Wisper

[1belleame]

The feeling when you are sitting in the car and you don't want to move... you know that once you get out you all fall apart....

[1belleame]

The feeling when I can allow my mind to wonder absolutely anywhere I want. Definitely priceless. Only one freedom in the world full of control.

[1belleame]

Caffeine withdrawal- the joy... 🙄

[1belleame]

Rather than waking up to Alexa alarm, I have woken up to the first sentence that came out of my 6 year old son's mouth: " Mummy, do you know that tigers are cats?" Well, let's say I was extremely intrigued at 7. 40 in the morning. It is the answer to the question I always wanted to know so my son put me out of the "misery " of my sleep.

Very refreshing. I am sure Alexa cannot do that 😄

[1belleame]

It feels like Friday. Are you sure it's no Friday today? I think the whole world is mistaken as this feeling is real.

[1belleame]

I recently found books being extremely therapeutic. They have got that brilliant magic where you can escape your own worries and stress of everyday life and emerge into a completely different world- world of someone's imagination. World that is either more interesting than your own or much worse which makes you appreciate what you have got. Either way, it is a way of escape. Escape that is painless, easy and without consequences. I must admit- I love it.

[1belleame]

Do you know why I don't like rain? Because rain makes me feel cold, depressed and overpower me with the feeling of sadness.

Do you know why I do like rain? Because it makes me feel cosy, helps me to appreciate the privilege of having a roof above my head and the warmness of my bed.

[1belleame]

"People are so lonely, they spend their birthdays on the Internet, thanking people for wishing them a happy birthday, people who only know its their birthday because Facebook told them."

[1belleame]

It is nice to have that one special day in a year where you feeling the love coming from all these amazing people around you. They really want to make your day special and it really makes a difference. Maybe there is not many of them but that's ok, that is more than enough and I am greatful for that special little bunch. I could not ask for more. Thank you all.

[1belleame]

Have you ever forgot you children from a childcare? Well, I have today 🤦‍♀️

Simple exaplanation- children in the UK have way too much time off school! At times you completely forget that they actually have school to go to and you expect them to be at home 😆

[1belleame]

My amazing Sleep Cycle tells me that I have a wonderful quality sleep. Do you know what I say? BULLSHIT!

I feel like I haven't slept for 2 days and I look like I havent slept for 7 .....

[1belleame]

What is your first thing that comes up to your mind when you get up? Do you let your mind to relax or maybe allow the thoughts to enter sooner than you wish....

As soon as I open my eyes my brain activity kicks in however it does not seem to work for my advantage. It never does. I scan and investigate all situations I can approach throughout the day and what can possibly go wrong.... what a start of the day, eh?

[1belleame]

Sometimes I am wondering how it feels like to live without anxiety? How world and surrounding would look like without every single worry that I have.... I feel trapped in that vicious circle with a cage locked tight inside my chest and with my brain being slave to my own thoughts. It's such a powerful and overwhelming feeling.

Time has come to take control over my body, mind and soul and the work begins to have brighter future. Wish me good luck, I may need it.