just me

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14.4.26

Looking back, it was all worth it… And if it’s not, then you’re not there yet.

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7.2.26

Sometimes happiness comes quietly… a day comes, a moment comes, and you smile again...and hope again

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7.12.25

Close to the end of the year… few have stayed… many have left… A good year!

A clean slate for 26

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28.7.25

I measure everything in time

Time is the most valuable currency of exchange

I measure others' response time

I measure reaction time

I measure love / sex / forgiveness and healing

It’s been 3 months since my last heartbreak

Enough pain and sorrow

I’m done.

Soooo who's next

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12.7.25

Still trying to figure out where this is going. I guess sometimes, when you don't want to step out of your comfort zone, life finds a way to push you. I've never liked change or surprises, and I feel so lost when I lose control over my own things. I do believe something great is waiting for me out there — but I have to do the work…

Why do I have to fight for everything? Why do I have to work harder and harder with every fucking day, every fucking year?

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16.6.25

You’ve got to pay in life… You’ve got to pay for everything… Just to make it right.

Pay for happiness, Pay for sorrow, Pay for the pain — This one, you must pay twice, So it could never come back again.

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5.6.25

More tired than ever… I've lost so much time chasing the wrong dream again. So wise, and yet… so naive when in love.

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2.5.25

Once again, I fell — This time, harder than ever. He was a good boy. You never know, do you? You stay away from the bad guys… But the good ones leave the deepest mess. They caught you off guard.

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23.4.25

I suppose everything has an end But endings are good, they come with new beginnings

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2.3.25

Year after year, I discover fewer and fewer things worth investing in… people, businesses, dreams.

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10.2.25

I'm still learning... how to run away from myself

I have a talent for attracting the wrong people into my life… or maybe the right ones. People who bring out a different side of me, a woman I keep trying to bury

Maybe one day I'll discover if this woman was someone I should have listened to

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27.1.25

Sometimes you want nothing… Nothing at all… But peace

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15.1.25

I feel like I’ve lost a day… Since the year began, I’ve been running out of time; I need an extra day to get everything where it needs to be.

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16.12.24

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12.9.24

I'll never get used to "period and start again". No, no… not "semicolon." Period. I always put "periods" in my life. And I start over…again, for the "nth" time

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3.9.24

Happy..

Once again my work did it all

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19.8.24

Once again I hit in my head..

Trauma changes you in so many ways

You want to be normal, you want to be happy and for a while you can actually achieved it

But then the person next to you do something that triggers you..

And the first time when he does it, you fight your demons away

But the second time when he makes a mistake...it's harder to fight the demons..

And guess what ... people do make mistakes and not all of them are abusive, toxic and etc.

Yes ...we all make mistakes...it's just that for me, a victim of abuse, every mistake makes me feel so insecure, so afraid, so small..

And I just can be with someone that I care about and get triggered so often...I get hurt and I hurt him

So yeah...I told him good by

I will be grieving again for a very long time

He was a really really decent person

But I am not... I am broken