why does the pain of losing someone hit you at random times? like your doing ok, then bam all you can think of is him. sad part is, I didn't even lose him all the way, he still texts me, very rarely but still. when we broke up it was because he didn't feel ready to be with anyone after everything is exes did to him, which I totally can't blame him. and I'm glad he was honest and wanted to protect me from being hurt. im not even mad at him, not at all. my heart craves him, I want our conversations back, I want to be around him again, I want that feeling back. I've only had this feeling one other time in my life and this time I refuse to let it go. he said he has feelings for me and misses me and wants to be with me but his past is holding him back, so I decided to do the one thing I've never done, which speaks to what my heart truly wants(him), I told him I would wait for him no matter how long it takes. that my heart is his and ill be there for him, give him the time he needs and be faithful to him. and I'm sticking true to my promise. you can't control what your heart wants and if you want it bad enough then you have patience and you support that person through thick and thin and you show them that by just being there, even if it means your silent for a little bit. most people would think he is using my being nice and understanding, but the fact that we still talk and he is showing that he is working on his issues and wants to be with me speaks more than anyone knows. if I could tell him one thing, this is what it would be: I love you. I love your quirks, your struggles, your passions, your honesty, your uncertainty, your compassion, your personality... you. I'd never take you for granted, never miss treat you, never use you, never let anyone hurt you again. you deserve to be treated with utmost respect, love, understanding, and loyalty. I just hope I get the opportunity to show you all of that.
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