Diana

My 3d safe place. Side blog. Treating this as a journal/diary

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I hate gaining weight

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I lost ten pounds in three weeks but I’ve lost so much hair it’s making me stressed out. I need to start eating more protein because my hair is the only thing that makes me confident and I can’t lose that.

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The worst part about starving myself is loosing my hair. I’m loosing way more than I was before. I have thick hair so it’s not that noticeable yet but it’s scary loosing it.

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Only lost 400 calories at the gym today because I got too dizzy. I’ve lost a pound since yesterday though so I’m hopeful.

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I went into the city and had a bad binge day. Probably had 1,500 calories and was able to burn only 600. Need to starve myself tomorrow.

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Burnt almost 600 calories at the gym today and ate only 500. Feeling snatched.

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I was 122 pounds and thought I was literally so fat now I’m 138 and i wish so bad i was 122 again.

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Lost six pounds in one week, but had a panic attack this morning bc I was so hungry. Eating a safe food helped but I gained a pound back.

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Looking back at photos from when I previously had my eating disorder is motivation for me to lose weight. I need to look like that again.

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The hardest part about going out to eat is the menu. I want a side salad but i know how people will react to that. So instead I have to order something filled with carbs or extra calories and it starts my hatred for my body all over again.