I have put my own spin on this. All the characters belong to the Mission Impossible franchise.
My OC is Lucy Jackson.
Ethan Hunt X OC! Reader
Steamy in the middle, planning on making more parts, I really want to show the development in the OC’s character joining this world, becoming a ghost.
Feedback Appreciated!
‘Hold on a minute, what the hell is this’ I mutter looking at my texts.
“Miss Moore, you are invited to the Fitzpatrick Gala. July 22nd. Black tie event. Your name will be accepted at the door. Instructions to follow” I read aloud.
‘My name is Lucy Jackson, not Moore. You must have the wrong number lol’ I type in response and leave my phone on the desk as I get ready for my work.
I absentmindedly get dressed and put my phone in my pocket and head to work. A 10 minute commute by bus, an easy ride.
As the bus approaches the station, 1 man boards, I scan him over, black cap, distressed jeans, navy shirt with a faded brown leather jacket. As he passes me I get a hint of fuel, he probably works at a petrol station I think to myself. As the bus approaches my stop I press the button. Shifting in my seat so I can stand up, a hand grasps mine on the railing. I turn and give a sly smirk to the man I saw earlier.
As we part hands I walk off the bus. I rub my hand and focus on heading to the traffic lights but I am stopped by the stranger again.
‘Look, we don’t have time to play cat and mouse you are coming with me’. The stranger states before I begin to feel light headed and pass out.
As I come to, I realise I am laid on a couch, facing a table covered in computers and a man with ginger hair, typing and muttering constantly.
‘Do people these days not look at their phones enough to pick up on messages’ he stated, whilst typing.
I look around the room briefly, before feeling my wrists unbound and my feet also. I notice the dark space and no other people about. The door is open and I can definitely hear the noise of a city, so it shouldn’t be difficult to escape. As I slowly start to move a shadow catches my eye. As I train myself to look up the figure moves closer.
11. Hate Sex
Cassian x Rhysand x f!reader | Double Penetration | 1,920
When hatred runs this deep, the only release is to ruin each other.
12. Corrupt Me
Eris Vanserra x f!reader | Virgin Reader | 1,884
Lessons in sin.
13. Predator & Prey
Poly!Bat Boys x f!reader | Hunting Reader | 1,449
The forest is dark, the hunt is on. Can you run fast enough?
14. Pet Play
Eris Vanserra x f!reader | Boot Worship & Thigh Riding | 1,077
He doesn’t need fire to make you crawl, just a leash.
15. Face Fucking
Rhysand x f!reader | Intense Oral Sex | 712
He says you look prettiest with tears in your eyes and him in your throat.
16. Aphrodisiac Pollen
Azriel x f!reader | Dub-Con & Oversimulation | 841
A mission gone wrong… so wrong.
17. Two Are Better Than One
Cassian x Azriel x f!reader | Threesome | 1,847
Training leaves you breathless and pinned between two Illyrian warriors.
18. Ending In Ruin
Azriel x Eris x f!reader | Breeding & Threesome | 2,268
Two mates, turning their hatred for each other into something… productive.
19. Wing Play
Cassian x f!reader | Sub Cassian & Wingplay | 717
You swore you’ll be gentle, but that smile tells a different story.
20. The Other Woman
Eris Vanserra x f!reader | Other Woman POV | 3,040
He always got what he wanted, and his bride had never stopped him from wanting you.
21. Nude Modelling
Cassian x Rhysand x Azriel x Feyre x f!reader | MMMFF group scene | 2,212
You’re posed, exposed, and they can’t stop tracing the lines of your body.
22. Skinny Dipping
Azriel x f!reader | One-Shot | Kinktober
Dark water, midnight laughter, and a hand pulling you under for more than air.
23. Mating High
Rhysand x f!reader | One-Shot | Kinktober
“Just one more,” he whispers as he thrusts deeper. Of course, he’s lying.
24. Knife Play
Azriel x f!reader | One-Shot | Kinktober
The blade at your throat is cold, but his hand between your thighs is burning.
25. Wet Dream
Amren x f!reader | One-Shot | Kinktober
You wake up panting, hands between your thighs.
26. Somnophilia
Azriel x f!reader | One-Shot | Kinktober
You sleep, he watches, and every touch leaves you trembling for more.
27. One Night Stand
Nesta Archeron x f!reader | One-Shot | Kinktober
One night. No rules.
28. Girls Night
Amren x Morrigan x f!reader | One-Shot | Kinktober
Wine, laughter, kisses, and hands that don’t stop wandering.
29. Sensory Deprivation
Cassian x Rhysand x Azriel x Eris x f!reader | One-Shot | Kinktober
When you can’t see, taste, or touch, every sensation is ten times sharper.
30. Thigh Riding
Lucien x f!reader | One-Shot | Kinktober
He loves nothing more than watching you fall apart on his lap.
31. Secret Identity
Rhysand x f!reader | One-Shot | Kinktober
The mask hides who you are, but he’ll never forget what you did to him.
Pairing: Cassian x Rhysand x Azriel x Feyre x f!reader
Summary: You’re posed, exposed, and they can’t stop tracing the lines of your body.
Warnings: nsfw, smut, rough sex, teasing, unprotected sex, foreplay/oral female and male receiving, girl on girl, multiple men, MMMFF group scene
Word Count: 2,212
Day 20 | Kinktober Masterlist | Day 22
“Can you tilt your head back a bit more?” Feyre asked, biting her lower lip, her eyebrows furrowed in concentration.
Heat rushed to my cheeks as I rested my head against Rhys’s bare chest. His skin was warm and firm beneath my cheek.
I still don’t know how they convinced me to do this. I don’t know why I agreed so quickly.
Her gaze flicked from the canvas to us, and my hands started to sweat.
“Cass, move your hand higher,” she murmured, her brush pressing against the canvas in short strokes.
Cassian’s hand slowly slid up my inner thigh. His body pressed more firmly against one side of me, all heat and muscle.
“Az, put your hands on her knees.”
Azriel’s scarred hands moved to my knees as he knelt before me. His grip tightened just enough to make my breath hitch.
I swallowed, eyes closing as I tried to calm my heart pounding in my chest.
Why did I agree to this?
Why did I say yes to sitting here, barely clothed, pressed between them?
Now here I was, pressed between three of the most handsome men in all of Prythian, dressed in nothing but sheer fabric, heart pounding, skin tingling, all because Feyre wanted to paint live models.
Cassian’s thumb grazed the sensitive skin of my inner thigh. Azriel’s hands gently pressed my knees apart. Rhys’s hands tightened on my shoulders.
The room grew brighter as the fireplace cracked. I felt warm, too warm, burning alive with the touch and smell of them.
Feyre’s eyes lingered on the way my nipples peaked beneath the sheer fabric.
I could smell the arousal in the air, the unmistakable scent of desire. I felt Azriel inhale deeply as he scented the same thing I did.
“Rhys,” Feyre said, her voice trembling slightly. “Place your hands on her jaw. Keep her head tilted back.”
My head tilted back against his lower stomach, looking up into Rhys’s eyes as his hands cupped my jaw, my pulse pounding beneath his touch.
The corner of his mouth twitched into a smirk as his thumb brushed along the line of my jaw.
He knew exactly what he was doing to me. I looked up at him, pleading. I couldn’t take this much longer.
I heard Feyre’s breath hitch as I looked up at her mate.
I shouldn’t be doing this.
I shouldn’t be feeling like this.
But her eyes darkened, her brush moved faster across the canvas, and I realised she was enjoying this.
“God,” I whispered beneath my breath as Cassian’s hand slid even higher.
His fingertips traced the spot where my thigh met my hip. I watched Rhys’s smile widen before he nodded once, a silent command passed between the three men without words.
I felt Azriel’s hands pressing my knees further apart, spreading me open before him.Rhys's hands stayed still, forcing me to keep eye contact with him.
My lips parted, maybe to ask for something I shouldn’t, maybe to whimper something desperate and pathetic, instead his thumb brushed across my lower lip.
My tongue darted out without thinking, licking his thumb, and my cheeks blushed a deep red.
His smirk turned into a grin, slow, predatory, satisfied. His thumb pressed past my lips, slipping into my mouth, and I looked up at him as I sucked and swirled my tongue over him.
I could hear Feyre’s brush moving frantically across the canvas.
I felt Azriel shift beneath me. Cassian’s hands helped me to the edge of the lounge chair.
I should have pulled away. I should have said something, done something, been stronger than the desire burning between my thighs.
Azriel pressed wet, hot kisses to the inside of my thigh. A soft whimper left my lips as my eyes fluttered shut, as Azriel’s mouth pressed higher.
Cassian pulled away the sheer fabric, his fingers finding my nipples. Pulling them just as Azriel’s mouth pressed fully against me, his tongue licking a long, slow line from my entrance to my clit.
I groaned as my lips parted, arching against Rhys. Rhys slid two fingers into my mouth, smiling as I squirmed.
Azriel’s tongue was relentless, circling my clit with precise strokes that made my vision blur.
Cassian’s fingers twisted and pinched my nipples before he soothed them with his mouth. His tongue was hot and wet as he grazed my nipples with his teeth.
I heard Feyre let out a gentle sigh, the sound of her brush strokes filling the room between my moans and the sound of Azriel’s soft grunts as his tongue tasted me.
Rhys’s fingers finally left my mouth, covered in my saliva. The palm of his hand tapped against my cheek.
“Good girl,” he whispered, his voice low.
My head fell forward, finally able to see the two men whose mouths were devouring me.
Cassian’s mouth was attached to one breast, his hand massaging the other.
I groaned, my eyes flickering to Feyre as she watched me.
Her brush was still clutched in her hand, though her chest heaved with rapid breaths, and her gaze, fixed on Azriel’s face buried between my thighs.
Rhys moved behind her, his hands sliding slowly up the sides of her body before squeezing her breasts through her shirt.
He whispered something in her ear, her cheeks flushing pink as she leaned back into him.
I opened my mouth to speak, to say something, anything, but Azriel chose that moment to slide a single finger inside me.
The sound that tore from my throat was raw.
He immediately found the spot that made stars explode behind my eyes. His mouth closed around my clit, sucking gently as his finger moved in a slow, devastating rhythm that had me begging.
“Please,” I gasped, my voice cracking on the word. “Please, I need—”
Cassian’s teeth grazed my nipple as Azriel added a second finger, stretching me.
My moan echoed through the room as I clenched around his fingers, desperate for more.
“Look at how pretty she is,” Rhys murmured in Feyre’s ear, his fingers tugging at her clothes.
Cassian left hot kisses from my breasts to my mouth, his mouth claiming mine in a rough kiss.
His fingers continued to pinch my nipples as I whimpered against his mouth, my body trembling between the two men.
“Look at you,” Cassian whispered, his lips trailing from my jaw to my throat. “Making a mess all over Azriel’s face.”
My cheeks flushed red, but I couldn't deny it as the wet sounds of Azriel’s fingers inside me filled the room.
I glanced over at Feyre, Rhys’s hands squeezed her breasts, pinching and twisting her nipples between his fingers. She arched into his touch, her paintbrush discarded on the floor.
Azriel’s fingers curled deeper inside me, Cassian’s teeth marked my throat, as Feyre’s moans began to fill the room.
I looked over at her. Rhys’s hand was between her thighs.
I came before I could stop it, my pussy clenching around Azriel’s fingers as Cassian swallowed my cries, his tongue down my throat.
Azriel slowly withdrew his fingers as he and Cassian guided me onto my hands and knees on the rug.
I felt the head of Azriel’s cock press against my entrance, while Cassian knelt before me, his cock hard, glistening with pre-cum.
“Open,” he commanded, his voice low and rough.
I obeyed, taking him into my mouth. Forcing my throat open around him, I gagged as he pressed deeper. Tears pricked at the corners of my eyes as I tried to breathe through my nose.
“That’s a good girl,” Cassian said, his hand tangling in my hair and forcing his cock deeper. “Take all of it.”
He held me there, my nose pressed against the base of his cock.
Azriel filled me in a single thrust.
I moaned around Cassian. The vibration made his grip tighten in my hair.
I turned my head as much as I could with Cassian’s cock in my mouth, watching Rhys lift Feyre onto a table, her legs wrapped around his waist as he stood between her thighs. His cock was already pressing into her.
Cassian thrust into my mouth as I watched Rhys pull all the way out of Feyre, the head of his cock glistening with her arousal, before thrusting deep within her again.
Azriel mirrored his movement, withdrawing until only his tip remained inside me before slamming back in.
I moaned around Cassian in unison with Feyre’s cries. Azriel’s cock hit that spot inside me that had me trembling. Cassian filled my mouth, as my saliva dripped down my chin.
“Such a pretty mouth,” Cassian groaned, his hips thrusting faster. “Made to be fucked.”
Azriel’s hands gripped my hips hard enough to bruise, his thrusts becoming harder and harder.
Each impact drove me forward onto Cassian’s cock, forcing him deeper into my throat.
Feyre’s moans grew louder and more desperate as Rhys maintained a relentless pace.
Azriel’s hand found my clit, rubbing tight circles that made my thighs shake. I whimpered around Cassian, the sound vibrating through his cock.
“That’s it,” Cassian groaned.
Feyre cried out, her body going taut as her orgasm crashed over her.
Azriel’s thrusts become erratic, his fingers pressing harder on my clit. Cassian’s grip in my hair tighten painfull.
I came undone, my entire body shaking as pleasure crashed through me. My pussy tightened on Azriel’s cock, as he groaned behind me.
I felt him pulse inside me, his release filling me.
Before I could take a breath, Azriel flipped me onto my back, and Cassian settled between my thighs.
He buried himself inside me, and the sound that tore from me was a scream and a sob.
Cassian’s cock pushed Azriel’s cum deeper, forcing it further into my body with each brutal thrust of his hips.
“Fuck,” Cassian groaned, as my head rolled from side to side.
Each thrust forced my breasts to bounce, my hands clawing uselessly at the carpet. The pleasure was painful, almost violent, bordering on too much.
I watched as Rhys helped Feyre to her feet, his hands steadying her as she swayed.
“Let me taste him, please,” I whimpered, the words leaving my mouth before I could stop them.
Cassian’s laugh was dark and breathless. He slipped his arm beneath my knee, lifting my leg higher, angling his hips to go deeper.
The new position had tears fall from my eyes, my back arching off the floor as he hit something inside me that made stars burst behind my eyes.
Feyre straddled either side of my head. Her thighs trembled as she lowered herself; her pussy hovered just above my mouth.
My tongue licked a long, slow line from her dripping hole to her clit. I groaned into her, my hands reaching up to wrap around her waist, pulling her down onto my mouth.
She was shaking as my tongue pressed deeper, licking every drop of Rhys’s release.
“God,” Feyre moaned, her hips rolling against my face. “Please. Please don’t stop.”
Cassian’s fingers found my clit, pressing down in tight circles as he fucked me. I whimpered into Feyre’s pussy, the vibrations making her cry out above me.
My tongue traced every fold to her clit, flicking it with the tip of my tongue. Her breath came in short, desperate gasps, and I could feel her body tensing.
“I’m, oh god, I’m going to—”
She pressed herself harder against my mouth, and I felt her release flood my mouth and chin. I followed her, my walls clenching down around Cassian’s cock.
I felt him pulse inside me, his own cum adding to the mess inside me.
We stayed like that for a moment, me beneath him, Feyre still trembling above my face.
Cassian withdrew from me slowly, the sensation making me whimper as I felt their cum leak from my body.
Feyre didn’t climb off me as I expected. Instead, she bent forward, her hands reaching for the back of my thighs, and I felt her warm breath against my sensitive pussy.
My pussy was swollen and aching, still pulsing from my orgasm, and the feeling of her tongue was too much, overstimulating me.
“Feyre, I can’t, it’s too—” I gasped.
She didn’t stop. Her tongue pressed into my entrance, tasting every drop of cum that dripped from my body.
I came fast and hard, my face burying into her soaking pussy as my body arched.
The scream that tore from my throat was muffled by her pussy, my hips grinding against her mouth.
Her tongue continued its torture until I lay beneath her, whimpering and broken, coated in her release and Rhys’s, my body trembling.
Finally, she climbed off me, collapsing beside me. My hand reached for hers, our fingers intertwining as my eyes met the others.
Azriel sat with his back against the lounge chair, his face still glistening with my wetness, his cock hard in his hand.
Cassian sat beside me, his chest rising and falling heavy, his own hand working his cock in lazy pumps.
Rhys leaned against the table, his eyes watching us, hungry and predatory.
My breath hitched as I watched three men stroking themselves, knowing that the night was far from over.
mutual pining, friends to lovers, az is in heat, tiniest bitta gore, mating bond, heavy on the creampie, FITA, breeding kink, & cum play
𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲:
Trouble finds you when your Illyrian friends are away, and just as you’re about to meet your fate, the shadowsinger comes to save you. But now you have an entirely new issue at hand— he’s near-feral and in the peak of his heat, and you’ve both reached your breaking point.
𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐍𝐨𝐭𝐞:
I don’t… have any words to explain myself. Do Illyrians have a mating season? Not that we know of. Does Az have a breeding kink? SJM hasn’t explicitly said anything, but… I’d like to imagine so, yes. At least, in this fic, I sure know he does ;)
‘...Warm liquid splattered across the side of your face.
A sickening thud sounded before you and a gust of air and dirt washed over your trembling form. You held your breath, your arms still up in defense.
Another second passed before you slowly chanced a look… only to find a tall, winged figure looming over you, deathly silent. You could see the violent glint in his eyes even from your position on the ground, the sapphire of his siphons shimmering in the moonlight. They only reflected the light from the sky, not from the use of his power— no, he hadn’t needed to tap into that imposing, law-defying reserve— not in order to rip the ulf’s head clean off its shoulders; his brute strength had been enough for that…’
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Four long days had passed since the Illyrians had left for the harsh mountains of their native lands, and in their absence, a quiet unease had settled into the House of Wind.
Family dinners had initially been amusing— with Nyx thoroughly enjoying the undivided attention of all who stayed behind. But the house still felt too empty without the three males’ presence— perhaps one in particular, for you. Ultimately, you’d dismissed yourself to the quaint little cottage you kept at the edge of Velaris in attempt to escape the longing that lurked in your heart, and the void left by the absence of a certain hazel-eyed male.
The place was stationed on a hill atop a sleepy meadow, a stone wall curbing the property and the twinkling lights of the city on the horizon on one side, the other a breathtaking view of the sea. You liked to come here for reprieve every now and then— a haven from the bustling city and the busybodies that were your friends. It had been quite some time since you last visited; your friendship with the Night Court’s “Inner Circle” had grown stronger than ever lately, and as the newest addition to their little group as in-house healer, you found yourself rarely leaving the residences they often frequented.
The cottage was just as you’d left it, if not a bit overgrown; the grasses and various plants from your garden climbing over the trellises and fences, leaves spread wide and stems heavy with luscious crops. A little slice of peace; the perfect place for your solitude.
The only person you had ever brought here was Azriel.
You had been in the heart of the city with him, in search of presents for Starfall many months in advance. You’d told the Spymaster that you had to stop somewhere else before returning to the House of Wind. You insisted that you’d manage yourself, that he didn’t need to accompany you. But he was equally as firm in joining you on the errand– finally resorting to mention the thousands of stairs that you’d have to face if you split ways.
So, he came along with you to your humble home, quiet and observant as you guided him down the winding cobble path, through the garden, and inside the quaint walls. He had given few words of acknowledgement, but he did seem satisfied to gather another scrap of information about you, for you’d caught him examining the framed art and dried flowers that adorned the walls, even going so far as to peek into your ceramic cookie jar when he thought you were busy in the other room. That night you’d hidden your small smile as he tucked you into his chest and shot into the sky, content that he found your residence intriguing.
Azriel– the male that plagued your thoughts, the elusive shadowsinger. He who was content to observe instead of join the conversation, the one who was absent half of the time as his spymaster duties so often kept him busy. Always you noticed his presence when he had the time to entertain a social gathering, always you would meander over to his side to greet him. And always would he return the gesture, saying hello with a soft smile and kindness in his warm, hazel eyes. It was a look you cherished; one that sent butterflies fumbling in your stomach and warmth trickling into your cheeks. A look that you hoped was reserved just for you.
It was only natural you had grown feelings for him. How could you not? He was the kindest, most intelligent, and by far downright sexiest male you’d ever grown close to. Even his scent of cool cedar, of a needled forest just revitalized by heavy rain drove you wild, your crush in the male was irrefutable. And by Gods, when he stood next to you. He completely towered over you, those massive wings high and proud behind his strong back. Any interaction with him always reminded you that he was in exquisite shape, too… and that he would be perfectly capable of both protecting you and having his absolute way with you at any moment he so wished.
Unfortunately, such enamor for the male only made his current absence harder to withstand. Especially under such circumstances.
Your thoughts constantly wandered to him, and you couldn’t help but wonder if he was with someone right now— how many he had already taken in just the short time he and his brothers had been away. All because it was Illyrian mating season; a rare event that occurred only once every three hundred years or so, when for one week, hormones would rage in all sexes of the warrior race and the camps would inevitably become— as Mor had so eloquently put it— an all-out fuckfest.
The very camps the trio had flown off to just days ago.
You swallowed the lump in your throat and pointed your attention back to the meager meal you were making. Your stomach was painfully empty, but the idea of eating was completely lackluster, even as you sliced the plump tomatoes you had gathered on your way in with careful precision. Hunger had evaded you recently, with the queasiness that took hold of you at the notion of your beloved’s cock balls-deep inside of another.
You knew you didn’t really have the right to feel such things… Azriel had never explicitly said or done anything to suggest he desired you, and you liked to think you kept your crush a secret which only you were privy to. But he was, after all, the spymaster of the court; a centuries-old being— it was certainly possible that he was indeed aware of your feelings and simply did not return them.
Nonetheless, you hoped that he felt some similar sentiment for you– there were times when it would be just the two of you that stayed up after everyone else retired for the night, full of smirks and jokes and undivided attention. Times when you would wear something tight and sleek, and you swore you could feel his eyes burning into your curves… only to find them elsewhere when you turned to face him. And all the times he would take you as his sparring partner during the training that he insisted you take under his instruction, when he would best you and hold you there for a moment, the tip of his blade or his fist just brushing you, hazel hues locked to your gaze.
But that was all conjecture. He hadn’t once done anything beyond that for you to think his rare lingering touches and stares truly meant anything. And then, there were always rumors that he had his fair share of lovers. But that wasn’t surprising— he was one of the most handsome males in Prythian, and a powerful, mysterious one at that. It was to be expected that various fae threw themselves at his feet, legs spread and ready for the taking.
Frustration hit the bottom of your barren stomach, and you sighed as you grabbed a knife from the wooden block on the counter. You made your way to the garden at the back of the cottage to collect some extra herbs. Surely some food could help your spirits lift from the gloom they’d settled into, so long as you were able to force yourself to chew and swallow. You tried your best to rid your thoughts of the shadowsinger as you pushed the door open and wandered into the yard.
A few sconces were lit around the perimeter of the home, a lonely lamp post flickering at the end of the stone path that wound through the garden. A cluster of spindly trees loomed further on in the distance, their murky shadows nearly blending with the otherwise dark night sky. You hadn’t realized it had gotten so late; stars shone through the clouds above, their light barely reaching the moist blades of grass that tickled your bare feet. You took a second to admire their blazing brilliance; even just a short distance from the city, their dazzling glow seemed brighter.
Finally finding the plant you had been searching for, you crouched down and rubbed your fingers on the leaves, its earthy scent releasing into the air. You took a deep breath of it, savoring the pleasant, spicy aroma… until your eyes opened wide and you froze, limbs going stiff.
That smell… it was of rotten flesh and matted fur. It was…
A twig snapped behind you, and the hairs on the back of your neck stood up straight. Fear shot down your throat to form a tight ball in your gut, your fingers tightly gripping the puny paring knife that would be your only weapon to defend yourself.
The ulf lunged forward at the same moment you whirled around, the tip of your knife now raised as you struck across where you hoped its throat would be.
But an emaciated, leathery arm was outstretched there, and it let out a terrible cry as you plunged the blade into the limb. Almost instantly it had struck you with its other hand, sending you flying into the cottage wall.
Your breath whooshed out of you as you collided with the rough stone bricks, your ears ringing as your skull smacked into the arm you threw up to take the brunt of the blow. Your vision shook as you sat there stunned, the doubled image of the furry beast before you merging into one just as it lept toward you.
You rolled forward, tucking out of range from the assault, narrowly missing its gnarled teeth, canines glinting in the starlight.
Just as you got your feet under you and you braced your legs to shoot up into a run, its wretched claws sank into your exposed ankle.
Your scream pierced the silence of the empty meadow, pain racing up your leg as the terrifying creature dragged you toward it, digging deep enough to scrape bone.
Tears flooded your vision but you forced them away, focusing all your strength into a kick across the creature's muzzle, and a second one straight to the neck. The impact summoned a garbled wheeze from the ulf, and it released you as it stumbled back in recoil.
You scooted back on the grass, shaking and one hand covering your fresh wound, the other reaching out blindly behind you in search of whatever you could use— something you could throw at it, stab it— anything. Your blood began to spill onto the dirt beneath you, a dark trail smearing the grass as you kept moving backward. With it was the fragile hope of defeating the beast, as though all the grueling hours of training were leaking out of you along with the scarlet.
Your wide, fear-filled eyes would not leave the terrifying beast, tracking its every movement. You took in its horrifying face, its filthy lip that curled back at you and those wicked eyes that locked onto you as it regained its bearings.
Your brain screamed into your subconscious, a desperate plea that would reach no one. Help! Please, oh Gods, help me!
There was nothing you could use to defend yourself— your tiny knife was still lodged in its flesh, and the only thing you’d managed to grab from behind you was an unripe carrot from the soil. The ulf seemed to realize it had you, for it sat back on its gnarled haunches and pounced for you.
This was it.
You closed your eyes, a whimper leaving you as you braced for impact, wishing for a quick and painless death.
A high-pitched whine. And a horrible ripping sound.
Warm liquid splattered across the side of your face.
A sickening thud sounded before you and a gust of air and dirt washed over your trembling form. You held your breath, your arms still up in defense.
Another second passed before you slowly chanced a look… only to find a tall, winged figure looming over you, deathly silent. You could see the violent glint in his eyes even from your position on the ground, the sapphire glow of his siphons shimmering in the moonlight. They only reflected the light from the sky, not from the use of his power— no, he hadn’t needed to tap into that imposing, law-defying reserve— not in order to rip the ulf’s head clean off its shoulders; his brute strength had been enough for that. The rest of the beast’s decapitated body was slumped on the soil just a foot away from you, black blood oozing into a pool that slowly crept outward.
You still hadn’t taken a breath as your gaze flicked back up the male before you— only to then realize he was shirtless. The ridges of his muscles stood out in contrast between shadows and starlight and he stared down at you, practically fuming where he stood, icy rage billowing down broad shoulders. His toned torso glittered with sweat, dark whorls of ink dancing across tan, firm skin. You wondered what he had been doing in order to glisten with exertion like so; he had killed the ulf with such ease that certainly the perspiration couldn’t have been from that.
The cool caress of shadows at your ankle managed to pull your attention, sparing a glance at the tendrils that fussed over the scarlet trickling through your digits. They wiggled beneath your fingers and you gasped as they turned colder, binding around your skin. A soothing calm seeped through the limb, and you finally dared to breathe again.
Azriel still had yet to say a word, observing as you slowly shifted to sit on your knees, unsheathing the kitchen knife from the ulf’s corpse. He seemed fine, almost– perhaps if you didn’t know him so well, he could’ve gotten away with such a judgment. But you could see how his hands were clenched into pale-knuckled fists, see that his breath was forced, coming out in clipped, ragged pants. The male was as stiff as a board, braced as though he was ready for flight or fight.
You’d never witnessed an Illyrian during their mating season– not many had. It was a sacred event that the race liked to keep to themselves, cooped up in their camps and locked away, not to be disturbed. Amren had told you of an elders’ tale that claimed that once, an army had tried to attack an Illyrian settlement during the season, thinking the warriors would be vulnerable… only to find that the winged race was tenfold more vicious and bloodthirsty, and had decimated the offenders with abhorrent devastation, leaving no survivors before returning to their ritual. It was said the race was only capable of two things during the season: fighting and fucking.
Now as you examined the male, you could imagine the fable holding some truth.
The shadowsinger was visibly pumped– even in the dark, you could tell that his muscles were bigger, making his already-impressive frame even more intimidating. Pure power and testosterone pulsed off of him, weighing down the air with cedar musk. The silhouette of his massive wings loomed behind his shoulders, making him appear even larger as you studied him from below. To any other, it would be a terrifying view to behold. But all you felt was security; absolute safety in his presence.
“Are you alright?” Azriel finally rumbled. His voice was deep, gravely as if he’d just woken up. Maybe it was another physical side effect of his current predicament.
You pushed yourself up from the ground and stood on fawn legs. “I think so..,” you said, taking a tentative step.
It took that full step for you to realize that the shadow tourniquet only numbed your pain— it did nothing to heal your wound. You whimpered and tumbled forward, mortification flooding your cheeks as soon as you began your descent.
But you never touched the grass.
In an instant, Azriel’s corded arms were wrapped around you, and you were pulled snug into his chest. You gasped at the same time he groaned, his skin a thousand degrees where it touched yours. Heat burst in your cheeks at the sound, your eyes going wide.
Not a second passed before you were off of him, his hands planted firmly at your arms’ side, thrusting you as far away from himself as possible. His head hung down toward the ground, silky locks falling into soft waves that shielded his face from you. You noted the way he panted, fingers like steel digging into your skin.
“Um… are you alright, Az?” you asked, observing the tremble that reverberated throughout his tense body.
Something akin to a growl tumbled out of him.
“I’m fine,” he replied, voice clipped and his eyes still fixed on the grass at his feet.
Maybe it was stupid to be toeing the line with him when he was in such a state… but you couldn’t help it. He had saved you from a nasty fate, he had come for you even when he was under such stress, when he was so far away. You weren’t quite sure how he knew you were in danger when he was so very far away in the Illyrian mountains— though you had an inkling. If maybe somehow… perhaps the two of you were…
You swallowed.
Reaching for him, your fingers stretched out before they met his stubbled jaw. The male stilled, unable to fight himself and pull away. His shaky exhale washed over your exposed collar, something stirring low in your stomach.
“I can’t be here,” Azriel said, his voice hard yet soft somehow. His eyes flickered toward your lips before he scrunched them closed, his form taut and coiled, like a snake ready to strike.
His statement made your heart deflate, your hand falling to your side. You crossed your arm over your middle, rubbing your forearm awkwardly. “Right, I… I’m sorry for interrupting you, you must’ve been…” you gulped, “… busy.”
Hazel flew up to meet your gaze but you wouldn’t look at him. Instead he took in the way your brow was slightly furrowed, a ghost of a pout on your pretty, pink lips.
“I wasn’t …” he paused, tongue parting his mouth. “Don’t apologize. I’ll always come for you,” the male vowed, fixing you with his intense stare.
Butterflies swarmed your stomach at his promise, your cheeks fuzzy with sudden emotion. Wordlessly Azriel closed the distance between you and you froze, wide eyes locked on his close face. And then your feet were swept out from under you and your body was secure in Azriel’s embrace, your head snug against his naked chest.
You didn’t miss the low inhale from the male, your heart racing at his attempt to subtly take in your scent. Your core throbbed and you blushed at the intensity of your body’s response to his. Never had you been up against his bare chest like this… the proximity made you dizzy, your fingers tingling with the urge to explore every inch of him. His skin was so warm– or maybe that was yours, feeling hot wherever you directly touched him. And whose heartbeat was thumping like crazy up against your chest?
Azriel stalked his way inside your home, feet heavy and strides rushed, but careful not to hit you on the doorway. His wings tucked in as he entered the kitchen, and you swallowed at his large silhouette. His head was only a short distance from the ceiling, the apex of his wings nearly dragging against the plaster.
“Did you get… taller?” you peeped up as he gently deposited you on the edge of the sturdy wooden table in the middle of your kitchen, large, scarred hands making sure you were balanced before they drew back.
Shadows slithered off into all directions, melting into the darkness of your dimly lit home. You watched them disappear before you looked at the male once again, only to find his gaze already trained on you.
“Yes,” was his curt reply, hazel tearing off of you as shadows supplied the first aid kit from beneath your bathroom sink cabinet into his waiting hands.
“Oh,” was all you could muster, not quite sure what to make of that.
Your eyes followed long, agile fingers as he opened the kit, rifling through the gauze and bandages. He wordlessly handed you one of the little vials of tonic that would help with the pain and speed up the healing process. Popping the little cork off the bottle, you tipped your head back and gulped down its bitter contents without protest.
Azriel was silent save for his burning gaze and heavy breathing. Even if you couldn’t hear his labored breaths, you could see he was somewhat off by the way his firm chest muscles heaved.
“It’s because of the season,” he explained, voice rough. His wings shuddered and then let loose a brief shake— the claws that lined each joint flexing inward. You shivered as you studied them, imagining the talons would slice through flesh like water, the hooked tips glinting with the promise of pain.
You had to admit, there was something remarkable about just how deadly the male before you truly was… and even more so in his current state. Your eyes wandered to his lean forearms when he uncapped a metal tin of salve, mesmerized by the way his veins bulged with the smallest exertion.
What else could those fingers do?
Your tongue poked out to wet the seam of your lips, just at the same time you turned to look at him. Hazel was ablaze and focused entirely on you, the corner of his eye twitching as his hands turned to fists.
“Don’t,” he warned, tone hard and unwavering.
You swallowed, wincing as he smeared the paste onto your oozing gash. A rough thumb smoothed over the adjacent skin as if to apologize for the fleeting pain, skilled hands wrapping your ankle in bandages with practiced precision.
“Don’t what?” you asked, your voice not sounding your own. The overwhelming terror that had filled you just minutes ago was completely dissipated now; washed away and drowned under fresh waves of desire.
Azriel ripped the gauze from the roll with ease, taking care not to pull too tight as he finished the job with a little bow. The male shook his head, trying to clear the lustful fog that permeated the usual disciplined walls he threw up whenever he was around you.
“If you’re okay now, I have to leave,” he said through clenched teeth, each second spent in your presence making his fight all the harder. There was no venom in his voice— but it was hard, and heavy. His words seemed empty– his body remaining still before you, a scarred hand lingering on your leg.
“Can you stay? Please?” you said, tilting your chin up so you could look him in the eye, giving him your best attempt at demurity. Normally you would never be so bold, but this was far from usual circumstances.
Azriel flashed his teeth at you in what could’ve intended to be a grin, but it came off as more of a grimace, shaking his head. He removed his hand from you, retreating a step. Shadows slowly gathered toward him, and panic flashed in your chest.
“I can’t,” is all he replied with, darkness melting into the edge of his silhouette.
“Why?” Your spine went straight, pushing yourself up to sit upright and face him fully. “Is there… someone waiting for you?” You wanted so badly to sound strong, accusatory… but it only came out as hurt, your words soft.
“No,” he denied instantly, some unknown emotion making his wings flap with indignation behind him, making scrolls scatter around the room, tiny herb jars rattling at the force. Neither of you paid them any mind. “There’s no one. I can’t—” he huffed, turning his face to the side, eyes falling to the floor. He continued, his voice low, “I’ve been alone this season.”
Relief exploded through your body, warmth blooming at his admission. He hadn’t been with anyone else? Worry quickly weaved its way into your heart— why hadn’t he been acting on his instincts? He’d been fighting his desires for the last four days? Wouldn't refraining from… fulfilling his urges have repercussions?
You frowned, taking in the sight of the male before you. He was clearly a divine specimen– there was no way that the other Illyrians simply didn’t want him. And wasn’t he supposed to be filled with an insatiable lust right now; a hunger, a need to fuck anyone who so much as looked at him? You thought harder about what you knew of the season, about the little scraps of knowledge you had discovered deep in the library catalogs.
During mating season, Illyrians are filled with an immutable need to procreate, to extend a lineage with as many partners as possible. Hormones skyrocket within the race and their thirst can only be calmed through physical exertion. Some activities may provide relief, such as violence or self-stimulation, but ultimately, the urge may only be temporarily quelled by sexual intercourse. The only circumstance an Illyrian may abstain from such primal needs is through the recognition of the mating bond. Only through such unparalleled devotion may an Illyrian remain loyal during the mating season, either choosing to spend their rut in solely their mating bed, or in extremely rare cases, solitude.
Your heart felt funny, your stomach flying up into your throat. Wasn’t it possible that Azriel was… your mate? No– because he wouldn’t keep such knowledge from you… not if he knew. But then, if he was truly alone, then it was clear that he knew he had a mate. He had come running to your call when you mentally cried out into the abyss, when you hadn’t even known who you were calling to, if anyone could hear you.
But Azriel heard you. And he had rushed here to save you, even in such a state.
“Then stay,” you said simply, hands coming to lay behind either of your hips on the table.
The shadowsinger bared his teeth, a growl ripping through him that shuddered your core. Your invitation was testing him– you were pushing him too far, and you had the audacity to bat your eyelashes at him while doing so. He was just barely shaking, muscles so tight with restraint that he looked to be in physical pain. “Can’t you see that I’m losing my fucking mind at the sight of you? I can’t control myself right now,” he groaned hoarsely, sweat lining his temple.
You leaned forward, excitement sparking as his eyes immediately flew to the bit of cleavage that was revealed with the motion. Slowly, you spread your legs, your fingers trailing your inner thigh. Your face felt on fire— every part of you did. This was so uncharacteristically bold of you; the two of you had been walking on the eggshells of your attraction for so long now.
