!

On our last night together, we snuggled up, watched a few episodes of Supernatural, and told each other how much we were gonna miss each other. It was really cute, especially since Theron gets extra emotional at nighttime when he’s half asleep, At one point, he even told me that I could take anything of his from his room that I wanted, and I died laughing the next morning because he didn’t remember saying this.

When I dropped Theron off at the armory at 6am, I was more sleepy than anything, to be honest, because I only slept about 5 hours, and I also had a four hour drive immediately after. I only cried a little bit, but not nearly as much as I thought I would. (I cried harder when he left the valley after visiting me for our anniversary, even though I knew I’d see him five days later.) Either way, I know once it gets closer to my start date for work that I’ll be getting more anxious and probably cry about it then. 

I’m holding up okay for now, but then again, its only been 3 days. We’ll see how this plays out :-)

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Theron and I are always honest with each other whenever there's an issue or something is bothering us, but I always feel extra vulnerable whenever I'm constantly telling him I miss him. I'm obviously the one that gets more emotionally distraught about our relationship since lately, we're more often apart than we are together, but I try to refrain from saying how much I miss him everytime he runs through my mind because I'm trying to be better for when he leaves for training…

Like, I know he's going to feel a lot more than I will when he's away, but it makes me so happy whenever he texts me how much he misses me out of the blue. I know it takes a lot for him to be vulnerable like that, even with me. 

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I know I haven’t posted on here as much as I originally thought... Plus, I got a journal last month which I’ve been trying to use more often. Still not as much writing as I’d like, but its still a start on something new. Anyways, stuff I haven’t really updated on here:

I got the job in SA!!!!!! (still a while before I actually start working but I’m one month down on waiting for my clearance...)

I got a part-time job at a math tutoring center, which is very draining sometimes, but still rewarding and worth-while. Plus, extra cash is always nice.

KODA HAD HE SECOND LITTER OF PUPS ON SUNDAY MORNING (10/15/17) AND THEYRE THE CUTEST, UGHHHHH

I’ve been working out more regularly and feel like actual progress is being made, which is amazing!!! I love it!

A while back, Theron gave me an old pendant of two love birds and its my absolute favorite necklace to wear bc it makes me feel like he’s always with me.

Also, for my birthday, Theron made me the most gorgeous pearl necklaces. 

Lots of positive things going on (despite Theron leaving soon). Just living life and loving my best friend.

That is all.

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Year One

I’ve spent one year with the love of my life and it’s crazy thinking of where I was at this point last year to where I am today. (I was at a conference in Dallas last year, and now I’m laying down outside with my dogs at home, typing this.)

For our anniversary, I got Theron a print of the night sky of our first date (and tbh, I’m just selfsh and really bought it for me too since it’ll be great decor for when we move in together within the next year and a half….) 

It’s been tough living 4 hours away from Theron for nearly five months now. I hate driving long hours, much less by myself, but I’ve done it at least 6 or 7 times since the summer because he’s worth it. 

I really thought I wasn’t going to see Theron on our anniversary because it landed in the middle of the week, and I was too shy to ask for more days off at work. (I already asked for the end of next week off because Theron leaves next Tuesday for training and I figured  5 days together is better than 3 since he has one last drill this weekend….) But Theron surprised me by coming to visit me on Wednesday, and I cried so much before work that I’m pretty sure my coworkers thought something was wrong with me bc of my swollen face from all the happy tears.

I know he wishes he could give me the world, but just being able to spend time with him and enjoy the little things is what gives me so much joy. There’s nothing he could’ve got me that would’ve make me more happy than spending 24 hours with him. I got to spend that time eating some dank sushi, staying up drinking while watching Whose Line Is It Anyway? and Family Feud, waking up to him saying how beautiful I looked while sleeping, eating a homemade breakfast together, catching up on The Flash, and playing Gerbil Physics in the McDonald’s game center (which is actually a really fun game fyi, try it).

I’m excited for the next ten days because I have a lot to look forward to but I’m not excited at all for this month to end… Theron takes off to basic very soon and it terrifies me, but I know it’ll all be for the better. I just want to fast forward to Christmas and to February because those will be the next two times I’ll see him after he leaves. I know so much is going to change when he gets back, so I’m going to try my best to enjoy these days while they last.

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First Date

I love reminiscing about mine and Theron’s ~first date~ because it was just so casual, but perfect.

It was a late Friday night and Theron got off of work around 11pm. He drove all the way over to my apartment because it’d been a long week and I was living for the weekends to see him.

We went on a long drive through the back roads.

He stopped so I could see fireflies up close and try to catch one (I told him that I’d never done that before)

We heard music from someone having a house party and started two-stepping to Wagon Wheel in the middle of the road with only the full moon lighting up the night.

We parked under an overpass, climbed up to it, and sat along the side of empty highway talking about anything and everything.

Then, we ended the night parking near an intersection, pulling a The Notebook (super cheesy, but whatever, it was cute), laying down under flashing lights, talking about the past for about an hour, and staring at the full moon…

It was honestly the best date I could’ve ever imagined and it just makes me so happy thinking about that night. Who would’ve known that I’d fall so hard for that man?

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This is my boyfriend and mine's ~song~. He told me about it the first day we started getting to know each other and I just fell in love with it. Like, if we play it when we're together, something beautiful happens and the moment feels so intense and surreal. Idk how else to explain it, but we both sing the song without interruption and it's beautiful and I love it.

Anyways, a month and a half later, we finally start dating, and well... it's been almost a year now and I've come to this huge realization:

Our song is by Blue October -18th Floor Balcony, yes?

Blue October.... OCTOBER 

18th Floor Balcony... 18TH

OCTOBER 18TH

Theron and I started dating on the date of our favorite song and he says it was a total accident... How does that even happen?? Super weird coincidence, but definitely a sign. Not sure exactly what it means, but I had the hugest epiphany randomly about it today.

So long story short, I love this song, the weird mysterious way that God works, and my boyfriend.

That is all.

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When I'm missing you, I know I can listen to this song, and it'll take me back to you singing it to me over the phone when I was sad.

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I love him so much. He makes me feel like everything is right in the world, even though I know it’s not. The world is such an imperfect place, but when I’m with him, everything seems alright.

He is patient when I’m not the nicest to him. He is understanding when I’m a total mess. He is supportive when I’m scared. He reminds me of my strengths when I’m feeling self-doubt. He holds me accountable when I need help reaching my goals. He guides me when I’m feeling lost in life. He makes me laugh when I need to forget about all my stresses. He celebrates me when I’m feeling self-conscious. He gives me confidence when I’m afraid of failure. He makes me feel so warm and loved, always. I know I’m not deserving of someone like Theron, but I’ve never known how sweet love could be until I met this handsome, Godly man.

I miss him all the days I’m not with him, but I know God has something great in store for us in the near future; I’m at peace in my heart. I look forward to the days where I don’t have to be missing him anymore.

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Testing myself to see how long I can go without texting my boyfriend to practice when he's gone next month but I'm slowly dying on the inside.

That is all. Thanks.

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Just really missing my boyfriend… I haven’t really talked to him in a week bc he’s in California visiting and it sucks.

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Update: Theron was in the Sierra Mountains for the past couple of days and had no service but texted me that he loves me and is proud of me.

I still miss him lots but it's nice to hear from him.