I AM STILL READING ABSOLUTION

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[baleful-meat-worm]

there is no way whitby would be that artistically inclined but i wanted an excuse to draw yucky hare control

[skeletonlesbian]

"But the longer I stared at it, the less comprehensible the creature became. The more it became something alien to me, and the more I had a sense that I knew nothing at all—about nature, about ecosystems. There was something about my mood and its dark glow that eclipsed sense, that made me see this creature, which had indeed been assigned a place in the taxonomy—catalogued, studied, and described—irreducible down to any of that. And if I kept looking, I knew that ultimately I would have to admit I knew less than nothing about myself as well, whether that was a lie or the truth."

[bluesallontheocean-deactivated2]

people who served a function didn’t need to be named

[tinyplanetss]

i do think this is the most heartbreaking paragraph in annihilation, because it's the realization that the biologist and her husband just passed by each other with the wrong timing and missed the opportunity to know each other. even out here, when he was riddled with hypnotic triggers and couldn't stay behind, he took tidepool notes and clipped wildflowers for her to study, on the chance that she might read his journal some day. with the original intent to come home and sit down and bond with her over nature, on her terms, bringing something she loves back home to her. the idea of them volunteering together and finally getting to know one another, even in such a beautiful and horrifying landscape, keeps bringing me to tears. we wouldn't have turned back.

after hearing about the biologist's husband through her perspective, it's a bit of a shock to hear her recap his journal and share how her husband thought of her while they were apart. he wanted to experience the fascinating and terrible aspects of area x with her. he would've bonded silently if that's what she wanted. they could have met each other halfway.

[crowshuh]

is your house in order?

[deaddovehasbeeneaten]

🔥her🔥

[sssherrr]

The Ghostbird and The Biologist

“I am a copy, John. But not a perfect one. I’m not her. She’s not me. Do you know what I’d say if I came face-to-face with her?”

“What?”

“I’d tell her, ‘You made a lot of fucking mistakes. You made a lot of mistakes, and yet I love you. You’re a mess and a revelation, but I can’t be any of that. All I can do is work out things myself.’ And then, knowing her, she’d probably look at me funny and take a tissue sample from me.”

[wishgrub]

you prefer this place, you really do, don’t you?

[creature-png]

"White Rabbit #20" and "White Rabbit #24" by Debra Broz.

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[12thbiologist]

i understand the biologist southern reach more every day. i didnt think that was evenpossible

[xj6]

The Biologist and Control's page dividers, from Annihilation and Authority

[12thbiologist]

biologist and ghost bird in a severance au is FASCINATING to me because the biologist would have to be the outie obviously but also its like this: southern reach/lumen debuts a new severance procedure which allows the people to choose to be trapped at work forever instead and biologist goes meeeeee!!!!!!!!! meanwhile ghostbird undergoes the gauntlet of horrors that is being born and having way too much freedom but also none at the same time and also being chained to this stranger who made you and you have complicated feelings about

[azu-mog]

Still drawing them

[azu-mog]

V2

[watermotif]

Love my spiral 🌀 #MySpiral

[azu-mog]

It took quite a while but it’s finally done ! Again, still the biologist, still the owl husband, but I like them ! Also featuring the hand mushrooms, the four beasts of the new covers, books everywhere, starfishes everywhere and our weird lighthouse lens.

[12thbiologist]

just seen someone random on my campus reading absolution in the quad. healed me

[12thbiologist]

i almost said something but i was in a rush to get to class v_v but i hope they felt my brainwaves.

[12thbiologist]

just seen someone random on my campus reading absolution in the quad. healed me