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I think about where you are and if you’re safe. I pray to a god that he takes good care of you. Looking at your pictures on a weekly basis so that I can still say you make me smile and continue to bring joy to my life. I miss you so much.

Oh, my brittle Sun, show me where you are

You can tell me the things you want

You’ll never be too far

I want to forget but it’s so hard to do

When forgetting means give up the memory of you

I look into the lights and tell you I love you

Someday I will lose you to the stars and the Moon

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Someday I Will Lose You

Mat Kerekes

#Demelza #my brittle sun

They’d say we escaped

as an order of emergency

a last ditch effort

Not a fork but a left turn

straight out of our minds

and into your orbit

But i didn’t mind

No, don’t mind

Don’t mind

Now the cabin shakes

A drop of nerve

Drops off my brow

and onto your clutch

Holding mine

The heat creeping in

But you don’t mind

No, don’t mind

don’t mind

In a flash we’re gone

And in the high lit sky

we share an eternity

through dust

In systems we conform to

Around and around

Pray the winds

don’t wander me away

My ash with yours

Forever. Positively.

#writing

“Will anyone pine for my voice in the choir?”

Movements - Tunnel Vision

Be mine, shake up my love

Yellow night has had enough

It's been out way too long

I see nothing, but yellow love

Love, my love

Be mine

Pull me in two

I will mold myself just for you

The night is vivid for once

Still I see nothing, but yellow love

All I feel is celestial desire

A distant joy is dancing all around me

All I see is yellow in the spring air

How beautifully the color worked itself in

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Yellow Love by Citizen

sahind

Cockpit of the Millenium Falcon over the years

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Ive recently come across the collaboration between James Kirby and Ivan Seal -- aka the 6 albums known as the series "Everywhere At The End Of Time," and I am truly in awe at the beauty and devastation this art portrays. These 6 albums represent the deterioration of the mind and memory, and they convey the terrible effects of Alzheimer's and Dementia in a temporary way. It is not meant to be enjoyed the way traditional art is meant to be enjoyed. It is meant to cause discomfort, awe, and horrible lonliness. It truly is haunting and worth a listen. The album art portrays objects that almost look recognizable, but somehow arent, and youre left with that confusing feeling that prevents you from feeling at ease. Please, give it a listen.

You can outrun your problems for some time, but you can never escape them. Leave enough trees unwatered, the simplest spark can burn the whole forest down. Leave a fire unattended and it will eventually consume you. Running faster just delays the inevitable.

For three years I have been doing that. Thinking everything was a work in progress when all along I was becoming a worse version of myself. I’ve been taking the burns because I thought putting out the fires would elminate my chance at something new.