The Forever Alone Widows Club

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Jealous - Alec Lightwood

A/N - Been busy with life but I’m back baby :D Hope this is everything you wanted and more <3

T/W - Adult themes, sexual assault

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“Come on Y/N! Keep up!” Your best friend Alec was stood in front of you, sweat glinting off his athletic form, a cheeky smirk on his face. You may have a slight crush on him but you weren’t gonna let him know that.

“I’m comin’, I’m comin’. We can’t all be half-angel fitness buffs.” You knew you looked a mess, sweat on Alec looked hot, sweat on you made you look like a lumpy dumpling. Alec tried unsuccessfully to hide the smile that lit up his face.

The two of you were climbing to your secret treehouse. It was just outside of the city. It wasn’t really a treehouse, just a giant tree with a hole in it. Together, you had decked the hole out with blankets and pillows. Whenever things got too hectic at the Institute the two of you would escape to your hideout. 

Everyone had told you how Alec normally never mixed with mundanes but when you’d met him a year ago, after meeting him through Simon, he had been enamoured with your, what he called “sparky-ness”. He found Clary’s attitude grating but on you, he found it adorable. 

When you finally reached your little safe space, you stopped to catch your breath before laying out the picnic you’d packed at home. The two of you spent the next few hours just talking and laughing about anything and everything. 

The conversation turned to the topic of dating when an attractive runner gave Alec a suggestive up-down look. You joked about Alec ignoring them, suggesting that maybe he knew he didn’t have enough game. 

“I have more than enough game Sparky! You’re the one who hasn’t been on a single date since we met!”

You knew that it was true but you weren’t about to tell him that it was because he’d had your heart the moment you laid eyes on him.

“Yeah, well Simon set me up with one of the guys from Magnus’ apartment block, I’m going out with him tonight once we get back!”

You hadn’t meant to tell Alec unless things got serious but at that moment you wanted to make him jealous.

“We better not stick around here then, pack up and I’ll take you back so you can get ready.”

This was not the response you expected. You didn’t know what you expected but it definitely wasn’t acceptance. It almost felt like he was rushing to get you on this date. You watched as he started packing up the blanket and leftovers, your chest felt tight and your stomach dropped. 

“Yeah, I guess.” You sighed as you got up and dusted yourself off.

The walk back to the Institute was awkward, you didn’t know what to do, things had never been awkward. Several times you opened your mouth to talk but nothing seemed appropriate. Out of the corner of your eye, you saw Alec do the same thing. Clary was waiting outside, a glint in her eye, obviously Simon had told her about your up-coming date. 

“A little birdy told me that you’re going out tonight!” She ran up and started dragging you inside. “Alec you can drop that stuff inside, I’m going to go get this goddess all dolled up.”

Alec just grunted in acknowledgement before sulking off to the kitchen. You turned to follow Clary, knowing that if you weren’t careful you’d end up tripping while she pulled you further inside. As you both entered your room, there was Isabelle, make-up brushes at the ready. You had helped both these girls get ready for dates in the past and now they were going to help you.

Despite being with two of your closest friends, you couldn’t muster any excitement as they offered different outfit choices. You saw Isabelle giving you a look, you’d never told her or Clary about your crush but you suspected they already knew. 

“Alright, sit on the bed.” You did as you were told. Clary climbed on behind you and started brushing and playing with your hair. “What’s wrong? Only this morning you were grinning away about this date and now it feels like we’re dressing you for your execution.”

Silence seemed like the only option. How could you explain that you were upset over her brother? Upset over a boy who you had no romantic connection with. It sounded stupid, even in your own head. Logic and reasoning was normally your strong suit. The hurt you were feeling was not logical. 

“It’s Alec isn’t it?” You couldn’t meet her intense gaze but you nodded none-the-less, there was no point trying to lie to Isabelle. “That idiot! What did he say? If he was mean to you, I swear I will beat him from here to London.”

You started to cry, prompting both girls to wrap their arms around you, both muttering about the unthinkable things they were going to do to Alec.

“No, no. It’s not that.” You managed to splutter out in between sniffs. “If anything, he was nice about it.”

Isabelle and Clary both looked very confused but didn’t say anything. Clary just continued to stroke your hair while Isabelle held your hands. You explained what had happened at the picnic, how you had wanted to make him jealous, how stupid and hurt you felt when he seemed indifferently accepting. As you talked Clary continued braiding your hair and was just tying it up by the time you’d finished rambling. Isabelle just looked thoughtful, nodding every so often to let you know that she was listening. There was a beat of silence while Isabelle decided what to say.

“Alec is my brother, but you are my friend, Y/N. I will not let the fact that he is my brother affect my advice. In all honesty, I always thought there was more than just friendship between you two, I knew you’d both figure it out eventually. Maybe it’s just taking Alec a little longer to figure it out.” There was a look in her eye you couldn’t quite place. “We’ll make him realise what he’s missing out on.”

