Jumping out of bed, you ran straight towards the bathroom and hunched over the toilet. You expected to see remnants of last night’s dinner but the sight of blood-stained daffodil petals almost made you faint. The bright yellow color of the flower’s petals peaked through the shade of dark red. Blood coated the petals and you didn’t have enough time to comprehend what was going on as you gagged and more came out. A sob rippled from your throat and tears fell down your face. This cannot be happening. You were sure the feelings were going away but you were so wrong.Oh, so wrong.Jaemin’s arm wrapped around her waist flashed in your mind and the smile he wore and only showed to her. You never got the honor to see it as he never felt that way towards you.You were always second place. He loved her, not you.You have never felt so pathetic as you did right now, sobbing and screaming for your best friend. Every cough and gag caused so much pain, not in your throat, but at your heart. You clenched your chest, trying to reach your heart and stop the pain because at this point, it could kill you.Crawling from the toilet towards your nightstand, you left a trail of blood along with the flowers. You knew you should call 911 but instead, your name hovered over his name. Letting out another sob, you knew he would be sleeping with her in his arms and you couldn’t handle smelling her perfume on him.Not right now, not ever.Instead, you found the name right under his and you clicked quick and called him. The ringing sound felt like eternity until his raspy voice came through on the speakers.“Hello? Y/N?” He asked groggily.“JENO!” You screamed and coughed another petal.He sounded like he dropped his phone and quickly picked it up. “Oh, my God! Y/N, what’s wrong? Are you okay?” He worriedly asked through the phone.“Jeno, it hurts! It hurts!” You whined and you cried harder as the pain punched you in the gut.“Listen to me, baby. It’s going to be okay, alright? I’m putting my shoes on right now and I’m coming. It’s going to be okay, love.” The words of your other best friend fell deaf to your ears and his comforting words went in and out of your ears. The ringing sound became much louder that you missed the slam of your door and Jeno’s footsteps up your stairs. The horror on his face made you wince as he kneeled down and placed his hands on your face, cupping it softly.“Oh, honey.” The petname made you cry out louder. Flashbacks of Jaemin’s smile as he called you that whenever you did something stupid.“Oh, honey.”His voice filled your mind and you clutched your ears, begging them to stop. “Go away! Please go away!” You whined.Jeno felt his heart break and his own tears fell. Knowing an ambulance wouldn’t come quick, he scooped your broken form and ran towards his car to the hospital. There was a plastic bag in his car that you gagged and puked in, filling it quickly with blood-covered flowers.Next thing you knew, you were being rushed towards emergency surgery with Jeno running in pace with the nurses pushing your bed.“Y/N, it’ll be okay. Everything’s going to be alright, okay?” You softly smiled as he put up his strong facade but his eyes were breaking.“Everything will be over now, Jen. I’m going to be okay.”He felt numb.Standing in the funeral home with your coffin beside him, Jeno sat down against the wall with his knees drawn up to his chest. His eyes stared blankly to the floor and he didn’t even notice their other friends who came to pay their respects and give their condolences. Teachers from your college came as well and all of them eyed Jeno worriedly.Everyone knew that all you had were Jaemin and Jeno. Your parents died when you were young so you had no one to give you love until you met your aunt’s neighbor’s son Jeno and his best friend Jaemin.Due to the lack of intense love, you fell blindly for Jaemin and loved hard with your entire heart. Jeno did the same for you but he never said anything, happy to find you so happy for anyone.Even if it wasn’t him.Renjun, Jisung, Chenle, Donghyuck and Mark circled the boy and Mark placed a hand on Jeno’s shoulder.“She’s not suffering anymore. She’s in a better place now, Jen.” The rest nodded along with him but Jisung bursted into tears.“Hyung,” he mumbled. For the first time, Jeno looked up and the boys were startled at how different this boy looked.They knew this was a different person from the Jeno they knew.Jeno reached over and held Jisung’s hand tenderly. “I’m going to be okay, Seung. I was just a little too late.”The youngest met his eyes and aggressively shook his head. “No! Hyung, it wasn’t fair! You loved her! She should’ve loved you! Not him!”Then the others knew. It seems the youngest had the sharpest eyes as he noticed the love in Jeno’s eyes whenever he even looked at you.No matter what you did, be stupid and dumb, Jeno continued to look at you like you were the only girl in the world.“Oh, Jeno.” Renjun mumbled and they all shared their tears, falling silently.The last member to their group stayes by the door, hearing the entire thing. His own tears glistened against the bright light and he looked down, finding it hard to face them, especially his own best friend. In reality, he should’ve told you how he felt. Maybe, you’d still be here. But he knew how Jeno felt, also noticing the look in Jeno’s eyes.Either way, he would’ve been hurting someone. He loved you but he couldn’t have you in fear of losing his best friend.Jaemin believed you loved Jeno and that you two were just too blind to see it. He knew the way you acted around Jeno and everytime you saw Jeno, your cheeks would heat up. But now, he understood that it was because of him. Jeno and Jaemin were always together so he mistook it for Jeno but it was really for him.He was the blind one, after all.The familiar sensation crawled up his chest and he ran towards the male bathroom, hunching over the toilet. There, he saw the blood-coated flowers and he cried silently. He should’ve fought but he’s waving his white flag.Unbeknownst to him, another was seeing the bloody petals, giving up and surrendering in the name of love.
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