But you couldn’t look away from him, couldn't stop yourself from tempting him. You were tired of the games, tired of the questions, of the chase. You wanted him.
You wanted him now.
Your heart felt like it was beating a thousand times a minute as his gaze fixed on the apex of your legs, and you whispered, “So lose control.”
Azriel’s eyes widened, jumping to your face as shock flooded them. His shadows didn’t need to be told twice, immediately twirling around your feet and crawling up your parted legs. He stepped back after a moment of buffering, his shadows seeming to shriek with protest as he yanked them back, withdrawing further away from you.
“No— I could hurt you. This is not how this is supposed to go, we—“ he huffed, fists curled and muscles wound tight. “It’s not supposed to be like this.”
You melted inside, his sentiment sending warmth echoing through you like the wake of a stone plunged into placid water. He had thought about the two of you being together before? The pieces of the puzzle were all falling into place, your doubts dissolving by the second.
Azriel’s eyes widened, surprised he had actually just revealed that to you. A faint blush dusted his tanned cheeks, and he closed and opened his mouth, shocked at his own confession. The inner battle with his raging hormones had made his iron-clad restraints weak; letting words slip from his tongue that had been lingering there for so fucking long.
You slid off the table and took a step forward, palms open at your sides as if he were a wild animal that could be scared off at the slightest wrong move. “Az, you’re right,” you said, eyes fixed on his. “This was supposed to happen a long fucking time ago.”
The male gaped and blinked, hazel eyes wide as they raked over your advancing form.
You drank him in, too— gaze lingering on the sizable bulge that jerked in longing beneath his pants. You pursed your lips, salivating at the thought of what laid beneath. You chanced another step.
“Fuck,” he swore, his breath ragged. He licked his lips, pecs heaving with every labored pant. “Y/n please, you can’t— you don’t know what you’re doing, I’m not myself right now, I don’t want to hurt you.”
You smiled softly. Didn’t he see? “You won’t, Azriel. I trust you…”
“You shouldn’t,” he said, protests growing weaker with every second. You could tell his resolve was slipping, his shadows inching closer to you, stretching for another taste of your skin.
Azriel twitched when your hand met the hot, inked skin of his chest, throwing his head back as he swallowed a moan. His hormones were wild with the season’s influence, heavy pheromones permeating the air with infectious lust. It was becoming unbearable to be this close to you without pressing you against the nearest surface and plunging into the tight heat that was surely slickening between your legs. Kept fingernails dug into the palm of his hands as he clung desperately to the last thread of his composure.
“Please, Az,” you murmured, lips finally touching the column of his throat, as high up as you could reach, just beneath his jaw. “I can’t pretend that I don’t want you for another second.” Your tongue poked out to taste him, salt and musk ambrosial on your taste buds.
This time, the male didn’t hold back his moan, instead letting it fill the heavy kitchen air and making butterflies explode in your stomach. The sound sent a rush to your core and you clenched hard, fingernails digging into his flesh.
You squeaked when scarred hands gripped you and flung you back onto the kitchen table, hard enough to concuss. But there was only shock, no pain; for Azriel cushioned the impact, an arm curling around your waist and hand cushioning the back of your skull so you didn’t slam your head— the male fluidly moved with you, ending up pressed above you chest to chest. Your body thrummed with anticipation, excitement bursting forth in your veins.
Now you’d done it.
The last scrap of his restraint had been ripped away and now you were in for the fuck of your life. You blinked in stupor, but Azriel left no time to waste. Hazel was blown wild as he stared down at you, pinning your wrists with each of his large hands.
“Trust this,” he asserted, rutting your clothed sexes together. You gasped, the hard, huge length of him shocking even through the clothes between you, your eyes growing wide as they met his burning hazel gaze. “I am steel for you. Only you.”
His hot tongue lashed out to claim your neck, full lips joining to mark the divot between your clavicle and shoulder. The intensity made you keen, your head tossing to the side as you screwed your eyes shut and sang for him, hips rocking up against his. You could feel your panties wet with slick, his savage behavior making your body throb, readying itself for his taking.
This was insane. There was nothing that could compare to this— the need, the depravity of this, of him.
You could hardly believe that he had come for you, had saved you. Was this the gratitude every maiden in peril felt, or was this something more? Something much more? From the way the male was possessively claiming your skin with his mouth, your heart leapt into your throat, stomach twisting with hope.
But you couldn’t dwell on it, his fingers quickly traveling to the front of your blouse and promptly ripping the seam down your middle. Buttons clattered all around you on the floor below, your breasts spilling out for his eyes to devour. His mouth followed, lips quickly catching a nipple and sucking you in, nose poking into your flesh as he drowned himself in your supple skin.
Your back arched as you mewled, lashes flying shut and digits flying to curl into his hair. Soft onyx locks twisted between your fingers and you couldn’t help the grin that sprouted as he moaned your name into your skin— you weren’t the only one lost in the throes of pleasure.
You couldn’t slow for a second, couldn’t stop— he was hard as rock beneath his leathers, every piece of him lined with lean muscle. But the part of him that melted your brain most was his cock; you could feel it reaching for you, the thick outline of it pressing against your core through the layers. It made you ache, intolerably so— your pussy stirring as you imagined what that length would feel like stretching you out and filling you to the brim. Your hands reached out before you could even comprehend what you were doing.
Azriel roared when your fingers landed on the stiff forearms of his wings, his front surging forward and rutting into yours. The surprise in his gaze quickly morphed to voracity and your body shook in response, your legs spreading to curl around his waist and draw his lower half closer. You squeezed the hard appendages, fingertips sliding down to rub closer to the joints.
Shadows swarmed the pair of you and you cried at their cold touch, having forgotten them completely. But they were sure to remind you of their abilities, and you’d never underestimate them again. One second you were engulfed by darkness and the next, you were completely bare, your nakedness on full display for the shadowsinger’s ferocious gaze to drink up. The tendrils lashed out and snatched your hands from his wings, growing taught around your wrists and holding them down atop the table.
All you could see was his piercing eyes taking in every inch of the sight before him, his shadows covering his body as the silhouette of his massive wings hung high and dark behind him. Obsidian swirls curled into his hair and licked upon his skin, blending easily with the dark whirls of ink that marked his frame.
Your mind was now wholly consumed with lust; the utter primality with which he was treating you made your core stir like nothing else. Your hips wriggled as you waited for him to touch you, but immediately the shadows strapped you firm against the tabletop, your ankles dragging to the corners to expose your most intimate part right before his eyes.
Heat burst into your cheeks, embarrassment blooming in your chest at the exposure. But you saw the way Azriel’s face twisted when his eyes traveled down from your face, down past your tits and your navel and down until they fixed on your pink, glistening hole. Thick brows furrowed and you could practically see the steam from his heavy exhale, his pupils dilating til you swore his gaze had been engulfed by shadow too.
And then all you could see were the wicked talons that crested the tips of his wings, because the male fell to his knees and shoved his face directly into your cunt.
You cried out, body ringing taut when his nose shoved into your clit. The heat of his tongue flat against your entrance drew a subsequent moan out from the depths of your lungs, fingernails digging into the lacquered wood beneath you.
Azriel took you into his mouth and you melted as his guttural moan vibrated through you, your body tingling all the way to your toes. His stubble tickled your thighs as he nudged deeper, drowning himself in your essence. He dove into you without holding back, tracing your slit with precise flicks of that wicked tongue and then slipping the warm muscle inside your quivering hole. The lower half of his face was soon coated in your slick, and with every movement of his, only more wetness leaked out of you for him to savor.
Scarred hands curled around the tops of your thighs, calloused fingertips digging into soft flesh. They spread your legs wider, broad shoulders coming to hold you open as he ravaged you, pulling you closer so that no space remained between the pair of you.
You sobbed when his tongue finally trailed from your entrance, following your folds the short distance to your clit. He growled into your center in response to your garbled noise, lips taking hostage of the sensitive little pearl. Your skull smacked hard wood as your head flew back, but you didn’t care— Azriel’s hands had wandered from your thighs to your hips, slipping underneath to grab handfuls of your plush bottom. His fingers dug into the meat of your ass, pulling you apart so he could shove his face even deeper into your cunt.
“Aha– oh, Az– fuck!” you moaned as he ate you mercilessly, your limbs still held prisoner by taut shadows. No matter how hard you struggled, the void would not give– if you could only hear the things they whispered to their master, if you could only know how happy they were to assist him in his plight…
Azriel groaned against your soaked pussy, the sound echoing in waves of pleasure that rippled through your body. Your legs had begun to shake, fingers curling into fists that couldn’t grab him but desperately wanted to. It should’ve been shameful, the way you were already racing toward an orgasm. He knew just what to do to you, knew exactly how to deliver you right to ecstasy’s doorstep.
And then he drew back.
You had just enough time to open your eyes and look at him to protest, lips already forming your displeasure. But instead, you clocked him as he stood, your eyes falling from his sizzling stare down his contoured, tattooed torso… down to that delicious V that tapered down narrow hips, the ink adorning the lines of his body until—
You gasped, gaze wide. His cock stood upright— tall, thick, swollen, and hard as… steel. A translucent trail of his lust trailed down the vein that bulged along the underside, a sticky bead dripping slowly off the pink tip. Fuck, had such a marvel been within reach all this time?
Your hole clenched in welcome.
Blush stained your cheeks as the male caught the movement, a devilish smirk curling at the corner of his lip. You whimpered when he stepped closer, the tip of him nudging through your glistening folds. Azriel sighed, gripping the base of himself and rubbing the two of you together. Your cries were music to his ears, your hips flexing against the shadows to try and trace yourself onto the thick length of him.
“Oh Gods, you’re perfect,” he murmured, a hand coming to cup one of your breasts in his palm, thumbing over the hardened nipple there. Your name drifted out of him as he loosed a shallow thrust, the very tip of him dipping into your soaked opening.
You wailed when his hips drew back and he slid back in with ease, half of him disappearing inside of you. How he had slipped inside of you so easily, you couldn’t know– you were wetter than you’d ever been, yes, but his manhood was also almost too big– you didn't know if it would fit all the way inside. Your head fell back against the table once more, your quick breaths making your chest rise and fall, your breasts heaving with the action.
The shadowsinger watched the movement, unable to tear his eyes away from you. Only once he heard your sob did he realize he had thrust in all the way, and your eyes had rolled back as your body strained underneath him. You looked so angelic like that, with your cunt wrung tight and wet around all of him, your curves making both his wings and his cock twitch with anticipation.
He gave another tentative thrust, the last shred of sanity slipping from his brain as your walls hugged him, his body trembling. He’d been able to hold out on his own for the last few days by pleasuring himself, but that was leagues away from this. The inside of you was completely soaked for him, and the heat of you squeezing around him made the last of his resolve melt away into nothingness.
You could see the moment his control really slipped— his hazel gaze bleeding black on the edges. His grip tightened, fingertips digging into your flesh like claws as he gathered your hips closer to him, so your ass rested right on the edge of the table. Excitement and a little fear burst forth in your stomach as intensity radiated off of the male, the scent of his outright arousal heavy in the air.
Suddenly his hips snapped forward, and you couldn’t stop the shriek that spilled out of you. Azriel moaned too, louder than you’d imagined he would in your fantasies. Every inch of him was nestled inside of you and that was no ordinary feat. Your cunt throbbed with the thought, more of your essence oozing out for him.
Azriel didn’t waste a drop of it, finding a rhythm that buried himself to the hilt inside you with ease thanks to your ample slick. Huge, magnificent wings trembled behind him, a sign of just how strung out he was in his current state.
“Ugh, fuck— Goddess, you’re a goddess,” he praised, gaze fixed on the bounce of your tits as he rammed into you again and again.
His name fell from your lips as you panted, your hole stretched wide around the base of him. Each stroke had your mind melting, sweat starting to cling to your skin as you trembled at the intensity of the pleasure. You watched his massive cock slide in and out of you, your slick coating the inside of your thighs as you greedily took in every thrust.
“I can’t, ahh I can’t, I can’t—“ Azriel chanted, his abs clenched so hard you couldn’t help but watch sweat drip down the valleys between the prominent muscles.
Suddenly his thumb found its way to your clit and began to glide over the little nub with great generosity. You wailed and clamped onto him harder, your climax racing forth as his hips continued to slap wetly against yours.
“Cum,” he ordered, voice clipped and full of unshakable authority. The sheer dominance radiating off of the male above you was palpable, your body bending to his command. “Be a good girl for me and cum on my cock. Y’want me to cum in this pretty pussy baby? C’mon, cum and milk it out of me, good girl— oh fuck yes—“
Your cunt went tight around him and you cried out as stars flooded your vision, your orgasm hurtling into you, his filthy words sending you over the edge. Pure ecstasy pulsed through your entirety as you came, your walls pulsing as they ached for his imminent release. You felt like your entire body was aflame, and yet that was nothing compared to the heat glowing in your chest, a foreign, welcome weight presenting itself, a rope to hold onto as you nearly lost yourself in the throes of pleasure.
Azriel moaned and pushed all the way inside of you as he met his own climax. Hot streams of his seed spurted out of his throbbing cock, deep into your womb and your eyes rolled back at the heat that blossomed there. You could feel yourself filling with him— he just kept shaking and throbbing and moaning as more and more emptied out of him. Days of just barely scraping by the mating season had left him with balls painfully full and now all you could do was ride out the waves of your shared orgasm as he filled you to the brim. Sweet relief washed through Azriel’s overheated body– emanating from where the base of his cock nestled deep inside of you. With every spurt of release, that insatiable need within him extinguished until he nearly fell on top of you, shaky arms braced to catch himself.
His face fit into your neck, labored breaths cascading over your hot skin. Tremendous leathery wings draped down over his shoulders, his rough hands coming to wrap around the back of your neck and your waist, pressing your bodies together with great care. You hummed with satiety and pressed a soft kiss to his temple, floating back to the ground from your ecstasy. Your hands now released from his shadowy binds, one combed through his silky hair while the other found the divot of his spine, fingers trailing over his dampened skin in soothing motions.
For the first time in days, Azriel’s mind was clear. His eyes opened wide as he came to his senses. He had just taken full advantage of you– he was balls-deep inside of you, and you were full of his seed. His breath began to quicken, his just-calmed mind now gaining speed as the full extent of his actions now hit him.
Slowly he retreated from the solace of your embrace, just enough to catch your eye. “Y/n, I–” he began but you wouldn’t let him.
You wouldn’t let him regret this when you were still here, in the best moment of your life, the intensity of the fresh golden thread between your hearts glowing and filling your body with unbridled joy.
“I love you, Azriel,” you declared, hands coming to hold his sculpted jaw, thumbs drifting over his cheeks and chin. You imagined the tether in your mind, taking hold of it and tugging, like you were pulling your chests impossibly closer.
Surprise flooded his gaze, his brow high as his parted lips ticked up into a sideways grin. His hazel eyes softened as they roamed your face, like you were the most beautiful thing he’d ever seen. He breathed out your name, voice soft as a feather, his fingers stroking your neck tenderly.
“My mate,” you whispered and Azriel visibly shuddered, long eyelashes kissing his cheeks as he closed his eyes and smiled bigger than you’d ever seen. It was the most breathtaking sight, him smiling like that– and your heart felt so full, knowing that you were the cause behind it.
The male tucked his face back into your shoulder and gathered your body flush to his, cradling you even closer than before, pressing every piece of you together as close as possible. “My mate,” he echoed, deep voice almost a purr, his happiness rippling over the bond in loud, unapologetic swells.
You pulled his hair just enough for him to lean back and see eye to eye again, sharing a loving look before your lips met. Sparks rushed through your body, his lips slotting between yours and your noses brushing together. You drew back to catch your breath, but Azriel leaned in and captured your mouth once more, unwilling to part with you for even a moment. You gasped and his tongue glided in, meeting yours with a wild tenderness you’d never experienced before. Your tongues brushed together and you couldn’t fight the small moan that crept out of you, your body moving on its own volition to roll your hips against his.
Azriel moaned back, and your cheeks flushed with heat as you felt his hard cock twitch inside of you– you hadn’t realized he’d never softened, even after that law-defying orgasm. You could feel his essence leaking from you– his member taking up so much space inside you, there was barely any room for his cum to remain within your walls.
You seemed to be on the same page, for he stepped back and you both watched as he unsheathed his thick length from you. Finally he removed himself and your hole clenched at the emptiness. Your cheeks became hot as you witnessed a river of his thick, white cum rush out, the sheer amount of it so much that the stream swiftly became a puddle that spilled over the table’s edge and onto the floor.
The sight only made you hungry for more, your bottom lip taken prisoner between your teeth. You caught Azriel’s equally-desirous gaze, throwing one more glance at his cream-covered cock before you flipped yourself over, your palms and knees now resting flat on the tabletop, careful to keep your injured ankle dangling off the table.
Your male growled at the invitation, immediately closing the distance between you two. His hands took hold of your ass, so large that his fingers could grip the curve of the soft flesh and his thumbs spread your raw pussy open at the same time. You whined as you felt more of him leak out, trailing over your clit and down your thighs.
Azriel moaned at the sight, dipping a thumb into his spend and inside your cunt, enjoying the feeling of your aching walls throbbing around him. You panted and bucked back against him, desperate for more. Now that you’d had a taste of his cock, and his cum… nothing else would suffice. The Illyrian complied with your needs– his cock already hard and dripping with precum again, the sight of you too much. The lust from his hormones was already starting to build again– or maybe that was the fresh acknowledgment of the bond– he didn’t know, nor care.
You keened when the searing tip of him pressed against your entrance once more, spread wide so he could watch your pussy swallow every inch he offered. He slipped inside just as easily as before, both of you letting out a long moan in harmony as your ass met his hips, cock hot and hard inside your throbbing walls. The stretch of him was so utterly delicious, you couldn’t stop yourself from bouncing back onto him just to feel it again, and then again.
Azriel threw his head back and allowed himself to revel in the pleasure as you set a steady pace, pussy greedily gobbling up every inch of his incredible length. You whimpered at the sensation of his tip prodding deep, deep within you– a spot you didn’t know existed revealing the very apex of your vulnerability, your pleasure.
The noises you let loose as you sat back onto him each time you never knew you could make– the feeling of your bodies becoming one unlike anything you could have imagined. Your mate was just as deep in the tides of euphoria as you, rough hands steady as he guided you back and forth on his cock. You didn’t know how long you’d last, how long you’d been fucking back onto him, didn’t even know your name. All you could feel was pleasure, your mate, his pleasure, your bond.
You felt that knot tightening in your stomach again.
You cried out when you felt his thumb rove over your asshole, pressing firmly against you as he took control, his other hand holding your hips in place so he could set a punishing pace. The digit slipped inside and your eyes widened, the stretch foreign but oh so welcome. You started to shake, your orgasm nearing as he thrust hard and deep.
Azriel panted as he watched you take him, the curve of your spine bent just right, your ass up and his hands on you– in you. Your soft little body taking his hard large one so well– fuck, he could feel your climax coming through the bond and that only catalyzed his own. Words evaded him this time, your emotions mingling with his along with his Illyrian hormones; everything felt that much stronger– overwhelming. He was so close– he needed you to cum, needed you to milk him again, his mate.
Shadows slithered up onto the table and twirled around your nipples, and you tensed, crying out at the surprise stimulation. The whirls then curled around your thighs and met your poor swollen clit, the cool sensation the final straw as you clenched down and came hard.
You screamed his name, your orgasm barreling through you like never before. Your ears rang, your vision flashing white and your chest hot– searingly hot– so, so hot, and then–
Azriel cried out as he came too, pressing into you ‘til he was balls-deep, emptying into the depths of your womb. Your mate’s ecstasy careened over the fresh bond, and paired with the shadows that kept on caressing you, you sobbed as you came again, not even recovered from your initial orgasm.
Your entirety felt as though it had been dunked under complete and utter bliss. Pure pleasure totally consumed you, leaving you totally helpless with no choice but to feel everything.
Azriel struggled with the same intensity behind you, cock still pumping into you even if he had nothing left to give. His great wings shivered with ecstasy, eyes rolled back, fingertips digging into your soft flesh for dear life as he whimpered.
Eventually the earth materialized beneath you and you all but collapsed onto the table. Azriel let out a grunt of agreement, chest still rising and falling in exertion. His hand left your ass and gripped the base of him as he pulled out, watching as his seed followed, dripping onto the table once more. There was not nearly as much as before, yet still a decent amount came out. He bit his lip, tracing the outline of your soiled cunt with the head of his swollen cock, studying your pink intimacy as your body quivered.
It was unnatural that he already felt the smallest itch to go again— but his cock had been rock hard since the season started and he doubted he would ever soften now that you had recognized him as your mate. At least now his body felt his own; the need to procreate fed and tamed, for how long, he didn’t know.
Suddenly cool shadows enveloped the pair of you before depositing you both upon your bed in the adjacent room. Your head hit the pillow and you moaned in delight, exhaustion taking root in your core.
Azriel lay beside you, face to face, a small smile on his lips as he watched your eyelids fight to stay open. You shivered and scooched closer to him, and he curled an arm around you, happy to comb a hand through your hair and hold you close. His shadows pulled a thin blanket over you, meandering across your exposed shoulder and hair with a calm kind of joy.
“Rest now, my little mate,” he murmured, savoring the beat of your heart so close to his, the feeling of your warm breath against his chest. “You’ll need your strength if we’re to survive the rest of the season...”
No knight in shining armour - but a cowboy will do
pairing: Rhett Abbott × reader
warnings: positive depiction of sex work (strip club), small-town gossip/sexism, non-explicit lap dance, no mentions of y/n
summary: Rhett doesn’t need to pay for attention - never has - but one night under neon he looks up and finds beauty in the last place he expects. You’re onstage: calm, controlled, running the room with good rules and better timing. He keeps his eyes where you ask and learns that consent can be chemistry. A week later he’s back, nervous as a teenager, and you make it easy: two songs, steady hands, the clean relief of being seen. Between shifts and small-town nights there are fries, quiet conversations, and a kitchen that forgives. You don’t need a knight in shining armour - but a cowboy who keeps his promises is nice to have.
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He doesn't really want to go. He says so twice on the drive, once when the road leaves the county line, and again when the neon from a few towns over starts pooling in the ditches like spilled antifreeze. The guys drag him anyway - allegiance to them is counted in years rather than sense. They laugh and thump the back of his seat and tell him it’s good to “get out”.
Rhett Abbott doesn’t need to pay for attention. He’s had enough women for that kind of pride to be a point of principle. But here he is, slipping cash into a place where money keeps the lights warm and the smiles warmer. The neon buzzes. The floor sticks. The air smells like vanilla, stale beer, and the kind of perfume that survives a storm. The group slides into a corner booth - out of the spotlight, close enough to watch everything. Rhett takes the outside seat, one leg stretched into the aisle.
The club’s a paradox - too loud to hear and too dim to see. The DJ says something the crowd answers with money and shouts. A bartender with a comet-tail of glitter arches an eyebrow when his friends order a round and slide a stack of crumpled bills across the lacquered wood. Rhett keeps his hat on because it feels like armor and sets his shoulders against the booth because that’s where they go when he doesn’t trust his knees. He tells himself he won’t look long. He tells himself he’ll take the measure of the place and that’ll be that.
Then you step out.
The stage lights catch where your robe parts and paint everything else in suggestion. It’s midnight-blue satin, trimmed in rhinestones that throw little meteors across the ceiling when you move. A slit flashes a glimpse of the outfit beneath - white bodysuit stitched with constellations of crystal, a narrow belt at your waist, sheer tights with a neat seam, silver heels that catch and scatter the light like spurs gone fancy. Your earrings swing once, bright as tossed coins; a thin choker winks at your throat. Vanilla and clean skin drift ahead of you, the kind of perfume that knows how to survive a storm. His breath stutters. Something in his chest stands up straight.
The room’s noise goes muffled. Rhett now has the hat folded in his lap, thumbs pressed into the crease, and the grip goes tight without him meaning to. Awe, he thinks - distant and a little startled - not a word he uses even for bulls that jump like lightning or dawns that come up copper. It lands anyway, clean and bright, like steel ringing under a hammer. His breath stutters. He takes you in the way a man reads weather: the line of your shoulder, the sure set of your hips, the rhythm you drag the room into without breaking a sweat. The rhinestones ripple when you turn - stars shaken loose into a night you wear like it belongs to you. He notices dumb, human details that make it worse - in a good way: one nick on the heel, a single stone missing near your hip, the precise sweep of liner that makes your eyes look like they can cut and still be kind. He keeps his gaze on your face, like a promise he made himself. One boot plants hard on the sticky floor, one knee easing into the aisle as if his body wants to move closer, but his manners say stay. The track is all bass and no heart until you give it both. He forgets the drink sweating beside his hand. He remembers only the arc of your smile, the slow economy of your hands, the fact that a dozen people are looking, and somehow it feels like you’re teaching him how to breathe.
You’re beautiful the way the weather is - moving, indifferent, inevitable. It isn’t about skin; it’s about geometry and confidence, about the line from your throat to your shoulder, the certain way your weight shifts on the beat. You don’t rush. You never need to. The crowd leans in; you don’t have to meet them halfway. Rhett forgets the glass in his hand until the cold sweats down his fingers. He sets it aside without looking. His friends are hooting in that way that makes him embarrassed for men as a species; he lets their noise flow past him. He’s not staring like the others - at least, he hopes he isn’t. He’s watching. There’s a difference. He’s taken enough falls to know reverence when it breaks over him.
You find him sooner than he expects you to - maybe it’s the way he holds still in a room that otherwise never does, or the way he keeps his eyes north of your collarbone. You clock him like you clock weather too: the hat, the throat, the hands that look like they’ve known work and whiskey and the inside of a pocket when there’s nothing to say. Handsome, not old. Not the kind that tries to buy more than the room is selling. You give him that split-second that costs you nothing and feels like everything to someone paying. A glance held two beats past professional. A corner-smile that has the grace to be private while half the county’s here. When you turn under the lights, you aim one thread of your attention his way and tug. He feels it like a lariat dropped soft over his shoulders. It changes the air for him. He sits up a little. He forgets about leaving early.
You finish the first song with a flourish that’s all punctuation and no apology. Bills float like autumn leaves at the edge of the stage. A man with a birthday sash throws confetti and misses your mark by a yard. You walk the long curve of the stage to collect what the night owes you, and as you pass the side closest to his booth, you let your gaze sweep, then settle - briefly, unmistakably - on him. It’s not a promise. It’s not an invitation. It’s a gracious acknowledgement: I see you, and you are not the worst thing in this room. The set rolls on. You don’t burn hot; you bank and glow, a better kind of heat. When you step down, the room tilts toward you. Girls in glittered robes exchange nods like handoffs in a relay. You loop the floor once because that’s part of the choreography too - drink water, check on the table that’s tipping sloppy, nudge a bouncer with your chin about the guy who’s getting brave. You pass Rhett’s booth in that circuit. Close enough he can catch the warm-cool flicker of your perfume, close enough to read the tiny scuff in the leather of your heel. He keeps his eyes at eye-level like a promise he made to himself. When you reach his table, your fingers land - not on him - but on the edge of his napkin, two taps like a knuckle on a door.
“You good, cowboy?” you ask, and somehow there’s no teasing in it. He wants to say something smooth, but smooth isn’t his language. “Yes, ma’am,” he says, voice turned down low, like talking in church. The ma’am is clean, not age. Respect. Gratitude he doesn’t fully understand. You give him your full attention for one breath, two. His hat’s brim casts his eyes into shade, but the line of his mouth is honest. There’s a scrape on his knuckle that says he works where there are edges. It’s enough to make you default to your safest move: keep it simple, keep it kind. You lean in, just a little, just enough to make it personal. He goes a touch stiff anyway - spine straightening, breath catching, fingers tightening around his glass. “You keep that seat,” you say. “You make the room look better.” It’s a small gift, but you place it real neat between you. Then you’re moving again, not lingering long enough to turn the moment into something it isn’t. You slide a clean coaster under his sweating glass on your way by, the sly courtesy of someone who understands the theater of attention. You drop a wink at the bartender who’s chronically two steps behind, rescue a drink before it ends up in a lap, and melt back toward the dressing-room door like tide through a channel. Rhett watches you go without greed in it. Wonder, yes. The kind that smooths a furrow between his brows and makes him breathe deeper. He hears his friends razz him for being “struck dumb,” and for once he doesn’t mind the accuracy. He tilts the brim back a notch and, for the first time since they crossed the county line, he smiles.
The next set starts with a different girl, different song, same bass. Rhett sits the way men do when they’re trying not to fidget. He’s aware of his hands, of the pull in his shoulder from the last ride, of the way the booth’s vinyl warms under him like a living thing. He doesn’t buy a dance. He isn’t here for that - not tonight, maybe not ever. He’s here because the world broke open in a place he didn’t expect, and because you saw him and didn’t make a joke of it. You return to the floor near the end of the hour, robe tied in front of your waist. You’re off the clock for ten minutes, and everyone knows it. The brave ones try anyway; you ghost past with a smile that says later or never. You angle your path close to his booth again, the way a bird uses the same current twice. “Still good?” you ask, a little amused now. “Better,” he admits, and the word sounds like he tried it on first. He nudges his glass toward the coaster you gifted him. “Thanks for this.” “Can’t have you leaking all over my stage,” you say and the joke isn´t lost on him.
You leave him with that, because that’s enough. Extra attention, not extra story. You don’t make a habit of feeding the hope that eats girls like you for breakfast. But a handsome cowboy who looks at your face before your body and says ma’am like it’s a bow without bending? He gets a little sunlight in the dark. When last call looms and the neon hum fattens into something sleepy, Rhett doesn’t feel cheated or used or lonely. He feels like he came out for a thing he didn’t want and found something he didn’t know he needed: beauty in the last place he’d expect - under neon, on sticky floors, in a room built to sell everything but this.
On the way out, his friends are all elbows and talk. He tucks his hat down and lets the night take his face. He doesn’t look back, not because he’s afraid to, but because he wants to keep the picture he already has - your glance, your two taps on the napkin, the way you made a mercy of attention without making it a debt. Outside, the air is desert-cool and honest. He stands in it a moment longer than the others, then climbs into the truck. The engine turns. The road rises up to meet them. A few towns over, a man who thought he needed nothing but the ride finds himself thinking about a woman who walked past him and left something better than a bruise: the clean, precise relief of being seen.
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He comes back on a Tuesday, alone this time in the hope that you are working that night. He parks farther from the door like distance might rinse the wanting off him. The neon has the same tired hum; the air has the same syrupy perfume. He tells himself he’s just killing an evening, that the road happened to bend this way. The lie doesn’t even bother to dress up. At the bar he orders water, then whiskey, then changes his mind and leaves both sweating on a coaster. He keeps glancing at the door like a boy whose ride might not show. The bouncer clocks him as harmless; the bartender clocks him as a tip in progress. Rhett tugs his hat brim and feels ridiculous for doing it indoors, then more ridiculous for taking it off and holding it in his lap like a shield.
When you step into the room, his chest lifts like he’s been underwater. The embarrassment catches up a second later: he came back for you. Not for the noise, not for his friends, not for a night he can’t remember on purpose. For you. You spot him quick - same booth, same careful posture, different quiet. There’s a nervous energy on him now, a newness that sits on broad shoulders and makes him look younger than he is in a way that’s almost tender. Handsome and not old, yes, but tonight he’s also shy, like the floor might tilt if he stands too fast. On your first pass by the bar, you give him that signature two-tap on the napkin. “You good, cowboy?” He swallows. “Workin’ on it.” “Want help?” you ask, light as a feather. He nods once, then finds his voice. “Could I -” He clears his throat. “If you’ve got time… buy a dance?” You run through your standard: “House rules. No touching. Two songs or three?” “Two,” he says, then adds in a rush, “Please.”
The private room is nothing special - lamp, curtain, loveseat that squeaks an opinion. You cue the songs with the DJ, then step in and let the curtain fall. You keep it professional: you tell him where to put his hands (on the seat), where to keep his eyes (wherever he likes, but you hold them), and how to breathe (steady, like the world isn’t burning down). “What’s your name?” you ask, as you smooth the edge of the curtain. “Rhett,” he says, voice low, hat abandoned on the side table like a surrendered flag. The natural next thing is and you? It rises to his tongue and stalls there. He knows what he’d get: the clock-name, the one printed on cards and whispered over bass, pretty and not-quite-true. He doesn’t feel like he deserves the real one yet, and the idea of prying at it feels wrong - like picking at a good knot just to see if it slips. Besides, part of him is afraid a name would puncture the magic, let the air out of the illusion he’s barely learned how to breathe inside. He swallows the question and lets mystery stay where it’s doing no harm. “First time?” you ask, already knowing the answer. He tips his head. “Feels like it.” “You’re fine,” you say, and mean it. “Just sit back.”
When the music starts, you take your time. You don’t sell shock; you sell control. You straddle the space of his lap without collapsing it, move with the beat in smooth, unhurried lines. Your hands stay on your own body; his stay exactly where you set them. You let the closeness do what closeness does - the warmth, the rhythm, the suggestion - without turning it into something else. He’s so nervous it’s almost sweet. The first time you sink your weight a fraction, his breath catches against your shoulder. You can feel it when his body responds - nothing dramatic, just the plain human truth of it, pressure and heat and that sudden, involuntary change. He goes still, mortified. “Sorry,” he whispers, as if an apology could make biology reconsider. “I -” You tip your mouth near his ear so he hears you over the bass. “It’s normal, Rhett.” Your tone is easy, like you’re telling him the weather. “You’re doing fine.” He nods, Adam’s apple working, jaw tight with the effort of not fidgeting. You pace the dance to his nerves, trading spectacle for steadiness. When you roll your hips the barest inch, he bites off a sound and looks like he might actually forget how to breathe. You ease back a hair, let the music carry the moment so he can catch up. “Eyes up,” you remind, not scolding. He lifts them, and the gratitude in that look makes the room feel smaller and kinder.
By the second song he’s found a rhythm of his own - hands anchored where you put them, shoulders dropping, breath syncing with the beat and your slow, deliberate sway. He’s still obviously turned on; that hasn’t changed. What’s changed is the shame. You let your smile tell him there’s nothing to be ashamed of. You keep the rules with the same gentleness you keep the time. “Doing okay?” you ask midway through. “Yeah,” he says, voice rough but steady. Then, quieter, “Better’n okay.” You let the last thirty seconds be mostly eye contact and suggestion, the dance equivalent of a hand laid over a racing heart to coax it calmer. When the song winds down, you slide away with the same professionalism you brought in, leaving an inch of air like a gift. “All done,” you say, soft but businesslike. “You were perfect.” He laughs once, breathy, disbelieving. “Don’t reckon that’s the word.” “It is tonight.” You stand, adjust your robe back on, and look him over for the telltale signs - spun out, spun up, or centered. He looks centered, if a little dazed.
He fumbles his wallet and then stops, catching himself before he turns the moment into a clumsy apology-by-cash. He folds the bills neat, places them where you can take them without a scramble, and meets your eyes. “Thank you.” “Anytime,” you say, which in this context means exactly what it should: if you book me, I’ll be here; if you don’t, we’re still square. At the curtain he hesitates, hat back in his hands. “I, uh-” He clears his throat again, that teenage echo he can’t quite shake. “I was… a little embarrassed. Comin’ back.” You tip your head. “You came back polite, sober, and respectful. That’s all anyone can ask.” He works his jaw, then nods like you just granted him amnesty. “Okay,” he says, almost to himself. “Okay.” You give him a small, private smile - the kind that doesn’t cost you and might carry him a week. “See you around, cowboy.”
Out at the bar, the room swallows him up again. He stands there a long second, getting his legs under him, then sets his hat on his head like it belongs there. He doesn’t bolt, doesn’t brag. He buys a bottle of water and tips heavy. On his way to the door, he glances back once - not to cling, but to mark the place where something careful and good happened. Outside, the night is cool and ordinary. He breathes it in like a man who finally remembers how, and he smiles at the ridiculousness of it all: full-grown, callused, more miles than money - and yet nervous as a teenager because a woman gave him two songs and treated him like he was worth the rules.
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He comes back on another weeknight when the parking lot looks washed out and the neon is doing its best. He tells himself it’s just habit now - same booth, same water sweating on the coaster, same way he keeps his hat low and his eyes level. Truth is, he couldn’t wait. He knows it and winces at himself for knowing it. You’re on second set. He spots you before the crowd does, like his eyes have been trained to find you. He watches the way you time the room, how you make it slow down without ever asking. Tonight it’s a black velvet bodysuit with rhinestone fringe that waterfalls off your hips and ribs, long gloves to the elbow, sheer tights with a razor-straight seam, silver heels that throw little sparks when you pivot. A short robe - deep green satin - slides off your shoulders in a shrug of light, and the stage catches you the way a tide catches a moon.