With a sly little smile, Isabelle got to work.

An hour later and you had been pushed and pulled into a person that you barely recognised. The dress you were wearing was one of your favourites, a white skater dress with cute bell sleeves. Nothing too extreme, the dress gave a gentle angelic vibe that made it seem like you were glowing. The make-up highlighted your eyes, framing them with a thin black line. A soft pink lipstick turned your lips into a perfect little rose. Isabelle and Clary nodded in appreciation, a little self-serving but you couldn’t help but smile at your two best friends. 

“If my idiot brother doesn’t take right there on the dining room table, then I will.” Isabelle threw you a cheeky little wink, which made you and Clary giggle. 

This was it. You were all dressed up and now you had somewhere to go, and it was terrifying. What if Alec didn’t care? You took a deep breath and steadied yourself before walking out to the main living area. 

“Good luck!” A chorus of well-wishes followed you out the door. 

You knew Alec would most likely be sat with the boys so you lifted your head a little, stuck out your chest and swayed from side to side. As you entered the room, you heard the appreciative murmurs from Simon and Jace, you smiled slightly and flicked your hair, enjoying the attention.

“Whatever.” You looked over to see Alec intently staring at the TV. Simon had obviously tried to get his attention, but he wasn’t interested. Like that, your chest deflated and your face dropped. How could he not care? 

“I guess I’ll see you guys later, I guess.” You gave a small wave and turned quickly to make sure they didn’t see the tears in your eyes.

It was only going for a few drinks, you didn’t have to stay for long so you tried to muster a little enthusiasm for the guy standing in front of you. He was relatively attractive, you had to admit he was exactly your type and Simon had made a good choice, but he wasn’t Alec. 

A few drinks in and you felt your face flush, the guy had put his hand on your leg, he had told you his name but you hadn’t cared enough to listen. He took the lack of protest as a sign of encouragement, inching his hand higher to under your skirt. You swayed on your seat and leant towards him, hoping leaning against him would stop the spinning. It didn’t feel like you’d had too many drinks but the room was blurry and you struggled to keep yourself upright. His breath felt too warm and too close for comfort, his hand on your thigh got tighter and suddenly you didn’t feel very safe. 

“I wanna go home.” It took a lot of effort but you managed to get out those few words. “Take me home please.”

You hated how quiet and weak you sounded. He stood, putting his arm around your waist to keep you steady. While you appreciated the support, it made you feel uneasy. The walk back to the institute was slow and filled with not so subtle “accidental” grabs. 

The big doors soon came into focus and they’d never looked so good. The walk home had helped to clear your head slightly, your mouth still felt very dry, but that was probably just the nerves. 

“This is me. Thank you for walking me home.” You stopped and turned to face your date. He took a step closer. You stepped back and were horrified to feel the iron of the door handle press into your back. 

“Aren’t you going to let me inside?” His hands migrated south from your waist. You gasped when he grasped your backside. 

“I-I don’t think that’s a good idea.” You heard the stutter is your voice, you didn’t sound very convincing.

“You didn’t say no when I felt you up earlier. Your such a little tease.” One hand uncupped one of your cheeks and moved up to brush your hair from your face. He slowly pushed down one of your sleeves, exposing your bare shoulder. 

“Please don’t.” Fear filled your voice. Your legs shook, fear mixed with alcohol was making standing a difficult task. 

“I’m not asking.” His leg pushed between yours. Suddenly, the dress that made you feel so confident earlier made you feel open and exposed. One hand pushed your body into his while the other pulled your mouth forward.

You couldn’t let this happen, your first time wouldn’t be with some creep! Adrenaline filled your body. You turned your head just as his lips connected with yours, smudging your lipstick but you didn’t care. Using all the strength you had left you pushed him away, turned, opened the door and snuck inside before he could realise what had happened. 

You leant against the door, your head was still spinning but the cool wood helped. You kept your eyes closed while you caught your breath. You were glad it was late and everyone was in bed, this was humiliating. 

“He was that good was he?” You spun round to see Simon with a smug grin on his face. 

Alec was stood behind him, a face like thunder. That face was enough to sober you up entirely. You thought about how this probably looked, face flushed, heavy breathing, clothes coming off and lipstick smudged. The thought of what you just escaped hit you and before you could stop it, tears filled your eyes and you collapsed to the floor. 

Two strong arms engulfed you. You knew it was only Alec but you couldn’t help but flinch and push them away. Alec looked hurt and confused as you shuffled further away.

“What happened Y/N?” Simon was stood watching you. Alec tried to reach out to you again. You flinched when his hand touched your arm but you didn’t move it away.

You hiccuped and sobbed your way through the story. Alec’s rough yet gentle thumb gentle brushed your arm.  Even though you were horrified he saw you like this, he was still your best friend and his touch made you feel better. He didn’t say anything while you talked but you could tell he wasn’t happy. The thought that your best friend was angry at you caused the waterworks to double.

“I’m so sorry Alec. I was so stupid. I wanted to make you jealous and I lead that guy on and I’m so sorry. Please don’t be angry at me!” You threw yourself into his chest, not really realising what you just said. 

You turned your head to see Simon slowly edging out of the room. 

“I’ll give you guys some space.” 

It took a second for Simon’s words to make sense. You paled when you realised what you just said, you turned your head and buried it further into Alec’s chest, hoping that his silence meant he hadn’t heard.

“You wanted to make me jealous?” You felt the chuckle in his voice rumble through his chest.

“Don’t laugh!” His laughter hurt and made you angry. You pushed yourself away and turned your back on him.

“I’m such an idiot” He chuckled slightly.

“Hey! I am not!... Wait, what did you just say? Why are you an idiot?” You spun to confront Alec before you fully registered what he said.

“I’m an idiot because I was trying to make you jealous by being distant. I didn’t even think that it might have the opposite effect.” You stared at Alec, waiting for him to tell you he was just messing with you. Expecting him to make a horrible joke about how silly you were for liking him. But it didn’t happen.

You both stared, measuring the reactions of the other. Neither one of you wanted to be the first to break the silence. After what felt an hour you decided to take the plunge.

“So what? Does that mean you like me, like, like like me?” You felt like a child again.

Alec chuckled softly, brushing your cheek gently.

“Yes, I like like you.”

“Now what do we do?”

Alec pulled you towards him, encasing you with his arms and placing his chin on your head.

“Well, I’m going to put you to bed because you need it. Then tomorrow, how about we go get pancakes for breakfast.” That sounded perfect, you nodded against his chest. “This doesn’t have to be a sudden change, we can go on dates, take it nice and slow. We’re best friends and that doesn’t need to change.”

You felt so safe in his arms, you let your eyes close, enjoying the silence. Before you fully fell asleep, you heard Alec softly humming to himself while he rubbed your back. 

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are requests open?

Requests are back open. I have been AWOL for a while but want to get back into writing, need a creative outlet, so go nuts people!

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Two Alec requests should be up sometime in the next day. I have been loving the new series!

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I havent been able to get round to finishing them today :( I had a tattoo done this morning and it’s been a lot more painful than expected

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Kindness doesn’t have a language - Dan Howell

Request: can you do one dan x reader where reader is foreign and kinda insecure about her English but dan finds it cute and makes her feel better by saying how much he likes her accent and stuff? Thank you in advance! x

A/N - No warnings that I can think of :)

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Y/N went over it in her head. She would walk into the room, making sure to smile and keep eye contact, be confident but not cocky, always make sure to enunciate every word clearly. 

A job had opened up at the BBC to work alongside the Radio DJs, only as a technical assistant but it promised to offer plenty of opportunities for promotion. Y/N had wanted to work in Radio for ages. When she was first learning English, she would listen to British radio. Translating songs from English into her mother tongue had meant that she very quickly learnt their spelling and when listening, she could hear the pronunciation. 

That was several years ago back when she was a child, by now, after coming to England to study English and Communication Studies at university, she was pretty much fluent. She still got mixed up on some of the more colloquial slang terms but unfortunately she would find people were more likely to question her pronunciation of the words. As hard as she tried Y/N just couldn’t shake her accent. Nothing worked, she had spent three years at an English university surrounded by people from all over England and yet her accent had not budged. She just hoped it wouldn’t affect her chances in the race to get this job.

She walked up to the door of the BBC head office taking deep breathes, trying to calm her nerves, she was half an hour early, even now she still didn’t trust the tube to turn up on time so she’d left with tons of time to spare. The woman at the front desk directed her to the fourth floor, gesturing to the lift.

As she entered the lift, she noticed she wasn’t alone, there was a tall boy, or rather man. She couldn’t help but smile in return when he gave a shy one-sided smile. The glint in his chocolate eyes made the blood rush to her cheeks and she was sure he released a small chuckle. The doors closed as she moved to the opposite side of the elevator. 

After about four seconds of comfortable silence, the metal box that they were travelling let out a sickening crunch and suddenly jolted to a stop. Y/N turned to look at the boy to see if he was as confused as her, to her horror, he did. 

“I don’t think that was went to happen” If she hadn’t been so scared Y/N might have laughed but all she could manage was strangled squeak.

“I can’t be trapped in here, I have an interview in like twenty minutes, I need to get out.” Y/N couldn’t stop the panic from seeping into her voice. 

Seeing that she was genuinely distressed the boy moved from is corner to place a comforting hand on her shoulder. 

“Look it’ll be alright, I hardly doubt they’d blame you, and anyway I’m sure they have us out in no time.” Something in his voice calmed Y/N. “My names Dan, whats yours?”

Y/N took a deep breath before telling him. 

“Y/N? that’s a pretty name. You’re not from England are you?”

Y/N’s cheeks turned bright red, though Dan was only making an observation, it always got to Y/N when people commented on her being foreign.

“Uh no, I’m not” Y/N’s voice was barely audible as this point, her face getting redder and redder by the second. She looked at the ground, trying to get her hair to hide her ever reddening face.

“Oh I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to embarrass you. I think it’s cool, I like your accent and you speak English really well!” 

Y/N dared to look up and what she saw slightly shocked her, she was used to people apologizing but Dan genuinely looked remorseful, most people thought she was silly for being insecure. 

“It’s okay, I know it’s silly for getting so embarrassed but I hate that people can always tell I’m different.” Y/N looked down again this, she’d never told anyone why it affected her so much.

“But there’s nothing wrong with being different, being different is cool. Especially because the reason you’re different is because you’re from somewhere else. Do you know how amazing it is that you can speak another language and speak it well? I can barely remember my french from school and even then I don’t even get close to saying it properly.”

Slowly, as Dan continued his speech, Y/N slowly lifted her head, a smile slowly creeping onto her face. Dan’s hand was no longer on his shoulder, both hands were waving around as he got louder and more passionate with each word.

“And! Another thing I think your accent is cute, if I had an accent like yours I’d never stop talking because I’d sound awesome all the time and people wouldn’t have to listen to my posh sounding voice. So if anyone makes you feel bad about the way you talk or where you’re from, send them my way and I’ll mess them up.” 

Y/N giggled at that, she looked at Dan, there was no way a guy this soft-looking could hurt anyone but she appreciated the sentiment. Dan, happy that he had got the response he wanted, stop ranting and just stared at Y/N, breathing heavily. 

“Thanks, that means a lot. But you don’t think it’ll affect my interview do you?” Y/N’s smile faded again, remembering her up coming interview.

“No of course not you’ll smash it!” Dan grabbed Y/N’s shoulders again, forcing her to look at him. “I believe in you! You’ll be amazing and I’m sure you’ll get it.”

Y/N and Dan just stared at each other both breathing hard after Dan’s proclamation. There was a moment of silence.

“So you think my accent is cute?” Y/N smirked at Dan, replicating the smile he had given him earlier. Dan chuckled, his entire face lighting up.

“Yeah I do, and I think you’re pretty cute too.” Y/N blushed at this, not sure what to say. “Where’s your phone?” 

Y/N handed Dan her unlocked phone and watched as he entered in his number and giggled when he took a selfie for his contact picture.

“Here you go.” Handing back Y/N’s phone. “Now, if we ever get out of here, we can go for lunch and you can tell me all about how you are gonna smash that interview and we can continue to talk about how cute your accent is, deal?”

Y/N liked the sound of the that. No sooner than she had nodded had mechanical sounds entered into the lift and then, with a sudden jump, the elevator started moving again. Stopping now, only to open on the third floor. 

“Well this is me.” Dan stepped out of the elevator grinning. “I hope you still want to go for lunch, but if you change your mind or whatever then can you at least tell me how it goes?”

Y/N nodded but she knew that there was no way she was going to be changing her mind, not about this guy.

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Request: can you do one dan x reader where reader is foreign and kinda insecure about her English but dan finds it cute and makes her feel better by saying how much he likes her accent and stuff? Thank you in advance! x

Hey, it will hopefully be up today, currently doing exams/applying for jobs etc. so been busy. Really enjoyed writing this so far, hope you enjoy reading it just as much :) xx

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Taking Requests!

I’m bored please give me something to do :) 

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Tyrants (song fic) - Dan Howell

“Ok I know I just asked for a fic from you but I love you're writing so much so I was wondering if you could do a song fic (that's the one where you use lyrics from songs in the writing right?) for Dan x y/n with the song tyrants by catfish and the bottlemen? Thank you! xx“

A/N - I know this took ages, I’ve just been so busy! Hope this is okay, I didn’t really know the song but I enjoyed listening to it while writing :) I did a bit of research on the song, it was apparently one of the first songs written, bit random but I found it interesting. 

Trigger warnings - minimal but some adult topics mentioned and some substances.

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Eyes rolled back guess we were living fast

Dan looked at Y/N, her eyes seemed to glow in the dim club lights. He wasn’t one for clubs or drinking but there was something about this girl that made him drunk without drinking. Whatever she suggested he was up for it, anything to keep the high she gave him. 

They had met in the street earlier on in the week. It was only three and she wasn’t intoxicated yet but she still exuded a mysterious and exciting that trapped Dan and before he knew she was taking him by the hand to dance in the fountains. Together they danced, laughing and wild, before being chased by the police. 

Dan had never been in trouble with the law but this girl had entranced him and when she smiled, he had no power to saw no.

Where did you go, yeah where did you go?

The next morning he woke to an empty bed, his head spinning with last night’s whiskey and sex. 

Your eyes go to show, that it was so rare to see you sober

He thought back to the night before, he remembered the way she had clung to him, a certain desperateness that showed how insecure she really was, and he remembered clinging back. Anything to keep his magical girl with him a little longer.

Her eyes had filled with tears when he finally built up the courage to kiss her. Dan some how knew that this was probably the first gentle touch she’d had in a while, so for the rest of the night he treated her like a doll that could break at any moment. 

And so the streetlights would carry us home

Together they staggered home, heads dizzy with alcohol and giggles. In Dan’s eyes, the streetlights lit up Y/N’s hair like a halo, to Y/N the streetlights were just a helpful accessory. 

And I spent my nights trying to get a grip of you

Dan tried desperately to get to know Y/N, but nothing he did could get through to her, she always closed up whenever he tried talk. He didn’t even know her birthday. The only time she seemed to open up slightly was when they danced together. Bodies moving in sync, hand exploring the things their words couldn’t.

And I did my best to get my hands under your jacket

To Dan any touch caused his entire body to set on fire and his mind to shut down. He wanted more and more each time. And they got close several times but every time it got too heated Y/N would pull away with a distant little laugh, before kissing Dan’s cheek and leaving him breathless and desperate for more. 

So we could make a racket

The thoughts had played over in Dan’s mind over and over, the noises they would make together, the sighs, the moans. 

But your divine ribs would help break mine

But little by little, the closer they got, the more kisses they shared, the more Dan gave his heart. Piece by piece, he gave himself entirely. Y/N didn’t open up anymore than she had before but Dan felt as though there was definitely something between them. 

Now, as he lay there in his bed, alone and empty, he felt his heart break. A terrible aching pain in his chest. The pain was so intense he was sure his chest had collapsed. 

We hit the ground so let's hit the ground

He knew what he was getting himself into when he lay Y/N on his bed. He made a leap of faith when he kissed her and soon they hit the ground. Nothing's alright, believe me

As the day progressed there was nothing that could stop him from thinking about his magic girl. Nothing and noone could pull him from the hole he had fallen into.

And I say I won't feel the same in the mornings

Y/N had said to him the night before, as they lay together, that this was just a bit of fun and Dan had lied saying that he didn’t want anything more between them, he just wanted to get it out of his system.

Nothing's alright, we're leavin And I won't feel the same in the mornin'

Maybe if he had told her how he had told her before they left the club she would still be and maybe his heart wouldn’t be breaking this morning. Tyrants help build us They won't mind throwin' us away

But at the same time Dan knew that she had known how he had felt the entire time. She made him feel like he could fly and she was the one who clipped his wings. 

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Mute Attraction (Alec X Reader)

Can you do an Alec x reader where she is mute and dating Alec and is very protective of her when people say bad things about her because she doesn't talk, and can you make fluffy please?

Disclaimer - Sorry it’s taken so long. 

Swearing Warning

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“Well Y/N, aren’t you gonna say anything?” 

“You’re not denying it, so it must be true. You’ve fucked a demon!”

The laughter echoed around her ears, getting louder as her breaths got shorter and more strained. Tears filled her eyes and before long they over flowed, only to cause more laughter.

“Aww she’s crying. You gonna go home and tell mommy? Oh wait. You can’t!”

The mocking and laughter became to much. She turned only to she the dark blue eyes of her boyfriend turning into dangerously thin slits.

Alec don’t

She signed, hoping to ward off a scene. She knew he got protective and that he sometimes got a bit violent, especially when people mocked her for lack of voice. 

“What the hell is your guys’ problem?” 

It was too late. His eyes where clasped onto the group of boys who were now sharing nervous looks between each other. 

“Nothing, just having a bit of fun with the mute.”

One of the older boys, clearly the leader, stood forward, flexing his muscles.

“A bit of fun? That mute is my girlfriend.”

Before the boy could open his mouth to respond, a fist has already lodged itself within his stomach.

Y/N stepped forward and touched Alec on the shoulder, just a simple touch was enough to slightly subside his anger. He turned and looked at the girl that he couldn’t imagine being without.

They had met in a situation very similar to this. At the time he hadn’t realized that she was mute, he had just seen a girl being bullied. Y/N had got embarrassed that she couldn’t speak to say thank you, so she tried run away, only to trip over her own feet. They hadn’t been able to communicate at first and could only talk through text, but Alec started to learn sign in secret and after a few weeks, he surprised Y/N by asking her to be his girlfriend.

I’m sorry. I love you

She smiled at her boyfriend and wondered how she had got so lucky.

I love you too.

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I’m back!!

If you have requested I am writing them, I’m just moving house at the moment, as well as working and I’m trying to find time to write, it’s just hard.

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Could I get a Dan imagine where he comes back from a trip early to surprise y/n and he comes home to find her and Phil are dancing around the apartment to the strokes or something and then he joins in, just super cute and fluffy?? 💚💚💚

Eh voila! Hope you like it :) 

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Last Nite - Dan Howell Imagine

“Could I get a Dan imagine where he comes back from a trip early to surprise y/n and he comes home to find her and Phil are dancing around the apartment to the strokes or something and then he joins in, just super cute and fluffy?? 💚💚💚”

N/A - No warnings, just fluff and bad dancing =^.^= Sorry it’s quite short.

Song inspiration for this imagine. It plays a lot at the club I go to, which will make sense soon mwhahaha.

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Y/N misses you. What do I do?! I can’t keep this from her!!! 😨 

Dan smiled down at text from his bestfriend, he knew Phil was terrible at keeping secrets but he needed someone to distract Y/N while he snuck in. He wanted to surprise Y/N. They weren’t dating but they weren’t entirely just friends, they would spend hours spooning and watching Netflix but then Y/N felt totally comfortable just being herself. He had been in New York for the past few days, finishing off a few thing from TATINOF and he was coming home early. Dan had decided he was going to surprise Y/N and was then going to ask her to be his official girlfriend. He’d brought her favourite pizza and written “Will you go out with me?” in the lid. 

Just do something fun and tell her you’ve ordered pizza, it’ll keep her distracted. I’ll be home in a few minutes. 🐸☕️ 

Okay, hurry! and don’t worry everything will go great ;)

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You sighed, rolled onto you belly and turned off the TV. You didn’t really feel like watching anything. You missed Dan too much. The three of you were inseparable, Dan and Phil were your rock. Phil was like a big brother but you got butterflies anytime Dan was in the room, you’d told Phil about how you felt, he has said that Dan felt the same but you highly doubted that. 

“Y/N, you are not allowed to mope on my watch!” You turned to see Phil stood with his hands on his hips and a terrible attempt at an intimidating scowl. “Dance party time!”

You raised your eyebrows in shock as you watched Phil plug his phone into the speakers and turn on your dance playlist.

“Hey! This is my playlist! How did you get this?!” 

“You shouldn’t leave your phone unlocked Y/N dear. By the way you now have a picture of me as you background and a picture of a cat as your screen saver.”

You rolled your eyes but smiled as you recognized the first song that came on. Phil pulled you up and twirled you under his arm. His laughter and infectious enthusiasm helped distract you from the dull ache Dan had left behind. You giggled and danced along letting the familiar music calm you even more.

Everbody makes mistakes, everybody has those days....

You stopped and stared at Phil who didn’t seemed phased by the Hannah Montana classic that had just started.

“This wasn’t on my list?”

“Oh yeah, I may have added a few songs. Your playlist was too angsty.”

You wanted to stay mad at Phil but his innocence was just to cute so you just laughed and the two of started singing at the top of you lungs, complete with the dance moves from the film.

“NOBODY’S PERFECT!”

After about fifteen minutes Phil turned down the music to check on the pizza which hadn’t yet arrived.

“Phil it hasn’t been that long, they’ll be here soon.” You wouldn’t say it out loud but you were hungry and getting impatient. 

“It’s just cause they said they’d be ten minutes and that was twenty minutes ago”

“Oh okay.” You shrugged and let Phil make the call, it meant you could text Dan. 

Wish you were here, me and Phil miss you xxx

“Pizza guy got stuck in traffic he’s still about five minutes away. Time for one more song? You can choose?”

 You already knew which song you wanted, Phil would probably complain that it was too slow, but you and Dan had met while this song was playing. Neither you or Dan were keen on going out but both of you had decided to go out that night. You were both horrendously drunk and had ended up going back to Dan and Phil’s flat. Nothing had happened, you simply ended up playing Mario Kart drunk at four in the morning. Dan had then invited you to stay for breakfast, then you invited him out for lunch, the he invited you back round for dinner and a movie and you had been together ever since. 

The song started playing but Phil didn’t complain like you thought he would he simply smiled knowingly and started doing the most hideous dad dancing you had ever seen. You laughed and called him a dork but joined in anyway. 

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Dan walked through the door, to hear The Strokes thumping throughout flat. He smiled at the memories and walked into the lounge to see his bestfriend and the girl he loved dancing like the lovable idiots they were. He watched them silently before announcing his presence.

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“Pizza’s here!” The squeal that came out of you mouth was almost supersonic but that didn’t stop Dan from laughing at the fact you’d almost died. You turned and saw Dan stood in the doorway watching you, holding a few boxes of pizza, the top one open with the writing “Will you go out with me?”. Your heart stopped, it had to be a joke, you turned to Phil for confirmation. When he nodded you could feel your heart burst with joy. Dan had placed the pizza boxes down after you had remained silent thinking you were going to reject him, which was a good thing, because as soon as he turned himself round, you launched yourself into his arms, squealing “yes” over and over and kissing ever bit of his face that you could reach.

