g.

desperate prayers of a cursed man - to burn and bloom 🌱

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

if you haven’t, i hope you fall in love with life again. i hope you wake up with a happy sigh, hope you feel like doing things you enjoy, hope you are surrounded by people who make you feel safe, hope you smile at yourself in the mirror.

[spirulin4]

avoidance has saved me from everything it's also killed me a hundred million times

[4rchives]

hi, its been a while! but i think instead of celebrating my return, we all better be concerned because... girl wdym you are back here ??? SOMETHING'S WRONG!!!

[irisili0]

Forgive yourself for all the wrong things you did just to be loved.

[4rchives]

that one time i ran away

august 6

3:58 pm

this comes from a place of understanding for all the people who chose to leave without saying a word.

it’s me realizing that sometimes, the reasons to stay get outshouted by the reasons to leave.

and that’s okay. it’s alright if you want to drop everything and run after your peace.

i wish i could do that too.

g.

[4rchives]

crying crying crying

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

one day, you will find yourself being loved by entirely new people and wonder why you were ever worried you’d never find them

[4rchives]

ang dami kong sinabi pero gusto ko lang naman talagang sabihin na ‘wag mo akong bitawan

[4rchives]

I know I am hard to understand. Not in the mysterious, alluring way that novels romanticize, but in the exhausting, confusing way that makes people want to walk away.

Sometimes I contradict myself. Sometimes I ask for closeness and then flinch when it arrives. I shut down when I mean to open up. I make things heavy when I wish they were light.

It’s not always easy to love someone like that.

I know I come with unspoken rules. With walls I forgot how to tear down, barbed wire made of past disappointments, and doors that open only halfway.

There are moments I want to be held and moments I want the world to forget I exist and the worst part is, sometimes those moments happen at the same time.

So if it ever gets too tiring, if the trying starts to feel like a losing game, you don’t have to stay. You’re allowed to walk away. No dramatic exits required, no guilt trips waiting for you at the door. Just leave, and know I’ll understand.

Because I’ve left parts of myself before, too. I know what it means to let go of something, even if it hurts, even if it once felt sacred.

And while I may not say it out loud, I do notice every effort. Every time you choose to stay. Every time you choose me despite the noise in my head and the silences I slip into.

I notice, and I am grateful. But I also know that love should not feel like unraveling.

So if one day the weight of me becomes too much for your tired hands, if you stop seeing the light behind my eyes and only see the fog I carry, you can let go.

You don’t owe me forever. You never did. I just hope, wherever you go, you find peace. And if you remember me, I hope it’s with softness.

Because even if you leave, I’ll still hold your memory with care. I’ll still root for your joy. And I’ll still understand.

[saltair-and-webweaves]

Isn't all that rage so ugly? And isn't it mine, still? Good god, isn't it mine?

this is me trying - taylor swift/unable to find orgin/unknown/cop car - mitski/grief lessons: four plays by euripides, translated by anne carson/@rueyam/happiness - taylor swift/venetta octavia/c.s. lewis/I know the end - phoebe bridgers/a prayer - tathève simonyan/buried - ashe vernon

[forbiddnsky]

*violently sobbing* I KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER I KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER

[worstgirlintheclub]

[4rchives]

[4rchives]

did some force take you because i didnt pray?

[4rchives]

[4rchives]

😃 i am: crashing out !!!! xd

[4rchives]

always an angel never a god always an angel never a god always an angel never a god always an anger a god !!!!!!!!!

[4rchives]

i am NOT happy to be here … !!?