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[stuckinapril]

Accepting that life is an endless cycle of clearing space for new people new things and new places

[808theyrejustwords]

My sunshine told me he loved me back 😭😭😭🩷🩷🩷

On Martin Luther king day ! Okay I see you 🥹 he stay showing out on good ass holidays lol

[808theyrejustwords]

It’s 4:22 am and I am reflecting on an old video from literally 2024 I’m not sure what’s the date… I had to go back and check real quick

Tuesday May 28th , 2024 @ 1:40 pm

I can’t believe how fucking stupid I am AGAIN.

This whole time I knew what this test was about and I fucking failed again…

I’m so hurt and bothered by my actions. But at the same time I cannot compete with someone that’s married.

I’ve tried but this time he was acknowledging me and my existence after he wasn’t at all.

However I unfortunately, unfollowed him because I did see my ex again… because I had a good plan set in place and I didn’t fall through with it.

I didn’t want my ex knowing his page again but in all honesty he probably found his page again…

I have no clue.

I just hope and pray the universe and God give me a second chance to do it all over again.

I promise you I’m not fucking anything up this time.

I tried following this person and they did not accept my request I will try again at a later time. I’m keeping my fingers crossed.

I’m just really shocked that I knew how this was gonna play out and I just went along with the idea and consequences

I really hate myself for it but hey ? What would I done if I just didn’t explore my ex lover again ? 

I would still be interested in what could have beens… now I know exactly what I was in for and it took 7 long months. But he’s gone now. And it’s gonna be like for ever

[papayajuan2019]

it's so fucked up you cant start working on your life at 3 am. when it most matters

[808theyrejustwords]

If I didn’t squirt was I ever going to move on ?

LMFAO worst headline

But it’s the mf’n truth like I dead ass thought no one was going to make me squirt 😩 his underwear is soaked 😭

And it’s like damn literally on Christmas night you unlocked a door that I thought was gonna take him a while to open

[stuckinapril]

Focusing on what’s rooted in reality has reduced so much of my overthinking time. If a friend is already out of my life, there’s no point dissecting our interactions from back when we were friends. If I already broke up w someone, there’s no point thinking about the could-have-beens because they will never happen. If I’m into someone but it wouldn’t work for whatever reason, then it just doesn’t. Something just is or just isn’t. There’s a lesson to take from everything but I also don’t want to use that as a catch-all excuse of getting into the weeds for something when the weeds have already been cut off and it doesn’t even matter anymore

[stuckinapril]

“But what if I did x differently—” but you didn’t “but what if that one thing was different” but it isn’t “but what if y suddenly changes” if it hasn’t for long enough that it has become a problem, then it won’t. The worst we can do for ourselves. Like the actual single worst thing. Is to live in hypotheticals of situations we can never change. And I understand being attached to a concept but it doesn't matter. If something’s gone it just is. If something can’t work out it just can’t. That’s okay

[stuckinapril]

Tags like this make this website worth it

[stay-close]

“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.”

— Tabitha Suzuma, Forbidden

[imsayak]

People aren't homes, they never will be. People are rivers, always changing, forever flowing. They will disappear with everything you put inside them.

~ Nikita Gill

[mournfulroses]

Anne Sexton, from a letter featured in Anne Sexton; A Self-Portrait In Letters

[mournfulroses]

Frida Kahlo, from a letter written in 1934, featured in "The Letters of Frida Kahlo,"

[astriloquum]

Joseph Brodsky, translated by Howard Moss, from a poem titled "I Sit By The Window,"

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— via jitterati

[yourddoris]

花

[stuckinapril]

all i wanna do is lie in the sun!!!! read my books!!!! daydream about fictional scenarios!!!!! love without fear of abandonment!!!!!! smell like vanilla!!!!!!! cry over great poetry!!!!! sit on the grass for hours on end!!!!! not care about how others perceive me!!!!!! find god in the smallest of things!!!!! be free of guilt and shame!!!!

[808theyrejustwords]

Tuesday January 16th 2024

I’m not sure if i manifested this but this guy I was hoping to talk to, reached out to me. Now he’s asking me when is dinner lol

Ahhhhh and I’ve known him for yearssss but his glow up is unbelievable

Idk how this was manifested tho becos I really didn’t do much but just say what wanted and went abt my days and forgot that I even wanted to talk to him and he just slid in the DMs

It’s kinda scaring me becos if it’s not manifesting its power of the tongue 🫣

[matchadolly]

stop playing it cool, just be passionate and intense and insane and whoever sticks around is meant for you

[808theyrejustwords]

Is he lying?!