Go to sleep

a blog for the sadly many occasions that I abandon the aspects of reality and stay awake until 4am thinking stupid thoughts that I share; you can do this

[4amticks]

i just miss someone

they invite you to spend the night

to see a movie

to hang out

but you say no

you have plans

already set and waiting to go

waiting because the person you've set them with isn't here

they say they understand

but get frustrated when you say no

and you get frustrated when you say no

because you been through this

again and again and again

but you're waiting for someone Worth it this time

you're sure

you're kind of sure

you're hoping you're sure

you're praying to a god you don't believe in that you're sure

but you're loneliest when you want to be alone

and it's too much when they want more of you than you're willing to compromise

and you're stuck

and you're sad

and you're sure

//4amticks

[4amticks]

1am

it’s been a while I don’t know what to say I’m dealing with shit truing to wrap my head around it everyday

is a struggle you know looking at the people who know learning how to say no learning when to lay low

the world stops and you shift once immovable, now never stiff

constant moving and changing never in one place held together by enduring your fate

it’s war not a battle a struggle not a fight being branded like cattle being hearded towards the ‘light’

what is the light if not a common misconception? words strung together by deathly deception

buying into runing out being pushed onto a faith you could have lived without

Deaths deception…. get it//4amticks

[renaissancesuggestion]

play a lute

get a tit out

maybe even two

[4am-reflections]

His eyes are the colour of that perfect cup of coffee, right after you pour the milk in and it swirls around turning the softest shade of brown. I look in his eyes and I get that same warm feeling that I have drinking that cup of coffee. Suddenly the best part of my mornings has become the best part of my day.

4am (via 4am-reflections)

[4amticks]

2:03am

and like a watermelon's, your sweet nector dribbled down my chin reminding me of summer nights of Sun heated skin but most importantly, of you

nector//4amticks

[just-six]

I hope there’s guacamole in hell.

six word story // yesweareallfucked (via just-six)

[4amticks]

3:40am

do you ever just feel your stomach drop; vision gets blurry; blood feels thicker than it should in your tiny veins. as you look down you feel the pressure increase, you can’t explain it. you don’t want to, it’d just be too much. you hold it against your skin already feeling the rush of adrenalin. you know its not ‘right’ or ‘healthy’ but it only takes the brain three days to adapt…and you’ve been suffering for years.

three days//4amticks

[4amticks]

1:14pm

I inhale deep. I’m not the one who made you angry yet you hate me regardless. Guard less, thats what my heart was. it wants to love you; I’m merely a friend, I can’t do what she can. That doesn’t means I wont beat myself up because I’ll never be her, it only mean I’ll take a deep breath when I’m on the verge of tears as you tell me you love her and I smile because you’re happy and thats what matters.

she smiles//4amticks

[4amticks]

2:53am

Tears are like crystals…not because they are clear but because they take years to be seen as beautiful; hopefully one day I’ll look back and realize that happy tears and sad tears come from the same place. Me.

crystals//4amticks

[4amticks]

1:31am

I’m so talented right Is that why you dont look at me when I read you the most raw and emotional me Is that why you dont put up any fight When I accuse you of things we both know to be true but are too tired to say We’re too tired to say it because we say it every day in our own suble way

You’re no better than the rest You cast me aside yet say with all of you might How you are doing your best

How you care what happens but only when it suits you Bullshit How about I lose you

bullshit//4amticks

[4amticks]

5:02am

Me at the Grand Canyon: Thats rad *finger pistols*

My dad: *face palms*

Rad//4amticks

[4amticks]

6:08am

I love you this I know by the tremble in my knees, the flush on my face, and the acceleration in my brain. My stomach has more that just butterflies but they’re all dancing for you I’m sure.

Dancing//4amticks

[4amticks]

1:25am

I don’t want you to kiss me like the world is ending I want you to kiss me like we’re the ones creating the world.

Kiss//4amticks

[4amticks]

2:21am

“A picture is worth a thousand words” You were worth atleast a thousand and one.

A thousand and one//4amticks

[4amticks]

5:08am

For some reason the tears wont fall I hug my body tight and wish for some one to help I am drowning on the inside I am tired of just trying to keep my head above the water We have tired as a society to accept that not everyone is okay But what if I told that I am apart of that everyone

I don’t need you to fix my life It was shitty before you came into it You cant ruin what is already broken And you cant fix what is already in the prosses of mending You did however stop my heart with your butterfly kisses Gave me chills with your freckled blush

But you are not the oxygen You were nearly the carbon dioxide that, Like a flower, I needed to be able to grow

Butterfly kisses//4amticks

[4amticks]

5:02am

“You need to find your happy place.”

‘No. I need to find your off button.’

Place//4amticks

[4amticks]

6am

But I’m not trying to rebel. I’m trying to fit in.

Puzzleing//4amticks