please leave and seek recovery

no minors pls // they/them 21 // SW: 175 lb (79.4 kg) // CW: 111.4 lb (50.9 kg) // 5'3.5" (163 cm) // don't aspire to live this life. it's hell. // i follow from my main, message me for it

[watermeloncals]

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[night-terrors-babe]

[pinkfeeblemuffin]

If your ed is rooted in gender dysphoria, clap your hands 👏👏

[500orless]

well im bad again… so im back i guess. gained some and then lost again.

[xslowly]

[herostairss]

[weouthererelapsin]

ngl supersize vs super skinny slaps when you’re fasting

[weouthererelapsin]

Glad to see you’re all as mentally ill as I am

[500orless]

being in pretty intense stay-at-home/quarantine habits with my best friend/roommate (a girl my age but taller) has lead me to compare what we eat every single day since we spend pretty much every second together. i find myself making notes of everything that she eats and i tend to try to eat less than she is at meals together and only eat with her about half the time that she eats.

She knows about my disordered eating, but every time that i have tried to talk about it with her she has always just kind of ignored me and not answered. I bet if I was 30 lbs lighter then she would be trying to help me.

I'm starting to feel a bit more obsessive about my eating and exercise habits since I've been shut in even more lately, and it's definitely wearing on me. Im honestly always exhausted, and trying to focus on studying for my summer course during all of this is a whole new challenge too.

Being alone with bad thoughts is really no good. Please know my inbox is open for anyone to spill whatever they need to. I don't even have to respond, if you just want a place to dump a thought or feeling without any answer then just let me know and I can be that for you.

[magicalgirl-bodygoals]

[fashionthroughmyeyes]

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[500orless]

How tall are you?

about 5 ft 3.5 inches or 163 cm

edit: sorry about that, it's in my bio now

[500orless]

realizing that I have developed a lot of "food rules" without even being conscious of it and people probably judge me for the weird ways that I handle my food 🥴🤘

[thrausmatic]

Person: But, you’re not fat!

Me: I’m not skinny tho

[nothingleftanymore]

[bunnysims3]

Me: I know weight fluctuates it won’t bother me I just want to weigh myself everyday just to see!

Me when my weight fluctuates up instead of down: