- Momo-4evA -

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The fragrance of you still linger in my mind......

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Yes, I lied!!!!!

[4evameimei]

Momo

Everytime I think about it, it’s only u I want. But it’s really hard right now for me. I don’t care about apple. I don’t care about anything except you. You r my one and only motivation to go on. I just don’t know, why I met you. Why it’s you. I could hav anyone. But it’s u I want. Pls be patient. Don’t get disheartened. I want you with me all the way.

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Confused

I’m so confused right now. I wish I can tell you exactly what is bothering me. I want you, I really do. But I don’t know if I’m prepared for you. I don’t understand this myself. I hate when u talk about Apple I hate it so much. If u want her so bad go be with her and leave me. I will leave u. I hate it when u gave her that mix. It’s our mix. It’s not to be shared. I don’t like to share this. It’s enough I accepted her. But what u gave me is wats mine. It’s special between u and me. And u made it so like it’s not important. She liked it. Wat about me and my feelings. U made me don’t wanna listen to deep house music ever again. Do u realized that? U didn’t tell me about camfrog, that she change her id. U made me don’t wanna be in the same room as both of u. And I don’t care, I don’t wanna be part of ur fantasy. I live in reality. I don’t wanna be looking at each other on cam. It’s stupid. 7 years u r together. Why r u still looking on cam.

BTW, don’t say I’m ur dog. I’m not ur dog. I will not let u treat me like that. I don’t worship u like that. I do things for u, let u do things to me. But I’m not ur dog.

Taking a break, wtf is that. Why r u suggesting such an idea? Where r ur reassurance for me. I’m not used to this. I’m not used to people not wanting me. Anyway, I know what I need to do. Just shut my mouth to u and it will be ok.

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13.05.18

When people ask how we met. I tell people that we have the best story ever. You are a DJ online. I visit the room you played whenever you are DJ’ing. I was in there all the time. At home, at work, at my friends house, every opportunity I get if u r online i’m there. I’m your biggest fan. Till one day you talk to me. From that day onwards we talk everyday. We arrange to meet in Thailand. Our relationship grew stronger. Then I visit you in Egypt. We spend 1 month together. I think we are meant to be with each other. Your girlfriend of 7 years, doesn’t even have an opportunity to meet u in the 7 years that u r together. But we met only after 3 months. U spent 4 days with her. U spent 6 weeks with me all together.

What is meant to be, wil be. This is destiny, I know. U may not love me yet, but one day you will. I may not admit that I love you. But deep down I know how I feel.

It doesn’t really matter, what we call this relationship. You are my momo always.

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My momo

My momo is so cute. There’s no one like him. I wish he knows how much I adore him.

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23.03.18

Is there anywhere in this social media of millions of people that would lead you to my blog to read my thoughts about you.

I’m ready to give up. It’s like I don’t exist. I am now ready to give up.

While I have so many people wanting me but I don’t allow myself to be open to them.

I only want you. I only want you. I’m suffering silently. I’m crying dry tears. And you don’t even know abou it.

How can I go to you? I’m vulnerable, I’m going to be vulnerable. I don’t hink I can handle this. I don’t think I can pretend to be ok. I don’t want to go now.

I want you to disappear from me just like what you are doing now.

Cause, gradually...I will learn to not to depend on you.

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28.02.18

The last day of summer in Australia. I don’t know what to say, except I really miss you. But, I can’t do much cause I have no right to. I often feel too much. Think too much. Care too much. I am tired.

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24.02.18

Memories of us and my time with you ❤️❤️❤️

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24.02.18

You told me she found out about me about us. I’m actually glad that she did. And don’t get me wrong, I’m not actually proud of myself. After all, u had her name on ur phone as my wife. 😔.

The thing is.....I have already given up. But u came to me. 😔

I’m sad right now. This shouldn’t have happened.

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23.02.18

Momo, you take me to a place where no one else can. You are my destiny.

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I swear I love u in a different way

Momo, why r u doing this to me. U hav been silent. If u r keeping silent how we can achieve what we set out to do. I know at the end I won’t get what I wanted, but at least you will get what you need. I’m tired of only to be the enthusiastic one.

I’m don’t want to push you. I don’t want to be in your face. Coz, I know you don’t want that.

I really can do anything for you. But I know, you don’t want that either. I don’t want you to resent me. I can’t stand it, if you do.

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My momo

19.02.17

I hated this feeling. I miss u. I miss our talks. We talk all day all night on any subjects without any hold backs. its like I’m free to talk to u about how I feel without u judging me. Today my friend tell me something about my arms. Saying that, that the skin will be hanging still if they just take the fat out. So no point in doing it. I kept quite, cause I realized she never happy about anything. And she always say whatever she thinks. If I argue with here, we would end up fighting. And I didn’t want to fight. I’m tired of fighting with her. She doesn’t realized this of course. She also doesn’t realized that for me, coming down from 27” circumference to 15” circumstances is a huge improvement. Let alone that the doctor could have damaged the nerves inside my arm when they did the liposuction. I tried not to get upset about this and let it go. It’s just not worth it. She can’t change, so I have to be the one to change.

I wish I can tell you about this, but I also realized that you also have things to do and don’t always have time for me. I’m crying like I always do when I’m upset and can’t do anything about it.

I miss you Momo. It is so hard like this. I know I’m not the one for you. But every time I see ur msg or ur pic or even ur name come up on my phone, I can’t stop this feeling. I really want the best for you and give u want u need. I don’t think u even know deep my feelings are for you.

😔😔😘

[4evameimei]

And now I miss u like crazy #mymomo

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My Momo

10.02.18

#8ME

There is a place in my heart for you. I knew there is nothing I can do to make you want me the same way I wanted you. And I’m happy just be in my corner. To be there when u need me. When u ready to take on the world. I really mean every word I say to you. I am so lucky that you choose to be with me even if it’s a short period of time. I will never forget this moment between us. I had fun. We both had fun. It was the best time. I have never felt so calm and relax. And free. To say anything to talk about anything and everything. I really don’t want anything from you. I just want you to be happy. At the end, u knew. At the end, you realized. I am real and I am true. U hold my hands, u put ur arm around my waist. U kissed me on the cheeks. You put ur arm over my shoulder. I am in heaven at that point. I wanted to make sure you r comfortable. To make sure you are look after. I do it because I want to. I want you to feel good. I wanted you to be happy.