Personal Notes

-Anonymous

[2whomever]

People need to know the difference between “talking shit” and “you were being a complete asshole and I’m pointing it out how rude you were”. 

[2whomever]

I don’t think I’m ready to be happy.

[2whomever]

I’ve never realized how much music affects me.

It affects me a whole lot. 

[2whomever]

Advice to Both Sides

Don’t say it’s okay, cause it’s not okay.

When you say it’s okay, you’re justifying depression. No it’s not okay, it needs to change.

It’s not okay when you stop understanding what it feels like to be normal. 

It feels like torture when you’re okay one day but then you wake up at 4am remembering you’re not okay.

It’s not okay when you feel the need to pretend that everything’s okay.

Don’t say, “I understand.” tell them to change. 

Tell them there’s land unexplored and strangers you haven’t met

There are sunsets you haven’t seen. 

A friend from college explored the world and realized Chicago was his favorite sunset. 

No matter how many sunsets watched, he’s happy he decided to stay and watch the sunset in Chicago. 

Don’t cut your life shorter, life is already ridiculously short. 

Drop everything that creates sadness even if it’s hard, don’t hesitate there’s no true benefit by staying with sadness. Sadness will pull at your arm and caress your hair until you’re coaxed back in bed with it. 

Get out of bed, do anything anywhere. 

Pursue anything you love, even if it isn’t a big love. 

Drop everything and anything to find happiness.

You’re going to struggle and it’s going to be hard. Life is fucking rough, but you have to find something worth your while. You’re going to find it.

I haven’t found mine yet, but I’m searching. 

Isn’t our real purpose the pursuit of happiness?

[2whomever]

I’m afraid of being familiar. Being comfortable makes me scared, creating doubt. 

[2whomever]

God, I’m such a sad person. I wish people knew that though. 

[2whomever]

When I’m vulnerable towards someone, I feel like passing out.

[2whomever]

I wish for rain.

[2whomever]

I was almost raped 2 years ago. Almost.. so I don’t have an excuse for this emotional trauma, do I?

[2whomever]

I’m so lost right now. I just need to talk a walk and never come back. I need to escape somewhere. 

[2whomever]

I wish I could I just stand up and walk out of everything. Take my camera, my laptop, and travel with a bunch of amazing people. If only If I met those amazing people. I haven’t. I just want to travel for my entire life. 

[2whomever]

After college, you really wonder HOW you survived 8 hours of school 5 days a week. Also How the fuck did I wake up before 9am in high school? What magic did I use? 

[2whomever]

To help me quit harming myself, I would bite at my wrists.

[2whomever]

I'm so fucked up.

I don't think I can fall in love anymore.

I've been ruined.

[2whomever]

I want to let people know about my problems. I want someone to help me. When I try to speak, I'm speechless. The words are stuck at my throat. My therapist still thinks I just cut to cut. 

I'm not seeking attention, I just can't speak. 

[2whomever]

All my friends are even more beautiful than the last time I saw them. I'm getting fatter and uglier...

[2whomever]

Worst halloween ever...I got betrayed, fucked over, lost, and lied to in one night.