“Y/N! Let him breath!” You stopped when you realized that Phil was right, you had Dan in death grip but the smile on his face suggested he didn’t mind. 

“Well it looks like I missed one heck of a party.” Dan kept his arm round you while you walked into the room. 

“You can still join in Danny boy” 

“Right you are.”

You laughed as Dan let go of you only to start dancing with Phil. You watched the two men you loved most dancing and wondered if you would ever feel happier than you did in that very moment.

[4ever4lonew1dowsclu8]

can you do an Alec x reader where she has a death scare and Alec tells her that he loves her and wants to protect her and can you make it cute and fluffy please? thank you :)

Of course, here you go :) Hope it’s okay. Much loves xx

[4ever4lonew1dowsclu8]

I Can’t Lose You - Alec Imagine

“can you do an Alec x reader where she has a death scare and Alec tells her that he loves her and wants to protect her and can you make it cute and fluffy please? thank you :)”

N/A - Trigger warning - Suggestion of death. I’ve left the ending open for interpretation but other than that fluff ahead! <3 BTW I know in this gif matthew had green/hazel eyes but Alec has blue eyes, so yeah :)

I thought of this song when writing so give it a listen to, during, before, after, whatever you want :) 

Swimming seemed like a good idea at the time. You’d woken up before your long-term boyfriend and had left him sleeping, he looked so cute when he was asleep. The house you had bought together was a five-minute walk from a secluded little beach and you regularly went there to swim and if the weather was warm, Alec would invite the gang round and you would all have a BBQ by the sea. 

The sky was clear when you first woke up and you couldn’t see any clouds so you decided to swim out further than you normally would’ve. You were about half a mile out when you felt the sting. Looking down, you saw the bright orange that you knew so well, sea nettles. The group of jellyfish were swarming around your legs each one sending a sharp jolt of pain through your body. You hadn’t even considered the possibility of jellyfish, they tended to stick to the warmer waters of the West coast where you had grown up. Though, individually, their stings weren’t too dangerous, this amount of venom could cause trouble. You felt you legs starting to cramp, a panic setting over you as you realized that you were nowhere near the shore. You started to swim. Your chest started constricting, your breaths getting shorter and shorter. You pushed yourself harder, only a few hundred meters from the shore. The water seemed to get heavier, harder to swim through. Only a hundred meters. You took a breath, water entered your lungs. You kept pushing, one arm after the other. More water entered your lungs. Your visioned blurred, white spots dancing in front of you. The rocking of the waves didn’t seem so bad. Slowly, you gave into the gentle lulling of the water, you didn’t even feel the scratch of gravel or the strong arms that lifted you from the Atlantic waters. 

“Y/N? Can you hear me? Y/N?” 

You could hear the desperation in the voice, it sounded familiar. You wondered why this person was so upset. You wondered why the water had stopped moving. You wondered why your legs hurt so much. The darkness that had threatened to consume in the water didn’t seem that bad, it made the pain stop, so you welcomed it, letting yourself drift away.

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It was your fingers that you felt first. You could move them. Then it was your toes. You wiggled them. Yep I still have toes. You then tried to move your nose, scrunching it like a rabbit. Okay still got a nose. You stopped when you heard the relieved chuckle from next you. A hand slowly clasped yours, giving it a gentle squeeze. You opened your eyes and turned to look at the blue eyes you loved to wake up to. The dark circles showing the extent of his tiredness.

“Hey.” He spoke softly, as if he thought that speaking to loudly would hurt you. 

“Hey.” You frowned at the croaky sound of your voice.

“Ssh, you’ve been unconscious for a few days, your voice is bound to sound a little hoarse.” You noticed the concerned tone, despite the fact he was trying to comfort you.

His thumb gently stroked the back of your hand while his other hand lifted to move a few strands of hair from your face. Alec stood from his chair, still holding your hand, and sat on the edge of the bed. He bent forward, a large hand cupping your face before his soft lips captured yours. The kiss was desperate as though he felt he would lose you if let go and yet all too soon, he was gone. Even though he was turned away you could see the tension in his shoulders and the grip on your hand had tightened. He hated showing you, what he called, weakness. You lifted your free hand to put it on his shoulder.

“Alec, look at me.” You ignored the crack in your voice. “I’m okay, look, I’m still here”

He slowly start to turn. You moved your hand to stroke the side of his face, noticing the stubble and wet streaks that graced his cheek. His hand rose to cover yours, his head turned to place a kiss on your palm. Both of you sat in comfortable silence, Alec, only moving to place gentle kisses on your palm and wrist.

“I thought I’d lost you Y/N.” You looked up to see his eyes piercing yours, begging you to understand. “You have no idea how scared I was. I saw you lying on the beach, covered in red mark, slowly turning blue and I thought I was going to lose you.” His voice broke, a single tear escaping. “I can’t lose you. I love you. I never want that to happen again. I love you Y/N. I want to be there for you, everyday. I want to protect you. I want you and me to be together, now and forever. I want to be by your side protecting you from the big bad of the world. Will you let me?”

You could barely nod before he stood to get off the bed and knelt by your side. You gasped as you saw him pull out a small black box.

“Y/F/N, I love you more than anything, will you make me the happiest man alive and will you marry me, Alec Lightwood?”

[4ever4lonew1dowsclu8]

Song fic requests please??

[4ever4lonew1dowsclu8]

Can I get a dan howell imagine where we are fighting and in an attempt to end the fight he yells that he loves me so much he would step on a Lego for me. Really fluffy please?

Of course you can, thank you soo much for requesting, hope its okay :)

Forgive Me? (Dan Howell Imagine)

N/A - No trigger warnings apart from some adult language.

You were stood daydreaming, like you normally would, while you waited for the kettle to boil. It had been three months since you moved in with Dan and Phil, but as comfortable as you were with the boys, it could have been three years. You’d had a crush on Dan since before you met him and it made you love him more when he didn’t shun you for having watched his videos, he simply laughed and said, “Well I’m glad someone gets enjoyment from my videos.”. You loved that he was so humble and down to earth about everything he had achieved, him and Phil both, but there was something about Dan that made your entire heart sing, maybe it was the way he pulled his sleeves over his hands to hide his face, or maybe it was the way, when you had a nightmare or simply couldn’t sleep, he’d stay up and play games or watch videos with you, you wouldn’t talk but it wasn’t awkward. But, not matter what it was that made you feel this way, it was obvious that Dan didn’t feel the same way. Whenever you were alone with him, he could only say a few words to you before he made an excuse to leave. It hadn’t started like that, for the first month, you guys were inseparable, you would joke and laugh, Dan would come into your room while you were putting on your makeup and ask you questions, making you giggle when he would try to put it on himself. It had all changed at a YouTuber party when Louise had joked saying “You guys would make a cute couple!”. Dan started acting weird after that, you assumed it was because he didn’t want to give you the wrong idea. 

The click of the kettle knocked you out of your reverie, yes you did love Dan but he did not care about you. The thought made you a little bitter. Why can’t he care? It’s not like I’m repulsive or anything. You looked down at yourself, nope definitely not repulsive. Anger swelled in your chest as the indignation increased. 

“Y/N! Where’s my tea!?” Dan shouted from the other room. You had offered to make him a cup but now his question seemed unreasonable. Why should I make him tea, when I don’t mean anything to him?

“Get your own damn tea! What did your last slave die of?!” You didn’t even register the fact that you sounded exactly like your mother.

The footsteps got louder and before you knew it Dan was sticking his head round the corner of the kitchen door.

“What’s got your knickers in a bunch?” You blushed at the mention of your knickers but that did not stop the fire of anger from burning.

“Nothing! You don’t know anything about my knickers!”

“If you didn’t want to make my tea you shouldn’t have offered!”

“I offered because I love you, you overgrown teddy bear but I am not just a tea making machine, I have feelings and you treat me like I’m nothing and you don’t care and you always try to leave the room if it’s just you and me. Think about that Dan, the next time I make your bloody tea!” The anger was already starting to ebb but Dan looked like the air had been knocked out of him, you were already dreading his reaction to your outburst.

Barely missing a beat Dan took a breath, a vibrant red colouring his face.

“Yeah well I love you too and I do care! I love you so much I would step on a lego for you! Scratch that! I would step over an entire path of legos for you! I’ve only been avoiding you because I can barely think straight when I’m around you. Ever since Louise pointed out how good we’d be together and I realised how right she was. I look at you and I imagine our life together. I imagine you kissing our children goodnight, I imagine you walking down the aisle. How was I meant to look you in the eye when I didn’t know if you felt the same?!” 

The silence that followed was deafening. Both of you stared at each other, breathing hard and red in the face.

“Oh.” Dan laughed at that, lightening the atmosphere a little bit.

“Is that all you can say? Y/N, I’m so sorry that I made you feel like I didn’t care. Please forgive me? If you give me the chance I will treat you the way I should’ve. We’ll take it slow and you can tell me when you feel comfortable to take things further.”

“Okay, I forgive you, it’s gonna take a while for me to get used to it though but I think you’re worth the wait.”

[4ever4lonew1dowsclu8]

Request my lovelies (◠‿◠✿)

I am on holiday and I am deathly bored, help me or I might go insane. Request away, one-shots, imagines, ship requests, anything!

Much loves xx

[video-vamp]

When the guy you’re seeing has snakes for friends but doesnt take responsibility and keep his pets under control