Stop
I’m tired. I’m so tired of people trying to figure out why our Jonghyunie passed away.
Does it matter now? If you are going to treat better others, yes. But if it’s just because you want some action in your life. No.
Let me tell you something: Shawols knew about his feelings. We knew. How could we not know?
We knew sometimes he wasn’t happy. We knew he was struggling and also I remember I cried once reading his tweets on chirstma’s eve one year and then a video of him talking about this side of him he was affraid to show went out and I understand why I cried with no reason reading them. He felt lonely and I knew it.
We knew it. We were there for him as shawols always are.
We knew about his tattoos, we knew about the letter he had on the last SHINee performance as five. We saw it we talked about it.
But, knowing those things it’s different from thinking the worst. You can’t do anything more than support them and hope they can be happy with themselves. I was mad at him for not being happy. More than being mad I felt frustrated. How can I show you the beautiful person you are? How could I? How can I heal your heart? How could I make you seeing yourself from my spot? You might love yourself more than I did.
I do. I still love our Jonghyunie and I will from now on too. And I understand there are new people listen to his music. It’s probably sad they are doing it now but his life was music and he is alive through it. So I’m okay and actually feel kind of pleased about it
But... Trying to look out his reasons, making videos of him to get some views. I can’t stand it. Please don’t watch those videos. Also his mom hasn’t talked about her feelings. Making up something like that it’s so... I can’t believe people sometimes.
As a shawol I ask you to respect his memory. Respect his family, his friends and his shawols too. He was loved. He still is a beloved person. The reasons of his pain were beyong any person who care for him could do something about. Don’t try to blame on anyone. Just let’s live our life better. Let’s take care of our people more. Let’s get the message instead of looking for more on the same subject. His body is gone, his soul is resting, his heart is with us. He will be remembered. We will never forget how much he gave us.
