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mariam. 25. she/her
-> minors dni | 18+ only
south asian, tme
i'm gorgeousgirl on story graph!
& here on letterboxd
& maybe here one day: marjoram.neocities.org
-> blog directory
terfs, zionists FUCK OFF
soooo funny to tell ur bodyguard/concubine/nephew-in-law i love you baby. you are like the dead president i had a serious crush on. who was named maxen colchester btw completely normal name
My little baby sister Maryam may not survive if the war or famine returns again. Her tiny body can no longer endure all this exhaustion, hunger, and fear.
I can't sleep because of the overwhelming fear and dark thoughts haunting me. I keep imagining what could happen to Maryam if we are forced to go through all of this again.
💳 Please donate - ✅️ Vetted # 15
Maryam deserves safety, warmth, food, and the chance to live like any other child. Instead, she wakes up every day surrounded by fear and uncertainty. Please do not look away from Maryam and help her have the chance in a safe and peaceful life.
june is going to kiss you. Mwah
Shane flirting w Carter Vaughn really is such a juicy little subplot of the whole show.. he loves a charisma magnet w curly hair and 1 Stanley cup that's his gay kryptonite
Like no he really does light up every time Carter talks to him or squeezes him except for that one time when Carter emotionally shot him w a gun in sochi but even then he still makes sure to sit next to him in the stands (NOT dinosaur Scott hunter) and yk there's even a part of Shane that's like "omg he likes gay people😍😍😍😍" and ALSO that part of Shane really was 25 and flirty and thriving in tampa
Well of course there’s shame. There’s always shame.
of course there’s also love…
Which comes with a lot more shame. Yea.
in view of my small windfall i can buy the annotated lolita can't i? for $29?
ok asked the local store if i can order thru them ^-^
coming in a few weeks yay!!!
secured🤓 first brand new book in years i'm living like a king
What I love about Ilya and Shane in Vegas is that it puts into such sharp focus all the glimmers of their dynamic they'd been teasing up till then. My evil take is that even the fact that Ilya ghosted Shane for six months leading up to it was, complicatedly, a little hot for them both.
Ilya had legitimate reasons to be emotionally distant during and after Sochi, and Shane had legitimate reasons to be hurt by it, but also, Shane being desperate for Ilya, being embarrassed by how desperate he is, asking "with who?" when Ilya said he was busy before heading on stage, makes Shane squirm, makes Shane irritated with Ilya's self-assured selfishness, and annoyingly, knowing Ilya has that kind of power over him, well, it kind of turns Shane on. And it turns on Ilya, too.
So the denial of Ilya's... everything... for six months is in some ways a step back from where they were before Sochi and in some ways, when he slings his arm over the paper towel dispenser, the perfect foreplay for how much further they can take this.
Because Ilya discovers how Shane reacts to being denied. And Shane discovers how Ilya reacts to denying him. Like the glimmer before this was in their first hookup, when Ilya teases that he’s leaving after Shane got him off, without getting Shane off in return.
But in Vegas, Ilya pushes the dynamic further with his "maybe ask nicely" - "please suck my dick please" - "no" while giving Shane a firm grip on the chin, pulling him in for the hottest kiss he's tasted in half a year.
Shane giving Ilya the power to make him wait, make him wonder if Shane will get what he wants, make Shane question what he even wants more of in the first place - to be given release or to be held in Ilya’s tension longer - is such a huge leap forward in their relationship that I think, no matter how poorly the aftercare went, they both felt closer in the long run because of it.
Afterward, Shane thumps his head softly to the elevator door when he types and then deletes we didn't even kiss, and it's at least partly from the emotional whiplash from how the night started to how it ended, without his wish for a sweet kiss goodbye.
And yes, Shane could have been better at expressing his wishes, and Ilya could have been better at being attuned to them - like he was when he finally broke his teasing in their first hookup, "let me show you how to do this good." And Ilya's emotional whiplash in Vegas was real too, miserably smoking that cigarette, no kiss to put a spell on a blissed out boy. It was the wrong kind of denial for them both. Neither of them wanted the night to end on such a sour note.
But here is where I defend the two of them moving on from that night without much friction afterwards. Shane deletes the text, goes back to his original See you next season, and then they're off to the races, texting and fucking and discovering each other again and again. Their closeness from the first part of the night far outweighs their distance at the end of it.
Yes it was sour. And to live on a steady diet of sour would become too toxic to withstand, but also, sometimes, a little sour can taste kind of good, too.
ahhhhh scream scream screammmm
How do u fill out ur own part of the performance review do u do 5/5 consistently exceeds expectations everywhere or what. IDK
oh does no one else feel like carter sitting at the closet table and talking about how he fucks w gay people actually meant like a lot tp shane + influenced him reaching out to ilya in person at the olympics … Like i actually feel like its one of the Kindest moments in the show its the exact kind of thing that u hold onto when ur in the closet
ahhhhh scream scream screammmm
ok i don't have to drive across town in a minute bcz finally i got tbe confirmation i asked for two weeks ago & don't have to do it myself. & can go pick up my annotated lolita!!!
3 cop cars out front girl....go away
& so it was🙂↕️
3 cop cars out front girl....go away
My landlord pasted an ai generated ass eviction notice on my door because you have to cite a reason and he doesn’t have one so he just chopped that section out brother you cannot be serious
Would you like the added layer that he did this right after I tested for mold in my house and it was quite literally in every room and he came here to check out the hole in my ceiling that he has left unrepaired for two years
im gonna fight this in any way I can obviously but I want out of here as soon as possible I can’t get a new place until the end of this month but I do need to save for movers and a moving truck and a deposit. I also live with my mom who is severely disabled and I take care of which makes things more complicated. If you want to help my Cash App and Venmo are @ ishaanjs obviously nobody is obligated to give anything and thank you if you do
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