You dance in clean geometry - hips writing slow commas, shoulders ticking to the count, a spine roll that feels like a drawl. You use stillness like a weapon: hold, breathe, make the room lean toward you because you haven’t given it permission to breathe out yet. When you turn, the fringe answers in a bright hush; when you step, you plant like you mean to own the square inch under your heel. You don’t chase the crowd - you make it come to you. He watches the way you time the room, how you slow it down without asking. He doesn’t buy a dance. Not tonight. He just…looks. Tries to be decent about it, lets you work, and takes the gift of being allowed to witness without taking. When your eyes sweep his side of the rail and snag on him for two beats - no more, no less - his breath trips and then evens, like he’s found the rhythm you were always offering. As the track turns sly, you drift to the edge of the stage nearest his side and angle your back to him. Then you sink into a slow crouch - one knee forward, spine long, rhinestone fringe whispering as it settles - tilting your hips just enough that the view is deliberate. You glance over your shoulder, a two-beat dare, then rise like you’ve got gravity on a string. Heat flickers through him: a thought sketches itself in outline - hands at your waist, a laugh against his mouth - and he corrals it back behind good manners. Palms flat to the table. Eyes up, like a promise. The wanting stays contained, bright and clean, something he can carry without breaking.
After your set he realizes he needs air more than he needs courage. He slips outside, shoulders hitting cool night like a reset button. The brick wall’s rough through his shirt when he leans back. He counts his breaths, then the cars that pass on the highway. He tells himself he won’t make this a thing. He tells himself a lot of things. The door clicks. Footsteps. He straightens, half-guilty, and then forgets to be guilty at all. It’s you - same person, different lighting. The stage is gone; the armour too. You’ve got on a soft hoodie, jeans, sneakers that squeak when you step wrong on rain. Less makeup. Your hair is pulled up in a way that says you did it while walking. You look like a real night and not the idea of one. “My shift’s over,” you say, like weathermen say there’s a chance of rain. “I’m hungry.” “Oh,” he says, brilliant. “Yeah?” “Yeah.” You angle your chin toward the street. “You wanna grab a bite?” For a second he’s all thumbs and vowels. “I- I don’t wanna… if that’s- I mean, do you- Are you sure?” Your mouth tilts. “I asked, didn’t I?” He nods too many times. “Right. Yes, ma’a-” He bites it off, flustered. “Yes.”
You tuck your hands into your hoodie pocket and rock back on your heels, easy. “There’s a diner two blocks over. Good fries. Terrible coffee in a charming way.” “Bad coffee’s honest,” he says, relieved to find a sentence that comes out in one try. You start walking. He falls in beside you, trying to match your pace and not stomp it flat. The night is clean compared to inside - cold air, wet pavement, the hum of a soda machine from somewhere you can’t see. He keeps glancing at you and then away, like he’s checking mirrors. “You look different,” he says, and immediately wishes he’d thought about it first. “Good. I mean - you looked good before. Still do. I just -” He surrenders. “I like this.” “This?” you prompt, amused. “Normal,” he says, gesturing vaguely at hoodie, sneakers, the way your eyes look like eyes and not stage lights. “I like… you, like this.” A beat. “If that doesn’t sound wrong.” “It doesn’t,” you say. No edge, no test. Just fact. “Most people prefer the packaging. It’s nice to be the person for a minute.” He laughs, quiet. “Packaging’s a lot to carry.” “Pays the bills,” you shrug. “But sometimes it’s heavy, yeah.”
You wait at a crosswalk even though there’s no traffic. He notices that and files it alongside a dozen other small rules you keep - how you tap the napkin, how you leave a beat before you smile, how you never crowd. The kind of careful he understands. “Just so we’re clear,” you say, eyes on the blinking hand, “public place, quick bite, then home. I don’t do complicated.” He nods, grateful you said it first. “Me neither.” “Good.” The light flips. “We’ll split the check or you can get this one and I’ll get next time.” The words hit him like a warm palm to the sternum: next time. He tries not to make a ceremony of it. “I can - yeah. This one’s on me. If that’s okay.” “That’s okay,” you say, like you’re letting him hold one end of something light. You pass a pawn shop and a closed barber and a mural that’s lost half its colors to weather. He keeps wanting to look at you and keeps doing it in small, respectful slices. Without the stage paint, your expressions read cleaner - surprise, then humor, then a faint caution that doesn’t feel like a wall so much as a gate with working hinges. He thinks about the lap dance last week - the heat, the rush, the absolutely human problem of his body getting ahead of his mind. He thinks about how you handled it like weather: named it, steadied it, let it pass. He’d been embarrassed then. Right now he isn’t. He just feels… settled. “You always this nervous?” you ask, light. “Only when I like something,” he says, then goes pink like a teenager who realized he said it out loud. “Something or someone?” you tease, gentle as a nudge. He swallows. “Haven’t decided how brave I am yet.” “That’s fair,” you smile. “Food helps with bravery.” He looks at you again, more open now. “You, uh… You do this a lot? Eat with customers?” “No,” you say. “I eat after work a lot. Sometimes alone, sometimes with girls from the floor. Sometimes” - you glance at him - “with cowboys who say ma’am and don’t make me remind them of the rules.” He takes that in like he’s been handed a certificate he didn’t know he wanted. “I can keep sayin’ ma’am if it helps.” “It doesn’t hurt.”
The diner shows up like a lighthouse that never learned subtlety - buzzing sign, fogged windows, a bell that threatens to fall off the door with every swing. There’s a man at the counter with a newspaper, two teens in a booth destroying a basket of fries, a server refilling coffee like she owns the patent on it. You stop at the door and look up at him, close enough that he can see the small smudge of mascara under your eye and the clean skin beneath it. He likes this version more, he realizes. Not because it’s plainer, but because it feels like the right size. Like he could match it without borrowing courage he doesn’t have. “You ready?” you ask. He reaches for the handle and gets it open on the first try. “I am.” The bell gives its tired ring as you step into the warm, greasy light, and the night stays outside where it belongs. You greet the waitress like you’ve known her forever, and maybe you have - Rhett can’t tell. Maybe she knew your parents, brought your first milkshake with two straws, watched you stumble through a teenage date in this same booth. The thought warms him and needles him at the same time. He realizes he doesn’t know your history, not really - just the way you dance and how you look after a shift. And somehow that feels right. He doesn’t need the whole map tonight. He likes the not-knowing, the way your hello lands soft, the way the waitress smiles back like she’s been saving that smile for you. He lets the mystery breathe. He’s here for who you are across from him, not the footnotes.
The diner’s heat is the kind that fogs the windows and makes the ketchup move like molasses when you tip it. A bell wheezes you in; the server waves two menus like flags and points at a booth with a view of the pie case. Rhett holds the door, then the menu, then his breath until you’ve slid in and shrugged your hoodie off one shoulder. “Fries?” you ask, like a peace offering. “Patty melt,” he says, then amends, “and fries. If you’re, uh - if you want to steal some.” “I never steal fries,” you say, solemn. “I appropriate.” That gets a laugh out of him - quick, surprised, real. He puts his hat on the seat beside him, careful like it might break. When the server asks about drinks, you both say “coffee” at the same time and grin at the small, silly luck of it. The first minutes are clumsy in the way that good things start: too many half-sentences, a couple of “sorry, you go”, and one accidental toe-tap under the table that makes him go pink and you pretend not to notice. The coffee is exactly as advertised - terrible in a charming way - and you doctor it without apology. He drinks his black because that seems like the kind of person he’s supposed to be, then adds sugar on the second sip and doesn’t meet your eyes until he owns it.
“So,” he says, bracing a forearm on the table. “Do I - do I ask about work? Or is that like asking a magician about the trick?” “If you ask nice,” you smile. You take a fry and blow on it like you grew up respecting fire. “And I get to choose which trick to explain.” “Deal.” You prop your chin in your palm. “It’s not a sad story,” you begin, and watch the way his shoulders ease at that. “I like it. The job. I like the stage and the control and the cash in hand. I like that I write the rules and then enforce them. I like the girls - their hustle, their jokes, the way glitter ends up everywhere like a blessing and a curse.” He nods, listening for real. “And the part you don’t like?” “The hours,” you answer promptly. “Long nights. The two a.m. version of people who should’ve gone home an hour ago. My feet filing a formal complaint with my spine.” You grin. “But I soak them in Epsom salt and remind myself the rent’s early and no one’s telling me what to wear in the morning.” “Independence,” he says, tasting the word like coffee. “I get that.” “You?” you ask.
He rolls the sugar packet between his fingers. “Parents’ place,” he answers. “I work the farm - fences, feed runs, whatever’s broken today. And I ride bulls when the circuit’s close enough to make sense.” Your brows tip up. “That the one where you wait around six hours to be a legend for eight seconds?” He huffs, pleased you said it right. “On a good day.” You tap a fry against the plate like a metronome. “So we both climb on unpredictable animals for money while strangers shout, measure success in seconds and tips, and try not to get kicked in the head.” That gets him - an honest, belly-deep laugh that turns a few heads and makes the waitress grin from the counter. He leans back, palms up. “When you say it like that, we might be union.” “And we both stretch after,” you add, smug. “Epsom salt or ice packs. Occupational overlap.” “Add duct tape and prayer,” he says, and you snort into your milkshake. You’re grinning like you’re proud of the joke and a little proud of him, too, and he feels it land exactly where it should. He doesn’t know how much of this diner knows you - who watched you grow up, who remembers your first bad haircut - but he realizes it doesn’t matter. He knows the version across from him: smart, funny, beautiful in a way that’s more geometry than glitter; good at rules without being mean about them; brave enough to call the job what it is and gentle enough to let him ask. “Do you win much?” “Enough to keep tryin’.” He rolls a shoulder like it still knows the last fall. “Enough to be stubborn.”
For a moment, comfortable silence stretches between the two of you. You break it first. “Show me sometime,” you say, easy. “The ranch. The part where the day is chores and not applause.” “Deal,” he says, as if the word can stake a flag. He cuts the patty melt and pushes you a triangle without comment. You accept it without ceremony. He watches you in this lighting like it’s the first true picture he’s gotten: less paint, more person. You can see it settle in him - the preference he’s not sure he’s allowed to say. He tries anyway. “I like you like this,” he begins, then rushes to add, “Not to say I don’t - on the stage you’re- it’s… I just mean I like… this.” He gestures again - at your hoodie, your unguarded laugh, the way you dunk a fry and leave it there too long. “I told you in the alley,” you say, amused. “Food helps with the brave. And, sometimes it’s nice to be a person.” “I’m not here to save you. I’m… better at showing up,” he blurts, then winces at himself. “I mean - I am sure some men look at you and think… saving. I don’t. You don’t look like you need anything from me.” “That’s the point,” you say, and it lands between you, neat as silverware. “I chose this. I can choose something else later. I just don’t need a redemption arc to make it valid.” He looks relieved enough to grin. “Good. I’m short on arcs.” He’s still worrying the napkin edge when you tip your head, smile slow. You tap the rim of your coffee and lean just enough to make it private. “I don’t need a knight in shining armour, but I’m not saying no to a cowboy.” Color climbs his ears; his hand goes instinctively for a hat that isn’t on his head. He laughs, a little helpless. “I can do cowboy.” You nudge his boot under the table, grinning. “Then just keep showing up, cowboy.”
You trade small biographies over the grease paper: his brother, your favorite song to work to, his worst county fair, the best late-night breakfast order. He offers a ranch hack for sore feet; you offer a dancer’s stretch for his shoulder. You talk money in the frank way of people who’ve counted tips and gate shares: what it means to pay early, to have a little tucked away, to say no to bad offers because you can. He tells you he liked the way you set rules last week and how it made it easier to breathe. You tell him you noticed the way he kept his eyes up and how that made it easier to smile. You both laugh a lot - not the nervous kind this time, but the kind that loosens the screws in a long day. When the server swings by with the check, you slide it to his side with two fingers. “You said this one’s on you,” you remind, light. He nods and takes it like a privilege instead of a burden. “Next time’s yours.” You pretend not to flinch at the phrase, then let yourself un-pretend. “Next time,” you agree, simple as salt. He pays in cash because it feels cleaner. You add the tip, more than the math, because the coffee refills came before you needed them and that’s worth something.
Outside, the bell complains you’re leaving. The air has turned the kind of cool that makes breath visible in little ghosts. The street is a cutout of quiet storefronts and one cat in a window who thinks it runs the block. “Thank you,” he says, and it’s not for the fries. “Thank you,” you say back, and it’s not for the patty melt. You hook your thumbs in your hoodie pocket and look at him the way you did from the stage the first night - steady, choosing. “Walk me to the corner,” you tell him. “Then I’ll call a car. Long nights and all.” “Yes, ma’am,” he is smiling because the word sits easy now. You fall into step. The diner’s neon hum fades behind you, replaced by the small, ordinary sounds of a town putting itself to bed. At the corner, under the tired buzz of a streetlight, you stop and pull your phone from your pocket. He keeps a respectful step back and finds the moon like it’s a thing he can lean on. “Tuesday?” he asks, the question shaped like hope but trimmed down to fit. “Tuesday,” you confirm, thumb hovering over the ride button. “If the truck holds.” He laughs softly. “I’ll make it.” “Me too.” You meet his eyes. “Long nights,” you add, with a crooked grin. “Worth it,” he says, and means the fries and the laughter and the way you don’t need saving and the way he doesn’t, either. Your screen glows with the car’s ETA. You nod toward the diner once more, like sealing a pact with cheap coffee and good conversation, and then the two of you stand there in the honest dark, waiting for a set of headlights to bend around the block.
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They roll up loud and laughing, the kind of pack noise that makes the neon hum sound shy. Rhett comes because saying no would’ve meant explaining a thing he doesn’t know how to explain. He sits at the end of the booth like a man trying to be a smaller target, hat brim a little lower than usual, hands behaving. You clock the group on your first sweep: elbows, birthday energy, a pile of small bills like a dare. You clock him second - careful posture, the steadiness that opens a seam in the room. You do not clock the fact that you’ve seen him since. Mercy is a skill.
Onstage, you let the first song run through the crowd like warm weather. When you cross to their side, you give the table a professional smile and then, in passing, you let your gaze land on Rhett and stay there a beat too long. The boys explode - whoops, elbows, the immediate chorus of “ohhh, cowboy” - and he goes pink and tips the hat like he can hide inside it. You move on without breaking stride. You didn’t out him. You just lit him up. After your set, you make a quiet loop of the floor. At their booth, you drop a fresh stack of coasters and, with your now-famous two taps on his napkin, murmur, “You good, cowboy?” He doesn’t quite look at you. “Workin’ on it.” “Attaboy,” one friend crows. “He’s shy. Fix him.” You arch an eyebrow, amused instead of insulted, and the table loves you for it. The friend who’s clearly treasurer for the night slaps a wad of bills on the lacquer and grins at Rhett with the benevolence of a bad idea. “Private dance for the man in the hat,” he announces, nudging the cash like a puck. “On us. Don’t you dare say no.” Rhett winces. “Y’all -” “It’s a joke,” another says. “We’ll make him sweat.”
You catch Rhett’s eye and keep it, the way you do when a skittish colt needs a hand on the withers. “Only if you want,” your voice is plain enough to cut through the noise. He takes a breath you can see. “Okay,” he says. “Two songs.” The private room hasn’t changed: lamp, curtain, loveseat with opinions. What’s different is the way he stands just inside the doorway like a man who won a prize and isn’t sure he deserves it. You close the curtain and set the music - something with bones, not just bass. “New night, new rules,” you tell him, stepping into his space until you can smell the soap under his cologne. “Hands can go here and here.” You take his wrists and place his palms - one at the outside of your waist, over fabric; one high between your shoulder blades. “They stay where I put them unless I move them. Clear?” “Yes,” he says, voice low like he’s back in church. “And you breathe,” you add, because you’ve learned to say it out loud to men who forget. “Deal?” “Deal.”
You settle onto his lap the way you always do - measured, in control - then let the difference happen: his hands, warm through your clothes, tentative at first and then sure as he feels the permission hold. You move slow, the kind of slow that doesn’t dare the room so much as tame it. He’s polite even now, focus flicking to your eyes when you remind him, an automatic correction that makes you smile. Halfway through the first song, you feel him steady. His fingers spread just slightly at your waist, not grabbing, more like memorizing. Heat rises between you in the honest way heat does. When you lean in, his breath catches at your temple. You could make a spectacle; you don’t. You choose intimacy instead. Near the end of the second song, you bring your mouth close enough to his that the air between you turns into a held note. You can see the shape of his restraint, the way his jaw works once like he swallowed a yes. “Not here,” you whisper, and it isn’t a scold; it’s an agreement. The almost-kiss hangs there, warm and deliberate, its own kind of contact. He nods, exhale rough with relief. “Not here,” he echoes.
You draw back, let the last bars of the song do the work of easing you apart. Then, while his friends’ laughter leaks through the curtain and the next track starts up somewhere out in the bright, you reach into the pocket of your robe and pull a small, folded rectangle. Plain, no glitter. You take his hand, turn it palm up, and set the paper there like a pressed flower. “For when it’s not here,” you say. He looks at the note like it might go off, then closes his fingers around it and tucks it quick into the inside pocket of his denim, like a man who knows how to keep a thing safe. “Okay,” he says, a little stunned. “Okay.” You smooth the front of his shirt with both hands, a practical gesture turned ceremonial. “You were good,” you tell him, the kind of praise that means respect and not performance. “Felt like it,” he admits, shy and pleased. When you pull the curtain back, noise slaps at the quiet you made. His friends are already halfway to a victory parade. “There he is!” the treasurer crows. “Cowboy survived!”
You give the table a showman’s curtsy and, with the same generosity you showed inside, throw the ribbing bone they’re hungry for. “He was a perfect gentleman,” you announce, all innocence, which somehow gets them louder. Rhett puts his hat back on and learns the limits of his grin. It refuses to be small. He tips you a thank-you that’s just for you, then endures the back slaps with surprising good humor, one hand staying near that inside pocket like he can feel the paper through the denim. On your way past, you tap his napkin twice, the way you do. “Eat something,” you tell him, as if that’s all you’ve given him tonight. He nods once. Later, when the hoots have thinned and the neon looks tired again, he’ll slip outside and, with the soft care he brings to everything that matters, unfold the paper to find your name and a number written in clean, sure strokes - no hearts, no stage-name, no flourish. Just a line between here and wherever you decide “not here” turns into. For now, the room keeps spinning and the boys keep laughing, and he sits there anchor-still, smiling like a man who just got handed the next chapter.
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He texts first, the next afternoon, thumbs big on a small screen, backspacing like he’s trying to rope a sentence and make it behave.
Hey. It’s Rhett.Was wonderin’ if I could take you on a proper date.Not here. Not the diner. Day off. Nice place.I’ll pick you up. Flowers and everything. If you want.
You let him sit in his own nerves for seven minutes that feel like seven miles, then:
I’d like that. Thursday’s my night off.Pick me up at 7?Allergic to lilies. Anything else is fair game.And I own a nice dress. Just so you know.
He stares at that last line for a good long while, grins at the truck door like it’s a friend, and replies:
7 it is. No lilies. I’ll try to be worthy of the dress.
He shows up on time, freshly showered and fighting his hair into a decision, dress shirt tucked into ironed pants. The truck is cleaner than it’s been in months; the boots are polished; the shirt is white and somehow makes him look both taller and younger. He’s got a small bouquet of not-lilies - sunflowers and pale roses and a little wild green like a field snuck into the arrangement.
When you open the door, he forgets how to talk. Third version of you. Not the stage and not the hoodie. The dress is black with a soft shine, cut to skim, not shout; a neckline that says yes, I know and a hem that says keep up. Your hair is down in a way that looks expensive and effortless even if it was one and not the other. Your makeup is evening, not armor. “Wow,” he says. Then, realizing “wow” is not a sentence, tries again. “You look- I mean- it’s unfair, is what it is.” You laugh, delighted. “I’ll take unfair.” He remembers the flowers and thrusts them forward like a man delivering good news. “For you. No lilies.” “They’re perfect,” you say, and you mean the bouquet and also the way he’s blushing like compliments are a bucking chute. You tuck the flowers into a vase by the door, slip a small wrap over your shoulders, and let him offer his arm like this is the version of the night it wants to be. He opens the truck door for you with the solemnity of a ceremony, then circles to his side and steadies his breath. The restaurant is the kind of place with linen and whispers, the kind of place he Google-mapped twice and called once to make sure he wasn’t supposed to wear a tie. He keeps sneaking looks at you at stoplights. “You’re just- I can’t even come up with a new adjective,” he admits. “I used ‘pretty’ five times in my head and it ain’t enough.” “Try ‘devastating’,” you say, playful. “Devastating,” he repeats, pleased. “There we go.”
Inside, you let the room notice you and then let it go. The host smiles differently at people who know how to wear a night; you two wear it well. Rhett pulls your chair; you touch his hand as you sit, a quick thanks that settles him. The menu is a map of places neither of you have been. He scans it like a man reading weather. “What’s a reduction?” he asks. “Sauce that had a long day,” you tell him, and he laughs, grateful. He orders steak because it’s honest; you order fish because it comes with a lemon butter that has you at hello. The server leaves; the candles flicker; your eyes do that soft-spark thing that got him the first night he saw you. “So,” you say, propping your chin in your hand. “Tell me something you don’t say in a loud room.” He thinks, thumb worrying the edge of a napkin. “I’ve got a favorite horse and a favorite cow,” he admits, voice low. “Don’t tell the others.” Your mouth lifts. “Names.” “June,” he says, already smiling. “Mare that pretends she doesn’t like me ’til I’m halfway to the gate, then follows like a shadow. And Button - black-and-white cow with a spot like a thumbprint on her nose. Head-butts the grain scoop if I’m slow.” “That’s extremely cowboy,” you say, delighted. “I’ll keep your secret from the union.”
For a moment, you are quite. “Also, it’s perfect,” you smile. “I like labeling things in my fridge. Also not very rock and roll.” “Bet it’s straight lines,” he says, the admiration more obvious than he intends. “It is,” you confess, amused. “And I don’t have a tragic backstory, by the way. In case you were bracing for a savior role.” “I retired from saving,” he says. “Not very good at it. I prefer… showing up. With flowers, when I can.” “Noted,” you say, pleased. “I like this version of you.” “The one that remembers deodorant and uses a napkin?” He gestures at his lap, where the linen is obeying. “The one that looks at me like I’m a person and a miracle at the same time,” you correct, gentle. “It’s flattering without being greedy.” He goes pink again. “Can’t help it,” he admits. “You walk into a room and my vocabulary falls apart.” “Then say simple things,” you suggest. “Simple is nice.” “Simple is you look beautiful,” he says immediately. “Simple is I’m real glad you said yes. Simple is I might not eat because smiling is taking up all my face.” “Eat,” you say, laughing. “We’ll practice multitasking.”
The food is very good in the way expensive food often is - small miracles that make you feel like you’re in on a secret. You trade bites across the table, your fork knocking his in a little clang that feels like good luck. He tells you about the last fair where a storm rolled in sideways and everyone smelled like rain and adrenaline; you tell him about the choreography that only works with a certain song because your body learned the math of it. When the server refills your water, she glances at the way his eyes hold steady on your face, then leaves two extra dessert spoons like a blessing. You split a crème brûlée, the crack of sugar loud enough to make you grin at each other like kids.
He never quite stops complimenting you, but he gets better at weaving it in. “The way your hair catches the candle,” he says, offhand, like a man pointing out a constellation. “The way you make that dress look like it was built by an engineer.” “The way you listen like you’ve got nowhere better to be.” You volley back, not out of obligation but because he deserves to hear it. “The way you mind your hands.” “The way you don’t pretend to know what you don’t.” “The way you say please to the server like she’s your aunt.” By the time the check comes, the room feels like it’s shrunk to the size of your table. He reaches for the leather folder with a confidence that’s new and tidy; you let him, because this was his offer and it matters to him. Outside, the evening has softened around the edges. He walks you to the truck like the ground might move and he wants to be sure it doesn’t. He helps you in, then pauses with his hand on the door, looking up at you like he’s trying to memorize a night from bottom to top. “I had a real good time,” he tells you, simple as you asked. “Me too,” you say. “No notes.”
The drive back is easy. He turns the radio low. You talk about nothing on purpose: a billboard with a typo, a stray dog with a sweater, the moon being nosy. At your place, he kills the engine and then remembers he’s supposed to do something besides stare. He comes around, opens your door, offers his hand as you step down. You take it, not for balance but for the pleasure of it. On the sidewalk, you both stand there, politeness and wanting threading a neat border. “Thank you for tonight,” you say, and it means for the flowers and the chair and the way he didn’t rush the evening to prove it was one. “Thank you for saying yes,” he means for the third version and the way you let him see it. You both know what a kiss would feel like here; you both decide to keep it for later, an expensive thing you’re saving for the exact right hour. Instead, he squeezes your hand once, careful and sure. You squeeze back. “Text me when you’re home,” you say. “Yes, ma’am,” he answers, soft. He waits until your light goes on, then looks at the passenger seat where your wrap sat folded and thinks about the three versions of you - stage, hoodie, dress - and how each one is true and how lucky he is to be invited to learn the rest.
On the drive, he sends a single message at a red light, punctuation considered like it might tip the balance too far:
Home in ten. Tonight was perfect.If you want, I’d like to do it again.
When the swoop of your reply lands - simple and sweet, me too - he grins into the dark like a man with a good secret, and lets the road carry him the rest of the way.
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It is another Tuesday and he keeps to his usual corner - hat low, hands behaving. You clock him on your sweep and, when you pass the rail, you let a smile ghost over your mouth and lean in just enough for only him to hear. “Meet me after,” you murmur, breath warm against the brim. Two taps on his napkin. Then you’re gone, back into the current. He watches you work the room like weather - steady, self-possessed, kind when it’s earned. He’s getting good at the part where he lets the job be the job. When a floor host touches your elbow and points you toward a private room, he feels the instinctive flinch and names it for what it is - instinct, not instruction. He drains his water, texts his buddies some excuse why he doesn’t show up to the bar tonight, and steps outside for a pocket of air while the curtain falls behind you. The night smells like rainfall that changed its mind. He stands under the eave, counts his breaths, and thinks about fence posts: you set them straight, they hold. When you emerge later - robe knotted, hair fluffed back into order - he doesn’t ask anything with his eyes. He lifts two fingers in a hello. You answer with a tiny nod that says: Ten minutes.
The back lot is a choked gravel square behind the club, all dumpsters and the long hum of a tired highway. Ten minutes become twelve. Then you appear with your tote and a hoodie tugged over whatever the evening required. You point at his truck with your chin. “Drive?” you ask. “Yes, ma’am.” It’s muscle memory, the way he takes the county road that loses its lines and the town’s last streetlight in a quarter mile. You roll the window down an inch and let the cool air rinse the glitter off your skin. A field opens to the left - black ocean, crickets for white noise - and he noses the truck onto the shoulder. “Trunk bar,” he says, deadpan, fishing two cold bottles from a small cooler behind the seat. “Top-shelf: domestic.” You laugh, twist the caps, hand him one. “To long nights,” you offer. He clinks. “To surviving them.”
You climb into the back seat rather than the bed - warmer, quieter, the kind of private that isn’t hiding. He shrugs out of his jacket and drapes it over your knees without commentary. In the dim cab light, you look like the in-between version he’s starting to love best - cheeks bare of stage paint, eyes still sharp from work, mouth soft. “Okay,” you start, settling sideways, one knee tucked under you. “Rules and realities.” He takes a breath. “I don’t mind the work,” he says, careful and plain. “I knew it the first night. I knew it when I asked you out. It doesn’t make me jealous. And even if it did - that’d be mine to manage. I don’t have the right to criticize how you make your living. I won’t.” Your shoulders ease. “Thank you.” “I won’t ask details,” he adds. “If I’m there and it starts to feel…loud in my head, I’ll step outside, take a lap, text you ‘smoke break.’ That’s me saying I’m okay, just getting air.”
“Good phrase,” you praise. “Okay. My side: I don’t talk details, either. Not because I’m hiding, but because I keep the job in its box. If you’re in the room, I still work. If you’d rather I don’t take privates while you’re there, say so and I’ll try to steer clear. But if it happens, it’s work, and when that curtain opens, it’s over.” He nods. “I can handle that.” You tap the bottle against your knee. “I won’t date on shift. After work, public places, and no asking me to bend house rules. No showing up drunk with your friends and making me your party trick.” He huffs a quick laugh. “Fair. I won’t bring the boys. If I come, I come alone, quiet, and I tip like someone raised me right.” “You already do,” you say, and then, gentler, “And I won’t take your money.” He blinks. “For the floor, sure. For… more than that? No.” “For dances,” you clarify. “Now that there is an us. If you need the distance of the ritual someday, we can talk. But I’d rather keep money out of our…thing. You want to support me? Feed me fries.” “I can do fries,” he is smiling, memories of food after a shift edged across his face.
“Next one,” you add, “if I text ‘long night,’ that’s code for: I need sleep, not questions. You text ‘home’ when you get there. I text ‘home’ when I get there.” He nods again, taking it in like fence posts sunk to the frost line. “Deal.” You drink, let the quiet sit. Crickets, far-off semi, the soft tick of the cooling engine. After a minute, you glance over, a little sideways-smile. “And since we’re doing honesty: I like what I do. The stage, the control, the cash in hand, the girls I work with - the hustle, the jokes. It suits me right now.” “Good,” he says, just as plain. “I like that you like it.” “I’m also tired,” you finish, a small shrug. “The hours pull at me. I don’t want to be a vampire forever.” He waits, open for whatever you’re willing to put in the space. “I didn’t make a big thing of it,” you go on, “but I did a two-year program at the community college - bookkeeping and payroll. I like straight lines, numbers that balance, lists that end. It’s…quiet control. I’ve been doing books part-time for a friend’s salon. Thinking about looking for more of that in the mornings. Feed store, co-op, maybe the diner. Nothing fancy. Just work that lets me sleep at midnight sometimes.” His smile warms from the inside. “That sounds like you,” he smiles. “The you in the hoodie. The you with labels on the fridge.” You nudge his boot with your toe. “Don’t mock my labels.” “I’d never,” he says, mock solemn. Then, softer: “If you want introductions, I can ask around. Co-op runs lean but honest. My aunt does inventory at the hardware store; I can put your name in her ear. Only if you want. I won’t push.” “I might take you up on that,” you tell him “When I say I’m ready.” “Yes, ma’am.”
You rest your head back against the seat and look at him - really look, as if the truck light is new sun. “Thank you for letting the job be the job,” you say. “For not trying to rescue me from something I chose.” He tips the bottle toward you. “Thank you for telling me the plan before I grew one for you.” You clink again, easy. The rules sit between you not like a wall but like a map you both can read. A train moans somewhere far enough away to be romantic. He shifts, offers his shoulder without making a speech of it. You slide closer until your temple finds the place it belongs, and his jacket slides higher over your knees. No kiss - just breath syncing, the small choreography of two people who intend to keep showing up. After a while, you ask, “Saturday market? Sunflowers and pretzels?” He grins into the dark. “I’ll bring cash and a tote bag like a man with intentions.” “And Tuesday,” you add, a little wry, “I’ll still be at work.” “And I’ll still be polite,” he states. “And I’ll still text ‘smoke break’ if I need air.” “And I’ll still text ‘home’ when I get there.” “Me too.” You fall quiet again, the good kind. The beer bottles sweat into the cup holders. The field breathes. Somewhere beyond the windshield, the road waits to carry you back whenever you’re ready. Not yet. An hour later he eases to the curb outside your place, no ceremony. The engine ticks, the porch light hums. He pulls you into a quiet hug; you press a quick, warm kiss to his cheek. It’s nothing - polite, small. It’s everything - an outline of a later. A promise said under its breath: not here, not yet, but soon.
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The porch light is an old interrogator - too bright, too honest. Rhett eases the door shut anyway, boots set quiet on the mat, hat in his hand like an apology. The kitchen smells like coffee that has given up and hay that never will. Perry sits at the table with a ledger open and a beer sweating a ring onto a feed bill. He doesn’t look up right away. He doesn’t have to. “You’ve been out a lot,” Perry says, casual as a weather report. “What’s going on? New woman?” Rhett sets the hat on the counter, takes the beer Perry slid over without asking. “Maybe.” “That a yes?” “Workin’ on it.” Perry finally looks at him, mouth tipped into that familiar, half-wary grin. “You look like you found the good kind of trouble.” Rhett snorts, takes a drink, lets the bottle buy him a second. “Met her a few towns over.” “Bar?” “Club.” He lets the word sit there, plain. “She dances.” Perry’s brows go up a notch - not judgment, just recalibration. “Okay.” “That’s it?” Rhett asks, a little defensive without meaning to be. “What were you expectin’, a hymn? A judgment?” Perry closes the ledger and pushes it aside. “You like her?” “Yeah,” Rhett says, and the word sounds like it has roots. “I do.” “She like you back?” “She keeps meetin’ me where I am,” he states, thinking of diner coffee and your hoodie and the way you said meet me after like a secret that knew how to behave. “We set rules. We talk like adults. It’s…easy.”
Perry nods like that was the makes-sense part. “And the job?” “It’s her work,” Rhett says, shoulders tightening, then loosening on purpose. “I knew it from the start. I’m not trying to fix it. I’m not… jealous. If it gets loud in my head, I step outside. We got a code for it.” He huffs. “I ain’t a teenager.” “Not for a minute now,” Perry agrees, dry. He leans back, chair creaking. “You worried what Ma and Dad’ll say.” “Little bit.” Rhett rolls the bottle between his palms. “Dad’ll grumble. Ma’ll… I don’t know. Pray creative.” He stares at the condensation on the table. “Part of me doesn’t care. Part of me still does, and I hate that I do.” “Caring what they think ain’t the same as lettin’ it drive the truck,” Perry offers. “You can care and still keep your hands on the wheel.” He tips his chin. “You treated her right?” “Yeah.” “She treat you right?” “Yeah.” “Then we’re halfway to done.” Perry’s voice stays kind, a thing he only let out in kitchens after midnight. “Small town’s gonna talk no matter who you bring home. Might as well be someone who makes you less stupid than usual.” Rhett laughs, head dropping. “She does that.” “Good.” Perry reaches for the ledger, then doesn’t. “Look, Dad’s gonna be Dad. He thinks the sun comes up because he’s got fences to walk. But he ain’t blind, and he ain’t cruel. Ma’s got more room in her heart than she lets on. You don’t owe ‘em a confession. You owe ‘em the truth when it matters.” “When it matters,” Rhett repeats. Perry studies him. “You scared of bein’ the punchline?” “Little.” Rhett shrugs. “Boys see me there, they hoot. Think it’s a joke to buy me a dance. It was funny ‘til it wasn’t. Then it was… somethin’ else.” He feels the small, private weight of your number in his wallet even now. “She’s not a joke.” “I figured,” Perry says. “You don’t bring jokes into the kitchen.”
Silence stretches a comfortable inch. The fridge hums. Somewhere in the house, the old clock argues with itself. “She likes the job,” Rhett begins after a while. “Says it fits. The hours don’t, though. She’s thinkin’ about mornin’ work. Bookkeepin’. She did a program. Numbers and straight lines. Sounds like… peace, I guess.” Perry’s mouth curves. “That does sound like peace. You offer to ask around?” “I said I would. When she asks me to.” “Good.” Perry taps the ledger. “Co-op always needs somebody who can count better than Frank. I’ll put a word in a pocket, keep it there ‘til you say.” “Thanks.” “Don’t thank me.” Perry’s eyes go softer than his voice. “You’ve been walking around here like your boots got a secret. You’re lighter, even when you’re tired. That’s rare. Don’t throw it away ‘cause you’re tryin’ to make it make sense to other people.”
Rhett looks at his brother, that old seesaw of irritation and gratitude settling on the right side. “You ever gonna say something unhelpful?” “Probably by sunup,” Perry jokes. “For now I’m on a streak.” They drink a while in the quiet they’d been raised on. Rhett sets his empty down and traces the water ring with a thumb. “If I bring her by,” he says, casual as he can manage, “you gonna help run interference?” Perry’s grin comes quick and mean in the loving way. “I’ll keep Dad on fence talk and Ma on pie. You do the rest.” “She’s… three versions,” Rhett tells him, surprising himself with the confession. “Stage. Hoodie. Dress. All of ‘em true. I like ‘em all. I might like the hoodie most.” “Most men do, once they learn better,” Perry says. He pushes his chair back, stretches his back until it pops. “You look like you could sleep.” “I could.” “Text her ‘home’?” Perry asks, too knowing. Rhett’s ears go pink. “Yeah.” “Good.” Perry gathers the ledger, wipes the table, makes the kitchen look like a kitchen again. At the doorway, he pauses. “Hey.” Rhett looks up. “I’m glad it’s easy,” Perry says. “Life’s hard all by itself. Let something be easy.” Rhett feels that land where it is supposed to. “Yeah.” Perry nods once, a benediction disguised as a habit. “Night, little brother.” “Night.” The house settles as Perry’s footsteps go down the hall. Rhett pulls out his phone and types home, hits send, and stares at the delivered dot like it is a star he hasn’t noticed before. Then he puts the hat on the hook, turns off the porch light, and lets the dark be kind for once.
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Saturday shows up with a blue sky and a breeze that smells like peaches and kettle corn. He gets there early, tote bag folded into his back pocket like an intention, and watches the farmer’s market set itself up the way a barn wakes - slow, practiced, cheerful. You arrive with your hair a little messy and sunglasses you push up when you spot him. No stage, no heels. A cotton dress that swishes when you walk and sneakers that have seen some things. He’s a little gone before you even say hi. “You brought a tote,” you say, pleased. “I said I had intentions.” He offers his arm like a gentleman at a county fair. “Sunflowers and pretzels?” “Sunflowers and pretzels,” you confirm, and it becomes a plan.
