TW // mentions of fictional rape, light mention of kinks, occasional all-caps typing
As one of the oldest members of the Chococritters server, I found Reki's statement to be incredibly dismissive and upsetting. The only thing even resembling an "apology" was vague and more of a 'sorry you feel that way' than anything. The rest was just self-pity and sympathy bait, totally irrelevant oversharing. Not to mention hy completely failed to address any of the allegations around ableism, racism, supporting problematic individuals, etc. I saw so many issues over time, watched the staff team and server as a whole pretty much fall apart, and THAT is all we get?
At the end of the day, Reki has shown hymself to be a hypocrite.
- NSFW-sourced profile layouts are not allowed– unless you're hys boyfriend. (Reki watered down the layouts to depicting "obsessive" characters, but I call bullshit. The character is a rapist. There is no way hy did not know that while making an entire layout of it, and the omission of that context, among other important pieces of information hy conveniently left out of hys statement feels very deliberate.)
- Racism is not allowed– unless you have a cultural name, then you have to accommodate hys and hys staff teams' difficulties, never mind any cultural significance your name may hold or the fact that it's, you know, your NAME. I know this rule was recently removed, but that was literally days ago. It had been there for far too long.
- Any type of regression within the server is not allowed– but Reki wants everyone to call hym a lamb and a puppy, things hy states are apparently directly correlated to hys pet regression.
- Rudeness or attitude towards the staff team is not allowed– but staff members are allowed to be as rude or moody towards server members as they feel like, and often were before some of them left without a word.
Even after Reki said what hy said in hys statement, hy still used hys server members for hys own gratification. Even if said gratification was not inherently sexual, or so hy says. I don't believe hym, but I have no proof of this alternative so I will not state that as though it is fact. But c'mon, your boyfriend referring to you as "my perfect pup"? Come on. Not helping your case.
Still, I have always been a bit suspicious of the things Reki asked/demanded of us as server members in terms of calling hym pet names and terms of endearment (ie. "my lamb," "our lamb," etc.). It is not normal to encourage thousands of strangers (STRANGERS!) to call you these things, especially minors. It does not have to be sexual for it to be strange and wrong. I regress myself and I would NEVER think to include anyone outside of a very select few people in my life (REAL life, not online) in that, especially under their nose. It's not something to be taken lightly or thrown around to whoever. How dare hy? Especially when there are minors in the server who also regress. It is a horrible and extremely dangerous idea to demonstrate or encourage that strangers or people online can or should be apart of your regression, a state in which you are often very vulnerable.
I feel insulted that hys statement hy supposedly spent hours on pretty much consisted of nothing but "but, my trauma :(" It makes my skin crawl. This needs to be fixed, or the server needs to be nuked, I don't know. But this isn't over, and it's not okay.
I don't even have anything to add to this! You've covered quite literally everything and made amazing points.
The way you worded this was phenomenal, and I thank you for taking time out of your day to spread awareness like this so clearly.
I am sorry that you were affected by hys actions — as it shouldn't have happened in the first place — but I hope you can get some peace and rest without having to think of Reki's insensitive acts.
