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I fell asleep after putting on Gladiator..

Guess I took a nap.. something that usually helps me.

Something I desperately needed after this long, sleepless week.

I woke up crying.. ugly crying.. almost hyperventilating.

I used to only wake up crying like this over my mother.

Now I wake up over you like this...

browneyedz

The urge to delete everything and disappear is strong today

I feel fucking trapped

I feel fucking suffocated.

I feel overwhelmed

I never wanted to be at someone else's mercy like this and I was forced into this

I'll never trust myself or anyone again

This is it

Having people contact me now because of that status change it sickening. Especially after no sleep, because I was up all night trying to get that place emptied and semi cleaned in time to get out and get myself to work so I don't lose my job.

I'm so fucking tired and sick and hurt.

I just want to die at this point.

I'm so tired. Two nights I've been here past 2am trying to get shit packed/moved and clean this fucking place.

So much left behind and left a mess for me to take care of.

I'm so fucking hurt.

No help financially and no help with the place. And then to do that with our baby.

I'm fucking broken right now.

F

This isn't going to work.

I need a place to stay that's safe for me and my cats. I had no other options than this and it's not going to work.

I'm freaking the fuck out. I'm beyond fucking hurt and stressed.

I was left fucking homeless and in debt. I tried to make the best of this in a rush and it's not going to work.

This isn't going to work.

There's still so much more to do and I can't even get up today...

Fuck.

I'm destroyed after yesterday. That broke me.

fonesecks

thoughtkick

“I’ve lived too long with pain. I won’t know who I am without it.”

— Orson Scott Card

motojane

kosmogrl

I never thought I'd say that to you. I never want to say that. I wish I didn't. I'm just so appalled and hurt by how that went down. And how I'll never see you again. That was our last moments together and I was robbed of it. With our baby and you, I couldn't be given any time or respect.

I keep seeing that girls face, scoffing at me, smiling, making it like I was out of line for thinking we would have done this alone. For months all I saw was her smile on that phone and now in person, while I'm going through the worst time of my life. To be mocked like that. To be cornered, alone, pressured in that moment by the two of you.

I'll never forget these moments. This month. This day. It's ingrained in my mind.

You think I'm not alone, but I really am. I'm just forced into a situation I didn't ask for and you're mad at me for it.

faustique

unfortunately i’m a person who takes words very seriously, so yes i’ll remember every little things you've said about me, whether if it's good or bad, it will stay in my mind for a very long time.

kosmogrl

something in me knows where I’m going something in me knows where I’m going something in me knows where I’m going something in me knows where I’m going

There was NO reason for that cruelty today.

She didn't need to come in. That was intentional just to hurt me. This was about our baby. Her respect. And 5-10 minutes couldn't have been given. I begged three times. I was mocked by your "respectful" gf. I was met with callous disregard by you for even expecting this moment to be respected.

I'm fucking sick.

It's not bad enough I'm left with a disaster to still take care of/clean. A rent I can't pay back. Bills piling up.

My fucking soul hurts. My mind is in shambles. My heart is fucking broken.

And you couldn't care less. Because you could be meaner. Because this is all a kindness, a blessing, grace...

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