america’s most hated cinephile

kae | they/them | 21 | stupid lesbian | ♾ l future film professor | letterboxd: kaedoescinema

[21stcntrydyke]

when i was 10 i watched soooo many watchmojo horror movie videos that i developed an insanely strong fear of jigsaw……like from saw….. every night i would be terrified to go to bed bc i was convinced id wake up in a saw trap. in retrospect, fucking hilarious

[21stcntrydyke]

must be so fun to be able to reprogram things….like u pissed me off one too many times now all your roku remote buttons lead to tubi, asshole

[21stcntrydyke]

still thinking about how, after complaining about insurance related stuff to my mom, she told me "hey, just think about all the people who would be out of a job if the system DID work logically." and the fact that people can just say stuff like that without recognizing the level of reform we actually need is crazy. like - if a "properly" (in this scenario) working healthcare means that people lose jobs, then BOTH systems need fixed because neither work!!! if it doesn't benefit the people, then it straigh up doesn't work. i don't know, i just can't be satisfied with settling for a completely broken system so that others aren't victim to another equally broken system because, frankly, we NEED to be pissed off about this!!! okay rant over

[21stcntrydyke]

good afternoon to all the autistic people with big chunky headphones!!!!!!

[21stcntrydyke]

if i was willem dafoe, i’d buy a new house or smth every time robert eggers announced a new movie

[louisegluckpdf]

i wish i could teach fruit flies how to kill themselves

[louisegluckpdf]

[theconcealedweapon]

[nongunktional]

when i first heard about the male loneliness epidemic i was like oh yeah close camaraderie and bonding between men is often discouraged in favor of competition or, if not discouraged, at least filtered through a lens of individualism that precludes deep connections. and then i learned what people meant by it (men arent getting laid) to which i say skill issue

[21stcntrydyke]

burn on my finger from styling my wolfcut has me feeling nonbinary as hell

[21stcntrydyke]

ads during the trailer spot at the movies is one of the many signs of the fall of society

[21stcntrydyke]

i’m actually in a select group of people who can bump it to pink triangle by weezer because i’ve been the lesbian before sooooo

[talesfromthecrypts]

[21stcntrydyke]

maybe this was a lapse in my personal diabetes education but i feel like diabetes educators and endocrinologists just don’t bring up how menstruation affects your blood sugar. like insulin is a hormone, and i’m not a doctor but i feel like having other major hormonal changes probably screw with most of your hormones?? and i could be completely wrong and there’s actually nothing to this but it just makes me hmmmmm…..why aren’t we informing afab ppl of how this near universal process (menstruation) affects their chronic and deeply involved condition?? and if anyone has experienced this differently pls lmk bc i can’t be sure just based on my own experiences.

[21stcntrydyke]

in the canned vegetable aisle losing my sanity jack torrance style over butter beans

[21stcntrydyke]

let me tell you - you spill all of the juice from a rotisserie chicken in your friend’s car ONCE and you treat the chicken like a dangerous prisoner you’ve been charged with transporting for the rest of your damn LIFE

[21stcntrydyke]

not religious but if i was i think the devil would come to me in the form of my water heater working overtime in the 82 degree heat to make all slightly warm water scalding hot while i’m trying to deal with my ocd and autism colluding to produce the World’s Worst Crossover

[21stcntrydyke]

something that i’ve become really aware of since i moved out of my mom’s house and started paying my own bills and stuff is that some adults/parents really don’t give a shit about how stressed their kid is. like they always seem to underestimate it.

like when i was 16, i was going to school for 8 hours a day, either going to band practice for 2 hours then work for 4 hours or work for 6 hours. and when i got home i’d STILL have to do homework and eat and shower. sometimes i’d be up until like 12am or 1am just getting all my work done and then i’d have to wake up at 6am and do the whole thing over again. and on top of that, i had to deal with being a newly diagnosed diabetic. but, for some reason, that just did not even remotely compare to how much my family worked for some reason. and i’m not gonna act like they weren’t busting their asses either, because they absolutely were, but my stress was always portrayed as asinine. maybe that’s just my family, i don’t know.

but, honestly, i really don’t think it is. i think we’ve been taught to view teenagers as lazy, no matter how much they actually do. and it doesn’t help that most places that hire teenagers are jobs that are considered “menial” or “not a real job”. most jobs are real - the fact that some kid works at fuckin McDonald’s or something (a) doesn’t mean they’re lazy bc they quite literally don’t have the work experience to work anywhere else bc they’re fuckin 16 and (b) does not automatically make them stress free because it’s not some big fancy ‘important’ job. the fact of the matter is MOST IF NOT ALL JOBS ARE STRESSFUL, and these are kids who are also balancing school and social life (if their job even allows them one). however lowly people consider a job does not equate to it being less stressful.

i think it also comes down to how much these kids are actually making at their job because, from firsthand experience, it’s not a lot (esp bc i live in a state with $7.25 minimum wage). we have such a disgusting disrespect for people who work in lower paying jobs. so, when you combine that with the fact that adults don’t even consider their job a legitimate job despite them desperately trying to balance school, sports, job, and social life, it’s demeaning and it hurts!!

and the sad part is, most of these kids can’t quit their jobs, so that’s not even a valid excuse. how many kids are out there working to support their family? how many kids out there have family relying on them to bring in extra income? they still have to go to school more often than not. even if they don’t need to work to support their family, having money to do things is becoming a huge part of social bonding. not all families can afford to let their teenagers go out to the movies or go get dinner with friends all the time, even if they’re in an okay spot financially. so, if a teenager doesn’t have money for hanging out with their friends, they also experience exclusion. it’s a lose/lose!!

i don’t know if any of this made sense but it makes sense to me, and that’s what counts

peace and love <3