You move like you’ve done this together for years - checking tomatoes for a little give, tasting a slice of peach off a knife, debating the merits of honey vs. maple syrup for ten unnecessary minutes because talking about small things feels like a luxury. He pays for the sunflowers; you slip cash to the pretzel guy like you’ve been trained in sleight-of-hand. He ties the bag handles into a tidy square knot without thinking. You notice. At the hot-sauce table you fish a few bills from your hoodie pocket; a fleck of glitter winks on the top note. Rhett squints, amused. “Is that… glitter?” “Occupational hazard,” you murmur. He opens his mouth to ask where from and you tip closer, conspiratorial: “This exact bill was stuffed in my bra last night.” He folds in half laughing, a helpless, wheezy sound that makes the vendor grin and throw in a sample. You wait for him to stop laughing and then smile at him. “Dinner at mine?” you ask, casual as the breeze. “I’m not an outside-clothes person. I want to change into easy.” “Yes, ma’am,” he says, so soft you almost miss it. He keeps finding excuses to look at you and keeps being surprised that the excuses exist: the way your ring finger taps while you count change; the way you tilt your head when you listen to the old beekeeper explain last spring’s blossoms; the way you break a pretzel, hand him the bigger half, and pretend you didn’t. After a few hours, you thread your fingers through his and tug him toward the truck. The drive hums easy; the quiet fits.
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Your place is a story he didn’t expect. Not fancy - soft. Paintings of lemons and tidepools. A ridiculous number of throw pillows. A bookshelf where romance paperbacks sit next to a worn copy of a bookkeeping manual with sticky notes like flags. There’s a candle that smells like clean laundry and the ocean pretending to be close. On the fridge, labels. On everything. He takes off his boots at the door without being asked and lines them up straight. “You can laugh,” you say, following his gaze to the fridge. “It makes my brain quiet.” “I would never mock your labels,” he says, sincerity and fondness wrapped together. He wants to live in this room. He wants to carry it around like a lucky coin. “I’m going to switch to easy clothes,” you tell him. “You okay to chop?” “I’m elite at chop,” he answers, and you grin like you’ll be grading.
You disappear down the hallway and he lets himself look around like a respectful thief. A plant hangs in a macramé sling and somehow thrives. A small bowl by the door holds keys and a tiny seashell. There’s a framed photo of women backstage - lipstick smiles, glitter caught like stars - everyone laughing. It makes him want to be gentle with the whole world. When you come back, his heart does a reckless thing he doesn’t try to stop. “Easy” is a soft knit set and socks that don’t match. Your hair’s down, and your makeup is exactly none. You look like the person he keeps falling for in smaller and smaller increments. “Okay?” you ask, suddenly self-conscious. “Perfect,” he tries, and it’s the easiest word he’s ever chosen. He clears his throat. “What are we… uh… what am I chopping?” “Garlic, onion, zucchini.” You set a cutting board in front of him, slide a knife his way, and turn on music with bones - something old, warm, and a little scratchy. “We’ll make pasta with tomatoes and basil. Lemon butter if we behave.” He moves the way hands learn - steady, efficient, careful. You rinse cherry tomatoes in a colander and steal pretzel bits between steps. You cook like you dance: with control and permission. He keeps waiting for the moment to make itself complicated. It doesn’t.
“Tell me one small thing your brother does that would surprise people,” you say, passing him the basil. “Perry quilts in the winter,” he gives his answer, straight-faced. “Grandma taught him. Keeps a box of scraps under his bed, names the patterns - Log Cabin, Flying Geese - like they’re horses. Pretends it’s practical, but it’s how he stays sane when the weather pens him in.” You light up. “That’s perfect. Bet his seams are straight enough to measure with a ruler.” “He’d deny it and then fix your hem in under a minute,” Rhett says, fond. “And you?” He tips his head. “One small thing.” “I name my plants like I’m giving them job titles,” you tell him, pointing. “Accounts Receivable. Payroll. Vacation Day.” He laughs so hard he leans on the counter. “You kill me.” “Not before dinner,” you say, but you’re laughing, too.
Garlic hits the pan and the kitchen smells like the kind of home he didn’t realize he wanted. You shoulder-bump him to reach the salt; he catches your elbow out of habit and then lets go because permission matters. The timer for the pasta clicks down in the background, the sun slants in through blinds, and a dust mote drifts like a lazy planet through the light. He sets the knife down. You look up at the exact same moment. The air tilts. “Can I-” he starts, and doesn’t finish because you’re already stepping closer. “Yes,” you say, a soft yes that feels like you pulled it from a warm pocket. The kiss is the opposite of the club - the opposite of noise. It’s the press of mouths that intend to keep being kind in the morning. He breathes out like he’s been holding something for years. Your fingers slip into his hair, his palm anchors at your waist over the soft knit, and the whole room narrows to the exact square of space you’re making together.
The pan pops.
You both jump apart, laugh, and then sprint in the same direction. He shakes the skillet off the heat while you fan the smoke alarm with a dish towel. The pasta timer starts yelling because it refuses to be ignored. You rescue the noodles; he rescues the garlic; the smoke alarm gives one last chirp of judgment and calms down. When the chaos settles, you lean against the counter, cheeks pink from laughing, and he looks like he’d sign a contract for a hundred more nights just like this. “Domestic disaster level: mild,” you declare. “Dinner salvage level: high.” He tastes the sauce with a wooden spoon, considers it like a judge at a fair, and nods. “It’s good.” “You sure you’re not just butter-drunk?” you ask. “Little bit,” he admits. “Also-” He gestures to the room. “-this.” “This?” you prompt. “This,” he says, and it means: you in socks; your kitchen that forgives; the way his jacket is still on your chair like a claim you both understand without words, the kiss and his hands on your waist. You plate the pasta into bowls that don’t match on purpose. He grates too much cheese; you don’t stop him. At the small table, you sit on the same side without talking about it, knees knocking like a secret handshake. He keeps catching himself smiling into his fork. “This is easy,” you state, half-wonder, half-decision. “Let’s keep it that way,” he answers, like a vow he can actually keep.
After dinner, you label a jar for leftovers - Pasta, today - and he laughs so hard he has to lean on the counter again. You set the jar in the fridge and stand there with the door open, doing nothing on purpose, letting the cold curl around your ankles. He steps up behind you, not crowding, just present, and you close the door on two people who, somehow, are already making space for each other. “Walk me to the couch,” you say, teasing. “Yes, ma’am,” he is playing along. You bring the sunflowers to the coffee table because they belong with the evening. He brings the pretzel bag because dessert is a state of mind. The music spins another old song, the kind that understands a day can be simple and still mean everything. He thinks - without panic, without apology - I could do this forever. You glance over like you heard it anyway, then curl your feet under you and hand him the remote like it’s trust in plastic form. The food nearly burned, the kiss didn’t, the labels are straight, and somewhere, at the back of his mind, a fence post sets just right in firm ground.
You kiss again on the couch during a movie that is not much more than background noise - unhurried, the kind that feels like you’ve already agreed to be kind to one another tomorrow. When you pull back, you’re both smiling like you can’t help it. “Stay?” you ask. “Just sleep.” “Yes, ma’am,” full of relief and something softer in it. He borrows a T-shirt you toss him and tries not to look too proud about the way it smells like your laundry soap. You brush your teeth side by side, bumping elbows on purpose. In bed, he lies on his back until you roll into the crook of his shoulder; then his arm goes around you like it’s always known where to be. No rush. No noise. He texts home out of habit, then grins when your phone glows and you whisper, “You are.”
Morning shows up kind and late. You sleep in. When you finally drift to the kitchen, you make coffee the way you like and he scrambles eggs the way his brother does when he’s trying to fix a day before it starts. There’s leftover pasta; there’s a half peach from the market; there’s laughter about the smoke alarm and a second kiss that tastes like coffee. The day isn’t a plan - it just happens the way good days do. You read him bits from the truly terrible blurbs on your romance shelf. He insists on watering Accounts Receivable and Vacation Day (“They look thirsty,” he says, solemn), and you pretend to fill out a write-up for his file when he folds the throw blanket into a perfect rectangle. You teach him your favorite stretch for his shoulder; he teaches you how to tie the square knot he puts on feed bags and, now, tote handles. At some point you both nap and don’t apologize.
Late afternoon tilts toward evening. You glance at the clock and make a face. “Long night,” you say, apologetic. “I gotta go get ready.” He nods, already reaching for his hat. “I’ll clear out.” “Or -” you offer, and you’re casual, like this isn’t a big, bright thing - “pack up whenever you want and lock behind you? Here.” You take the key from the little bowl by the door, slide it off the ring with the seashell, and drop it into his palm. “Spare. Put it back on the hook when you go?” He sits down like gravity remembered him. For a beat he just looks at the key in his hand, then up at you. Whatever he was going to say gets replaced by a quiet, “Okay.”
You kiss him once at the door - soft, quick, a promise with manners - and disappear down the hall with your “easy clothes” already in a heap and your work bag in your hand. He stands there for a full minute, letting the trust settle. Then he tucks the key onto the counter so he won’t pocket it by accident and rolls his sleeves. He cleans like he grew up being raised by kitchen tables: dishes washed, counters wiped, stove de-buttered, the sink shined until it shows him the good kind of tired. He finds your tiny compost bin and empties it, takes out the trash, and leaves a fresh liner like he’s trying to speak your language in chores. He folds a stray sweatshirt, straightens the stack of mail, and sets the sunflowers where the light loves them most. He drives out for another little bouquet - daisies this time, stubbornly cheerful - and a neat card from the drugstore with no picture, just heavy paper that feels like it means what it says. Back at your place, he writes slow, tongue caught at the corner like a schoolkid making sure the lines don’t lean.
Hey.
Rodeo’s next Saturday. I’d like you there if you want to be. My folks will be around, and I want to talk about that - what would feel good for you, what wouldn’t. No pressure, truly. We can do afterward-only, we can bail at first sign of nonsense, we can skip it entirely and share a basket of fries.
Let me know what works.
P.S. Kitchen’s clean (I hope I did it right). I put the key back on the hook. Text me “home” when you’re off.
- R.
He props the note against the vase, right where your eye will land when you set your bag down. He hangs the spare on the little hook by the door, checks the lock twice, and leaves with that good ache in his chest - the one that means mine without meaning owed. Hours later, you come in on quiet feet, the day still humming in your bones. You drop your bag, reach to push the flowers into the light, and see the card waiting there like a heartbeat. You read the lines once, then again. Something warm and steady unfurls low in your chest - the precise relief of being chosen and consulted in the same breath. You touch the note with two fingers, smile at the lemon-clean counter you didn’t leave, glance at the hook with the key, and feel the room tilt - just a little - toward home.
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He parks under the busted streetlight again, engine off, radio whispering something old. When the back door of the club swings open and you step out - hoodie, tote, makeup mostly gone - he feels that familiar loosening in his chest. “You want fries?” he asks, holding up a greasy paper bag like an offering. “You read my mind,” you say, climbing in. “Hi.” “Hi.” He pulls away from the curb and takes the long road out of town, the one that runs past the shuttered feed mill and the water tower that never quite got repainted. You roll the window down two fingers’ worth and let the night rinse off your hair.
He parks by the old overlook, where the highway turns into a ribbon of red taillights. You kick your shoes off and tuck one foot under you, easy. He opens the bag and takes serious custody of the salt packets. “Serious question,” you tease, stealing a fry before he salts them. “Did you buy extra?” “I bought emotionally,” he tells you. “So yes.” You laugh, and then it is quiet in the good way, the two of you working through the fries like a team with discipline. He keeps glancing at you and then away, like headlights. When he finally sets the bag aside and flattens his palms on his jeans, you know he is finding his words. “It makes me worried sometimes,” he confesses, honest right out of the gate. “And I hate that it does, because it’s a job like any other -” He tugs a sheepish grin. “- just with fewer clothes.” You snort so hard you slap his arm with the back of your hand. “Okay, hallmark. Put that on a mug.” “I’ll get you two” he grins, relieved that you are laughing. He sobers a notch. “I don’t want to be the guy who makes you manage my feelings about your work. That’s on me. If it gets loud in my head, I’ll do the smoke-break thing. Step out. Breathe. Text you I’m okay.” You nod, a small, approving hum. “And I’ll keep the job in its box. No details. If you’re there and a private comes up, I’ll take it if I want it, pass if I don’t. If there’s a night you’d rather not watch the room be the room, tell me and I’ll meet you after. I like that we can say things out loud.” “Me too.” He fiddles with the straw wrapper, then looks up, steady. “I know it’s early. But I like you. I want this to last. I want you to meet my folks - if you’re up for it. I’ll tell them ahead of time. Set it up right. No pressure on you. If it’s weird, we bail. If it’s fine, we stay. We’ll figure it out.”
You hold his gaze, feel the careful sincerity of it land where it should. “Whatever you need from me,” you say. “Tell me. I’ll do it. And I’d love to see you work, by the way. The rodeo. It feels fair, me seeing your world, since you’ve seen mine.” He blows out a breath he’d been pretending he wasn’t holding. “Okay. Saturday. I go on around three. We can meet after the chute dust settles, do the rounds if you want. Or I can run interference.” “Around three. We can meet after the chute dust settles, do the rounds if you want. Or I can run interference,” he offers. “I’m good with whatever,” you answer. “And the out if we need it.” “Always,” he promises, immediate. “We’ll have a code. If you use ‘weather,’ that means you need a porch and air.” “Copy,” you tease, amused. “And if you say ‘fence post,’ I’ll pull you out of a feed talk with a fake call.” He leans back, lets the headrest take some weight. Below you, a semi mutters along the highway. Above, the moon does its best to mind its business. “Also,” you add, a touch tentative, “can I cash in that offer to ask around? For morning work. Bookkeeping. Co-op, hardware, feed store - whatever’s decent. The late nights are… doable. But I’d like more days that end before midnight.” “Absolutely,” he blurts - too fast - then reins it in. “I’ll talk to my aunt at the hardware store. And Perry knows the co-op’s manager. We’ll keep it quiet until you give the go. You tell me what you want me to tell them.” “Thank you,” you murmur. “I like asking you for help and not feeling like it costs me something.” “It never will,” he promises, plain. You nudge his knee with yours. “You’re very good at the grown-up talk.” “I practiced on the drive,” he admits. “To the bag of fries.” You reach over and set your hand over his, palm to palm, the easy, steady fit you were both getting used to. “For what it’s worth,” you say, “you’re allowed to have feelings about my job. You’re just not allowed to make them my problem.” He barks a laugh. “Fair enough.”
You share the last fries like they are witnesses. He tells you about a stubborn calf that figured out how to unlatch the pen and made a nightly habit of joyriding the pasture. You tell him about the new girl on the floor who choreographed to ‘70s soul and made even the bouncers smile. He listens with his whole attention; you give yours back the same way. When the milkshakes are gone and the paper bag is flat and defeated between you, he turns the key just enough to bring the radio back. A soft song comes on, one of the ones with bones. He doesn´t move to start the engine. Neither do you.
“Saturday,” he says, like a promise you can fold in half and put in your pocket. “Saturday,” you echo. He smiles. “And between now and then, I’ll ask around. Aunt Jo first. She’ll grill me. She’s mean in a loving way.” “I can handle mean in a loving way,” you smile. “I have glitter on my resume.” He laughs, tips your hand to his mouth, and presses a brief, grateful kiss to your knuckles - old-fashioned courtesy that never quite went out of him. Then he starts the truck, and you let the road carry you back toward town, toward keys in bowls and labels on jars and the feeling that this thing you are making might actually stay easy because you are both working at it. At your door, he doesn’t rush the goodbye. He touches your cheek once, light, like punctuation rather than a paragraph. “Text me when you’re home,” you say on reflex, then roll your eyes at yourself. “You are home.” He grins. “I’ll text you anyway.” “Do. And tell Aunt Jo I make a mean spreadsheet.” “Yes, ma’am.” You steal one more quick kiss - warm, certain, the kind that makes the hallway smell like salt and something better than luck - and then you are inside, and he is outside with his hat in his hand and a smile he can’t quite lose.
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He steps into the kitchen to find the usual rhythms: Royal sorting bolts into an old coffee tin, Cecelia drafting a grocery list like a battle plan. He sets his hat on the counter, drawing breath to speak - “You don’t have to tell me,” Cecelia cuts in, eyes soft but sharp. “I’ve noticed. You’re different. Lighter these days.” He huffs a small laugh. “Yeah. I’m seeing someone. I like her. And I’d like you to meet her.” Royal’s hands still over the tin; Cecelia’s pen pauses mid-checkmark. “All right,” she says, nodding once. “Tell us about her.” “She dances,” he tells them straight up. No hedging. “At the club a few towns over.” Silence does a lap around the room. Royal sets one bolt down, lines it up with the others. “Son…” “I know,” Rhett answers - not combative, just immovable. “I knew it when I met her. It’s her job. She’s good at it, she’s safe in it, she chose it. She’s also funny and smart, and she’s got rules same as we do. I’m not asking you to like the idea. I’m asking you to meet the person.” Cecelia rubs a thumb over the corner of her list. “Are you sure she isn’t - ” she searches for a gentler word and doesn’t find one - “using you?” He huffs a laugh that isn’t cruel. “She makes more money than me, Ma. If anything, she’s spotting me on fries.” He softens. “And I’m not the one she needs anything from. She’s fine. I just want you to know who I’m with.” Royal leans back, chair creaking. “You know folks’ll talk.” “Folks would talk if I brought home a saint,” Rhett scoffs. “I can’t run my life on their opinions. I won’t run hers on ’em, either.”
Perry drifts in like he’s just remembered the concept of coffee. He doesn’t speak - just reaches for a mug and stays within earshot. Backup without a badge. Cecelia exhales, a long, thin stream. “Do you love her?” she asks, then waves herself off. “Too soon - forget I asked.” “It’s early,” Rhett admits. “But I like her real steady. We’re taking it slow. She’s meeting me where I am, and I’m meeting her where she is. We talk like adults. I’m proud of that.” Royal’s jaw works once. “What do you expect from us?” Rhett meets his eyes. “Be normal,” he answers, simple. “Be kind. If it’s too much, we’ll keep it short. If it goes fine, we’ll stay. I don’t need sermons. I need you to trust I’m not walking blind.” Perry finally chimes in, casual as weather. “He’s not,” he says, sipping. “I’ve seen him blind. This ain’t it.” Cecelia’s mouth tips - half worry, half something else. “What’s her name?” Rhett tells her, and the kitchen shifts a degree. Royal taps the rim of the coffee tin. “When?” “Rodeo’s Saturday,” Rhett replies. “I ride around three. I asked her to come. We can meet up after - lots of people, easy out if anybody feels weird.” Cecelia nods, practical mode clicking in like a gear. “Okay. Rodeo is neutral ground.” She pauses. “I’ll bring a pie. Does she like lemon or apple?” “Lemon,” Rhett says, surprised at how sure he is. “And the sunflowers at the market.”
Cecelia writes lemon and underlines it. The pen clicks twice. “We’ll be civil,” she declares, and her voice had found the path between bristle and welcome. “I can’t promise I won’t ask a stupid question. But I’ll try not to.” “That’s all I’m asking,” Rhett says. “And if someone else asks a stupid question, I’ll handle it.” Royal gives one of those small, gruff nods that means he is saying a lot more than he admits. “You get one thing from me,” he says. “Don’t let being lonely make you stupid.” Rhett smiles. “I won’t.” Perry bumps his shoulder on the way past, a brother’s amen. “I’ll stake out the grounds. Run block if needed.” Cecelia tears the grocery list in half and hands a piece to Dad. “Sunflowers,” she speaks, to nobody and everybody. “We can do sunflowers.” Rhett picks up his hat. The room doesn’t feel entirely changed, but it isn’t what it was five minutes ago, either. He takes the little win and doesn’t press for more. “Saturday,” he says. “Saturday,” Cecelia echoes. “We’ll meet her. We’ll be normal.” Royal goes back to his bolts, but his voice follows Rhett to the doorway. “Bring your best ride. And tell her we’re glad to meet who’s making you less ornery.” Rhett grins into the hall. “Yes, sir.”
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The fairgrounds are already humming when he pulls in - dust in the air, kids with snow cones, an old PA system clearing its throat. He is half in his head and half in the chute list when a familiar voice cuts through the noise at his shoulder. “Hey, cowboy.” He turns so fast his hat tilts. There you are - leather jacket, white shirt, flare jeans, boots that mean business. Hair loose, a little shine at your mouth from lip balm. You look like the idea of a western that actually holds together. “What are you - ” He catches himself, grinning. “Whatcha doin’ here?” You tip two fingers toward the alley that runs behind the pens. “Marco’s working security today. Used to bounce for us, remembers my good side. He waved me through with a wristband and a ‘tell him to keep his spurs down’.” Rhett huffs a laugh, something like pride sparking behind his ribs. “You look like trouble.” “I am. The fun kind.” You loop your arms around his neck; his hands find your waist. He draws you in and kisses you - quick, sure, sweet, a little claiming. When you part, you smile at him - a little wrecked and a little in love. “You good?” “Better now,” he says, honest as it comes.
There isn’t time for much more - another quick kiss by the rails, your hand squeezing his wrist once like a secret, his thumb brushing your knuckles like he can’t help it. Then the pickup man is calling and the world narrows to rosin, rope, and eight seconds that always ask too much and give just enough back. You slip out the back, find a spot on the rail a section over from where families camp with lawn chairs and coolers. Not hiding - just giving everyone a little air. From there, you can see the gate, the judge’s hand, and the toss of the animal under him. The announcer rolls Rhett’s name like a dare; the chute bangs; the bull blows out and turns hard left. He covers. Not pretty - honest. Shoulders loose, legs talking, free arm drawing circles in the dust and sunlight. The buzzer hits and the whole place lifts with him. He hits dirt, scrambles, runs clean, and when he is safe he doesn't look to the scoreboard first. He looks for you.
You’re already on your feet, laughing a little with relief, hand pressed to your heart. He jogs to the fence, plants a boot in a rung, climbs two bars, and finds your mouth before the dust even settles - quick, grinning, nowhere near enough and exactly right for the public. The section around you whoops. Someone yells, “Get it, cowboy!” and he laughs against your smile. “You were so good,” you breathe, forehead tipping to his like you can steady him with touch. “I get lucky,” he pants, still catching breath. “C’mon. Let´s go meet my folks.” Down the rail, Cecelia, Royal, and Perry watch the whole small miracle - your hand on his cheek, his joy unhidden. Perry grins outright; Royal goes quiet in that way he does when something lands true. And Cecelia feels a hinge in her chest loosen, a little more room made. She’ll meet you as you are, no judgment, because her boy looks happy and that counts for more than the story she told herself before. He drops back to the dirt, jogs the curve of the fence, and meets you at the gate. With a grin, he slides his hands to your waist and lifts you down off the rail - easy, like you’re the only thing he trusts to carry - setting you soft onto your boots. His hand stays at your waist and doesn't go far after that - sometimes around your back, sometimes linked with your fingers, like he is making sure you are never out of reach and never held too tight. You let him; it feels like the right size of steady.
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They’re waiting at a cluster of picnic benches like you all planned it that way - Cecelia setting down two foil-tented pies, Perry muscling a cooler into the shade, Royal with his hands on his hips, assessing and pretending he isn’t. “Ma, Dad,” Rhett says, voice easy. “This is -” he says your name like a good word, “- and these are my folks.” You don’t hesitate. You step straight to Cecelia, arms open. She startles, then smiles and gathers you in. “Oh,” she says, hands settling on your shoulders. “You’re warm.” “So are you,” you answer, like sharing an inside joke. “Thanks for meeting me.” Cecelia lifts the foil with ceremony. “Lemon or apple?” she asks - because she’s that kind of woman. “I brought both.” Perry pops the cooler lid, ice rattling, and grins like he’s been waiting to hand you a water all day. Royal gives a small, approving nod that says he’s taking the measure and likes what he finds. Rhett keeps a palm at the small of your back, fingers finding yours a beat later, and the bench becomes the easiest place in the world to sit.
“You ride good,” Royal tells Rhett, and then turns to you, “You look like you know how to spot a good tomato.” “I do,” you answer. “I also label leftovers. It’s a condition.” Perry chokes on a laugh. “He’s doomed,” he announces, delighted. “In a good way.” “So,” Cecelia says, slicing the pie like a diplomat, “you… ah…” She searches for something delicate and lands on honesty. “Do you ever - good grief, I’m going to ask this wrong - do you ever feel like folks are… looking at you for the wrong thing?” You could bristle. You don’t. You laugh softly - not at her, but at the question’s awkward boots. “All the time,” you answer, easy, handing her the knife to show you trust her hands. “At the club, that’s part of the ticket. But I set the rules there. Outside, I’m just a person in a hoodie who wants fries and a bed by midnight. And I’m doing bookkeeping part-time for a salon, looking for more of that. Numbers look at me for the right reasons.” Cecelia blinks, then smiles, relief smoothing something in her. “Numbers do have manners,” she says. “I like you.” “I like you, too,” you reply - and mean it. Royal hands Rhett a plate, then jerks his chin toward you with a kind of cautious affection. “You’ve got him laughing more,” he tells you. “We notice.” “Good,” you smile, like you’ve been handed a job you want. “He’s very good at making other people breathe easier. Someone should return the favor.”
You all eat pie that’s too sweet and perfect anyway. People drift by to clap Rhett on the shoulder; he fields it with his usual patience, always circling back to your side like he’s installed a compass for it. When someone asks if you’re his girl, he says, “Yes, sir,” without a flinch, and you feel the little click of a thing settling into one of its truest names. Cecelia does ask one more clumsy question about the club - some version of “how long do you think you’ll keep at it?” - and you just laugh again, gentle. “’Til I don’t want to,” you say. “And I don’t make big decisions when I’m tired. Right now I like the stage and the girls and the rules. I also like mornings. I’m letting both be true.” “That’s… very reasonable,” she admits, almost impressed with herself for hearing it. “Reasonable’s my brand,” you grin, nudging Rhett’s hip with yours. “His too.” “Sometimes,” Perry mutters. “With supervision.” They all laugh, even Royal, and then there are introductions to Aunt Jo at the table over - you tell her you “make a mean spreadsheet,” and she barks back, “Good, I make a mess,” and takes your number - and the sky settles toward late-day gold, and Rhett’s hand never really leaves you: fingers linked, palm at your waist, forearm brushing yours. Not because you need guarding. Because it feels good to have an always. When the band strikes up by the beer tent, Cecelia leans in and kisses your cheek, quick and soft. “Lemon suits you,” she says. “Sunflowers suit you,” you return, nodding at the stems peeking from her tote. “Thank you for seeing me and the rumors.” “Thank you for letting me learn out loud,” she thanks you, and pats your hand - an apology shaped like affection. Rhett looks between you like a man who’s brought the right horse to the right ranch. “Walk?” he asks, thumb pressing once at your side. “Walk,” you say, and you go - through dust and laughter and the easy goodbyes between family - his hand finding yours again like it’s been there all along.
He walks you to his truck and opens the passenger door for you to climb in. You drive home with the windows cracked and dust still in their hair, grinning like the day doesn’t know how to quit. His hand rides the console the whole way, palm up, so you can lay your fingers there when the road goes straight. He drives both of you to your place. You both laugh your way through the door. He drops his hat on the hook and you tug him in by the shirt, a quick kiss that lands like a thank-you and a dare. “You rode well,” you murmur against his mouth. “Got lucky,” he says, already smiling. “My turn,” you decide, playful. “Rules are simple. We are home,” the word hits clean in his chest, “you can touch wherever you want.” “Yes, ma’am,” he says, voice gone warm. You cue a song with bones on your phone and let the little speaker turn the room amber. Jacket off, hair down, you step between his knees where he’s perched on the arm of the couch and start slow - hips keeping time, shoulders easy, a smile that’s all private. He laughs once, delighted and helpless, and then goes quiet the way good men do when they’re paying attention. You lean in, let your weight find him an inch at a time; he exhales, hands steady at your waist. When his thumbs press, careful, you nod. “That’s good,” you say, and he flushes like you gave him a ribbon. You turn, back to his chest, and let your spine fit the length of him, rolling your shoulders to the beat until he has to breathe deeper just to keep up. It’s heat without hurry, the kind of close that makes the room smaller and kinder. “Okay?” you check, turning your head. His jaw is tight with trying to be respectful and you love him for it. “So okay,” he manages, a little broken around the edges.
You laugh, spin back to face him, and straddle his lap, settling there like it’s the most natural thing in the world. His hands stay where you left them until you lift them until they are not. He moves both hands to your face and the permission is written in the way you tip your face into his palms. The kiss that follows is slow and sure, a long yes that doesn’t need a witness. When the song fades, you don’t move away. You stay right there, forehead to his, catching breath together. He’s looking at you like he’s memorizing - like he’s been trying not to say something for days and finally found the right room for it. “I think it’s obvious,” he starts, then swallows, gathers himself. “But I wanted to say it so you actually know.” You go still, soft. “I’m in love with you,” he says, simple as a fence post set straight. “I am. I know it’s early to some people. I know it’s fast. But it’s true in me, and I’d kick myself if I didn’t put it in the air where you could reach it.” Your smile happens before you can decide on it. It feels like a door opening to a porch you’ve been building together by accident. “Thank you for saying it,” you whisper, thumb brushing his cheekbone. “I’m in love with you, too.”
Something like relief and wonder breaks across his face. He laughs - quiet, disbelieving - and hauls you closer, arms around you without an ounce of doubt now. You tuck your chin on his shoulder and breathe him in: soap, dust, lemon pie you can’t stop laughing about. He doesn’t let go; he doesn’t need to. You trade small, silly kisses - cheek, nose, the corner of a smile - and a handful of giggles that would embarrass both of you anywhere but here. “Stay?” you ask, softer than the lights outside your window. “Just sleep,” he echoes, grinning. “Just sleep,” you agree, and somehow it sounds like a bigger promise. He takes off his pants, you put on a big shirt, he turns off the lamp. In bed you fold into the familiar arrangement - your leg over his, his arm under your neck - and let the day drain out. He whispers one more “I am in love with you” into your hair like a habit he plans to keep; you say it back like you’ve been waiting to. Morning will bring coffee and chores and a text to Aunt Jo about bookkeeping hours. Tonight brings nothing but the good quiet, his heartbeat steady under your ear and your fingers laced in his, both of you finally, fully sure.
Tunatober, Day 1: Hair Washing (Rhett Abbott x F!Reader, Fluff)
Based on my Tunatober Day 1 prompt: 'hair washing', combined with the prompt "Why'd you stop?" Cause lord do I want to get my hands into this man's hair, I just know he's never had the luxury of having someone wash his hair nice and soft and slow.
Ship: Rhett Abbott x F!Reader
Wordcount: 2.3k
Warnings for this fic: fluff, no use of y/n, pet names, Rhett absolutely melting as you wash his hair
Fic Summary: Rhett's convinced there's nothing special about getting his hair washed by someone else. You're determined to prove him otherwise.
GIF by vivian-rutledge
You still couldn't believe you managed to talk him into it.
It started in your kitchen—you perched on a rickety old dining chair, and Rhett sprawled out on his back on your floor, his upper half buried beneath the kitchen sink.
"Why do you think half of us go?" you asked him with a snort. Rhett only grunted, far more focused on fixing the stubborn leak in the pipes you'd been dealing with on and off for a year now. "Sure, the main reason is getting our hair done, but it's also about how good it feels to get your hair washed. You have no idea what you're missing."
Especially not someone like Rhett, who'd been getting his hair cut by his ma and a trusty pair of kitchen shears since he was a baby. On top of that, short of the gel he used to slick his hair back and keep his curls tamed, you were pretty sure his hair hadn't been touched in twenty years by any product other than a 2-in-1 shampoo and conditioner. It was an ongoing tragedy you were determined to stop.
"It can't feel much different than me washin' my own hair." Even from where you were sitting, you could see him wrinkle his nose. "Besides, I don't need some strange lady scratchin' my head like I'm a dog."
"It absolutely feels different. Also, I scratch your head like a dog."
And goddamn, was he pretty when you did.
"It's cause I'm your dog. Sure do make me howl for you," he muttered, low enough that you suspected he thought you hadn't heard him, his words mostly covered up by the sound of metal clattering beneath your sink. He adjusted his position on the floor, his worn t-shirt sliding up enough to show a tanned, freckled strip of skin along his belly. You spent a delightful moment staring at that tempting bit of skin and lean muscle before reaching out with one socked foot to poke it. He half-heartedly lifted his own socked foot, kicking playfully back at you with those long legs of his.
"If you won't let someone else do it, let me do it," you tried, crossing your arms on top of the chair's back where you leaned forward against it. "I've got everything I need in my bathroom right now."
Including some new shampoo and conditioner you'd bought specifically for him in hopes he'd let you do this, not that you'd give that away just yet.
"You wanna wash my hair that bad?" He tipped his head to squint at you skeptically around his raised arms. A single drop of water rolled off his stubbled cheek, courtesy of the leaking pipe. "Really?"
"Yes."
"Why?"
You drummed your fingers, trying to think of a reason that might convince him. "Because it'll make you feel good?"
A scoff. He went back to the leaky pipe.
Fine. Time to bring out the big guns.
You lowered your head onto your crossed arms, and blinked at him so very sadly.
"Please, baby?" you asked softly, your voice dropping into that quiet, tender little register that always made him fold. It was rare that you used it on him, but it had a ridiculously high success rate. Rhett may have had a scowl that could send a grizzly bear running, but he was soft as a kitten for you inside. "I really want to after you're done with the pipe. Just this once. Then I'll never bring it up again."
Silence from under your sink as he met your eyes.
Then—
"Fuck."
Thirty-two minutes and one fixed pipe later, you had a grumbling Rhett Abbott in your bathroom, his head in your sink.
Success.
Before he'd even come over, you'd set the new bottle of shampoo and conditioner along the side of the bathtub in easy reach, just in case you'd managed to get him in here. You'd even thought about including a hair mask, something to really soften and pamper his hair, but you'd wound up nixing the idea. Getting to wash and condition his hair would be enough for now. Instead, you'd focused on making him comfortable, ignoring his amused snort when you slid a towel beneath his neck to pad the porcelain rim, made sure the water was warm before you'd rinsed his hair with the little spray attachment you'd connected to the sink.
"How long you been plannin' this, darlin'?" he asked you, more than a little amused.
"Just a few days," you said casually.
Or a month.
Part and parcel of waiting for packages when you lived in East Jesus, Nowhere.
"Liar."
"Hush, let me have this."
Now came the good part.
You grabbed the bottle of shampoo, popping the cap open to squeeze out a heavy dollop of shampoo into your hands. The air quickly filled with the scent of sandalwood and cardamom, faintly spiced but earthy. You'd tried to pick something that wouldn't drive Rhett crazy if the smell lingered.
Those deep blue eyes of his blinked up at you, his brow furrowing. "That ain't your shampoo."
"Nope," you said lightly, smearing the shampoo between both hands, warming it up. "Got it just for you. I figured you could use it when you showered here even if you didn't let me wash your hair tonight. Why? Thought I was gonna use mine?"
"Kinda," he muttered, shifting uncomfortably in the chair. Edgy, restless, fidgety. He got like this sometimes when it was you taking care of him rather than the other way around, or when he had to sit still too long.
Or maybe…
You cocked your head. "Did you want me to use mine instead?"
One of his socked feet tapped against the tile floor, jittery, hesitation in the way his mouth opened and then shut tightly, lips drawn into a thin line. His eyes darted reluctantly over to the shower to linger on your shampoo and conditioner on the shelf—vanilla and honey scented. It was a scent he'd mentioned loving more than once, often with his face buried firmly in your hair or pillow.
You shrugged, rinsed the shampoo from your hands in the sink, and leaned over to grab those bottles instead.
There were still some things Rhett couldn't quite figure out how to ask for, desires he couldn't bring himself to verbalize, the thought of voicing them too… vulnerable, maybe, too revealing in a place that found such things a weakness. There was no room for any kind of softness. they said: not on the Abbott ranch, not in Wabang, not on this cold, hard land beneath an endless blue sky that stretched horizon to merciless horizon. But you'd gotten good at reading Rhett over the years, at picking up on those wants. This was a clear ask without words, and like with so many others, it was also one you were happy to fill. If there was no softness to be found out there, you'd create it here with him.
Just like that, the scent of sandalwood and cardamon, earthy and spiced, was replaced by the luxurious warmth of vanilla, the indulgently sweet scent of honey as you poured some of your shampoo into your hands, spreading it between your hands.
He huffed, his head rolling against the sink. "Now you're just bein' mean making me wait like this."
You rolled your eyes. "Or I'm trying to make sure I have enough on both hands to get all of your hair."
"You got enough. Come on, it don't take this long when I do it."
"You're awful demanding for someone who didn't want to put his head in my sink thirty minutes ago."
"Yeah, well, my head's cold now. I'm gonna get hypothermia if I gotta wait any longer."
"I'm going, I'm going." You let out another laugh, leaning forward over him when he made a show of starting to get up. "Jesus, you're impossible when it comes to relaxing. Just lay back and let me make you feel good."
"That's my line."
"Not tonight it's not."
He clearly had something more to say, lips curling up into that sly smirk of his. But before he could get the words out, you quickly lowered your hands to his hair, sliding them firmly across his scalp in a nice, long drag.
He froze beneath you, body stiff, his breath stuttering to an abrupt halt. It was almost like he was unsure of what was happening, or maybe waiting to see if that good feeling was a fluke.
It was not.
And on the second slow, delicious sweep through his hair, nails scraping, fingers pressing in circular motions, you could almost see the exact moment that something in Rhett Abbot's wild, chaotic, skeptical mind…
…Shorted out like a goddamn lightbulb.
