[2912]

[2912]

the moon is full and bright and i am missing my bf but he doesn’t want me anymore tonight my thoughts are louder than my surrounding

[2912]

h o m e s I c k

[2912]

[2912]

exactly a month from now

[2912]

maybe the problem is not him, but me.

[2912]

the past couple of weeks my floor has been scattered with the mess from all the paper cutting, and today the cut from the scissor i recklessly sliced myself has dried leaving a brownish wound on my thumb. the past couple of weeks my bed is stacked with papers of scribbling poems I put together and today the poem is finally done. the couple of weeks my search engine is filled with locations of bakeries from your town and today the pastry will just be left on the table to be finished by anyone who is hungry today. the couple of weeks ive been watching series of videos on how to fold the nicest ribbon and today the ribbon is on my headboard looking back at me. the past couple of weeks i was looking forward to today and it is finally here. today is my favourite day, not because it’s a holiday nor it’s on Wednesday your day off but because today is the day i am always filled with so much love and care to display.

another lap around the sun for you. happiest birthday to the person i love the most. to the person i spent my wishes to. to the person i stayed up at night waiting to be back home safely. to the person i talked most to God every night before i sleep. to the person I reach out first thing when i wake up from sleep. to the person i feel sick if i am unable to talk to because my heart misses you so much. to the person i am motivated to do well in life because i want to spend my life with. to the person that i save all of the places i wanna go eat with in my journal. to the person that worries me to death every time you feel under the weather.

you are the blossoming lithops cracked through stones in the mountains and you are the harsh waves slapping across the stiff seawall in the monsoon of January

i love you on all your good days and stand still on all your bad days. i choose you on your good days and continue choosing you on your bad days. i cherish you on your good days and would love to wipe your tears on your bad days. i wish to kiss your forehead on your good days and to hug your back on your bad days.

i have never given up on you on your good days and will never give up on you on your bad days.

[vangoghcore]

by a_guy_named_eric

[2912]

you're losing me

[soul-from-another-era]

Unconditional love isn't a free pass to hurt me.

[what-iz-life]

You deserve a calm relationship that's good for your mental health, heart, and nervous system. A lover who's your bestie, your safe space, and soothes your soul during stressful situations. Life is tough enough – you deserve someone who brings you peace, not problems.

[i-wrotethisforme]

There are people who will hurt you and there are people who will help you; people who will make you very happy and people who will make you cry; people who will change you for the better and people who will wreck your life. The problem is they all look the same at first.

[mournfulroses]

Trista Mateer, from "Aphrodite Made Me Do It," originally published in 2019

[minimalistquotes]

Don't make the mistake of being so understanding and forgiving that you overlook the fact that you're being disrespected.

[2912]

Silly Silly Little Girl

Silly Little Girl, Silly Silly Little Girl, forcing yourself to be important to someone, sacrificing your self-worth to show how much you mean to the world. Silly Little Girl, Silly Silly Little Girl, the same hand that starved to be held, is the same hand bleeding to dry on the toilet floor tonight Silly Little Girl, Silly Silly Little Girl, one day maybe you will get the flowers on the "just because" note, when the world has had enough of you. six feet deep with nobody around Silly Little Girl, Silly Silly Little Girl, you're a cheap piece of sex, only around because your body is something you can offer Silly Little Girl, Silly Silly Little Girl, next time awake at night waiting, just know you are waiting alone, for nothing. Silly Little Girl, Silly Silly Little Girl, the gleam in your eyes is dimmed, are you tired of the same thing happening? should have thought it sooner, when you're about to forgive, forget and fucked around. Now, you mean nothing to anyone. You're worthless, You think you did all that and people would stick around for you. Haven't you learned your lesson the first time around? Didn't you read the cautionary tales of how people don't change? Silly Little Girl, Silly Silly Little Girl, now you're on your own, hugging your own feet, silently crying yourself to sleep.

[2912]

i asked him if he hates me and he said i don't know and in that uncertainty there's loathe

[2912]

sometimes i wish im not born as your daughter, but your friend instead

so i get to know you, not just learn about you