[the-hearth-and-the-wild]

I liked the idea of living in a city — any city, especially a strange one — liked the thought of traffic and crowds, of working in a bookstore, waiting tables in a coffee shop, who knew what kind of solitary life I might slip into? Meals alone, walking the dogs in the evenings; and nobody knowing who I was.

Donna Tartt, The Secret History

[coquette-club]

Sissy Spacek as Holly in Badlands (1973)

[png-magician]

[dichotomoustessellations]

90s art condom

[mothmansboywife]

I am unfortunately just like other guys. I like trashy horror, dog poems, cannibalism as a metaphor for obsessive devotion, religious imagery, people who use my name in a sentence, academic validation, lying for fun, being bisexual and bleeding out in the snow.

[fried1ton]

(1,2,3,4,5,6) moodboard for @mvement

[wiisagi-maiingan]

You are allowed to exist alone in public btw. You're allowed to go to the movies alone and go out to eat alone and hang out in a park alone and go for a walk alone and whatever else. It isn't weird or creepy, it doesn't make you lonely or a loser or whatever. You are allowed to just exist as yourself.

[6irlzsblog]

update / journal entry #??

Wow!!! why do I neglect tumblr when it has done so much for me, genuinely feels like I wouldn’t have been able to do half the things I’ve done without its influence the good and the bad! Im still with my boyfriend it’s 2 years in a few days and I didn’t doubt a second I was with him I really have found someone so special. I am halfway through my film studies course up in glasgow and it’s a blessing and a curse, blessings being the city itself, the people and the art community as a whole being so beautiful. The curse being when I found it is really is who you know if industries like this, it has been used by me to my own advantage but it’s every man for himself unfortunately and theirs no morale high ground when the competition is ugly and full on as ever. I’m not sick of it yet and you’ll expect to see something of mine in the future I promise! I am healthy and so are my family and friends and loved ones and I’m so grateful for that as I’ve seen such losses recently and im thanking my lucky stars as of recent. My flatmates from last year were a disaster (I should’ve moved in with people I had lived with in first year rookie mistake) I can’t believe how dirty girls can be!! showing someone how to bleach a toilet for the first time at the heart old age of 21 was not something I wanted to be doing but we made it through the lease and none of us can stand each other but it’s fine! Moving in with my closer friends next year so all will be good! got myself a little barista gig on the side in a cafe on the high street, students and locals love it and I can’t wear whatever I please, also I adore everyone I work with it’s literally me making little coffees and getting payed for it as if?? still working out what clothes I like, what my signature scent will be and im in the process of planning my solo interrailing trip around east—>west Europe as I’ve managed to save quite a bit from working so much! very excited to be independent abroad, I’ll be doing work away as well as hostel staying and it’ll be cheap living but I think that’s the way to see everything! so so excited!! anyway I don’t think anyone I used to know even used tumblr any more or have probably unfollowed me but if you see this I hope you’re doing well and life is treating you kindly, have a safe end tail of winter (summer if you’re over that way) and always love deeply without remorse.

[6irlzsblog]

no one told me waking up in your childhood bedroom after a party with your 5 closest friends before you all leave to different university’s or countries would be bittersweet

[6irlzsblog]

sitting round my breakfast table and talking about the night before while the designated cook made us bacon and i ran down the shops for some orange juice like it’s such a common memory but it’s was so surreal knowing we might not be the same again the next time we do it. I think living on the island is so different because it’s almost guaranteed you won’t live here after you leave uni as job opportunities are extremely low, so we don’t know if we’ll come back in a few years, and most of us have unis in different countries and hours away so we’ll probably meet up a few times a year which feels weird especially since we’ve practically lived together during summers here when we were younger and didn’t have jobs etc. such a huge milestone I didn’t want to come as fast as it did!!!

[6irlzsblog]

21/01/24

couldn’t sleep and was thinking about this post and how life moves so fast. felt like last week I was 19 about to turn 20 with all my childhood best friends having a house party and sleepover like we’d do so many times throughout high school and it’s 2 years later and we’ve never all been in the same room since. I’m still in glasgow at university studying film, one of us is in Bristol in a band and just released their first single, another two are working in London and have long term relationships! one of us is travelling around Australia in a camper and has been for over a year and another landed his dream job in South Korea and hasn’t come back since! you really don’t get the pleasure of knowing when the last time you see someone is before things change but I was lucky enough to feel like it was going to be that morning after the party and I’m so glad I could live through it knowing. im very proud of everyone and everything they’ve become but I can’t believe how quickly life catches up with us, one moment we’re kids and the next we’re calling our houses my ‘parents house’. sickening, but so so bittersweet!

[tendermimi]

— Louise Glück, Solstice

[rainreads-deactivated20250201]

somewhere i am sitting with you in stillness.

[firstfullmoon]

Anne Sexton, from “Hurry Up Please It’s Time,” in The Complete Poems [ID in alt text]

[6irlzsblog]

in a lonely city in a lonely month, eating meals by myself, studying late into the night and missing my mother more than ever, 21 you have been everything that i expected.

[arthoesunshine]

i like to pretend i already died and asked god to send me back to earth so i can swim in lakes again and see mountains and get my heart broken and love my friends and cry so hard in the bathroom and go grocery shopping 1,000 more times. and that i promised i would never forget the miracle of being here

[ryebreadgf]

18082022, S.T.

[6irlzsblog]

my fireplace is beautiful <333

[loishannnah]

tired, but still shining

[cinemasource]

Maggie’s Plan (Rebecca Miller, 2015)