Knew it, you thought smugly.
His head lolled into your hands as you kneaded and scrubbed, working your way through his hair. You were determined to leave no strand, no section of scalp untouched, working loose the sweat and dirt of his day on the ranch, the gel he used to keep his curling hair swept back and tamed beneath his hat. His eyes, already such a dark blue, seemed to glaze over and darken further in the watery butter-yellow light of your bathroom, his expression caught somewhere between awestruck, glutted pleasure and absolute bafflement.
"The fuck?" he slurred, his mouth hanging slack, the slightest flush coloring his cheeks. At some point he'd grabbed hold of your thigh, big calloused palm hot even through the thin fabric of your pajama pants. It wasn't sexual. It was more like he was using you to stay tethered, hold onto a world in which a hard-edged, bull riding cowboy like him couldn't be melted by something so simple as some shampoo and your fingers in his hair.
"I told you," you sang victoriously, dragging your hands down to the softly curling hair just above the nape of his neck. The scratch of your nails and the pressure of your fingers there at the base of his skull seemed to hit yet another switch in his brain. His eyes rolled fully shut this time, and there was a soft thump against the tile as if he'd just kicked his foot against it. But more important than that—
"Did you just moan?" you laughed as you gently combed through the strands of his hair to the ends, washing away more Wyoming dust and gritty sweat.
"…No," he said, his voice so choked it was almost a whine.
"Yes you did."
"Did not," he growled.
"I know a moan when I hear it, Rhett Abbott. You're enjoying this. Just admit it."
"It's just you washin' my hair. I don't fuckin' get it," he said hoarsely, almost squirming in the chair, unsure of what to do with how good he was feeling. Just to make it worse, you threaded your fingers through the hair and froth at his temples before slowly dragging your nails back in the direction you'd come. The sound he let out was ragged and garbled, as if he'd tried to turn his second moan into a much more intimidating growl at the last second. "I do it every day."
"And yet it's different." You leaned down and kissed his slack mouth. It was a testament to how out of it he was that he only just managed to kiss you back, clumsy, distracted. "Never doubt me again."
"Never," he breathed.
You shifted up above him, reaching over to flip the sink back on with a smug little flick of your hand.
That earned you what was definitely a quiet little whine this time, hovering there on the tail end of a shaky breath, so low you almost missed it.
"What?" you asked, concern slipping into your voice. You'd worked hard to make sure he was comfortable, but god only knew with how often he got thrown around on those bulls, his shoulder or neck could've been acting up sitting like this. "You ok? Need to move?"
He stared back up at you, and for just a moment there was a flicker of vulnerability there, his hand tightening on your thigh almost… nervously. You almost didn't think he was going to answer, and then, soft, tentative, came a quiet, "Why'd you stop?"
Ah. Now you saw the problem.
"I'm not punishing you, I promise." You hummed, scratching at his hair again, which seemed to soothe him just a tiny bit, his eyes fluttering shut on a sigh. "I'm going to rinse your hair now. And then we'll see if your hair is clean enough for conditioner. But it might need another wash depending on how much dirt you got in it today. Up to you."
He eagerly pushed his head back into the sink.
"Sorry, I didn't catch that," you teased, testing the temperature of the water with your hand.
He groaned, reaching up to scrub one hand down his face. "Are you really gonna make me say it out loud?"
"Yes. It's called communication, and generally it involves words and not just grunts and growls, as cute as those are from you." You took the nozzle and began to rinse his hair, careful to keep it out of his eyes. Foam and bubbles went swirling down the drain, the white froth now edged with sweeps of pale grey and a touch of brown, dirt and dust and even one little strand of hay swept away with the water. Something about it gave you a ridiculous sense of satisfaction. "Just say the word and I'll wash your hair again before the conditioner. I'll even do it slower this time."
He drew his lower lip between his teeth, gnawing on it as he shifted restlessly beneath you as he thought it over. You had just finished rinsing his hair, running your fingers through the slick, soaked strands, before you heard the slow intake of breath beneath you.
SUMMARY: You know what they say, the more wrinkled the raisin, the sweeter it is. Oh and wasn’t he sweet...
NOTE: Peter is so hot, damn.xoxo
The storm outside cracked like a live wire, lightning flashing through the steel beams of Derek’s loft. Rain slammed the windows like the sky was trying to get in. It was late—past midnight—but no one in the pack was yawning.
Not with the way Derek paced in front of the makeshift war table, arms crossed tight, brow locked in that signature "someone’s gonna die tonight" furrow.
“We found claw marks on the walls of the clinic,” Derek started, tossing a photo across the table. “And not the usual kind. These went through concrete.”
Scott leaned forward, examining the grainy image. “So we’re not sure if it’s a rogue Omega or something… else?”
“It’s not an Omega,” Peter’s voice cut through the room like a blade dipped in honey—smooth, dangerous, and sharp. He stood against one of the support beams, arms folded over that fitted black Henley, looking deliciously bored. “No one that pathetic has claws like that.”
You were curled in one of the armchairs near the corner, chin resting on your hand, only half-listening.
Correction: You were listening—but not to Derek or Scott or whatever threat was clawing up buildings.
No. Your eyes hadn’t moved off Peter in the last ten minutes.
There was something about how he stood—casual, calculated, like he was in on a joke no one else could hear. The soft stretch of his shirt across his chest. The faint shadows beneath his eyes that made him look a little too wolf, a little too unhinged. God, he looked like the kind of man you could ruin your life with.
And you wanted to. Boldly. Repeatedly.
Peter caught your gaze mid-glance. One brow arched.
And then he smirked.
“I’m just saying,” Peter added dryly, loud enough for everyone to hear, “if the big scary monster lurking around town is stupid enough to leave claw marks like a trail of breadcrumbs, maybe we should give it a helmet instead of a fight.”
Stiles huffed from the couch. “You’re such a dick.”
Peter smiled wider. “Accurate.”
You tilted your head, biting your lip. “Maybe he just wanted to get caught,” you said suddenly, loud enough to make half the room turn to you. You shrugged innocently, meeting Peter’s eyes like you were peeling him open with your stare. “Some creatures like being chased.”
Peter’s smile twitched—amused, intrigued—and laced with that dark, wolfish hunger he tried so hard to hide. You saw it.
Scott side-eyed you, blinking. “Y/N—can we focus?”
“Sorry,” you said sweetly, standing up slowly. “I just… get distracted.”
You circled the edge of the group, careful steps echoing across the floor. The storm cracked again, and the lights flickered. You stopped right behind Peter, leaned close, and spoke into the back of his neck without touching him.
“I like when you’re cruel,” you whispered, voice silk and fire. “Makes me wonder if you bite.”
Peter didn’t move. But you felt his pulse shift. Like something ancient and hungry stirred beneath his skin.
His voice came out low, controlled—too controlled.
“Little girl,” he murmured back, still facing forward. “You really want to go there?”
You smirked and leaned closer, lips brushing the edge of his ear.
“I’ve been there. I live there. I set up a fucking tent.”
Peter’s jaw clenched.
“I’m going to murder her,” Stiles muttered from the couch, half-joking. “Like—just a little bit. Just a smidge.”
“You won’t,” Peter said out loud, cool and calm, but you felt the heat radiating off him now. “She’d haunt you in lingerie.”
You chuckled—soft, filthy.
Scott groaned. “Can you not flirt in the middle of a supernatural crisis?”
“I wasn’t flirting,” you said, rounding Peter and standing beside him now, all close and magnetic. “I was… observing.”
Peter finally turned to look at you fully, blue eyes locked on yours. “And what, exactly, did you observe?”
“That you’re dying to touch me.”
The room went silent.
And then Derek snapped, “Enough.”
Everyone flinched. Except Peter. And you.
Derek’s eyes glowed faintly as he glared. “If you two are done turning this into a goddamn mating ritual, maybe we can get back to planning before another body shows up.”
Peter gave a slow shrug. “Fine by me. I’m only here for the entertainment.”
You leaned against the beam next to him, casual, letting your arm brush his. “Well. I’m very entertaining.”
Peter didn’t respond right away. His eyes dragged down your body like a promise, slow and hot and filthy. Then he turned back toward the group, lips twitching.
You grinned, smug and glowing. Victory.
He was close. So close.
But for now, he turned his attention back to the others. Like nothing had happened. Like you hadn’t just tongue-fucked him with a glance.
But his hand stayed pressed lightly to the edge of the beam—fingertips brushing yours, barely there.
Touch-starved. Hungry.
And yours.
Eventually.
-
The meeting had dragged. Thunder rolled low above Beacon Hills like the earth was growling, warning them about whatever new monster was crawling into town.
But the real storm didn’t break until after the pack started heading out.
“Y/N,” Scott called from beside his bike, keys jangling in his hand. “You riding with me or Stiles?”
You didn’t even glance at him. Your eyes were locked on Peter, who stood beside his black SUV with one hand on the door and the other in his pocket, smirking like he knew something no one else did.
Which—he usually did.
You smiled slowly. “Neither.”
Scott blinked. “What?”
“I’ll go with Peter.”
He straightened up slightly. “Why?”
You tilted your head innocently. “Why not?”
Behind Scott, Stiles made a dramatic groaning noise. “Oh my god. Here we go again. Just let her ride with Satan if she wants, man.”
Peter said nothing. He just opened the passenger door and stepped aside like a gentleman—or something that wore the skin of one. His eyes burned into you like a promise.
You walked past Scott without another word and climbed in.
The doors clicked shut. The outside world disappeared.
Inside, it was warm, dark, quiet—except for the low hum of the engine and the slow turn of the wipers dragging rain across the windshield.
Peter didn’t speak. He just drove, hands loose on the wheel, eyes forward. Focused. Dangerous.
You watched his profile—how the shadows carved into his cheekbone, how his hand tensed just slightly every time you shifted in your seat. You loved how he always tried to pretend you didn’t affect him.
But you did.
You always did.
And tonight… tonight you were done pretending you didn’t know it.
You unbuckled your seatbelt and crawled slowly—deliberately—into the back seat.
Peter’s eyes flicked to the mirror. “What are you doing?”
You spread your legs across the leather and leaned back on your elbows, smirking up at him. “Drive,” you said. “Or do something about it.”
Peter’s jaw clenched.
The car skidded a little to the right before he yanked it into a side lot, tires splashing into a puddle as he parked under a broken streetlight. The glow from it flickered once, then died.
Silence.
Then the soft creak of his door opening.
You stayed sprawled out, heart pounding as you listened to his boots hit the wet pavement, circle around the back, and open the rear door.
He got in.
The door slammed behind him.
And then he just looked at you—like a wolf who'd been stalking his prey for miles, and suddenly found her naked and grinning in his den.
“You,” he growled, voice low, fraying, “are a goddamn menace.”
You smirked, shifting slightly so your knee brushed against his thigh. “And you love it.”
His hand shot out, fisting in the front of your shirt and yanking you closer, your faces inches apart now. His breath was hot against your lips, his fingers flexing like he was deciding whether to pull you in or push you away.
He did neither.
“You think I won’t ruin you?” he hissed.
“I want you to.”
That broke him.
Peter grabbed the back of your neck and crushed his mouth to yours, tongue demanding and rough, devouring you with filthy need. You gasped into it, moaning when his teeth scraped your bottom lip, when his fingers tangled in your hair and pulled hard.
You kissed him back like it was the last thing you’d ever do.
Your hands slid up under his shirt—god, he was burning, muscle under your palms, skin twitching when you scratched. He growled again, shoving you back until your shoulders hit the seat, his body following, crawling over you like a predator who had finally, finally taken the bait.
“Is this what you wanted?” he whispered against your throat, licking a slow line under your jaw. “To make the bad wolf snap?”
You whimpered, grinding up against him. “More.”
“More?” He nipped at your skin. “You don’t even know what you’re asking for.”
“Then show me,” you breathed, fingers dragging down to the waistband of his jeans. “Be the wolf, Peter. Fucking bite.”
And he did.
Your back hit the leather with a soft thud, legs still parted around him, his hand fisted in your shirt like he might rip it off, like maybe he should. The heat between you two had gone nuclear. Your skin was buzzing, your breath short, your mouth already wrecked from the kiss you barely survived.
And Peter was watching you—his blue eyes dark and glowing, fangs just barely peeking from under his lip. The wolf was there. Right under the surface. And you had called it out.
You brought your hand up, tracing your fingers down the front of his chest. “Come on, Peter,” you whispered, voice syrupy and shameless. “You know you’ve been dying to fuck the attitude out of me.”
He groaned—visceral, like the sound was torn from him. Then his hand was under your thigh, yanking your hips toward him hard enough to make you gasp. His other hand curled around your throat—not choking, just holding, thumb pressing beneath your jaw with filthy reverence.
“You don’t know what you’re doing,” he muttered against your neck, but his hand was already sliding between your legs.
“I know exactly what I’m doing,” you moaned, arching into his touch.
His fingers pressed against the heat of your center—your shorts soaked through, no panties. You heard his breath catch.
“Fucking hell,” he hissed.
You smiled lazily. “Told you. I came prepared.”
Peter didn’t answer—he just shoved the fabric aside and slid two fingers through your folds, slow and deep and filthy. Your head tipped back with a broken moan.
“Oh my God—”
“Not God,” he rasped. “Just the wolf.”
He leaned in again, biting softly at your lip as his fingers began to move—rhythmically, slowly at first, then harder, faster. His thumb circled your clit with the kind of precision that made your legs tremble.
“I’ve wanted this,” he whispered, biting at your ear, “so fucking long. Every time you opened that smart mouth, every time you walked into a room like you owned me…”
You whimpered, rocking against his hand, clutching his shoulder. “Then take it. Own me.”
Something in him snapped.
He pulled his hand away for one agonizing second—long enough to yank your shorts down and toss them somewhere in the dark car—then he shoved your thighs up and apart, climbing between them like he belonged there. Like this was a fucking claim.
And maybe it was.
He shoved his jeans down just enough, fangs glinting now as he dragged his tip through your slick folds, teasing, eyes locked to yours.
“You want this?” he rasped, voice barely human.
“Yes,” you breathed, grabbing his jaw. “I want you.”
He slammed into you with one brutal thrust, burying himself fully. You cried out, arching, clawing at his shoulders. He didn’t wait. He didn’t ease up.
He fucked you—hard, deep, filthy—every thrust making the car creak on its suspension, windows fogging instantly. The smell of rain and sex and wolf filled the air. Your moans were ragged, high and loud, but he didn’t tell you to quiet down.
He wanted them.
Peter grunted as you clenched around him, biting into your neck—not enough to break skin, just enough to mark. His hand stayed wrapped tight around your throat, fingers flexing with every snap of his hips.
“You love this,” he growled. “You love knowing how wrong this is.”
You were nearly sobbing with pleasure. “Yes—fuck, Peter, please—”
“You wanted the bad wolf,” he snarled. “Now fucking take him.”
Your orgasm hit like a car crash "Oh my God, fuck yeah" hot and endless, your body convulsing around him as he held you down, fucked you through it, didn’t stop. You screamed his name, scratching down his back. Peter groaned into your throat, and with one final thrust, he spilled inside you, deep and possessive, a growl rattling from his chest like thunder.
You both collapsed, panting, your limbs tangled, hearts pounding like war drums.
His forehead rested against yours. He was still inside you. Still hardening again. Still hungry.
-
The bonfire cracked like it had secrets to tell.
Sparks flew up into the inky sky while laughter echoed from the logs surrounding it—pack members sprawled on blankets, roasting marshmallows and talking over each other. It was one of those rare nights when no one was dead or dying. Just warmth, woodsmoke, and the edge of summer in the air.
You were curled on a blanket next to Scott and Lydia, letting the heat of the fire lick at your bare legs while your eyes, once again, found him.
Peter Hale stood a few feet away, arms crossed over his chest, the flames casting shadows across his face, highlighting the sharpness of his cheekbones and the glint in his eyes. He wasn’t talking to anyone. Just watching. Guarded. Calm. Until you looked at him.
Then something in him shifted—his mouth twitching into a dangerous little smirk, eyes dipping down your body in one unbothered pass before returning to the fire.
Your thighs clenched.
You had been teasing him all night—lingering touches on your way past him, sitting just a little too close on the log earlier, whispering filthy little jokes under your breath only he could hear.
And now, sitting across from him in that short skirt and that smug grin, one leg swinging lazily as if you weren’t driving him insane, you knew he was at his limit.
Time to push.
You stood up slowly, stretching—arms above your head, shirt lifting just a little too far—and you made sure Peter’s eyes followed.
Then, without a word, you turned and walked toward the woods.
You didn’t look back.
Didn’t need to.
You heard the crunch of his boots on the forest floor thirty seconds later.
By the time he caught up, your back was already against a tree, breathing fast from the thrill of being chased, of being wanted. Peter stepped out of the shadows like a goddamn wolf, eyes gleaming, mouth a flat line of hunger and restraint.
“I swear to fucking God—” he growled.
You grabbed his collar and yanked him into a kiss that stole the rest of the sentence from his throat.
It was filthy. Immediate. No teasing now—just mouths crashing, teeth clashing, lips parted and desperate as you gasped into each other. His hands were already under your skirt, grabbing the backs of your thighs, lifting you. You wrapped your legs around his waist without thinking, moaning when your back hit the bark behind you.
“Jesus,” Peter rasped against your mouth, grinding his hips against your center. “Do you ever stop?”
“Why would I,” you panted, licking into his mouth, “when this is how you act when I don’t?”
He chuckled darkly, biting your bottom lip. “You think this is me acting?”
You whimpered when he rocked against you again, the heat of his jeans grinding into your panties, soaked and sticking to you already. Your head thumped back against the tree.
“You’re such a little brat,” he growled, sliding one hand between you, cupping you through your underwear. “Getting me hard in front of the whole fucking pack. Whispering shit only I could hear.”
Your hips bucked. “Couldn’t help it,” you gasped. “You look so edible next to fire.”
Peter growled, shoved your panties to the side, and dragged his fingers through your slick, slow and filthy. You gasped.
“Jesus, you’re wet—”
“You did that,” you moaned, clenching around nothing. “Fix it.”
He didn’t need more.
Peter undid his jeans, enough to free himself, the sound of his zipper somehow the dirtiest thing in the woods. He lined up with you, looking at you like he could tear you in half and you’d thank him for it.
“Quiet,” he warned as he pushed in. “Or I’ll make you scream.”
You bit down on his shoulder to muffle your cry as he buried himself inside you in one brutal thrust, your nails clawing at his back.
“Fuck,” you whimpered. “Peter—”
“Shh, baby,” he hissed, thrusting again, slow but deep, each movement shoving you higher up the tree. “Don’t want your little friends coming to check, do you?”
You shook your head, moaning into his neck. The idea of Scott or Derek or Stiles stumbling into this? It made you wetter.
Peter felt it. “Oh, you like that,” he sneered. “You want them to find out how desperate you are for my cock?”
“Y-yes,” you gasped, not even thinking. “I don’t care.”
His thrusts got harder. Meaner. The tree bark dug into your spine but you didn’t feel it—just the thick slide of him inside you, your thighs shaking around his waist, your body strung so tight you were seconds from unraveling.
“You wanna cum?” he whispered, filthy, fanged, dangerous.
“Please,” you gasped. “Peter, please—”
He reached between you, rubbing your clit in rough circles until you were gasping, head thrown back, toes curling in your boots. He slammed in one more time, and you broke apart—shaking, clutching him like a lifeline, moaning loud into his mouth as you came.
He groaned as you clenched around him, hips stuttering, and then he was following, burying himself deep with a low, guttural curse.
He held you there for a second, both of you panting in the dark, sweaty and still tangled together.
Then—
A snap.
A branch breaking.
Voices.
“Peter?” That was Scott. Close.
Peter pulled out quickly, helping you stand, yanking your panties back into place and pulling his jeans up with inhuman speed. You adjusted your shirt, shaking from the aftershocks and the adrenaline.
Peter leaned close, lips brushing your ear.
“If they catch us,” he growled, “I’ll make you ride me in front of them.”
You nearly collapsed.
But he straightened, smirked, and stepped out of the trees—calm, smug, like he hadn’t just fucked you against a tree with the entire pack 30 feet away.
You followed, flushed and glowing, hair mussed.
Scott and Derek looked up as you reappeared, both raising eyebrows.
Peter walked past them like nothing happened, but then Derek’s nose twitched.
He frowned. Deeply.
“You smell like her,” Derek muttered.
Peter glanced back with the laziest, dirtiest smirk in history.
My first Derek Hale fic. I really have no way to defend myself. This is seven pages of hardcore smut. Enjoy
The white light was so blinding that all you could see were stars. Your body was thrumming with burning heat that left you compliant and numb down to your toes. You could vaguely feel yourself fall, tumbling heavily to the right side. You felt something try to brace your left side, and it lessened the impact.
What you were now lying on was firm, hot, and moving. One more blink had you returning to your body and brain functioning on at least minimal levels. Your back was on Derek’s chest, his hand firmly holding your lower stomach as he continued to piston his hips up, rolling them against you with each thrust. Your hand went to his arm, grasping it firmly, using it to ground yourself back in reality. His right hand was still between your legs, rubbing your clit. You could feel another orgasm fast approaching, and this one may actually kill you.
You hadn’t thought it would be like this, be this fucking good, when you talked to Derek about having rougher sex. You knew he held back because he was afraid his werewolf strength would hurt you if he wasn’t constantly on guard. You had introduced the idea, talking about the desire to be fucked harder. The want to be manhandled, held tight, or restrained enough to leave bruises, love bites, or hickies. You didn’t mind a little pain with your pleasure. A lack of control.
You craved it.
You had noticed a slight change in the last week, but nothing major. Until today. Derek had come home radiating testosterone and anger. Anger that had quickly manifested into sexual frustration when he saw you. You were pulled to your feet and into a frenzied kiss. He tugged at the hair at the nape of your neck, pulling it to one side. He bit and sucked on the delicate skin, rubbing the stubble on his face across the tender skin as he moved on down your chest, following the swoop of your tank top. It left a trail of beard burn in its wake.
He broke away just long enough to yank your tank top over your head. You could hear the tearing of fabric as it didn’t come off as fast as he wanted. Your hands didn’t even have time to make it to his shoulders when his face was already between your naked breasts. His mouth found a nipple, and your fingers curled on his shoulders, then scratched down his back as he bit one and pinched the other. Your back arched up, and he was bending down. Derek’s hands found the back of your thighs, and without giving you a chance to help, they cupped your ass, squeezing as he lifted you. You wrapped your legs around his waist, moaning loudly as he slammed you back against the wall.
His mouth found the other side of your neck, biting down. Your hard nipples rubbed against the material of his Henley. He cupped your breast, bringing his mouth down on it again to capture the other nipple. Your hand fisted his hair as your hips rocked against the hard cock hidden in his jeans. He growled, taking you to the bedroom. You took the opportunity to suck on his neck, even knowing that any bruise you gave him would heal almost instantly.
He dropped you unceremoniously on the edge of the bed. Your hands grabbed his waist to keep balance. He grabbed the hem of his shirt to pull it off, and your hands flew to his belt, undoing it and the button of his jeans. They slid down the V of his hips, forcing the zipper down. Derek was naked underneath, and you could see his cock. You went to reach for it, but were thrown off guard by him yanking you up by your belt loops. You didn’t even have a chance to steady yourself before he was yanking you around and pushing you forward.
You managed to catch yourself on your hands before landing face-first in the mattress, but it pushed your ass into the air. Derek’s hands circled you, reaching under to undo the button. He yanked your jeans and underwear down just below your ass cheeks. You jumped, cursing as he bit down on the round muscle. His strong hand left a stinging slap on your other ass cheek, making you grip the blankets. He licked at the red bite, soothing it with his tongue.
Derek’s hand slid under your ass again, propelling you up and forcing your face entirely into the mattress. You didn’t have time to even think of a complaint as your knees were set on the mattress and his face dived between your legs. His hot mouth is sucking on your throbbing cunt. His beard is causing the sensitive skin of your inner thighs to burn with sensation. His tongue sliding inside as his right hand slid between you and the mattress, already wet middle fingers sliding into your core with his tongue. He thrusts them in and out in a rhythm of tongue, and your body starts to follow it, rolling back against him. You could feel your orgasm building.
It was so close.
Derek pulled back, removing his fingers. You whimpered, pushing up onto your shaking forearms. His chest slid across your back until his mouth was at your ear, “Not yet.” You squeeze your thighs together, trying to hold onto the orgasm that is slowly fading. He moves back, starting to drag an open-mouth kiss down your spine. You feel the cold as his body leaves yours. You hear the clanking of his belt and jeans hitting the floor. You turn your face, rolling onto your side to see Derek in all his naked glory. His dark hair, tanned skin, muscled body, and his thick, long cock jutting out hard and weeping with precum. You watch hypnotized as he strokes it leisurely. You lick your lips.
Derek came back to the foot of the bed. He grabbed your ankles, pulling you back to the edge of the bed. His hand went to your throat, forcing you up. Air is pushed from your lungs. The move was rough, but most of the weight had been pressed lower against your collarbone. It slid up, squeezing just enough to stop your breath. You claw at his arm, but not to make it stop. The restriction in the air made you feel like you were floating.
“You want to come on my cock, baby?” His words had you shivering and unable to speak. His cock was pressed against your cunt. He didn’t enter you, just teased you by rubbing it back and forth against your dripping folds. His hold on your throat lessened as his nose trailed down the column of your neck. “Is that what you want?”
“Yes,” It’s breathless and probably so low that had he not had supernatural hearing, he probably would have missed it. He pushed his cock into you in one hard thrust. He kept your back against his front as he started a mercalist speed. One hand held you tightly as the other rubbed against your clit. The orgasm hit out of nowhere, your core squeezing his cock, your head rolling back to lean against his shoulder. His thrust slowed just a roll of his hips as the motion on your clit followed, working you through your orgasm.
“You okay?” His voice was soft now. You nod, rocking your hips on his dick. It was still hard and had not yet been satisfied.
“Don’t stop.” His chuckle came out as a hot whisper of breath against your neck. He kissed your exposed shoulder. His hand came around your stomach, lifting you to drop you closer to the center of the bed. He mercifully rolled you on your back, where he took back up a furious pace. His mouth finds your breast again, sucking hickies down the middle of your chest. A second orgasm hit you, followed by a third. They were not nearly as intense as the first, but they left you gasping and tingly.
Derek pulled out again, leaving you feeling empty. His hand came to your waist, no doubt to manhandle you into another orgasmic position. You managed to grab his wrist, pushing his chest with your other hand. He paused and willingly twisted to lie on his back. His eyes were red, then flashed brown, and back again. You wondered if his alpha instincts were fighting to take over, and that he wanted to flip you back over and pin you down to regain dominance. Not that he needs to.
You both knew who was in control of this night.
You turned to straddle him in reverse. Your legs were shaky, and you weren’t sure how long you’d be able to go for, but you knew this was one of his favorite positions. He was lying back, devouring the view of you leaning forward, hands on his legs, bouncing on his dick. Derek didn’t like to be idle long. He pressed up on his arms, thrusting his hip up into you. One hand came to your hip, pulling you farther back on him.
It was a move you recognized, and you straightened your back and found your footing to really bounce. Even with his hands on your hips, forcing you down as he thrust up, your legs were getting tired fast. Honestly, you were surprised you could feel any of your limbs at this point. You grab his wrist, hoping it will help. It does, but not as much as you need. You knew he was close, but you weren’t sure you would be able to make it.
His arm wraps around your stomach, pulling you back against him as his other arm lays you back down on the bed, your back flush against his chest. You let out a squeak of surprise that turns into a moan. Derek forces you into a position you have never been in.
He uses his legs to force you to stay open wide. Then both of his hands grab your ribs, forcing your body up, back arching, hovering over him. Your hands scramble to catch yourself and help support your weight. It’s clear Derek is holding the majority of it, as you would never be able to hold the position yourself. He thrusts up hard into you, and you have no choice but to take everything he gives you.
The angle is so deep, and you feel so full. Then, with the slight movement as you try to adjust your shaking arms, the angle changes. His cock rubs against every sensitive and swollen nerve.
You scream.
It is maddening, and he doesn’t slow down. If anything, it encourages him to go harder and faster. Your orgasm is explosive. Your entire body is contracting before releasing. You only feel your hands buckle before you are flying and seeing stars. You hear a grunt and a hand on your left side tries to support you, but it only lessens the fall.
Derek pushes on your lower stomach, and with one last thrust, he comes inside of you. Then his body laxes under you. The only movement is your chests heaving up and down, pants filling the room. You can feel his heart pounding in his chest and his cock throbbing inside you.
You lay there long enough for you to catch your breath, sweat cooling. Even the thought of moving was exhausting. Derek’s hand slides up your stomach. “You okay?” You had been half asleep, hand clumsily landing on top of his and with a blissed filled laugh you answer.
“Yep, and ready for round two.” It was a lie. The only thing you were ready for was sleep. You know it. And he knows it.
“Is that so?” His fingers went down to where you were still connected, barely circling your clit. Your very sensitive and swollen clit. Your body slid away from the assault and up his body. His cock sliding out of you and the top of your head bumping his chin. “I don’t think you could handle round two, greedy girl.” His hand smoothed back your hair. You force yourself to roll over and fold your arms on his chest to rest your chin looking up at him. You realize his eyes had returned to their normal dark brown.
Summary: Anon req: "Okay but imagine vamp Az fucking you from behind in front of a mirror but you can’t see his reflection, only the way your body is shaking from the way he’s making you feel, moaning in your ear about how pretty you look taking his cock, making you watch yourself orgasm again and again and again"
“Did you think he could fuck you better than I can, or were you just trying to upset me?” Azriel’s voice is like gravel against your skin. His hands are planted firmly on your hips, holding you to his body with such an ease that if you hadn’t known he had immortal strength, you’d be slipping right out your cracked bedroom door and dashing for the buttery light creeping into your room.
Your heart is so loud, beating so frantic, so harsh, that you’re afraid it might just jumpstart Azriel’s in his chest behind you.
It wasn’t your fault that the other vampires of his clan had taken an interest in you. You were one of the few females to attend this evening, and you were definitely the only human. They could probably scent you from the hall, across the acres separating their homes as you arrived with the shadowsinger. If Azriel hadn’t wanted them to talk to you, to flirt with you, he shouldn’t have brought you along.
Of course, it’s your fault.
Your fault for smiling at the golden skinned, bright haired male from Adriata, your fault for plucking a grape off of a skewer from the stocky Illyrian male with luscious locks who looked all too much like the vampire who had stolen you. Your fault for accepting the chalice filled nearly to the brim with a heady, warm, red cocktail that you thought might’ve been blood. You hadn’t taken a single sip, but rather done it to be polite to the important looking male with auburn hair and eyes that matched.
“I didn’t mean—”
“I’m sure you didn’t, crow.” His voice is lined with anger, jealousy. Azriel has made it very clear who you are and what you mean, how you won’t ever escape him and how you should accept that fate. Your fingers tremble where they’re curled into your skirts as his golden eyes stare pins into your head. He has you turned toward the lone mirror in your room but his reflection doesn’t show. Instead of seeing the anger on his face you can feel it in the tension of his body, through corded muscles and hard fingers. “But you will learn, fast.”
His fingers trail the bodice of your dress and your breath hitches in your throat. You hate the way that your body seems to react to his closeness, the wet pooling between your legs and the way you press further into him without your knowledge.
Azriel continues on and you’re frozen, watching in the mirror as he pops open the button at the top of your dress. The full curve of your breasts appear, skin smooth and biteable. Your eyes shutter as his fingertips trace gently across the tops of them, gasping when he dips his hands into the fabric to get a fistful of your flesh.
“Oh,” you breathe as he skirts across your nipples. They harden beneath his rough touch and you clench your legs together to keep them from buckling.
His whisper is a taunt, breath hot against your skin. “You like that, don’t you?”
You clench your jaw, snapping your fallen lids open as you come to reality. Yes, some sick, twisted part of you might want this, want his hands on your body, his cock in your cunt, and his teeth in your neck, but you can’t. This male has stolen you away, taken you from everything you’ve once known and had once loved. You’re nothing now, nothing more than his human pet to play with and flaunt and fuck as he pleases.
“No,” you say, but your mind is screaming yes.
“The only person you’re lying to is yourself,” he taunts, nipping at your neck. It gives you goosebumps. As if to prove his statement, his hands find the center of your dress and he tugs. Buttons go flying and you squeal as your breasts fall from containment, but in the mirror it’s only you. “Watch what I’m going to your body,” his voice is a whisper of darkness that makes the candles flicker and shivers sprint up your spine. “You’ll see exactly how much you want this, crow.”
You can’t swallow past the lump in your throat. You’re left watching as he rids you of the rest of your clothes with ease, such strength but so gentle as his hands caress your skin. Each touch leaves your stomach twisting, yearning for more.
Everything stills when he removes himself from your body and circles you, gleaming eyes drinking you in like the summer sun he longs to feel across his face. You whimper as the hard press of his cock leaves you and mentally curse yourself. He shouldn’t be having this much of an effect on you, especially as his fingertips brush your hips but he places his entire palm across your abdomen as he stares down at you, dark hair hanging across his forehead and his dark eyelashes thick.
You think he might lean down, eat the space between you to press his lips to yours, but he holds back, studying you. You don’t know what for, and a part of you wants to duck your head and shy away from those intense eyes, but the other part of you wants to lift your chin and stare right back.
Azriel finds what he’s searching for, fang peeking out of his lip when he smirks wickedly. Your heart tumbles and a retort sits on the tip of your tongue but he’s lowering himself to his knees.
He helps you take a seat, and spreads your legs with little effort. He’s kneeling before you like he’s about to pray, to dip between your thighs and taste your slick like the holy water that burns him. His nostrils flare as he takes a long look, eyes flickering down your body until you’re sure that your cheeks are bloodred.
It’s too much, his look too heated and you need to break the tension. “I—”
“I want you to stay sitting,” he interrupts.
“Why?” you ask, arms already shaking with anticipation. You don’t know how long you’ll be able to keep yourself sitting, especially if he puts his head between your legs like you’re hoping.
His fangs flash before he can control himself, not used to anyone asking such questions.
“You’re going to watch how prettily you take my tongue, my fingers, and my cock. All from the view of this mirror,” he says, lowering himself further. He kisses the meat of your thigh roughly and you grunt, trying to pull it away but he takes each leg in his grasp and tugs them over his shoulders, toes brushing the skin of his wings. His eyelashes flutter but his stare is demanding. “Look at yourself. See how much you want this, want me, and maybe you’ll finally realize how much you want this.”
You want to bite back at him with some snarky retort but he’s licking a stripe up your center and you’re crying out at the sensation. Azriel hums and the vibrations stimulate your clit. Already, your head is thrown back on your shoulders and your breathing is uneven, all from one taste.
“Look at yourself, or there will be no more.”
No more? Isn’t that what you should want? Him to stop? It is, but your body is moving on its own, sliding closer to his mouth as your head straightens and you meet your own burning reflection in the mirror.
“More,” you demand, but it’s shaky at best.
You can feel his smirk against your skin as he dips his mouth again, dipping into your wet heat this time and tracing praise across your clit. He sucks, hard, and the noise that comes from you is broken, thighs pressing closed on his head and toes curling against his wings. It makes him shudder and you’ve won this one, but then he’s flicking his tongue so fast against your clit in time with your pounding heart, you almost can’t take it.
Azriel adds his fingers into the mix and you watch in the mirror how your cunt welcomes him. Your slick gleams in the reflection, his tongue still attacking your clit as he works one, then two, and a third into you, a steady pace until he’s curling his fingers into that bundle of nerves that makes your arms give out and your body writhe.
“Good gods,” you pant, hands finding his hair. You hold on tightly, grinding your cunt against his face. He feels good, too good. His centuries of practice have surely paid off.
Your chest heaves when he pulls away, eyes shut in bliss. You shouldn’t have wanted it, it shouldn’t have felt that good, but you’re still reeling in it, enjoying the post orgasm haze as he quickly undresses.
You don’t even understand what’s going on until he’s grabbing you and flipping you with such ease it shocks you, clearing your mind in an instant as you realize how you’ll never be able to fight against him and escape, his brute strength is impossibly superior to yours.
“Look,” he commands, pulling your head up with the fistfull of your hair he has. It strains deliciously in his fingers and your mouth falls open in a desperate gasp as he thrusts into you. Tears prick your eyes at the sensation, the frustration because the part of you that twinges with lust whenever he’s around wants to know if he’s enjoying this—you. You want to see him, watch the way his firmly set jaw twitches as he comes closer to his orgasm, the way that broad chest heaves and the length of his awfully long cock as he slides it almost all the way out only to fuck his way back into you—only his reflection doesn’t show. “Look at yourself, such a pretty little human, all wrecked and drunk off my cock. Tell me, crow. When they told you about the monsters lurking in the night, did they mention my fucking cock was the most dangerous of all?”
“No,” you pant, leaning further into his body. Your eyes roll back into your head as his arm moves across your stomach, cementing you to the front of his chest like you’ve always belonged. You can say that you hate him all you want, screaming it morning, noon, and night, but the fact of the matter is, is that your body fits near perfect against his and reacting to him in waves, pleasure building on top of pleasure in his presence.
“If they had,” he growls, tone low. It rumbles up your spine and you arch, head thrown back. Azriel towers over you, and you only catch a glimpse of his black hair dipping into his eyes before he’s wrenching your head straight and forcing you to look at yourself again. You can’t help but whine, but it melts into something languid as he hits the bundle of nerves, sensitive from your orgasms already. “Would you still have wandered into the forest that night?”
No, your mind screams at you. You wouldn’t have stumbled into the woods at all, had you had a choice, if you had known that he would be on the other side of that moonlit path. You would’ve much rather suffered in the human lands instead of letting him slowly set your soul on fire like this.
“Stop,” you cry, chest tight as you’re reminded of that night. You clamp your hands onto his, trying to claw his fingers from your body, but he’s unrelenting, distracting you with a kiss.
“There is no stopping this. I am going to be your pleasure, your pain, your laughter, and your solace. No one is going to worship you like I do. I am going to give you everything you need or nothing you want if you command it. I am the court that you thrive in and the home you never want to leave. I’m going to be the first thing that you see when the sun cracks through these windows and the last thing you see when the moon kisses the sky. I’m going to be the air that you breathe, the blood in your veins, until your beating heart stops by my lips and my lips alone.”
Your fingers twist tighter in his dark locks as you cum hard, his words consuming you. His sharp canines scrape against the skin of your throat and it only adds to the arousing sensation that’s wracking through your body. You’re shaking, unable to form dizzy thoughts into a coherent sentence as he continues his ministrations, so deeply into you that you swear you can feel him in your throat.
His confession, an onslaught of utter dominance, utter need. Azriel said it not as if you have an option in the matter. You’re going to be his and he’s going to give you everything you’ve yearned for but nothing in the human lands could ever compare. And even though you’ve hated the very marrow in his bones since you’ve met him, you can admit that the feeling of being wanted with every fiber of someone’s being is…nice.
“Azriel,” you cry, tears spilling down your cheeks. He licks them away with a growl. His thrusts are long and hard and he doesn’t slow, if anything, the clenching of your cunt around his cock as you cum again makes him move faster, harsher, because he’s going to take as many orgasms from you as he can until you’re so fucked out you won’t be able to try and escape. “Please.”
Your fingers are trembling from where they’ve fallen to your sides, digging deeply into his hips as you hold onto him for dear life. He smothers your mouth, stealing a kiss that ravages you, but you’re keening and whimpering against his lips from the sensitivity. “Take it, crow. I’m not done with you yet.”
But you can’t, not even when his fingers find your clit and start to rub soft circles, working you up again. You writhe against the sensation, drawing your fingers up in long scratches against the perfectly tan skin. It does nothing but spur him on, and with his mouth pressed firmly against yours, you resort to the only thing you can think of that might get him to stop.
You bite him.
Hard.
Azriel grunts, hips faltering once, before he buries himself deeply into you. You can feel the splitting on his skin, the burst of blood on your tongue, and his hands are snaking up your body and grabbing hold of your breasts, tweaking your nipples once before he’s ripping his mouth from yours. His eyes are dark, pupils thick and you swallow the heady mouthful of blood harshly, realizing that your actions haven’t upset him in the slightest.
He looks…hungrier.
“Did that satisfy you, crow?”
Your breath sticks in your throat, watching intently as his tongue darts out to lap up the stray blood. The sight of it reminds you of how he was between your legs, licking up your wetness like it was somehow better than the blood he lives off of.
It makes your cunt clench and his grin turns purely wild, showing off those sharp teeth, painted crimson.
Azriel manhandles you to the floor, ignoring your whimpers and pleas for him to stop. Your cunt hurts, but the warmth dripping between your legs with his hot cock pressed tightly inside of you feels all too good.
His heavy body pins you face down. He’s a warm wight, and his hand slides around your throat, lifting your head and forcing you to stare at yourself in the mirror. You look utterly wrecked; fucked out beyond belief. Tears staining your reddened cheeks, lips swollen from the harsh kiss you’ve shared with the vampire plastered to your back. Your hair is a knot at the top of your head, unruly from his relentless pulling. You can see the imprint of his hand against your skin when Azriel holds your neck firmer, pinching off your airflow to cut off your incessant pleaing.
Even though your body feels like giving out, the way the new position makes his cock fit into you causes you to see stars. It could quite possibly be the lack of air you’re able to take in, dark suns bursting behind your eyelids, but his cock is hitting every spot that you need, and the hand planted beside your head snakes down to rub through the slickness between your thighs again, right to your clit.
Azriel’s not gentle. His motions become jerkier, breath heavy against your cheek as his orgasm builds. He’s losing control, and fast. He pinches your clit before soothing it over with a brush of his thumb, and he nips at your skin, softly at first, then harsher, but not drawing blood, never drawing blood because he doesn’t know how he’ll be able to stop himself should he get a taste of you.
He’ll drink you fucking dry if he does.
Black smothers your vision and you can hardly see yourself in the mirror. Your hands are pinned beneath your body, completely at his disposal. But there’s another orgasm building with his fervent fingers and raucous thrusts. Against your better mind, you cum again, harder than the last.
Azriel groans, releasing your neck from his grasp, letting your body slacken as he plants both hands to drive into you until he’s falling over the edge himself, crowing your name with a caw that rattles the walls of his aging manor. Your body goes slack as you gasp, the rush of air adding to the deliverance of what you hope to be your final orgasm of the night.
He leans in close, breathing a caress of darkness against the shell of your ear.
Summary-> The Salvatores call Y/N Mikaelson for aid, however they don’t expect for her to have a history with Kai Parker (4k)
Warnings-> 18+ minors dni, smut, unprotected sex, shower sex, porn with plot, mentions of death, blood drinking, swearing, fluff & angst, mentions of bad parenting and adultery, mentions of child abuse and imprisonment
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Kai had never been a romantic, that much was blatantly obvious, or so he told himself. To even think about being in love opened a wound inside of him, and it refused to heal. He had been raised in hell before his family sent him to an isolation that was impossible for him to escape, however they had never expected or anticipated intruders to enter his coven crafted prison world, but the improbable became possible when the other side fell. And now he was free, to an extent, with supervision of course.
Stefan rushed into the room with urgency in his steps, bearing news as he reached his brother - and Kai. They tolerated him, after all the evil-doings he had spewed in the form of massacres, realising that now he was a heretic he had some use other than drinking magic like a drug addict fiending for a hit. Things were always tense when his magic was required, but the group of supernatural heroes (and Matt unfortunately) understood that to protect the town indefinitely, his troublesome hand definitely helped. Though he wasn’t one of them, his singular use other than being a pest was to be a weapon. It was ironic really considering they had stopped, or at least tried, him from killing his family, and now he was doing their bidding murdering at their beck and call.
“Y/n’s on her way, she would have been here sooner but there was some trouble in New Orleans that she had to resolve.” The name of the woman that Stefan was referring to struck a fragile, hard to find nerve in Kai’s erratic brain, he had known a woman by the same name a long time ago… She had been unstoppable, as any original vampire would be. Y/n Mikaelson, a dead beauty whom was one of a kind, she had seen an endless variety of monsters in her achingly long life, and unlike everyone else that Kai had known, she didn’t see him as one.
He was just a man, and she was- walking in the Salvatore home apparently? It couldn’t be, be surely had to be hallucinating. The last time that he had seen her, she had bid him goodbye, promising to see him the following day, when in reality he didn’t. Klaus had staked her with a pale dagger, catching her beautiful and dormant corpse in an old fashioned casket, taking her comatosed body half way across the globe. He saw the scene of her struggle, but not her. Kai was speechless, he never thought he’d see her again, when they had met he had just been a siphon, and now he was more like her than he’d ever imagined.
Their eyes locked and time stood still for a moment, before she gave him a cold shoulder, turning her attention to the Salvatores, Stefan less than amused with her appearance. Kai hardly noticed but she was drenched from head to toe in blood, her skin flooded by the remnants of her victims. “Don’t look at me like that, I’m here, aren’t I?” Damon quirked a brow at the original which caused the old one to huff out an exaggerated sigh. “You wouldn’t believe me if I told you what I had to do to get here to save your asses, so I’m not even going to bother. So what’s first on the agenda?”
“You can take a shower, you know where it is.” Damon nodded his head at her, and Kai was inclined to squint at the interaction but decided it best not to pry in case he discovered something he’d rather not have. Y/n turned on her heel and contently plodded up the stairs within the mansion, leaving red footsteps in her wake, luring Kai to follow her trail. He stood, beginning on his journey to know the reason for her ignorance of him, he wanted to understand the pain that he felt that was unlike any other that he had experienced.
Surely she couldn’t have forgotten him, it had been a long time for him, but in relation to those she had lived, it would have been as though they had met yesterday. The younger of the two Salvatore brothers stepped forward, wanting to severe Kai’s secret mission into a failure of efforts, however Damon held his arm out, silently ordering Stefan to remain where he was. “Let him be a peeping tom, worst that will happen is she’ll rip his loveless heart out.” To then Kai was an expendable weapon, there was only so much use that they had for him. They didn’t need to kill him, he’d be the cause for his own end, and there would be no one to mourn him, even if his family were alive.
“Hey. Y/n, stop! Please!” He was desperate for her attention, he’d gone so long without it that it was all he craved. In private, he had struggled and tried his darn hardest to cast an abundance of spells to awake her, even without the genetic gift of magic. There was no stone that he had left unturned, but all that needed to be done was to remove the dagger from her chest, but she was lost and hidden far away so that nobody could find her… not even him. Not even Jo, his own twin from birth had protected him from the parental neglect and isolation he had induced before his indefinite banishment, but Y/n had yearned to make him feel wanted and needed. When he had spent moments in private with her, away from the endless triggers, he felt like a normal person, almost human.
If not for Klaus and his incessant and overwhelming desire to collect his siblings and put them in their reserved coffins, Kai doubted that his disturbed parents would have succeeded with transferring his mind and lack of soul into the 1994 prison world. She would have murdered his coven pleasing, traditional parents in cold blood. He would have been free, and more importantly, with her. Joshua Parker and his broodmare of a wife had awaited for Y/n’s demise, acknowledging that whilst they were all powerful Geminis, an original vampire was not an obstacle that they wanted to risk fighting against. It was easier for them to wait until she was entirely out of the picture and consciousness to strike against their first born son.
Y/n looked at him, there was something in her eyes that had changed, and it wasn’t peculiar squint that she aimed at him. She was analysing his face, tilting her portrait worthy head at his appearance, repeating the sound of his voice in her brain. Her throat felt dry despite all the blood that she had drank as she began to speak, wary that she could have been imagining his presence as a trauma response, her long past encompassing her supernatural senses and making them into a realistic delusion. “You look like someone that I once knew, but you can’t be him, he would have aged by now, witches only have a mortal lifespan. Most of them anyways.” Her words spoke truth, however they had been long separated and their journeys had continued apart.
Kai dared to step towards her, reaching his silver adorned hands to her face, painting his own fingertips in the numerous layers of blood that was spread across her cheek. “The world hasn’t been kind to either of us, I’m a heretic now, and I did a lot of horrible things just so that I could survive and one day see you again. It’s really me, it’s, I’m… Malachai.” Y/n has always referred to him by his full name, and after he’d lost her for what felt like an eternity, he had vastly preferred it to be shortened to Kai. Each time he heard anybody formally naming him by Malachai, it caused him a terrible internal fever of pain, for she instantly was replayed in the only fond memories that he held close to his heart.
There was a glassy sheen reflecting from her compelling eyes, even if this was a sick and twisted trick that her body was playing on her vision, she wasn’t willing to waste another fleeting minute without pulling him into her embrace, hoping and praying to her ancestors above that Kai wouldn’t fade away. “I can’t believe it’s you.” Y/n whispered, still coming to grips with the shock that raced in her veins. She had heard commotion from the Salvatores and their younger allies in regards to the heretics that had brought dangerous issues into the borders of Mystic Falls. Never had the original expected for her Malachai to be one of the siphoner crossbreeds, they were stupidly subjective to be unexpectedly powerful after having lived lives of stealing magic and bearing the labels of being abominations to their cold hearted covens.
It was clear that they had both changed during their decades without one another. But it didn’t matter, Kai and Y/n were now individually stronger, thus meant together it would be close to impossible for any species to separate them again. “There’s something that you should know,” Y/n slightly pulled away from their coiled up proximity so that she could look into Kai’s grey irises, finding a rare comfort in their storm of pigment. “I’m a hybrid now, Klaus and I were never Mikael’s children, our father was a werewolf called Ansel, he and our mother had an affair. When Klaus took that stake out of my heart, he was planning on unlocking that hidden side of himself, and I joined him, thinking that a distraction was what I needed and that I’d never have the chance to see you again.”
Nothing changed in the way that Kai looked at Y/n, his orbs continued to be clouded with effortless and true adoration, he could care less what she was, all he wanted was her by his side until their fates rested in possible death, in an afterlife that they could fondly share. “You could never not be perfect to me, even in this moment. All that blood looks good on you. It really brings out your eyes.” Kai could remember the first time he had seen her features accentuated with a visible rush of human’s blood, she had come to him in the night, after defending herself from a group of witches that had tried to use her mulled blood to bring all of her siblings to one destination. Their scheme had been to kill all vampires in the planet, and what better way to do that than to cull the untwined sources of the various and spread bloodlines. They hadn’t even come near to reigning their intended terror of mass extinction, Y/n had mauled them with quick yet painful deaths that would haunt them on the other side.
“Well I’m afraid I can’t remain looking like this Malachai, I need to shower.” Y/n miserably insisted, her pupils never wishing to leave his form again, for she was afraid that the heretic would disappear altogether. For years since Klaus had removed the dagger out from where it had been impaled in her chest, she had wanted to search for Kai, however the right opportunity had never arose. There was always a family related instance that threw any solace of doing so out the window. She was far too selfless for her own good, she continuously allowed her fleet of brothers and sisters to pull her into their conflicts, and she couldn’t find it in herself to leave them to the horrors of their mother Esther had given them lives long enough to experience. Immortality really was a cruel curse, every day Y/n would look in the mirror and see no alteration to her timeless face, there would only be more regret and trauma hidden behind her y/e/c windows to her fading soul.
“Then allow me to join you, I can’t bear to see you walk away again, I need you to come back.” Their last goodbye hadn’t prepared him for the years that had passed him by without her presence. It was a miracle that Y/n was in the same vicinity as him, she’d told him that she would see him the following day, but her promise had been broken through no fault of her own. “Well,” his past lover began to speak, Kai’s eyes solely trained on her lips that he obsessively dreamt of every night, “I’m sure that I could use your help t wash all of this blood off me.” And so Kai safely followed her until the attached bathroom of one of the many guest rooms, excited to feel her close once again. She stripped her ruined articles of clothing from her perfect, unscarred flesh, crimson painting each curve and ridge that her apparel hadn’t covered. Her movements span Kai’s mind into a flurry of hypnosis, he was entranced with her flawless anatomy.
She stepped into the shower first, allowing Kai to mentally prepare for sharing an intimate proximity with her after so long. He had always hated anyone touching him, since his parents had constantly instructed all to never lay a finger against his skin; because he was dangerous. One touch and he could kill his siblings that had been brought into the world to replace the disappointment that he was. But Y/n, he couldn’t hurt her, and she made him feel important and loved like his coven should have. They shared a history where they had both been neglected; Mikael knew that Klaus and Y/n weren’t biologically his children and so he had intended to kill them as a message to his witch of a wife, also due to simply wanting to. And even being sent to the prison world dedicated to holding and punishing Kai, his father had neglected and beaten him for being born as the black sheep. Neither of them had deserved the malicious injustice that their parents had handed out to them, but now they had time to heal together, and fix the broken shards of their intermingled roads of earning a sliver of peace.
It took him a fair few minutes to succumb back to the reality that was cast before his very eyes, like an allusive spell that disturbed his vision to picture his greatest desires. Y/n was as alive as a vampire could practically be, scrubbing her crimes from her body with her naked hands. Her knuckles were white and clenched as she feared that Kai wouldn’t join her because there was always the possibility that he wasn’t real; he was another mortal that she had outlived and his passing souls was spouting nonsense of heretics and prison worlds to madden her into believing all wasn’t lost, as it usually was. But as Kai built up the courage to shed his clothes and leave them in an abandoned cluster on the floor and join her behind the water splattered glass, and his hands nervously danced in a grip on her waist, Y/n realised that she was mistaken. He was real, and so were the tears that fell from his eyes and landed upon her shoulders that had relaxed from the warm stream that was elicited from the shower head.
Y/n span around in his arms, their bodies pressing together as she did so. Returning to Mystic Falls had been the correct move on her part, now there lay a chance to finish Kai’s and her story, rather than leaving it to remain a forgotten tragedy of their pasts. “I’m so happy that you’re here.” She hadn’t felt that raw emotion in a time too long, her voice had left her lips in a relieved sob. His shaky hands found refuge in cradling her face, pulling her closer so that their noses touched. “If I had to do everything all over again so that I’d end up here, I would.” Kai remembered the awful actions he had done, they flashed in his memory as guilt biled in his chest, he’d been raised as an evil child, and after he had realised that Y/n had disappeared, his actions proved such. At first Kai had assumed that his love had thought of him as a monster like everyone else did, however he dug through her small apartment only to discover carnage. She hadn’t willingly left him, and that made him angrier.
And he had snapped, he was always taunted for being powerless by his family, he was a pest that they had brought into the world, and so as revenge he took them out of it. But he held no regret other than being a Gemini without magic for so long, because his and Y/n’s paths had crossed as though it were fate. “I’d do it all again too, or maybe I’d have staked Klaus first. It doesn’t matter though, I’ve got you back and now we have more time, eternity is on our side.” Her lips found his, their mouths melting together in a passionate and desperate kiss that they refused to break. Their lack of breathing continued as Kai pressed her into the wall, moving them out of shot from the falling water, his knuckles hungrily grabbing the back of her thighs. He muttered an almost silent ‘jump’ into her mouth, and Y/n instantly followed his words, wanting nothing more than to be held in his arms.
It was as though two long lost worlds were colliding in an orbital explosion, Y/n’s arms were amorously locked around the apex of Kai’s neck, her lips drifting from his and teasing his neck with the outline of her teeth. They grew into fangs as Y/n found a pulse point, sinking her pointed canines into Kai’s veins, swallowing the blood that flowed into her mouth. He was thirsty to be within the hybrid whom he had missed for so long, his cock impatiently stirred against the flesh of her inner thigh, adamantly needing to be inside her. Y/n released Kai’s throat from her deadly, vampiric grip, with her lips stained red, and she lovingly admired him with heavy lids. “Fuck me Malachai, it’s been too long.” He agreed without word or hesitation, steadying her weight in his arms as he pushed his aching cock into his lover’s walls. They both exchanged relieved moans, discovering newfound ecstasy together with their heightened emotions and feelings. Her cunt hugged his length tightly, it’s vice grip bonding them together as their lips found each other again. Their tongues fought for dominance as they remained still for a moment, Kai’s feet that were planted on the floor supporting them.
“You’re so tight baby.” He huffed through his teeth, gasping down air that he didn’t know that he needed. Y/n’s back was pressed into the tiled wall of the large shower, her elegant head was timelessly craned backwards as she adjusted to the girth of Kai’s length. In her life after being separated from him, Y/n had continued her sex life with other partners, but none of them every fulfilled or satisfied her the way Kai had. The emotions that she had for the siphon were unique, it was the kind of love that she had been searching for within her over a thousand years of existence. He was thrilling and exciting for her, and she felt that same rush as Kai decided that it was time for him to move. He jarred his hips so that he almost pulled out of her walls that hugged his length to the point where all the blood in his body distanced itself from his head, only to push back into her warmth that provided him comfort like no other. Y/n enveloped his prime concentration, and the dark hauntings in his thoughts sunk to a distant place, allowing the heretic to enjoy something that wasn’t outright murder for a change.
“Oh my- holy fuck Malachai.” Y/n moaned as Kai fastened his pace and hit a particular spot in her depth that she had forgotten existed. Her fingers clawed at his shoulders, leaving crescent indents in their wake whilst her legs tightened around his waist. She used her position as leverage to buck against him, neither of them were going to last long, that much was evident. To finally be together in such a comprisable scenario after twenty years was taking a toll on their bodies’ performances, neither Kai nor Y/n were far from reaching their peaks. Kai’s thrusts began to become scattered in their coordination, Y/n’s heat clamped down on him as he reached his fingers down and stimulated her bundle of nerves, spiralling her orgasmic bliss over the edge, and Kai’s orgasm followed shortly after. He filled her centre to the brim with his load of cum as he panted heavily, resting his forehead against Y/n’s as he carefully set her down so that she was standing by herself.
No one but Kai had ever treated Y/n as though she was fragile, including her own siblings. To most she was just the monster of her mother’s creation, a creature that craved destruction, Damon and Stefan had even been adamant to call her in as a reinforcement. The Gemini coven had been petrified of her presence, and so they had contacted Klaus and informed him of Y/n’s location before they banished the siphon of their family to a modified realm that held no trace of life, except for his own. Kai was the only being that took the time to see past the lives that she had agonised and taken, discovering that she was the true victim of her own actions. She was stuck with multiple curses increasing her affective thirst for blood, and there was no cure designed to fix her into a human. And even if there was somewhere out there, Y/n would be the first to admit that she didn’t deserve it. But Kai wanted her to live with little to no regrets, nothing that she had done mattered to him, he just hoped that she never regretted him.
“I love you Y/n Mikaelson, I should have said it a long time ago.” He cradled her face as the water around them turned cold, her hands choosing to lay atop of his. “And I will never let anything happen to you again, I don’t care who I have to kill to make sure of it.” Kai felt like he was finally capable of protecting her, he had his own magic now and so much more. Those in Mystic Falls had decided to allow him to live, and he had found his retribution; it was to be better for Y/n. They had a second chance and he wasn’t going to let it get away from him. “I love you too Malachai, I just never had a moment to tell you. By the time I realised what you meant to me, my brother was already in Portland.” She reached her fingertips up to brush against the scruff on his face that she was unfamiliar with, but it was definitely something that she could get used to. She wasn’t going to live another day without him by her side, they’d already lost too much time together.
“I know we’re not exactly fans of Kai, but he’s definitely got game if he can get Y/n out of all the Mikaelsons, and hold her down.” Damon nodded, as Stefan rolled his eyes at his brother. It was a good thing that they’d decided against ending Kai’s life, Stefan thought, otherwise Y/n wouldn’t be their ally if she uncovered the truth - she’d be their enemy. And that was the last thing that they would have wanted, because no one, mortal or not, ever survived her wrath. She had a soul, a tainted one at that, but she never took that into consideration if someone angered her. They were long dead before she reached them.
Summary: Azriel and Reader have been mated for a long time but have yet to act on it. What happens when alone in a house together?
Warnings: Smut | Minors DNI | tender | loss of virginity | fingering | praise kink | creampie
A.Note: Sooo the original request asked for an Experienced!Reader but I was struggling writing a dynamic like that so here’s this, hopefully it’s okay. Also, Rhys and Reader are half-siblings!
6.2k word count.
The house was silent. A rare occurrence. Even when the three Illyrians weren't crowding it with their banter and heavy footsteps, Rhysand's mother's soft humming usually drifted from the kitchen, accompanied by the clatter of pots and pans. That noise, that life, filled every corner of our home, like a heartbeat.
But tonight, the silence felt heavier. My brother and Cassian were away on an overnight expedition to another war camp, and Rhysand's mother had been summoned to the Night Court by my father. It was just Azriel and me. Alone.
I had known Azriel was my mate since I was eight years old, the bond threading between us as easily as a ribbon slipping through fingers. I had accidentally accepted it when I was fifteen, too young to understand the weight of what I'd done. We'd made a pact soon after, two awkward teenagers fumbling to make sense of the unshakable connection between us. Friends could be soulmates, we told ourselves. We swore to keep the bond platonic, to navigate it without letting it define us.
But no matter how much I tried to ignore it, the bond shimmered between us like sunlight on a blade, sharp and undeniable. Azriel's protective nature—his tendency to linger closer than necessary, to bristle when someone dared flirt with me—had always been my undoing. And while he could command a room with a single glance, I had no doubt he saw me as nothing more than the sister of his closest friend.
It was why I'd spent the last seven years pulling away, trying to temper the ache that came from unrequited feelings. Even now, with all the years and distance between us, I didn't know how to act when it was just the two of us.
I didn't hear his footsteps. I never did. But his voice, soft and steady, broke the silence as I stirred the stew on the stove.
"Smells good."
I jumped, whirling to find Azriel leaning casually against the doorway, his hazel eyes glinting with quiet amusement.
"Gods," I exhaled, clutching the wooden spoon to my chest like a lifeline. "You have to stop sneaking up on me."
A smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth, a rare, fleeting thing that made my heart skip. "Can't help it," he replied, shrugging one broad shoulder. "Your reaction is worth it every time."
I rolled my eyes and turned back to the stove, determined to ignore the warmth creeping up my neck.
Azriel moved closer, his steps silent, until I could feel the faint heat of him behind me. He leaned in, just enough for his breath to brush the back of my neck as he peered over my shoulder.
"Stop looming," I muttered, swatting at him half-heartedly with the spoon.
He pulled back with a low chuckle, the sound curling in my chest and settling there, stubborn and unrelenting.
As he retreated to the sitting room, I focused on the stew, determined not to let my racing heart betray me. But even with his back turned, I could feel him—his gaze like a tether, steady and unyielding.
I hummed a tune under my breath, one my mother always sang while cooking. The melody was soft and familiar, a distraction from the weight of the quiet house and the man watching me from across the room.
By the time I ladled the stew into bowls, the tension in my chest had coiled tight. I turned, the bowls in hand, and froze.
Azriel was leaning back on the couch, his legs stretched out before him, wings draped lazily over the sides of the cushions. But his eyes were locked on me, dark and burning, as though he could see straight through me.
"Ready," I murmured, more to break the silence than anything, nudging a drawer closed with my hip as I grabbed two sets of silverware.
I set the bowls on the table and slid into my chair, pretending not to notice the way Azriel settled into the seat beside me instead of the one across. The scent of him—night-chilled mist and cedar—washed over me, and I busied myself arranging the utensils just to keep my hands from shaking.
He started eating without a word, and I followed suit, though each bite felt like a struggle under the weight of his presence.
It was almost odd watching him eat food I made, so reminiscent of how mates accept the bond. Even if the tether between us was always at the back of my mind, nights like these brought them front and center as if laid out on the table in front of me.
"Thank you," he said after a few minutes, his voice low. Almost shy.
I glanced at him, startled. "It's no bother," I replied quickly, brushing off the gratitude. "I know you've been training all day. You needed it."
Azriel tilted his head, studying me with a look that made my stomach flip. For a moment, I thought he might argue, but he only nodded and returned to his meal.
"I'll make you breakfast in the morning," he said finally, the promise simple but weighted.
I blinked at him, a small smile tugging at my lips despite myself. "Deal."
We ate in silence after that, though it wasn't uncomfortable. The sound of silverware against bowls filled the space, grounding us. But I couldn't ignore the way his gaze kept flicking toward me like he was holding back something he didn't know how to say.
Finally, I set my spoon down and looked at him directly. "What?"
His lips curved into a faint smirk, the kind that always made my pulse stutter. "Nothing."
"Az," I warned, dragging his name out like a thread.
His smirk deepened, but his eyes softened, the light in them catching like a spark in the dim kitchen. "I missed this. Just the two of us."
Heat crawled up my neck. "Is it so different than when Rhys and Cass are here?"
He shrugged, leaning back in his chair. "You tell me." He smirks. "You don't usually stare at me so much when they're around."
The words struck something deep, a soft ache I hadn't realized was there. I looked away, focusing on my bowl. "Maybe you just haven't been paying attention."
His wings shifted slightly, a rustle of leather against wood. "I always pay attention." The quiet conviction in his voice made me pause, my heart pounding so loudly I was sure he could hear it. "You seem so busy avoiding me that you don't realize how often I'm watching you."
I dared a glance at him, and the way he was looking at me—like I was something worth watching, worth knowing—stole the breath from my lungs. "Now you just sound obsessed with me," I replied, attempting to keep my tone light.
"And if I am?"
I quickly dropped my gaze, grabbing my spoon like it could anchor me. But the tension in the air didn't ease, and I knew—no matter how many years we'd spent pretending otherwise—that the bond was still there, pulling us closer with every passing moment. "Then I'd tell you to find someone else," I say, my pulse fluttering.
"No," he added casually, "you'd miss me if I wasn't here to keep you company."
I snorted, rolling my eyes to mask the sudden skipping in my chest. "You mean to annoy me, right?"
"Same thing." He grinned, his rare smile brightening his usually stoic face, dimples softening his features and making my stomach knot.
I shook my head, trying not to laugh as I resumed eating. "You're unbelievable."
"C'mon, admit it. You'd be so lonely in this house without me as entertainment." His voice was softer now, and when I glanced at him, his expression had shifted. The teasing was still there, but beneath it was something warm, something real.
I swallowed hard, the knot in my chest tightening again. "I hate to ruin your fantasy but you're not exactly a great source of entertainment."
"Do you want me to be?" he said, and the way his voice dipped sent a shiver down my spine.
We fell back into silence after that, but it wasn't the same quiet as before. This time, the air between us felt charged, every glance and shift of movement loaded with something unspoken.
As we finished our meal, Azriel leaned back in his chair, crossing his arms as he studied me. "So, what's for dessert?"
I scoffed at him. "Dessert?"
"Yes, dessert," he said, as though it were obvious. "You cooked dinner, so dessert is next. That's how it works, isn't it?"
I gave him a flat look. "You're awfully demanding for someone who just promised to make me breakfast."
"I like to think of it as balancing the scales," he replied smoothly. "Besides, I'm in the mood for something sweet."
The way he said it made my stomach flip, though I tried to keep my expression neutral. "Well, unless you're planning to bake something yourself, you're out of luck."
He sighed dramatically, resting his chin in his hand. "What a shame. Guess I'll have to settle for your company instead."
"Flattery will get you nowhere," I said, standing to clear the dishes, though I couldn't keep the grin off my face.
"Who said I was flattering you?" he called after me, his voice laced with amusement.
"You can clean up dinner then, I'm going to go read," I say with a taunting smile.
"So I can't have dessert or your company?" He argued as I began retreating down the hall.
"I'll be in my room if you need me, shadow singer."
"Yes, ma'am." But his tone was anything but obedient. I reached my door, and when I glanced back at him, his smirk was firmly in place, his gaze following me like one of his shadows. I entered my room and closed my door with a finalizing shut.
I leaned against the door, letting out a shaky breath. My chest felt tight, the warmth of Azriel's gaze still lingering on my skin. It was always like this with him—subtle, unspoken, charged. And yet, neither of us ever dared to cross that invisible line.
Until tonight, maybe.
The sound of dishes clinking in the kitchen echoed faintly through the house, proof that he had actually listened to me. I smirked to myself, shaking my head as I moved toward my bed.
I plucked my book from my nightstand, letting his gaze and words fizzle away, forcing myself to focus on the story in my hands.
It was hard not to think of him, he was technically a part of me after all. The tether between us was dusty and untouched, but somehow pulsing with life. I hadn't meant to, but I tugged on that bond, and the noise in the kitchen halted entirely.
Before I could weigh the fallout of my actions there was a knock on my door, soft and hesitant.
I slipped from the bed, still clutching my book just for something for my hands to do. I opened the door before I could second guess myself, revealing Azriel leaning against the frame of it. "You finished with the dishes already?" I say with a tilt of my head.
"No, I—you called me in here," He said with a crease in his brow.
"I didn't say anything?" I mutter.
"But you did, the bond," He attempts to explain and I cringe, hating to watch him fumble around this.
"I didn't mean to," I confess with a slight smile.
I stepped back instinctively, letting him into my room before the vulnerability of the moment could choke me. Azriel hesitated at the threshold, his broad frame nearly filling the doorway. His shadows coiled restlessly around his shoulders, mirroring the tension in his jaw. Finally, he stepped inside, closing the door behind him with a soft click.
"You didn't mean to," he echoed, his voice low, almost disbelieving.
I shook my head, gripping the book tighter. "I've been doing well, haven't I? Not tugging on it? Not pulling you into something you didn't ask for?"
Azriel's gaze snapped to mine, sharp and unyielding. "Something I didn't ask for?" His wings shifted slightly, the leather whispering in the quiet. "You think I don't feel it, too? That I haven't felt it every day since I was sixteen?"
I blinked, his words striking me like a lightning bolt. He took a step closer, and the air between us charged, crackling with everything we'd been avoiding for years. "You think you're the only one pretending this doesn't exist? That it doesn't rip me apart every time I'm near you?"
The rawness in his tone stole the breath from my lungs. "Az... I didn't know. You—" I swallowed hard. "You've always seemed so controlled, indifferent to it."
He let out a low, humorless laugh, the sound cutting through the room. "Because I had to be. Because if I wasn't, I'd—" He stopped himself, dragging a hand through his dark hair. His wings flared slightly as if he was fighting the urge to pace. "You have no idea what you've done to me. And when you pulled on the bond just now, well it's a shock I can even find words despite the aching in my heart."
My heart thundered in my chest, the bond between us humming, alive and insistent. "Azriel," I murmured, barely able to meet his gaze. "I didn't mean to—"
"Stop apologizing," he interrupted, stepping closer again, his hazel eyes burning into mine. "Don't you understand? I want you to pull on it. I want to feel you. To be near you."
My lips parted, but no words came out. He was so close now, his heat wrapping around me like a second skin. The scent of him—cedar and night-chilled mist—was intoxicating, pulling me under, but I was far from drowning.
"I thought you wanted me to ignore it, and I tried my best," he continued, his voice quieter now, trembling with restraint. "But then you went out of your way to keep your distance. And it drove me insane. Do you know how hard it is to love who doesn't feel the same?"
My breath hitched, his confession settling over me like a second bond. "You—what?"
He smiled faintly, but there was no humor in it. "Don't make me say it again."
My knees felt weak, my grip on the book tightening to keep from falling. "I thought..." I shook my head, a bitter laugh escaping me. "I thought you only tolerated me because of my brother."
Azriel's wings flared again, a sudden, restless movement. "Rhys has nothing to do with this. He never has."
I stared at him, my heart racing, my mind a whirlwind of confusion and hope. "Azriel," I whispered his name a prayer, a plea.
He reached for me then, his hand hesitating before brushing my cheek. His touch was warm, grounding, and the bond between us thrummed in response, a living thing that refused to be ignored.
"I'm done pretending," he murmured, his thumb tracing the line of my jaw. "If you don't want this that's fine, I'll distance myself. But if you do—"
I didn't let him finish. I dropped the book, my hands finding the soft material of his shirt as I yanked him closer, crashing my lips to his.
Azriel let out a surprised noise, a deep, guttural sound that sent heat pooling in my stomach. His wings flared wide, his shadows scattering as he kissed me back with a ferocity that stole my breath. His hands gripped my waist, pulling me flush against him, and I melted into his warmth, into the strength of him.
I gasped when his lips left mine, trailing down my jaw to the sensitive spot just below my ear. "Just us," he whispered the words sacred, a vow.
"Us," I breathed, threading my fingers into his hair, tugging gently. "Always."
He lifted me then, his hands firm on my thighs as he carried me to the bed. He laid me down gently, his body pressing against mine as he kissed me again, slower this time, reverent.
My hands roamed over him, tracing the hard planes of his chest, the ridges of his muscles. He shuddered under my touch, his wings trembling as they curled protectively around us.
"I've never—" he murmured against my lips, his voice ragged as I cut him off.
"Neither have I," I whispered, arching into him. "I trust you, Az."
Something in his eyes softened at that, the love and need in them so intense it made my chest ache. Then he kissed me again, and there was no more room for words.
Just us. Just this.
We were a fumbling mess, equally awkward as we were clueless. But I wouldn't have changed anything about it. Because I finally had him, his lips were on mine and his hands held me.
I wrapped my arms around the back of his neck, pulling at the back of his shirt, yanking it up, needing my hands on his bare skin. He pulled away from the kiss to get it over his head, discarding it on my bedroom floor.
His body hovered over mine, his wings curling inward like a shelter, cocooning us in a space where only we existed. My hands roamed the expanse of his bare chest, marveling at the strength there, the warmth that radiated from him. His muscles tensed and relaxed under my touch, a shiver rippling through him as my fingers explored.
He dipped his head, brushing his lips over mine again, this kiss softer, slower. "Are you sure?" he murmured, his voice a low rasp against my mouth. The vulnerability in his hazel eyes made my chest ache.
I cupped his face, smoothing my thumbs over his sharp cheekbones. "I've never been more sure of anything in my life." My voice trembled, but it carried the weight of truth. "It's always been you, Az."
Something in him broke at my words. His forehead dropped to mine, his breath shuddering as he let out a soft laugh, tinged with disbelief. "You have no idea how long I've wanted this."
"I think I've got some idea," I whispered, my hands slipping to the nape of his neck, tangling in his hair.
His lips found mine again, but this time, there was no hesitation, no restraint. His kiss deepened, his tongue brushing against mine as his hands began to explore, sliding down my sides, tentative but firm. Each touch sent a jolt of heat through me, my body arching into him instinctively.
When his hand skimmed under the hem of my nightgown, his fingers tracing the bare skin of my waist, I gasped against his lips. He stilled, pulling back just enough to meet my gaze. "Tell me if I—if you need me to stop," he said, his voice a strained whisper.
I shook my head, a soft smile tugging at my lips. "Don't stop. Please, Az."
He exhaled shakily, his hands more confident now as he lifted my nightgown. I helped him pull it off, and he paused to take me in, his gaze sweeping over me like a caress. "You're beautiful," he murmured, his voice filled with awe, as though he couldn't believe this moment was real. His fingers brushed over my collarbone, down to my ribs, and I trembled under his touch.
