Nothing Is Real Here

thank you for existing!

[4amreflections]

Doesn't it happen to you that when you are with people you want to leave and lock yourself in an empty room, but at the same time you would like someone to notice that you are missing and come sit in silence with you?

[feral-ballad]

Tawanda Mulalu, from Please Make Me Pretty, I Don't Want to Die: Poems; “All we got was autumn. All we got was winter”

[4amreflections]

“the concept of omnipresence is just a structural cowardice, they say he is everywhere but nowhere accountable”

— 4amreflections, 'Black Bleeds White'

[kosmogrl]

[tenderlypressed]

[lelif]

on survival

-// @aridante // @orivu // @buzzkillgirls // ? // ? // richard siken// @cemeterything // moomin, tove jansson// @disenchanted-killjoy // isn't that enough, shawn mendes// @ prettytheyswag on twitter// @ coletyumuch on twitter// ? // ? // bird by bird, anne lamott// undertale// @strawberrycircuits

[4amreflections]

sadness is like a snowball rolling through snow, the more it rolls, the bigger it gets

[4amreflections]

i'd rather suffer in denial than living in peace with reality

[4amreflections]

sometimes i really feel like i'm a result of an experiment of what a person could become if he never followed the social lies of sophisticated world

[4amreflections]

sometimes i really feel like i'm a result of an experiment of what a person could become if he never followed the social lies of sophisticated world

[4amreflections]

flaws?

what flaws?

it's traces of a soul

written in silence

raised by chaos

alive and humanly

[4amreflections]

the concept of being the first tile in a domino effect of problems

[4amreflections]

i really want to scream FUCK YOU to the entire world.

[4amreflections]

Sometimes you think you’re perceptive enough to see through people so well, but deep inside you know that you can do it so easily because it exists within you too, it's like encountering fragments of YOURSELF.

It happens to me a lot.

[4amreflections]

World disguised as sacred ~

a gray hell with an established hierarchy

elitist faith wrapped in gold,

while rust creeps through treasure

business & power perpetuating wars,

pretending to be angles by fostering

messages of peace.

yellow journalism stained with blood,

whiteness shadowed by hidden stains,

pending judgments & confessions filed

away in some guarded corner

blind man leading blind world

laughing upon children with open eyes,

sheeps led by the wolves, envoys of sheol

people swear on their divine leader

while he cover sins manipulating puppets

crimes are censored, suspects wandering,

evidence miraculously vanishes.

religion ended up begging for mercy,

while devotees stand with stones in hand

lucifer crosses himself and

gags while temptation walks freely,

and mercy returns as cruelty

to the dispossessed.

dust you were, to dust you shall return

the glitter of jewels and crown will fade,

power, greed, and agony will be laid to rest.

-r.k.

[4amreflections]

Why do I suddenly disappear out of nowhere?

It’s the constant reminder that I give to people, that I can abandon you at any moment. It’s me telling everyone, indirectly, not to have any expectations from me; you’ll be disappointed very easily.

I have no one as permanent. You may think, “oh, I’m close to this person,” and snap… there you’re set aside like a page I’ve already read.

[4amreflections]

2024 was the last time i truly felt like myself. everything i do these days feels so unnatural. used to be so invisible and far away from people but last year's job switch fucked me up entirely. i totally lost my most treasured personality.