A Look Inside My Mind…

28 • libra

[111oveebug]

i saw your dad today. he didn't see me, but I wanted to ask him if you were okay. I wanted to tell him you disappeared on me, and I didn't understand why.

[111oveebug]

life is sad. time moves fast. things change.

[111oveebug]

i just want to see your name on my phone.

[111oveebug]

i

think i am meant to figure out

how to let people leave and

"conquer" detachment.

[by-ahyoka]

“Synchronicity is an ever present reality for those who have eyes to see.”

— Carl Jung

[jakarimalotara]

[angelicdust]

[udrug]

[monster2001]

Nỗi buồn tuyệt đỉnh

[111oveebug]

i miss nathan. i feel pretty dumb.

[111oveebug]

I FEEL SO FUCKING EMPTY.

I FEEL SO FUCKING BLANK.

[111oveebug]

loneliness is deafing.

[111oveebug]

Do I clench my fists?

[111oveebug]

i pray that you are happy, healthy, and protected.

[111oveebug]

i am trying to prepare myself of the possibility that you may never speak to me again. we are older now. I don't know what I did to deserve this. but I have to be aware that you said goodbye, and you may have meant it. it hurts my heart. it hurts my being. but alas, I have to accept what I cannot control.

i am sorry if I have ever hurt you.

[111oveebug]

nathan, I am sorry that you are having a hard time. I have been missing you. I feel awful that you have let me go. I don't understand, but all I have wanted is for you to feel peace in your spirit. if that means walking away from me, then, I suppose so be it. I love you. I have always loved you. I must say I truly did want to help and guide you. help you see love is out there and you deserve it. I pray you find that to be true.

well, anyway, maybe I'll see you in the next life.

with great sorrow,

courtney

[111oveebug]

and suddenly (or not so) I have no friends left. I have Sarah. that's really it.

truly a full circle moment.