"You're allowed to touch me," I said softly, my cheeks warming under his intense gaze. "I want you to."
His shadows curled around my wrists, feather-light, as though they couldn't resist the temptation of me either. "You're, soft," he murmured, an uneasiness in his eyes that made me realize why he was so hesitant. I took his hand in mine, running my thumb over a scar.
"Touch me, Az." My voice was a breathless plea as I guided his scarred hand to my covered breast, craving the feel of him everywhere. His breath hitched, but the hesitation in his eyes melted away as his hands explored my sides, fingertips trailing heat over my waist. His thumbs brushed against the underside of my bra, and my breath faltered. He froze, his gaze meeting mine, searching for any sign of doubt.
When he found none, his lips tilted in a barely-there smile, reverence written across his features. He reached behind me, his fingers fumbling with the clasp, his brow furrowing in concentration. When the garment finally slipped free, I flushed, exposed under his gaze.
His wings trembled, his eyes darkening with barely restrained desire. "You're perfect," he whispered, the words soft, as though they were meant for no one but himself.
I swallowed, my heart thundering as I reached for him, pulling him down until our bodies met. The heat of his skin burned against mine, a delicious contrast that sent sparks through every nerve. His lips found my neck, pressing kisses along my skin that grew wetter and hotter as he made his way down. My head fell back as he trailed lower, his mouth closing over my breast.
A soft cry escaped me, my fingers tangling in his hair, tugging lightly. He froze, pulling back just enough to look at me, concern flickering across his features. "Did I hurt you?"
"No," I whispered, my voice shaky but insistent. "It—it feels good, Az."
Relief flooded his expression, and his lips curved into a small, teasing smirk. "Good," he murmured before returning to his task, his tongue flicking experimentally, his teeth grazing gently as he learned what made me gasp and arch into him.
My hands explored the expanse of his back, the muscles beneath his skin flexing and rippling under my touch. I dragged my fingers lower, to the base of his wings, earning a low groan from him that vibrated through my chest.
"You're sensitive there," I noted, a teasing lilt to my voice.
He let out a shaky laugh, his breath fanning across my skin. "You have no idea."
I grinned but left the spot alone for now, my hands sliding to his shoulders to pull him back up. Our lips met again, his tongue brushing against mine, tasting me, exploring me. His kiss was consuming, and I let myself sink into it, reveling in the way he took control, how he kissed as though he'd waited lifetimes for this.
I trailed my hands down his chest, my fingers mapping every ridge and dip of muscle until I reached the waistband of his pants. My hand slipped beneath the fabric, but his scarred fingers covered mine, halting my movements.
"Are you sure?" His voice was hoarse, his forehead pressed against mine, his breathing uneven.
"Yes," I murmured, one hand tugging gently on his hair to pull him closer. "I want all of you, Azriel. I've always wanted you."
His throat bobbed as he swallowed hard, the vulnerability in his eyes stealing my breath. "It'll hurt," he warned softly, his voice laced with worry.
"I know," I said, cupping his cheek with one hand, my thumb brushing over the sharp line of his jaw. "But every time after this will be perfect," I added, a quiet promise in my voice.
His eyes softened, a flicker of something unspoken passing between us. He exhaled deeply, a small smile tugging at the corner of his lips. "Every time after this," he echoed, his tone laced with awe.
Still, his hand didn't release mine. "We have to get you ready first," he said, his voice gentler now, the determination in his gaze sending a thrill through me.
My face burned, but I nodded, moving my hand to his shoulder and digging my nails into his back as he slid my panties down my thighs. The cool air kissed my heated skin, but it was nothing compared to the intensity of his touch.
He started slow, his fingers sliding through my folds, teasing, testing. My hips bucked involuntarily, seeking more, but he gripped my thigh with his free hand, holding me in place.
"Azriel," I breathed, his name leaving my lips like a prayer.
"Here?" His voice was dark, teasing, as his thumb circled my clit, sending a jolt of pleasure through me.
"Yes—there," I gasped, the words tumbling out before I could stop them.
I slapped a hand over my mouth, desperate to stifle the noises spilling from me, but his shadows coiled around my wrist, pulling my hand away and pinning it above my head.
"No, love," he murmured, his lips brushing the shell of my ear. "I'm done imagining what you sound like screaming my name." His breath ghosted over my skin as he pressed a kiss to my neck, finding the sensitive spot that made my body tremble. "Let me hear you," he uttered, his voice rough with desire.
A shaky exhale escaped me, and when he slipped a finger inside me, crossing a line that sent a burst of pleasure through my body, I did exactly as he'd imagined.
"Azriel," I moaned, my head tilting back into the pillows.
"That's my girl," he praised, the words making me clench around him.
His scarred fingers moved in a slow rhythm, in and out, each stroke deliberate, teasing. I could feel myself unraveling, the tension building in my core threatening to snap.
"I—I'm close," I whimpered, my voice barely audible.
"I know," he whispered against my neck, his teeth scraping over the sensitive skin.
His shadows tightened their hold, pinning me further into the mattress as he placed his thumb on my clit, circling it hard. His mouth returned to my breast, his tongue working in tandem with his fingers.
Pleasure surged through me, and I cried out his name again, my legs trembling as he pushed me closer to the edge.
"That's it," he murmured, his voice like velvet, thick with want. "Let go for me, love."
And I did.
The tension snapped, and I shattered beneath him, pleasure crashing over me in waves. My body arched into his touch, and his name spilled from my lips in a breathless chant. He slowed his movements, coaxing me through it, his lips pressing gentle kisses to my skin.
When I finally came down, my chest heaving, I opened my eyes to find him watching me, his expression raw, reverent.
"My girl," he murmured again, his voice thick with emotion.
I reached for him, pulling him down until his forehead pressed against mine. "Azriel," I whispered, my voice trembling. "I'm ready."
His jaw tightened, eyes flicking over me once more but he nodded. His eyes didn't leave mine as he removed his pants and everything beneath it.
He hovered above me, his chest rising and falling with measured breaths as he shed the last of his clothing. My gaze followed the lines of his body, drinking in the powerful, carved planes of him. Shadows danced across his golden skin, softening the hard edges, but nothing could diminish the raw, unyielding strength that he carried.
"I've waited for this," he said finally, his voice hoarse. "For you."
Emotion swelled in my chest, tangling with the heat that still coursed through me. I placed my hand over his, pressing his palm more firmly against my face. "Then take me, Azriel. I'm yours."
Something broke in him then, the raw vulnerability in his gaze giving way to a feral hunger. He lowered himself onto his elbows, caging me beneath him. His wings flared slightly, a protective shroud as his forehead pressed to mine.
"Tell me if it's too much," he murmured, his voice softening as his lips brushed mine. "I'll stop if you ask me to."
I nodded, unable to speak past the lump in my throat. He kissed me then, slow and tender, as though sealing a promise.
When he positioned himself at my entrance, his gaze found mine again. His wings quivered as he asked one last, silent question. I answered by wrapping my legs around his waist, pulling him closer.
The first press of him was exquisite—a stretch that burned but didn't break. My breath hitched, and Azriel froze, his hand gripping my hip as though anchoring himself.
"You alright?" he asked, his voice strained.
"Yes," I said, my hands finding the base of his wings, the sensitive area so soft beneath my touch. I stroked gently, hoping to soothe the tension coiling in his body. "Keep going."
He nodded, his jaw clenched as he eased into me, inch by torturous inch. My body adjusted to him, the burn fading into a fullness that made my breath catch. Azriel buried his face in the crook of my neck, his breath hot against my skin.
"Gods," he groaned, his voice breaking. "So fuckin' good."
I tightened my hold on him, my fingers slipping into his hair as I whispered, "Please, more."
He sunk in further, and once I was certain I couldn't take anymore he pushed in another inch. I moaned into his shoulder, relishing the burn of it, the pleasurable pain that sent me spiraling. Deeper, so deep. I lost words as he finally bottomed out, his hips meeting mine.
Tears shone in my eyes but I didn't tell him to stop, didn't want him to. It took me a moment to adjust, to so much as catch my breath. He lifted one of my legs up, shadows tethering it there, allowing the foreign stretch to lessen.
"Okay," I say shakily. "Mm, you can move." I nod, placing my hands on his shoulders.
He pressed a soft kiss to my forehead, telling me he was here if I wanted him to stop. Then, he began to move, slow and steady, his hips rolling in a rhythm that built a delicious friction between us. Each thrust was deliberate, controlled, as though he was determined to make me feel every moment of my very insides molding to him, fitting around him and only him.
The pain faded entirely, replaced by waves of pleasure that built with every movement. I moaned his name, my nails digging into his back as he drove deeper, his wings trembling on either side of us.
"Look at me," he rasped, lifting his head. His eyes burned, molten with desire and something deeper, something that made my heart ache. "I want to see you."
I met his gaze, unable to look away as he moved inside me, his name spilling from my lips like a prayer. The connection between us deepened, an unspoken bond that seemed to tighten with every thrust, every shared breath.
Azriel's hips maintained their slow, deliberate rhythm, each thrust sending a delicious ripple of heat through my body. His wings trembled above us, shadows curling and twisting around my raised leg, holding me in place. The stretch still burned faintly, but it was a sweet ache, one that was quickly drowned out by the mounting pleasure.
“You're so tight," Azriel groaned, his voice hoarse, breaking on the words. His hand came up to cradle my cheek, his thumb brushing over my lips. "So perfect for me."
I whimpered, my chest heaving as I struggled to keep my eyes locked on his. It was hard—gods, it was so hard when he was staring at me like that, his hazel gaze molten, filled with a hunger that set me ablaze.
"Az," I breathed, his name a plea I didn't fully understand myself.
"What do you need, love?" he rasped, lowering his forehead to mine. His breath mingled with mine, his lips brushing against my mouth but never pressing fully. "Tell me. I'll give you anything."
I couldn't find the words, so I arched into him, my nails dragging down his back, the feeling of his muscles tensing beneath my hands enough to make me shiver. He groaned low in his throat, his hips stuttering before he caught himself, slowing once again.
"Careful," he murmured, his lips ghosting over my jaw. "I don't want to hurt you."
"You're not," I managed, my voice trembling as his next thrust hit something deeper, sending a jolt of pleasure straight through me. I gasped, my fingers tightening in his hair.
Azriel's smirk was dark, dangerous. "There?"
I nodded, unable to do much more than whimper as he shifted his angle slightly, rolling his hips in a way that made my entire body arch off the mattress. The pleasure was overwhelming, a slow, torturous build that had me teetering on the edge without ever quite falling over. "Faster," I begged, needing him to abuse the spot.
He did as told, quickening his pace, learning what made me gasp, what made my nails bite into his skin. His shadows curled around me, their cool touch a stark contrast to the heat of our bodies. They skimmed my sides, my thighs, whispering over my skin like a lover's caress.
"So beautiful," Azriel murmured, his voice filled with reverence. He dipped his head, his lips brushing over my collarbone, then lower, until his mouth closed over my breast yet again.
I cried out, my back arching as his tongue flicked over my sensitive peak. He lavished attention on me, his hand coming up to knead the other breast, his thumb teasing the hardened peak.
"Azriel," I moaned, my hands roaming over his back, his shoulders, desperate to anchor myself as he continued his slow, torturous rhythm.
"Say it again," he demanded, his voice rough as he nipped at the delicate skin of my chest.
"Azriel," I whimpered, my voice breaking on his name.
He groaned, his hips snapping harder against mine. The sudden force sent a shockwave through me, pleasure and pain twining together until I couldn't tell where one ended and the other began.
"Good girl," he murmured, his lips trailing back up to my neck, finding that sensitive spot beneath my ear that made me shiver. "You take me so well."
I couldn't respond, couldn't think past the way he filled me, the way his body moved against mine. My free leg tightened around his waist, pulling him impossibly closer.
Azriel's pace quickened further, just slightly, enough to make my breath catch. His wings flared, the powerful appendages framing us, blocking out the world until there was nothing but him.
"Gods," he groaned, his voice breaking as he buried himself deeper, his hands gripping my hips so tightly I was sure there would be bruises. "You're going to ruin me, love."
I cupped his face, bringing his lips to mine in a searing kiss. He kissed me harder, his movements growing more desperate.
His pace grew more erratic, his hips snapping into mine with an urgency that sent waves of pleasure crashing through me. His ministrations worked me mercilessly, every thrust pushing me higher until I felt like I might break apart entirely.
"Azriel," I gasped, my voice trembling as my nails raked down his back, desperate to ground myself against the storm building inside me.
His lips brushed my ear, his breath hot and uneven. "Let go, love," he rasped. "I've got you."
His words were my undoing. The coil inside me snapped, and I shattered, my body arching off the bed as the pleasure tore through me. I cried out his name, gripping his shoulders as the waves rippled over me, again and again.
"Fuck," Azriel groaned, his thrusts faltering as my body clenched tightly around him. I felt him tremble above me, his restraint slipping with every broken sound that left his lips.
Through the haze of pleasure, I reached for his wings, running my fingers along the sensitive ridges where they flared above us. His reaction was immediate—a sharp intake of breath, his entire body shuddering.
"Gods," he ground out, his head dropping to my shoulder as I stroked the base of his wings, teasing the place I knew would unravel him completely. His hips snapped forward, deeper this time, and the broken groan that spilled from him sent another thrill through me.
"Az," I whispered, pulling him closer, my lips brushing his ear. "Inside.."
His head shot up, his molten gaze locking with mine as he searched my face. His jaw clenched, his restraint hanging by a thread as he rasped, "Are you sure?"
"Yes," I breathed, my fingers threading through his hair, pulling him down to me. "I want all of you, Azriel."
The last thread of his control snapped. With a low growl, he buried himself inside me to the hilt, his wings flaring wide as his release took him. His body tensed, a shuddering groan spilling from his lips as he gave me everything. I held him tightly, my hands stroking the base of his wings as he rode out his climax, his hips jerking with the aftershocks.
"Gods," he whispered hoarsely, his forehead pressing against mine as he struggled to catch his breath. "You're everything, love."
I smiled softly, brushing a strand of dark hair from his damp forehead. "And you're mine," I whispered, my voice steady despite the emotion swelling in my chest.
Azriel's lips found mine in a kiss so tender, so reverent, that it stole the breath from my lungs. He stayed inside me, his body pressed tightly to mine, as though he couldn't bear to let go just yet. And I didn't want him to.
Not now. Not ever.
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On my hands and knees begging adults to allow children to engage in risk play.
And by risk play I don't mean handing them a gun and playing Russian Roulette.
I mean like climbing trees, getting so sick spinning on the swing they throw up, balancing on the curb, sitting in the mud, walking on slippery surfaces, building half ass ramps to ride their bike over, standing on rocks, or anything that involves a smidgen of confidence and out of the box thinking that could result in injury.
Obviously like watch your kids and such, but when we talk about the fun of being an 80s or 90s kid, it's not just talking about CDs and Walkmans or not having iPads. It's about how kids today were robbed of critical learning and experience skills we were allowed to have.
Playgrounds disappearing, helicopter parents, and sue culture really destroyed a child's development in the United States, and I think it's about time we as adults recognize that, because the kids sure have.
You know what happens to kids who don't get to take reasonable risks? They never learn how to gauge safety or control their bodies in risky situations.
A kid who never climbs a tree becomes an adult who falls off a ladder because they don't intuitively know to keep 3 points of contact when climbing.
A kid who never skins their knees launching off a swingset becomes an adult who shatters an arm because they never learned how to break a fall.
Kids who are allowed to take risks become safer adults.
This crossed my dash again, so here's a more thorough list of things risk play is necessary for:
- Developing pain tolerance & an understanding of which types/intensities of pain are "okay" and which need immediate medical attention
- Calibrating the inner ear (sense of balance) and learning how the body reacts to experiencing different things, essential to learning to control the body in unexpected situations
- Developing reflexes and subconscious safety instincts (e.g. protectively throwing up your hands when an object flies toward your face)
- Normalizing getting hurt so the first reaction to an injury is just to treat it (and not to have a fearful emotional meltdown)
- Learning how to treat and heal from injuries (beginnings of self-care)
- Developing appropriate levels of fear around various activities, desensitizing fear around doing harmless things and establishing a fear response for actions that caused an injury. This is key to properly gauging risk in new situations.
Additionally, the reason it's so essential to mess around and get hurt as a kid is not just because it's a critical developmental stage, but also because kids' bodies are growing and naturally resistant to major injuries. A 3rd grader can get launched off a bike onto the pavement and only sustain a few scrapes and bruises that will heal in a few days, while someone who's 30 would likely pull or sprain something (or worse) and take weeks to heal.
If you are someone who grew up not being allowed to take risks it is likely you have a low pain tolerance, fear surrounding physical activities, slow reflexes, and poor judgment. The good thing is that it's never too late to learn! Our brains are very malleable, so if you missed out on this stuff as a kid now is the time to go climb a tree, go on a hike with unstable footing, or join a casual sports team. Just start small and work your way up, since your body won't be as resilient as it was when you were 9 :)
Thank you for starting it! This topic isn't discussed nearly enough despite how important it is so it was very exciting to see your post cross my dash :)
Triggering, lots of murder. Y/N is basically a psychopath/serial killer (I watch too much TV)
Unlikely Love
Klaus was attracted to her darkness.
The cold look in her eyes when someone said something she didn't like, it was like he knew she was something else.
Following her wasn't easy, she always seemed to know if someone was looking at her for any longer than five seconds, she'd caught his gaze too many times and she never looked impressed.
Still, Klaus had the advantage of being supernatural, his speed abilities made good use in hiding from her view.
Which was how he learnt that she was more a monster than he thought.
Seeing her plunge a blade straight down into a begging mans chest, her eyes finally full of life as if the kill made her thrive.
He shouldn't have been as turned on as he was.
Klaus often found human killers fascinating.
As a vampire, a creature of the night or a werewolf, it was instinctual to hunt and kill but a human?
Was it natural to routinely take life after life, brutally and uncaringly?
A vampire was scary because it was wired to need blood but a human like her was worse because she didn't need it, she wanted it and she liked it. Enjoyed it even.
He would watch her ritual often, she had a type.
Misogynistic men usually.
"A little ironic don't you think?" She'd ask her latest victim, blade in hand ready as her fingers stroked the steel. "A woman gave you life, and now a woman will take it away." Her tone was always mocking and amused, her smile deepening as the man was splutter false apologies and promises to be better if she let him live.
"I would but...gosh I'm just so emotional as a woman that I can't even control myself." She'd whisper dramatically, ignoring his change in mood and the vial curses he'd scream at her before the sharp pain would shock his body and mind into silence.
Klaus could see the peace wash over her at the quiet.
Something about seeing her splattered by blood, painted with her work, it was ethereal.
He loved it.
There was a certain thrill of guessing who she'd choose next, who was worthy of her wrath.
Sometimes he would fantasise her choosing him, restraining him and stabbing him with such a delicious force that he wouldn't be able to contain his moans.
Klaus had lost his mind years ago and so seeing her like this so young was peculiar, it had taken him centuries to enjoy the kill.
When it became apparent that he actually wanted her attention, he decided to make a move and invite her to his family ball.
He gave her a dress, the fabric as deep a red as the blood in his veins and tucked beneath the material was a gorgeous dagger, from him to her.
Klaus knew it would make her turn up.
He appeared behind her as she entered the building, his hand finding her hip and leading her further inside.
"I'm glad you came, my love." He confessed to her, she didn't yet look up at him but he didn't mind.
"What do you want?" She asked, not amused by his efforts.
"You." He told her, finally gaining the attention from her hollow eyes.
"I don't think you understand me as well as you think you do." She murmured to him, her voice low so others were oblivious to the conversation.
"I know what you are." He whispered back, his eyes eager and full of a desire she couldn't reciprocate.
"Then you should know that I will never care for you. Never be attracted to you. You could die now and it wouldn't effect me in the slightest." She concluded and he hummed, not really bothered by the fact.
"Doesn't make me want you less, my love. But don't worry, I won't force myself on you, I wouldn't want to be tied up and killed now would I?" He grinned and she narrowed her gaze.
"Something tells me that you very much would want that." She replied and he chuckled, knowing she was absolutely right.
"Dance with me, despite your lack of emotions, you might not hate it." He enticed and took her hand, guiding her along to the main floor where others already lifted and spun each other around effortlessly.
It wasn't long before Klaus had her in similar positions, hands holding her waist and twirling her around his home until a little smile crept onto her crimson lips.
Once the night came to an end and guests began filtering out, he brought her to his art room.
She ran her fingers over the tormented paintings of his mind.
Klaus was able to present death in a way that even non-broken people would find beautiful.
For Y/N there was no way to explain the tranquility that his art possessed.
She wasn't bothered by the paintings of her own naked skin drenched in blood, sprawled out in ways only his demented mind could fathom.
"I can't tell if you want to have sex with me or kill me." She told him and he laughed.
"Whichever you'd prefer, my love." He grinned and she shook her head.
"You should know that I'm not unfamiliar with what you are, nor am I unfamiliar with white oak." She informed and he hummed, knowing she was as smart as he if not more so.
"Should I start crying in the corner?" He teased and her eyes rolled.
"It's late, I need to be home." She announced as she tucked his art back into a folder and turned for the door.
"Your home, or a victims?" He questioned, following her out with a smile on his face.
"My home. Unfortunately I have to sleep, otherwise I'm a little sloppy which causes too many chances."
"Of course, well at least allow me to walk you if not drive you home." He offered and she accepted, knowing arguing would be pointless and so let the hybrid drive her home and let her slip away into her own darkness.
Klaus took entertainment in following her, letting her see him every now and then as if to purposely piss her off. She'd always glance to where he was after the tip of the dagger he'd gifted her was buried inside the man on her table.
She didn't understand his attraction to her, she wasn't sure if it made him worse than her or better for at least being able to have those feelings.
Y/N hadn't had sex before, it wasn't something she was interested in.
She didn't feel romantically for anybody and she barely liked anybody's company so the opportunity never came up so it was a little confusing when she had a very explicit dream of Klaus taking her roughly against the table that she usually killed people on.
It turned out that Klaus planted the dream, based off of his own fantasies and what he thought she might enjoy, he didn't realise she'd never even considered sex with anybody.
So she wasn't exactly impressed when he kissed her, hand holding the back of her neck and tongue running along her bottom lip.
She bit his tongue, hard, thinking he'd pull away but he only groaned and seemingly melted into her. Her eyes rolled and she kissed him back, tasting his blood and his tongue as her eyes remained open and looked at his closed ones. The way his lashes brushed the apples of his cheeks.
When his bright blue eyes fluttered open to look at her, he was a little started to see her dead ones staring back at his. He let his lips detach from hers and slid his hand round to her cheek.
"You don't feel anything at all, do you?" He whispered and she blinked, unsure of what to say because actually, in that split second of looking at him then, she did feel something.
"I guess not." She shrugged and he hummed.
"Was it unpleasant?" He asked.
"Not particularly." She told him and he nodded.
"So we could do it again?" He questioned and she shrugged again.
"I guess."
So they did.
Klaus would kiss her because he liked her, enjoyed her and it sated his own beast and Y/N would kiss him back because she wanted to see if she could feel that little spark again.
Klaus would chuckle when he saw her staring straight at him again.
"You're supposed to close your eyes, my love. Here, try it." He told her and pulled her back for another kiss and this time she took his advice and closed her eyes.
She felt that spark again, a flicker of warmth.
His hand brushed up along her thigh, fingers gently squeezing as his tongue wrapped around hers.
Klaus knew not to push it too far and so pulled away after a few minutes and wrapped his arm around her waist and listened to her soft sigh as their gazes drifted back to the dead body on the table across from them.
"I'm hungry." She mumbled and he suppressed a laugh.
"I'll buy you dinner." He told her and she shrugged, accepting his hand and going with him to the closest restaurant.
They became an interesting pair.
People assumed they were a regular couple.
Even his family knew they were together but couldn't exactly pinpoint what was 'wrong' with them but they could tell something was off.
Probably wouldn't have guessed power serial killing couple.
The type Love Quinn probably envisioned or Hannah Mckay.
It was definitely what Klaus envisioned anyway.
Especially when she was laid against his chest, in his bed, watching horror films with him.
His fingers had been lazily tracing patterns along her thighs, his head resting against hers.
Y/N's body reacted without her really realising.
Klaus only knew when the sweet scent of her arousal filled his nose.
His eyes focused a little more and his tongue darted to wet his lips.
Y/N was barely paying him any mind as he turned, his body pressing to her side so that his hard on was nudging her hip and thigh. His lips kissed her neck and she let him be, assuming he was in an affectionate mood like he seemed to get after a kill. She was more interested in the film than how the hyrbid humped at her leg.
It was only when he let out a groan that she snapped back into real time and looked down to see him grinding on her with his eyes shut and mouth open.
Y/N blinked blankly at him before hesitantly patting his back, trying to offer...anything to help him as he bucked his hips.
She thought that would be it but her touch seemed to encouraged him to slide his hand up between her legs, his fingers stroking over the fabric of her panties beneath the skirt he had bought her.
That was when she grabbed him, his cock specifically and not very kindly.
"Ah- Fuck!" He yelled and grabbed her throat roughly, pining her down as he shoved her hand off him and held himself between the legs, a breath of pain leaving his lips.
"What on earth was that for?" He growled at her and she glared, in a second he felt a sharp stab in his side and looked down to see the dagger lodged inside him.
His rage built as he stared back at her, he wanted to hurt her but there was this little flicker in her eyes. She didn't hurt him out of enjoyment, she did in defense.
He let go of her neck and moved to lay back down, letting her pull the blade out of him with a grunt as she slipped it back away out of sight. He wrapped his arm back around her and pulled her back to his side.
"Next time, just say you don't like it." He muttered and she scoffed.
"Why did you ever think that I would?" She snapped and he rolled his eyes.
"Sweetheart, I wouldn't have tried to touch your pretty little cunt if I couldn't smell her begging for me." He told her and her face flushed as she frowned and reached her hand down, touching herself with confusion and looking at the wetness that coated her fingers.
Klaus's eyes darted down to see the way they glistened, his heart thumping in his chest as he hesitantly lowered his head to lick them clean.
An inaudible sound left Y/N when he did so and he felt her fingers push further into his mouth, encouraging him to suck.
Slowly he pulled off her hand and looked up at her eyes. For once they weren't completely dead.
She finally kissed him first.
He pulled her onto his lap, giving her the advantage she needed and letting her be on top. But it wouldn't be enough. He realised that when her hands clutched his wrists tightly, nails dug into his skin until he could smell his own blood.
"Wait..." He mumbled and pulled his hands away, reaching down and unbuckling his belt, pulling it off and pushing the leather into her hands before holding his wrists together.
She glanced between his wrists, the belt and his eyes a few times before slowly tightening the belt around them, pulling it so that he couldn't move them at all.
He let her guide his arms over his head and to the headboard, keeping them there as she lifted her shirt over her head and unclasped her bra.
His jaw ticked at the sight of her firm breasts on display but he had no time to appreciate them as she removed her skirt and underwear, her soft pussy finally close to him.
His heart pounded but he stayed silent as she pulled his henley off and tugged his jeans down alongside his boxers.
She didn’t hardly look at his cock, not that interested in the sight of it.
Instead she just got herself on top of him like she had in the dream he'd given her and sunk down onto him.
Klaus groaned loudly whilst her face twisted in discomfort and uncertainty. She sat on him quietly for a moment before he came to and looked down.
"It's okay, just move your hips a little bit to start." He told her, voice softer then she'd heard it.
Her body moved like he'd suggested, her cunt getting the friction it had secretly desired for the longest time making her moan involuntarily. Klaus grinned, watching her get the hang of it and rock her hips until her eyes were fluttering and her back was arching.
"You like that, my love?" He whispered and she nodded, her nipples brushing his bare chest as she bounced on his lap.
"I want to touch you." He murmured, his fingers twitching but her head shook.
"No." She told him firmly and he moaned quietly at her tone and obeyed, adjusting his arms up above his head. There was something about her then, feeling her pussy squeezing so good and dripping so much as her tits pushed against him and her head was back. She was finally feeling something really good.
Whether it was emotional or just physical, she still loved the feel of it and of him.
So they did it again, and again and again.
All the time.
Klaus was convinced he'd died and gone to heaven.
Being able to kill people with approval, to have someone as crazy as he was and have mind-blowing sex 24/7?
He'd only wished he'd found her sooner.
Klaus started finding more people for her to kill, wanted to see her all bloody so he could lick it off her as he rutted his hips into her from behind.
The hybrid had developed intense feelings for Y/N, he cared for her truly. He started really loving her and showing it and she showed him similar things back.
They went on dates, they celebrated each other's birthdays and their one year anniversary.
She started to know him, give him things, tokens of appreciation.
She touched him, not always sexually but softly and gently as if she cared for him too.
But they weren't the same.
Klaus wasn't evil from young, she was.
He had deep routed feelings, she didn't.
He should have thought of that some more before falling in love.
Because when it came down to him or her, a dagger against her heart and the white oak against his...he loved her too much to kill her first.
Playing with fire's only gonna get you burned. Unless you're, like, into that kinda thing.
kai parker x reader
summary: things have been disappearing from your room lately, but never would you think kai is the one to blame.
tags: 1994 prison world, friends to lovers, snooping (it's very 'fuck around and find out'), mild argument, sexual tension, touch starved, kissing, touching, playful sex, teasing, fingering, vaginal sex, relatively mild smut, overstimulation, cuddling
word count: 5.5k
a/n: this fic is sponsored by wellbutrin... kidding. but that's the only reason i've actually been able to sit down and focus / write lately. this was requested eons ago, and with the greatest guilt, i'm just now posting it. also, i wrote it in a day. as in, today. i hope it's okay. <3
It started out innocently. A curious snoop in a big, almost-empty mansion, inhabited by two abandoned people left here by their families.
He hadn’t expected her to go digging around in his stuff, and she didn’t think he’d come home early. Both were wrong. And as the thin material slips from beneath her fingertips in shock, he gives her an indescribable look. His nails rap on the wood of the doorframe and she stands, speechless.
“Uh…”
“Hey, princess. Like what you see?”
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The Salvatore Boarding House is where you found him. You wandered for some time before running into him and finding his company relieving.
Of course, getting to trust Kai took some time. You found common ground in the fact that you both were hated by the Gemini Coven. Both had been sent here by them; Kai, sixteen years ago, you, only one, and both had been frowned upon by their families. But while you shared the same enemy, you were afraid for a while that Kai would be an enemy, too, considering what he did to be sent to the prison world. Apparently, as reported by his own tongue and the daily paper, he had slaughtered four of his siblings in an attempt to kill the youngest two. He didn’t feel much sorrow, nor regret, over his actions, and explained his methods of killing with a rather monotone voice. When asked if he’d kill you, he shrugged.
“No point in doing that, really. It’s not like you can die, anyway.”
And that was that.
For weeks, you feared him, but he got better as the days passed. Kai’s actually pretty funny and can cook well. And though you’ve never said it out loud, he’s pretty cute, too. Over time, your companionship turns into a friendship. You swap stories about your past and come to understand each other better. As cold as life has made him, you don’t think he wasn’t always that way. The more you grow to trust him, you start to see a side you’re not sure he’s even seen in himself for years. Sometimes you forget you’re all alone in a prison together, save for the fact you’re the only ones there. Sometimes, it doesn’t feel like a sentence for a punishment you both may or may not deserve.
But lately, something’s been off.
It’s not that anything’s changed about Kai, but more so that it just feels… different. The young witch is the same playful, unserious boy you’ve known for months, but a few times, you’ve caught a glimmer in his eye you can’t quite decipher. He’s a troublemaker for sure, and though you’ve never seen malicious behavior, your head is filling with questions if he’s capable of some other kind of behavior you haven’t considered.
Basically, things have been disappearing from your closet. Your favorite bracelets, a few lip balms, and clothes, even some you know you threw in the laundry bin. For a bit of time, you blame it on the same-day repeating thing. Maybe the gloss you stole from the department store has just been returned to its original spot to be sold. Maybe yesterday’s pair of underwear went back to the bottom of your drawer. Maybe the shirt you wore when you entered the prison world got swept through some portal back to the real world, because you hadn’t worn it here yet, so it must not be able to exist.
One morning, ruminating thoughts swirl in your mind as you try to mentally explain the disappearances. It’s a rather new thing - within the last few weeks - and nothing like this had happened in the first couple months you were still roaming the empty earth.
At the kitchen counter, you must seem lost in thought, because Kai shuffles a pancake off his spatula and onto your plate then nods. “What’s up?”
“My clothes are disappearing.”
“What?”
“Have you ever had that happen to you?”
“What do you mean?”
“Out of my room. I’ll toss a shirt in my hamper, and it’s gone. My favorite chapstick isn’t in my nightstand drawer anymore.”
“Weird.”
“You’ve never lost anything?”
“I mean… misplaced things, yeah. But I know I just put them somewhere where I can’t remember where I put them, y’know? Maybe that’s it.”
“Maybe.” You take a bite of the food and smile up at him. “Ooh, perfect! Thank you.”
He returns the smile with a wink that makes you shyly look down. You eat in a comfortable silence, omit the CD player beside you being just barely audible; Billie Joe Armstrong whispers uncharacteristically rather than shouting into your ear at nine in the morning.
He starts to speak again while gathering the dishes. “Hey, I need to take a quick trip to the store today, want to come?”
“Wait, why? We just went?” You ask, frowning.
“That house down the street had a cookbook I’m borrowing-” you chuckle at the word choice, “-and I’m gonna try one of the recipes in it, but we need, like, half the things in it.”
You think about it. Going grocery shopping with him is always an entertaining experience, but you were planning on flipping your room inside out to look for your stuff instead. The most recent thing to disappear was one of your favorite underwear sets, and if you don’t find it, it’ll drive you crazy. Explaining this, though, sounds ridiculous, so you make an excuse. With a shrug, “don’t really feel like being cold today.” Despite no one around to operate it, Bell’s refrigerator section stays cold.
“You have a jacket. Or you can borrow one.”
“You always take, like, ten years in there, and the cold seeps through eventually.”
He gives you a sassy look, but it’s true, so he knows he can’t really argue. “Alright.”
“Plus if you’re trying a new recipe, it’s going to take even longer for you to find everything you need. And then the recipe won’t have enough detail, so you’ll sit there for five minutes, debating if you should use brown sugar or light brown sugar.”
“Okay, you’ve made your point!” You smile in satisfaction. “I’ll go by myself. Won’t take more than an hour.”
“Two, maybe.”
He glares at you, but you only laugh. Kai, by now, is harmless to you. You can poke and prod him all you want and know he won’t hurt you. Maybe if his family put a little trust in him, they would’ve known that, too.
“I’m leaving in ten.”
“Okay. Be safe from any vortexes that could contain aliens coming to invade our planet.”
He stares at you, then gives a playful roll of his eyes. You laugh.
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It doesn’t make sense. You’ve flipped your room about a thousand times in the last hour and nothing, not a single one of your lost items have appeared. It’s actually driving you insane. On second thought, you might be going insane. You know internally that stuff doesn’t just disappear in this world. Some things might return to the way they were before - the Dookie album annoyingly starts at “Burnout” every morning that Kai presses play; the grocery store is always fully stocked, no matter how many bags of chips you take in a single day - but things don’t just get lost. The prison world has structure, in its own extremely aggravating way. If something’s missing, you lost it.
But you’ve flipped your room three times to no avail. If something’s missing, it must not be in your room at all. You sigh, sitting in the middle of your now-messy room, and think. It is possible that they got mixed up in the laundry with Kai’s stuff and neither of you noticed. Of course, that doesn’t account for your two missing chapsticks, but maybe those were in pockets that ended up in the laundry, too. You crinkle your nose at the thought. If that’s the case, that chapstick and the hoodie it’s in are definitely ruined.
With the new idea in your mind, you head to the laundry room to check it out. It’s a rather long walk down the hall and to your left, making you wonder, again, whose house - sorry, mansion - this is in the present day, and could they be living here now, in the real world? You and Kai have talked about it before, made bets on the residents’ identities and personalities. Kai thinks it’s the mayor’s, and that he’s some oldish rich guy with a trophy wife, who needed to live far away from his “village” to exude “dominance,” as if this were the middle ages. That, or a thousand year old witch who moved out here to never be bothered. You swear it’s vampires, but he always shakes his head, “that’s not a thing.” You think otherwise.
But regardless of who lives in the house, you can both agree it’s an insane amount of house for anyone. Though, neither can complain about the dungeon in the basement. It’s a nice touch. In fact, every house should have one.
The laundry room checks out to be clean. There’s not a single sign of anything missing or out of place, and by this point, you just feel like giving up. Maybe the laundry ate them in the way it always seems to eat one sock. Oh well, because the constant search is only stressing you out. You stand there bored for a moment while trying to think of something to do. You could read; the library downstairs must have a thousand different books. Or, you could snoop the mansion. Kai’s shown you tons of stuff he’s found over the years: diaries, letters, secrets. Whoever lived here has quite the story to tell, but those things aren’t always easily found. The letters had been hidden in books, and between closely stacked books, and the most telling diary he’s found was in the floorboard of the furthest room on the right. Surely there’s more that Kai hasn’t discovered yet.
You decide, then, that the best entertainment will be to snoop around the old Victorian home, because… why not? You can’t settle down enough to read, and when has anyone not had fun digging into other people’s business? After all, that’s what got you sent to the prison world in the first place.
