Howls at the Moon

Whoever said small things don’t matter has never seen a match start a wildfire. -B. Taplin

[2amwildfire]

A September Dream

You came to me in my dreams last night

In a pool swimming towards me in plain sight

Your face was a blur taken from old memories and lies

But how could i not recognise those bright blue eyes?

Steam rose around our entwined bodies

shielding us from a strangers eye

our bodies fit like puzzle pieces

old feelings of lust I simply could not deny.

Whether you think of me i have no clue,

but somewhere deep deep down

i am afraid i might still long for you.

- ng

[2amwildfire]

Always present

His face was a blur,

and yet I knew it was him.

How could I not recognize

the navy collar-up jacket,

that I've once wanted to be in,

and his curly blonde hair

that I used to twirl my fingers through.

My eyes urge you to look my way,

to notice the way I so desperately want you

to tell me why it is

that I cannot have a dream without you present.

- ng

[2amwildfire]

Out of the blue

Sometimes I think of you

on a cloudy afternoon standing on the balcony,

one evening as I'm washing the dishes.

Yesterday I even dreamt of you

walking so close behind i could feel your breath,

your fingertips brushing the nape of my neck.

And there is nothing I can do,

but wonder why it is you appear at the forefront of my mind,

in the earliest hours of the morning, 

when I’m doing the most mundane things in the world.

I truly wonder why these cruel images,

are finally just 

coming up out of the blue.

- ng

[2amwildfire]

Sundays

I love the way

our bodies fit so effortlessly together,

like two pieces of the same puzzle,

on a rainy Sunday afternoon,

and I can no longer tell where my limbs start and yours ends

- ng

[2amwildfire]

Home

You know you've found it

When he steals a glance in your direction when he thinks you're not looking

When he holds your gaze and plants a kiss on the back of your hand

And when he pulls you back into bed at 7 each morning

Wanting to spend just a little while longer in your own little worlds

You know you've found it

Home.

- ng

[2amwildfire]

Waves

You led me down to the shore one late afternoon,

wrapping me in a tight embrace as the ocean rolls up and kiss our shivering feet,

your chin resting on my shoulder, teeth chattering,

You kiss my ear and whisper those magical words

and I knew in that moment,

with the rhythm of the waves and rolling of the clouds,

that I wanted nothing more in this world,

than to be in your arms for a lifetime.

- ng

[2amwildfire]

The right place

I feel like I’ve been running and running

at a thousand kilometers an hour

forgetting to check if i’m going in the right direction.

And when i reached the end, it was breathtaking

soft waves and clear turquoise waters. 

But sometimes it makes me wonder,

if this is where I’m suppose to stay,

or if it is just a pit stop on a long and winding road 

before my soul continues the search 

for a place to call home. 

- ng

[2amwildfire]

Fear

Sometimes I fear for my sanity

when I feel your strong grasp

around my waist, around my heart.

I don’t want to break free

despite fearing

that one day they’d leave bruises and scars.

- ng

[2amwildfire]

Moments

You look at me during the smallest and simplest moments, 

when i sip on my coffee or lie in bed beside you.

And in those moments, i wonder what is going through your head,

whether it is the same as mine as i watch you play the guitar or make me french toast for breakfast. 

Your eyes lock on mine as you pull me in, sealing our hearts and lips,

as if declaring nothing else could be more important than this moment

when our hearts beat in sync, 

and all we have is right here,

in this small, precious moment. 

- ng 

[2amwildfire]

Falling deep

You decorate my world with stars

The kind that twinkles even in the day

You kiss my imperfections and tear up my fears

As if declaring you are here to stay

So here I am looking into your eyes

Daring myself to leave my heart wide open

- ng

[2amwildfire]

At the mercy of love

It’s strange how desperately we search and grasp onto every fragment of love 

and yet in this day and age, nobody seems to know how to hold onto any of the pieces.

We wrap a piece of ourselves in a pretty bow, in hopes that they'd keep it tucked safe under their pillow,

but too often we find it tossed in the trash one late, drunk Saturday night,

and so we have this broken record on repeat and ruin ourselves over and over.

We inhale love like smoke, welcoming it into our lungs,

hoping it would plant flowers over tumors we’ve left from previous relationships.

It is like staring into the sun, knowing how damaging it would be 

yet intrigued to discover what would happen if we didn’t look away. 

- ng

[2amwildfire]

Before you go

You were the autumn chill that arrived at my doorstep one morning

and I couldn’t for the love of me figure out whether or not I wanted you to stay.

But now I don’t want to sweat into anybody else’s skin

and while I lie on your chest all I’m thinking about is how I’d hate to share you.

It terrifies me as I watch the vulnerability seep into my skin

fearing that at any second you might just tear me into a million pieces

But right at this moment

I want you to know that I’d give anything for you to stay.

- ng

[2amwildfire]

Denial

Nothing can ever compare

to the surge of hunger I felt when your mouth met mine

or to the rush of blood to my head when your fingers trace the curves of my body

or to the jolt of electricity up my spine when your lips graze down my skin.

And as our greedy eyes and hungry hearts explore every nook and cranny of our souls

I begin to wonder if there could possibly be anything more to this feeling that I refuse to call

                 _ _ _ _

- ng

[2amwildfire]

Lust

I blush at the way you undress me with those eyes, 

my head swims at the memories of these warm summer nights. 

It felt like just yesterday when we first met,

and a second ago when we first kissed. 

Now our limbs are tangled amongst wrinkled bedsheets,

our fiery hearts pounding like the Rolling Stones playing on repeat.

Let’s set our wild hearts free, let lust take over,

Leave love marks on hot skin, let tonight be forever.

- ng 

[2amwildfire]

...      and I’ll be yours.

     Water my wildflower spirit

       Cradle my lonely heart

        Feed my hungry mind

        Kiss my broken soul

               - ng

[2amwildfire]

Tangled

I’ve been going back and forth

between loving you and hating you

for so long

that the lines are now blurred and tangled

and I can no longer distinguish between the two.

- ng

[2amwildfire]

Delicate

Sitting in the afterglow of my presence, 

you close your eyes and pick up my shivering heart

letting it seep into yours.

But the second you open your eyes, it slips through your fingers like sand 

and no matter how tight you lock your fingers together

you lose me.

- ng