39 Weeks Later

It takes 9 months to make a new person... even if that person is yourself.

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Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.

Thomas Edison (via fyp-science)

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Day 2, Week 1

Motivation is hard. I’ve heard it said that discipline is more important then motivation, as motivation is fickle. Of course, relying on discipline when discipline is one of the very things you need to work n the most is an interesting request of oneself. In brainstorming how I will work on the abstract principles that I need to perfect over the next nine months figuring out how to manage this paradox is something I still am not sure on. More brainstorming needed. 

Little Scary Thing:  I told someone I loved something that I was nervous to tell them... something I was afraid that they would be disappointed with me over.

Little Victory: I stayed focused when I wanted to just give up on something.

Reflection: There is a difference between suffering a failure and being a failure. As long as you keep that in mind any setback can be overcome. 

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Month 1: Big Vibrant Thing

One of my approaches to this project is to do one things every month that is big, exciting, kinda scary, and challenging. Something that will make my life better, either practically or by increasing my level of fun.

This month my Big Vibrant Thing (BVT) is to ‘win’ NaNoWriMo. For the month of November I am going to try and finish the draft of a novel. 

I have wanted to write novels for years. I have so many stories to tell. But I have let myself be scared--scared that I am not a good enough writer, that I am not talented enough, that I am not smart enough. I have let myself not *be* a writer because I am afraid I wont be a good one. No more.

This might be shite. But guess what? As long as I write it, that doesn’t matter. You cannot build a castle out of nothing, but you can build it out of a pile of stone. Time to work on that pile!

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Day 1, Week 1

Today is the first day of this adventure. The calendar does not consider it an important or significant day (other then happening to be the first day of November), but it is the first day none the less. I don’t know that I will be writing a post every day, but I’d like to try and share something every day. 

This is the start of the making of the new me. Of the journey to the person who I want to be. I don’t dislike the person I am now, exactly. This journey is not build out of self hatred--that would be a hard place to start a journey from. Rather, as with most of us I have some things about myself that I like, and some things that I don’t, and some ways that I am not the person I wish I was. 

For a long time I have kept putting off making some changes that I want to make. Some of them are little, some are big. Some are fun, some are serious. But there is always a tomorrow, or a upcoming big holiday, or a new week that I can wait for. And so I don’t make the changes. And so the years pass and I look back and realize that I’ve been distracted by many small things. 

So this is a Tuesday. It isn’t a holiday, or a birthday, or a special day. Yet today I am starting. The making of a new person doesn’t start on schedule, it starts when it starts. So shall this. 

Little Scary Thing: I actually did two scary things today--I actually started this blog, and I made a phone call that made me nervous. 

Little Victory: went to to gym, even though it wasn’t for long, and even though it wasn’t what I reaaaally wanted to do. I still went. Huzzah!

Reflection: It is okay not to know for sure what you are doing. Actually doing it is what matters