A part of you is most curious about the dungeon, so you decide to start there when something in the corner of your eye makes you pause. A lock, uncharacteristically on Kai’s bedroom door. It’s odd, considering the openness between you two; you’ve never felt the need to hide things from each other, and you’re not sure when he started feeling differently. You stare at it, curious and a bit hurt, before inserting your nail into the hole on the bottom. Again, you ended up here by pissing off one Parker, what’s stopping you from egging on another? And what would Kai possibly do to you that would hurt you? Like you told yourself earlier, towards you, he’s completely harmless.
In a couple minutes’ time, you finally free the lock of its duty and push the door open. Inside, it looks normal. He’s always been clean and his room is no exception. You’ve seen it before, when he didn’t feel the need to put a suspicious lock on it, and it looks the same then as it does now. Still… that little weasel is hiding something, and you’ll be damned if you don’t at least peek. You step further inside, leaving the door wide open so you can hear if he comes back.
To your displeasure, a five minute search yields no secrets. You’ve looked under his bed, in his drawers, and everywhere else that’s definitely invading his privacy, but hey, you were under the impression that there was no privacy in the prison world. You start your way back to the door, but then open the closet you had previously ignored, just in case. It checks as normal, but then… up high, in the corner, sits a little box out of reach. And by out of reach, you mean even for Kai, who’s rather tall, meaning even he would need a stool to retrieve it. Curiosity quickly gets the better of you and you fetch the nearest stool to grab it. Something this well hidden must be fun. And who knows, maybe it’s the residents’ mystery box, and Kai doesn’t even know it’s there? At least, that’s what you tell yourself to excuse your nosiness.
Though, immediately upon opening it, that’s proven to definitely not be the case.
A whiff of perfume floods your nose the moment you take off the lid. It’s familiar, and warm, and quickly, you realize it’s yours. Then, your heart drops at the first thing inside - something he should not have, and frankly, shouldn’t even exist - which is a polaroid of you. Specifically, of you on your side, asleep, bare chested, with your comforter just barely covering your hips. Your spine is the main focus of the shot, but a little bit of your exposed breast shows. You drop it with a gasp. It flutters down and lands in a different place than where you had picked it up, revealing more. Each polaroid in the stack shows more and more of your body in every shot. Sometimes, your breasts are covered by a thin, lacy piece, but more often than not, your top is completely bare. Your comforter, luckily, stays at your hips, and the one or two times it slips further, you’re covered in your favorite floral set, but then you pause. That particular set disappeared a while ago, and now, you think you know why.
Dropping the polaroid, you remove all the photos from the box to reveal what’s hidden underneath, and oh, does it shock you. Instantly, you eye your favorite set, causing you to swallow hard. Your perfume’s also in the box, alongside all your missing items: your chapsticks, bracelets, and three more pieces of your clothes. That rat. He’s been taking your things the whole time! Then giving no more than a shrug when you bring it up. Kai has been sneaking into your room at night, taking pictures of you and stealing your things, then acting none the wiser in the day. You try to feel angry, but you’re more shocked than anything.
Hesitantly, you pick up a pair of your underwear, inspecting it as if you can’t believe it’s really there. You roll your eyes in disbelief as it slips off your finger, back down into the incriminating box.
A knock raps on the doorframe. You freeze; you hadn’t heard anyone come in.
“Hey, princess,” Kai says, standing there, “like what you see?”
Your mouth falls open, a thousand words rising up your throat, but none of them coming out. You were shocked before, but then his sudden entrance and his laidback reaction makes you angry, and when he stands there, waiting for your response, you only find yourself shocked again. Surprised, that he’s found you digging through your stuff, yet doesn’t seem to care.
That is, unless, the anger is bubbling underneath his fond smile. You know that Kai has an unpredictable edge to him. Sometimes, he’s quiet in his anger and lets it stew before exploding. You’ve only been on the receiving end of it once, ages ago, when you were still getting used to each others’ routines and you got too much in his way. You’ve seen it since then, but not directed at you: his father, mostly; his lack of magic; his misguidance about the world. But sometimes, oftentimes, he’s short in patience and snappy in reaction. He responds to disruption the same way his father does: suddenly, mercilessly. It’s all he knows, after all.
But the Kai standing in front of you now, watching you, is neither of those things. He doesn’t seem angry or agitated. Caught off guard, certainly, but while that look is interpreted through his eyes, a small smile counters it. You stare a bit longer. Amused is more like it. He’s amused by your reaction. By you finding your clothes in his room and having no idea how to react to it. Initially, his posture held some indignation, probably because you were going through his stuff and had picked the quite secure lock to do so, but any ill feeling dissipates at the look on your face you’re sure is amusing to him.
You try to replace your shocked look with a stern one. He only laughs.
“Want to tell me why my stuff is in a box in your room, which was locked, by the way, not sure if you’re aware. Since when do we lock our rooms, Kai?”
He looks surprised by your sudden snap. Good. Unfortunately, he recovers quickly.
“Want to tell me why you’re going through my stuff in the first place?”
You scoff. “I think the more pressing matter is the fact that you’ve been stealing my clothes! And- and- not only stealing, but look at this-” you toss a polaroid at him as if he hasn’t seen, taken, them himself- “how long have you been lurking in my room while I’m asleep?! Taking pictures of me sleeping? Not caring if I’m literally nude in half of them?!”
“I’d argue the nude ones are the best ones,” he says with a shrug.
You scoff again. “What would possess you to do this? Why are you taking my stuff?”
“Y’know, princess… What’s funny to me is that your questions are just questions.”
“What the hell does that mean?”
“You’re asking questions simply to know the answers. A playful curiosity. There’s no anger in your tone, no spite in your words.”
“Oh, I’m angry, Kai. I’m pretty fucking pissed off right now.”
He only chuckles. “Still not hearing it. See, I know anger. Anger’s my father, who has a harsh bark but a nastier bite. You, my angel,” he crouches down in front of you now, “have no bite.”
“Fuck you.” You push his shoulder. He barely sways, but you were kind of hoping to knock him over. You wait a moment, then try again.
Kai, though, easily predicts your actions and grabs your wrist as soon as it comes within his reach. He holds on with a tight grip and you almost lose your balance.
“Let go,” you grumble, raising your other fist. It only makes it halfway before he grabs that one, too. “Kai.” You struggle in his hands. “What the fuck? Let go of me.”
“Ah, ah.” He tilts his head to the side, a look that means nothing but trouble. “You were a bad girl to go through my stuff.”
“It’s my stuff, actually.”
“It became mine the minute it crossed the threshold of this house. You became mine.”
“What the fuck does that mean? This isn’t even your house!”
“But it is my prison world. Built for me when I committed a crime so heinous, they felt the need to lock me up. But you… what are you in here for? Stealing a book?”
“It was a grimoire, you fuck. Your father’s. So clearly my crime was equally heinous and they sent me here, too. The moment I got dropped here, this no longer became just your world.”
“You raise a good point. But still, I was here first. And I’m the oldest of my siblings, so I can tell you what to do.”
“You have a twin,” you counter, “who’s probably older than you by now, considering neither of us have aged, and you’ve been here sixteen years already. She’s probably… thirty-eight by now? Probably married, has some kids, a nice house.”
“Stop talking,” he snaps, tightening his grip on your wrists. They burn, but it doesn’t bother you. Egging him on is more fun. The tight cord of his control is breaking.
“I’m just saying. Oh, and your younger twins, the two you didn’t get to kill. They’re, uh, twenty, now, I think. I saw them, actually, when I broke into your father’s house. They’re both blonde, wherever that gene came from.”
“Y/N-”
“Jo wasn’t there. Not sure where she went. Probably does have a house somewhere. Somewhere far, far, away from fucking Portland. Good for her, that place is a shithole.”
His grip tightens, his body almost shaking with anger now. “Stop. Talking.”
“Or what? Are you gonna attack me?” You put on your best puppy eyes. “Show me your bite’s worse than your bark? Because I’m just proving to you that I can bite. Don’t like it, do you? Yeah, well, I didn’t like finding my lingerie in a box in your room, but I guess we all can’t get what we want.”
Whether it was your words or the sass in your tone, he finally breaks. With a sudden force, Kai pushes your fists into your own chest, knocking you to the floor. You gasp a little as your head hits the wood, but you have no time to dwell on it as he climbs on top of you, pinning your fists now over your head.
“You want to see me bite, is that it? Don’t think I have it in me because you’ve never seen it for yourself? I can be ruthless, Y/N, I can make you regret-” he pauses, jaw dropping as he realizes you’re giggling.
“Regret what?” You urge. “Were you saying something?”
“You’re playing with fire, Y/N.” His eyes are dark, but not in a way that scares you. Instead, his pupils are dilated so much they look dark. He stares into you desperately, gaze fighting between your lips and your neck, as if unsure where to attack first.
“And yet I’m just a girl, laying under a boy, asking to get burned.”
He doesn’t get the quote. It’s after his time. But the message is clear: you’re under him and you’re not fighting to get up; you provoked him enough just to send him off the edge; you were never really that mad about the pictures or the clothes.
He pauses. Okay, maybe you were a little mad about it. He did go out of his own way to creep across your boundaries. But still… had he not, you would’ve never ended up in this position. You should probably thank him for that.
You swallow, with difficulty because of the way you’re laying, and his eyes drop to the bob in your throat. He snaps out of a daze.
It happens before you know it, his lips on yours. He starts soft, waiting for you to reciprocate, and the moment you do, he gets rougher, more confident, as if this is something he’s always wanted, but he’s so unfamiliar with being able to touch, that he holds back at first.
You’re much less hesitant, though. You offer kindness to him through your words, but you’ve never touched him much, knowing how foreign it is to him. You’ve wanted to give in, to hug and hold him and kiss his cheek before you go to bed, but you were never sure how to bring it up. He’s guarded in his emotions. They’re there, but they’re locked away with a key you haven’t been able to pick. But this, maybe, is the first step.
You’re not sure when you stood up, or if he picked you up, but in a second, you’re off the wood and plopped down on his bed. The pillow beneath you smells like your perfume and you raise an eyebrow at him. He tilts his head again - no comment. He’s kissing you again before you can say anything, effectively distracting you from the whole thing. One hand props himself up over you, while the other lightly grasps your neck. Both of your hands are tangled in his hair, scratching and pulling gently. You break the kiss, out of breath, and he trails his lips down your neck instead. Your back arches instinctively, and a giggle escapes your throat at a sweet spot. In a matter of seconds, he sucks a bruise into your skin before moving down further. Your shirt, very much in the way, is pulled up and off, followed by your shorts. You copy the action, pulling his own off him and immediately letting your hands explore his chest. It’s only fair, you think, considering all the times he’s welcomed himself to the sight of your body.
Distracted, you miss him pulling off your underwear until they’re dangling on one finger in your face. You tilt her own head in confusion, then feel your jaw drop as he throws them in the box.
“Mine.” He winks.
“No! Kai-”
You’re cut off by your own moan, provoked by the feeling of his touch on your bare body. He smiles, clearly pleased with himself, and touches again.
“Those are mine,” you try to argue.
“Are they?”
With a new bite, you lunge forward and surprise him, bringing him pause. You take control for thirty seconds, unbuckling his belt and sliding off his jeans and boxers. A gasp escapes his throat, the cold air hitting his cold, now exposed body, in addition to you seeing him for the first time.
“These are mine then.” You toss his jeans on the floor, but keep his boxers like a prize in your hands.
His look is unimpressed. “You wish.” He tackles you easily, prying the material out of your hands to ball up and throw, laying you back down, crawling over your body, licking his lips, eyeing you like prey. It happens too fast for you to react, and before you know it, you’re forced back into submission, him dominating easily.
“Y’know, for someone not used to touch,” you pant, relishing in the feeling of his lips around your nipple, “you sure seem to know what you’re doing.”
“Instinct, baby.”
“Oh, really?”
He shuts up any further remark by meeting his body to yours, erect cock rubbing against your clit in a way that turns your brain to mush. “Yeah, really.” You don’t fight back this time. “So easy to please,” he mutters, his fingers moving to your clit at the feeling of precum rising up.
“Stop teasing,” you whine, growing desperate.
“Not teasing, princess. Just getting you ready.”
Pressure builds like a coil low in your stomach. You squirm, arching your back and shivering in pleasure, at the same time you mutter, “don’t stop.”
“Don’t move, then, baby.”
You try your hardest to listen, but it’s almost impossible with the way he’s touching you. The long fingers you’ve always admired rubbing in perfect circles. The lust in his eyes as he draws you closer and closer. The wetness on your thigh where his aching cock drips with its own need.
“Kai-” you cry for a second as he stops. He spits on your clit, then laps it up with his tongue, sucking now, while his fingers open you up below. “Fuck.”
“You okay, princess?”
“Mhm,” you nod weakly.
The coil’s so close to snapping. You won’t survive much longer, not with the way his tongue works so beautifully against the sensitive spot, and especially not when he looks up at you from his position, eyes still dark with lust, yet focused, as if this is the most important thing in the world.
“Kai-”
“Mhm?” He asks without detaching. The vibration that it causes is what finally breaks you. With an eager moan, you finally come, the force of it shaking your legs and core. Kai sucks you through it and only lets up when you start begging, “please, please, please, I can’t-”
He ceases, and immediately crashes his lips onto yours, letting you taste yourself in his mouth.
“You okay?” He asks between wet, open-mouthed kisses.
“Mhm.”
“Alright, good girl. Ready?”
“Please.”
Of course he can’t deny you when you ask so politely.
With a deep kiss, he distracts you enough to push in. You take him well until you’re almost full, gasping into his mouth and sinking into the mattress. You squirm a bit more, body reacting to the sudden intrusion, but settle around him soon enough.
“We’re good?”
“Good.”
“Let me know if you need to stop.”
He starts slowly, pulling out a little ways and pushing back in, kissing you sweetly as he does. But then as your body adjusts and clenches around him, he picks up the pace to an even speed. His mouth drops from your lips to your neck, sucking more bruises into your delicate skin. You keep your hands tangled in his hair, pulling, grasping, moaning more as the pressure starts to build again.
“Y’know,” you stutter, trying to speak as he thrusts. “Making me come once isn’t going to make up for you stealing my underwear.”
You can feel his smile grow against your skin. “Oh really?” He presses a kiss to your neck. “How about twice? Three times? Four?”
The color drains from your face at the thought of coming four times in one day. You really need to learn to stop challenging him. “I-”
“Yeah, four sounds good. Let’s try for that.”
He has slowed down a little to make conversation, but as soon as his mind is made, he picks his pace back up. His troublemaking smirk stares into you, waiting to see if you’ll challenge him again, then falls back on your neck once he sees he’s won.
In the end, Kai holds true to his promise and coaxes three more orgasms out of you before his hips stutter. He pulls out and releases on your stomach, panting hard. You lay beside each other, completely exhausted and overstimulated, until he finally drags you up and into the bathroom. In a way, you do win, because he dresses you in his own clothes - boxers and a hoodie - before pulling you downstairs with him. You’re still determined to get your clothes back somehow, but as your eyes flutter sleepily still, you decide to table that for another day.
That evening, when you settle down for your usual nightly movie, you find yourself laying against his chest with his arm around your waist. He seems more relaxed than you’ve ever seen him, and the noticeable difference makes you smile.
“If you wanted to touch me, you could’ve just asked,” you half-tease.
“Hm.”
“I like you, too, y’know.” He finally looks away from the tv, eyes dropping to you instead. “Way before all of this. I’ve had a crush on you for ages.”
“Why didn’t you say anything?”
“Fear of losing you?” You shrug. “Not only are we the only people here, but… you’re also the only person I’ve felt ever close to in my life. I didn’t want to do something that would make you uncomfortable, or make you hate me.”
“I could never hate you,” he admits. He presses a gentle kiss to your lips. “And I think I’m the one who crossed the ‘uncomfortable’ boundary.”
You laugh. “Yeah, you did. You crossed a very big boundary.” You tilt your head and run your tongue across your lips. “But… it doesn’t make me uncomfortable with you. Nor angry. Maybe in the moment, but certainly not now. Actually… it’s kinda hot, now that I think about it.”
Despite his passing nervousness, he can’t help but laugh. “I did say you’d be playing with fire.”
“Guess I should’ve headed the warning.”
You curl closer into him, adoring the way he responds so quickly, running a hand through your hair and dancing his fingers on your skin. It’s easier than ever to relax around him. Right now, this prison world feels like anything but a prison.
~~~~~~~~~~
In the night, you sneak into his room, polaroid in hand. It’s rather easy, the lock is gone now and his door is cracked open, practically inviting you in. You tiptoe up to his bed, focusing the camera on Kai’s shirtless form and snap a quick photo, snickering to yourself. But then, as the old machine whirrs in action, your target opens an eye. You back up, glancing between the boy in the bed and the door. He groans, laughing on the tail end of the tired sound.
“Whatcha doing?”
“Karma, baby.”
“Mhm, good try.” He eyes you in a way that sends a shiver up your spine. “Y’know… the way I got so many of you is because I was quiet.”
“Uh-” You look at the door again - big mistake. The moment your eyes are off him, his arms around your waist. “Ah, Kai!” You screech, head hitting his pillow for the second time that day.
He positions himself on top of you, practically sitting on you, and takes the camera from your hands. “Tip number one, snap the picture and leave before the camera starts to sputter.” He sets it on the nightstand. “Tip number two, stalk someone who’s a little less obsessed with you. That way, they might not be able to hear your every move.” Before you can reply, he’s kissing you again, with as much passion as he had only hours ago.
summary: you should've known wearing a short little skirt would rile him up. but then again... maybe you did it on purpose. (80s!kai) (step-brother!kai)
“You look cute,” a male voice comes up behind you, “where are you going?”
You turn abruptly to see Kai, watching you from the other side of the kitchen. His gaze travels up and down your body, but he’s clearly staring at your ass. It almost makes you drop the soapy dish you’re holding.
“Um, thank you.”
“Where are you going?” He repeats, eyes darkening.
“Nowhere.”
“Y/N-”
“I’m serious! I’m not going anywhere, I just felt like looking cute. Trust me, Kai. Do you ever see me leave this house?”
His jaw relaxes, knowing you’re telling the truth. “So you just felt like romping around in a short little skirt? Dad won’t be happy if he sees you in it.”
“Well Dad’s not here right now,” you point out. This is also true. Joshua was out for the weekend on coven duties. He won’t be back until late Monday.
“Mom won’t like it, either.”
“She’s never minded me wearing what I want. As long as it’s appropriate to wear around the kids.”
“She scolded Jo just last week for wearing jeans that were too tight.”
“Well this is a skirt.”
“I can see the bottom of your ass, Y/N.”
“Why are you looking at my ass, Kai?”
“Because you have it on display for me to see.”
“I do not! I’m just doing dishes and minding my own business!”
“You would get so busted for that skirt if Mom saw. Joey would be staring, too. You know he has a crush on you.”
“Are you jealous?”
“No.”
“Then stop talking about my skirt and just… go away.”
“I came to get a snack.”
“Then get it and go.”
Kai crosses the kitchen towards the fridge, and you finally think he’s dropped it. With his back turned, you bend down to put the plate in the dishwasher, then continue soaping up another. Little do you know that Kai’s watching you through the metal reflection of the fridge door. He licks his lips when your ass is on full display.
“Y’know this is my house,” he suddenly challenges.
You whip around to face him, annoyed. “So?!”
“You can’t boss me around in my own house.”
“Do you pay the bills? Yeah, I don’t think so.”
“I was here first. And I’m older than you.”
“Do you want an award?”
He eyes your figure again. “Are you offering?”
“Ugh! Stop it!”
“Oh don’t act like you don’t like the attention. Why else would you wear that pretty little piece in an empty house?”
“I didn’t feel like putting on pants.”
He chuckles. “Whatever you say, Y/N.”
You groan and turn back around, desperate to avoid his gaze any longer.
Kai’s not completely wrong, but you’re not exactly lying, either. Yes, it’s true that you didn’t want to put on pants. Yes… it’s also true that you wanted to gain attention from your step-brother. There, you finally said it. You do like his attention. It’s his fault, though. He’s always flirting with you, regardless if the rest of the family is home or not.
His eyes are always on you, at your back or front, whichever he can get. Countless times you’ve turned suddenly and caught him staring. A handful of those times, his own mother has tried to get his attention but struggled to pull it away from your breasts. His mother, of course, is none the wiser and assumes he’s daydreaming, but you know he’s not. He’ll smirk at you after, if he’s caught, and won’t let her believe anything scandalous was happening instead.
Kai’s also gotten physical with you more times than you can remember. He’ll slide past you in a crowded kitchen, hands in the air as he’s banned from touching anyone, but his groin will brush your ass as he slinks across the room. Twice, you’ve felt the outline of his cock in his jeans when he did it. Both times, your face got so hot you needed to step away from the situation.
He also has a habit of bumping into you. If you’re doing dishes or putting something away, he’ll suddenly appear, suddenly needing to do the same thing. Your shoulders or hips meet from his unexpected presence, and then he apologizes with a voice that does things to you. Either his morning voice, slightly rough, or his soft, midday voice, or the one heard at night, when he’s all talked out and dehydrated. Sometimes he’s close enough you can smell coffee on his breath, or mint, or even gin. Sometimes he lets his hand wander to the small of your back, or further down by your waist. When his family enters the room, he rips himself away from you. The bubbling warmth between you quickly goes cold and leaves you hungry.
“Y/N… Y/N… hello?!”
You blink twice, realizing Kai’s right next to you. A tupperware is in one hand, while the other waves in front of your face. “What?!”
“Jeez! Just asking if you wanted some of this.”
“What is it?”
“Leftover cake from Sarah’s birthday party. It’s chocolate,” he says the last part in a sing-songy voice.
“I know, I was there.”
“Do you want any?”
“No.”
“Awh, come on, Y/N… you know you do.”
“Fine. I’ll have a bite if you’re heating it up.”
His face breaks out into a grin and he mutters a celebratory, “yes!” to himself, then spins around to the microwave.
“Put it all on a plate and gimme the dish. What’s one more dish to wash?”
“Okay. And thanks for doing that.”
“Mhm.”
He leaves you alone while it warms. You turn slightly, wondering why he’s quiet, but see him on the other counter pouring two glasses of milk. You’re quick to face the sink again, not wanting him to see you looking at him.
“So why cake?” You question as the two-minute timer beeps. “Don’t you usually eat pretty healthy?”
Kai shrugs. “Usually. But one dessert was denied, so I was craving something to fill its place.”
“What the fuck was- oh.”
“I mean, I’ll have two if you change your mind.”
You look down, avoiding his stupid smirk.
“Kidding. Have a bite.”
Two minutes is the max time you get to eat in silence. After that, Kai swallows a big bite then looks back at you.
“In all seriousness, you do look really pretty.”
“Thank you,” you say, unsure how to take the compliment.
“Do you have a boyfriend?”
“What?”
“I’m just asking in case I have to kick someone’s ass! For like, brotherly reasons.”
You roll your eyes. “No, I do not have a boyfriend.”
“Good.” He’s then quick to follow with, “I mean, like, cause Dad would kick his ass, too. That, or turn him straight to dust. Poof! Did you know that Josette’s boyfriend had to go through three weeks of questioning just to take her on one date?”
“Yes, Kai, I was there. I’ve been living here for three years.”
“Right.”
“Did you see the time my brother got his ass beat for bugging me when I tried to eat?” You counter, challenging him.
“Joey?”
“No, dumbass, you.”
“Oh. Wait-” he puts his fork down as he realizes. “Sorry.”
You meant it as a joke, but his frown tells you he didn’t catch that.
“Hey, I’m gonna go back upstairs. If you need anything, just let me know.”
“Wait, Kai!” He doesn’t stop. “Kai!” You try again, reaching out to grab his arm.
He freezes, not used to such direct contact.
“I was joking, Kai,” you look in his eyes to say. “I promise. I really do like your company.”
“No you don’t, I bother you as much as I bother Jo.”
Your grip tightens. “No, you don’t. Kai, I’m serious. And I’m sorry. It went too far.”
Finally, he turns to you. “Honest?”
“Honest.”
“Pinky swear?”
You snort, then realize he’s serious. “Pinky swear.”
He grins at this, then slowly returns to the side opposite you, where he had been only seconds ago.
“As a matter of fact,” you continue, “you don’t bug me at all.”
He chuckles and looks at the floor. “I’m sure I bug you a little.”
“No, you really don’t.”
“What about earlier? That wasn’t annoying?”
Now or never to confess. You pick the former.
“Oh, no. I certainly do enjoy your attention. Even when it's on my ass.”
“Oh, do you now?”
You don’t answer. Instead, you bring your chocolatey fork up to your lips, licking the whole length, and sticking your tongue out to him. You keep eye contact with him, watching his cheeks flush bright red.
“Y/N…”
“What? We’re all alone… I’d be lying if I said I didn’t partially wear this little skirt for you.”
His adam’s apple bobs in his throat.
“Awh, what happened to the bold Kai I know that will rub his morning wood against my back in the middle of a crowded kitchen? Is he shy?” You tease.
“Y/N, you don’t know what you’re getting yourself into…”
“Oh, I think I do. Come on… I bet an afternoon hard is just as satisfying. Oh, but maybe we should wait a couple hours, for when I can literally taste the gin off your breath. Aw, nah, because then the window of opportunity will close. Jo will be home, and all those kids, and you’ll have to see your little brother blush at me without the pride of having owned me earlier in the day.”
“Y/N,” his voice is raspy. His hand ghosts over his pants, and when you follow the movement with your eyes, you see he’s rock hard.
“Come on, Kai… You want to be a good stepbrother and beat up my nonexistent boyfriend? Well be a better one and fuck me right now.”
He only hesitates for a second more before rushing forward, pressing your back up against the sink, and kissing you roughly. He grips the countertop with one hand, your waist with the other. The plate of chocolate crumbs clatters into the sink, piercing your ears, but neither of you care. Your hands find his cheeks to get a grip. You hold them gently, but they’re burning in your hands. He’s a good kisser, despite having no experience. Before you know it, you’re both out of breath.
“Kai,” you try to say his name, but it comes out in more of a moan. The two of you are separated, panting, and staring at the other.
“You okay?”
“Perfect.”
He smiles, then starts to trail kisses down your neck. Your hands find his hair and pull at the roots.
“Jump up,” he mutters. You do, and he catches your hips. He carries you to the other side of the counter, then sits you up on it. With gentle movements, he leans your back against the cabinet door. Had he sat you up by the sink, you would’ve had no support for your back. You give him a sloppy kiss as a thank you.
Kai smiles at you, but then instead of going back to your neck, he crouches just a little on his knees. As soon as you realize what he’s doing, you let out an involuntary whine. Your hands bunch up your skirt and he smirks.
“Smart girl.” He wastes no time pulling down your thong, then stuffing it in his back pocket. The cold air only hits your core for a second before his fingers find your clit, rubbing gently.
“Ohh, Kai,” you whine.
“That’s it, princess. Keep whining for me.”
You let out another, this time, between sealed lips.
Kai puts a finger in you without warning. “Louder, baby.”
“Kai, I can’t.”
“Oh, yes you can. No one else is here.” He puts in another.
You can feel the soft pads of his fingers on your walls. “More,” you whimper.
“Good girl,” he praises.
You squeeze your eyes shut as wetness gushes from your body. You’ve always had a praise kink, and he’s about to find out.
“You like that?”
You nod quickly.
“Well keep it up. Keep making those sweet little sounds for me.”
You nod again, eyes still closed. With your eyes shut, though, you have no warning when his nose is suddenly grazing your clit. As soon as it touches, though, you let out a loud moan, almost pornographic.
“Good girl,” he says again, hot breath up against your core. Then, it’s his tongue making contact with your clit. He teases the nub with the tip, then slides it between your folds.
Your hands dig in his hair and moans fly out of your mouth. “Kai!”
He doesn’t answer this time. All his focus is on you. Two fingers still explore inside, while his tongue laps up your wetness. Obscene slurping sounds fill the room, mixed with your own cries. Kai can’t even catch all of it with his tongue - some drips to the title floor with a loud splat, and you can feel the curvature of his lips against your skin.
The boy is an expert, despite probably being a virgin. He knows just how to flick his tongue; just how to curl his fingers.
“Kai, I’m coming,” you cry out, gripping the countertops. Your hands are sweaty and you almost slip. In an instant, his hands catch you, even the one that had been inside your heat. “No, don’t stop what you’re doing,” you mutter, eyes rolling in the back of your head.
“Sorry, princess,” he replies, putting them back. He then finds the pace he had before, and works to bring you back to the edge.
Moments later, your orgasm is the most powerful you’ve ever had. No other man, nor your own fingers have ever done justice to what he could do with his tongue. He sucks and finger-fucks you throughout your orgasm, paying no mind to the way you squeeze your legs around his head, nor the way you begin to ride his face as you come. Kai doesn’t let up until your legs are shaking, and your heavy moans become little whimpers. Only then, does he stand back up and smile at you.
“You okay?”
“Fuck, Kai.”
“Too much?”
“No. Never.”
“Too much for round two?”
“What?” You mutter, out of breath.
“We can stop if you’re tired.”
You fight to catch your breath, and in that time, happen to glance down. Your eyes go wide as you notice he’s pulled out his cock. Stiff as a board, red, and oozing with pre-cum, it rests in his hand.
“No, no stopping. Just… give me a minute.”
“We don’t have to, princess.”
“No, I want it. I want you.”
You then make an attempt to jump down from the countertop, but your arms are still shaky. He catches you in an instant, an eyebrow raised.
“Where are you going, little peach?”
A tired whimper escapes the back of your throat as you open your mouth to speak. Despite the grip he still has on both your arms, you manage to sink down to your knees. Halfway down, Kai realizes what’s happening and lets go.
“Aw, does my little bunny want to suck her stepbrother’s cock?” Kai takes himself in his hands and levels with your face. “You’re a good girl, you know that?”
You blush, and fight the urge to turn your face away.
“Eyes on me,” he says, seemingly knowing your thoughts.
You obey him, eyes bouncing between his face and his length. Your heart speeds up at the prospect of taking it. Of feeling it heavy in your mouth; feeling it hit the back of your throat.
“Can I?”
“Go ahead, princess.”
Your hands join his. Your eyes roll back in your head at how good it feels. When you look up to him, he nods, and you dart your tongue out to taste the pre-cum leaking from the tip. It’s thick, and salty, and if that’s just your first taste, you know you need to start working for more. You lick the head, swirling your tongue in circles. Your lips suck the first few inches.
“No more teasing.” He tries to be stern, but it comes out in a moan.
You then put a hand on his thigh for a better grip. The jeans underneath your skin are uncomfortable.
“Off,” you mutter, hands flying to his belt.
“Hm? Oh.”
But you’re faster than Kai. Before he can give you any help, you’re unbuckling the metal and peeling his pants down his legs. You’re sure to be careful at his cock, though, pulling it back through the zipper hole, then letting it free.
Kai steps out from the pool of his pants. “Better for you now?”
“Mhm,” you mumble, lips pressed on his length. The action sends vibrations all over and he can’t help but moan again.
Your hand on his thigh squeezes his skin enough that it’ll bruise under your fingernails. Kai only has a second to concentrate on this, though, because in the next second, you’re licking a stripe from his balls to his head. Your tongue is dense against a prominent vein, earning another sound from him. Kai’s hands dig into your hair. He fights the urge to buck his hips into your mouth.
“Y/N,” he warns. If you don’t stop teasing now, he’ll do just that.
Luckily, you catch onto his need. Your lips curl around his head, tongue flat, and you begin to move up and down on his length. You start slow, but as he gets wetter, your lips glide better. The hand holding him no longer has a use, the first time you take him all the way. It slips further back to tug on his balls, while his tip hits the back of your throat repeatedly.
Kai keeps his hands on you, buried in your hair, scratching your scalp. Profanities tumble from his lips; words that if his dad were to hear, he’d be beat for days. You smirk against his cock, knowing he can feel your lips curving.
“You’re a naughty little thing, peach. You like that?”
You respond by not losing pace, not slowing down for a second.
“Mhm,” he confirms, “what a good little slut you are. Taking her brother’s cock so well. Tell me, princess, is this something you think about at night? How many times have you touched yourself to the thought of this happening?”
Again, you don’t answer.
“One? Two? Three? More?”
Your hand on his balls travels up to squeeze his ass. The skin is soft between your fingers, and you quickly put your other hand on his other cheek.
“I’ll take that as more than three times,” he chuckles.
You pinch his cheek unexpectedly, making him jolt. His reaction makes you giggle. When you look up to see his reaction, there’s a smile on his face, too.
“You look beautiful on your knees for me,” he praises. But then his hands find your face and he slowly eases you off his cock. “So, so beautiful. But I’m getting close and I need to be inside you.”
You nod, wanting the same.
Kai then grabs you from under your armpits, helping you to your feet. When you’re stable, he hoists you back onto the countertop. Not a moment later, he’s kissing your lips, sore, and red from sucking. Then, at the same time that he hitches your skirt back up your thighs, he presses kisses all around your face. You giggle, his lips tingling your skin, and wrap your arms around his neck.
“Are you ready?” You shake your head ‘yes’. “Need a minute?” You shake it ‘no’. “Okay. Tell me if you need me to stop.”
“Okay.”
Kai holds your back steady. His cock is in his other, glistening with your spit; teased, and in need of release. He pushes into you slowly, letting you adjust. He keeps an eye on your face, watching for signs; hoping for pleasure, prepared for pain. Your eyes flutter as he passes your folds. Your mouth hangs open, spit dribbles from your bottom lip. The pair of you moan at once, both relishing in the feeling of his cock inside you. He smiles at the simultaneous sound of pleasure.
“Are you doing okay?”
“Mhm.”
“Words, please, princess.”
“Yes, Kai,” you manage.
“There you go. Good girl.”
“Go faster.”
“Already? Alright. Gotta give my good little slut what she wants.”
You duck your head in embarrassment. The way he switches between praise and degradation does something to you that you can’t explain. Your core is so sopping wet that he slides in and out painlessly. He pulls out nearly all the way, then slams back into you hurriedly.
“Ah, ah, eyes on me. I want to look into your pretty little eyes while I ruin you.”
You whine at his words and tighten your arms around his neck.
“Perfect. Keep making those sounds, Y/N. You know the drill by now.”
Kai finds a pace that suits you both. Sweat drips from his forehead and his mouth hangs open, out of breath, but he isn’t slowing down. You’re grateful that he’s holding your back, otherwise you would’ve fallen by now.
“Kai!” You cry, hooking your legs around his waist to bring him even closer. He groans, and you decide to feed into that dirty talk he seems to like. “You fuck me so well. You’re a perfect fit for my tight cunt - oh!”
As expected, he loves it. “You bet I am, princess. Have you ever had anyone else fuck you this well?”
“No! You know just what I need.”
“Not even that boy you went to prom with last year? I heard you telling Jo about your little after-party with him.”
“I just imagined he was you, Kai,” you admit. “And any hookup since, I just pretend it’s you fucking me into oblivion.”
Fire burns in his eyes. A possessiveness that tells you all you need to know - he owns you now. You’re his girl. There will be no more pretending, because he’ll be the only one fucking you.
Kai continues to pound into you, but he’s getting sloppier by the second. He’s close, and you are, too.
“I’m gonna come, Kai,” you pant, running a hand through his hair. It’s wet with his own sweat, and when you push it up, some of the strands stay.
“Do it. Come for me. I’m close behind you.”
Permission granted, you orgasm a second time. Your body shakes and moans tumble from your lips. His name is mixed in with them; you chant it over and over like a prayer.
“I don’t want to come in you, baby,” he manages to say. “Where should I-?”
You lift your shirt up over your head before he can finish his sentence. Kai’s eyes immediately go to your breasts, confined within your bra, but pushed up from the underwire. In the same moment he pulls out, you unclasp the hook on your back. Your tits bounce out from their cage just to be pelted with cum a moment later. You moan again, pleasured by the warmth of his seed on your body.
Kai’s hands fall to the countertop as he tries to keep himself upright. The sounds falling from his lips are obscene, and beautiful, and you love every one of them. His eyes roll before looking into yours. Both of you take a minute to recover.
“Your tits,” he finally says, still catching his breath, “are beautiful. Should’ve taken that bra off a long time ago.”
“There’s always a next time,” you suggest, hoping to see that glint in his eye.
The words take a moment to register in his brain. When he looks back up at you, though, you see it. The possessiveness; the mischievousness. You’ll never belong to another man again.
“Definitely a next time,” he repeats.
Satisfied with the answer, you feel a small tension in your jaw relax. You look down at your breasts, sticky with drying cum, and swipe a bit of the load on your finger. Kai watches you suck it off, then go back for more. Once your chest is clear, you smack your lips.
“You’re crazy, Y/N,” he leans forward and nips one of your tits. You giggle, then cover your front with your hands. Kai quickly grabs your hands, then sucks on the other tit. “That’s why I like you. Part of it, at least.” He drops your hands and looks you in the eye, completely serious.
“I like you, too, Kai.”
He helps you off the counter in his next stride. You’re smoothing out your skirt, and he pulls up his pants, when he suddenly asks, “was what you said true?”
“When?”
“About the prom. And the hookups. Do you really imagine me?”
“It’s the only way I can get off.”
His face breaks out in a stupidly happy grin. “Does Jo know?”
You snort. “I wish. But of course not. It’s my little secret.”
“Well now this is our little secret,” he points a finger between the two of you.
“That it is. And I just happen to be amazing at keeping secrets.” You throw him a wink, and then the two of you spend the rest of the afternoon talking, with the occasional break for a make-out session.
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